I wake up before my alarm rings, turning it off after realizing that I can't go back to sleep. I take a quick shower and put on some comfy clothes, gray yoga pants, dark pink tank, and some tennis shoes. I slip a jacket on, put my cell phone in the pocket and grab a few dollars out of mom's purse. When I get inside the grocery store I head straight for the potatoes I grab a bag and lay the bag down on the check-out counter. "Hey Emma" It was Lacy, I always went to her line, she's my friend. She's way older than me but she's really kind and I enjoy talking to her whenever I need it. "Hey" She rings up the potatoes and puts them in a bag, she doesn't have to ask me whether I want a bag or not, because she knows. I hand her the ten dollar bill and she hands me back the correct change. "How are you and Seany boy?" She loves hearing about me and Sean; I'm not sure why she just does. "Were doing great, I think its love" "Oh sweetie you don't think you no. I haven't even met the boy and just by listening to you talk about him, I know its love." I smile, I no she's right, she always is. 'Well I better be getting these back to the house" "Okay I'll see you next week" I walk out the door and head back toward the house. I look at the clock on my phone '6:46' I'm going to be late for practice if I don't hurry. I start jogging and get to the house by '6:53' I lay the potatoes on the counter and run downstairs grabbing a pair of red shorts and a white camisole. On my way out the door I grab Manny and my cheerleading shoes seeing she had left hers, yet again. When I arrive at the gym doors I peak through the window and see Paige already giving them orders. I quietly open the door and she looks over at me, giving me a death glare. Manny runs over towards me and grabs her shoes "Thank you, Thank-you, Thank-you!" I smile showing her she's welcome and run into the locker room. I slip off my clothes and replace them with the practice clothes. As I'm walking out the door I look into the mirror, looking at my appearance. I touch the fat beneath my arm and it flops, I sigh and go back out into the gym.

I go into the dot and see Manny and Sean already sitting in the corner booth, since today was 'book club' at the Nelson/Simpson residence we decided to meet at the dot, and hang out. I sat down beside Sean and we shared a peck on the lips, about that time Darcy came over. "Are you ready to order?" Wow Darcy works here? I didn't know that. "Darcy? When did you start working here?" I ask and Manny adds "Yea and why?" Darcy rolls her eyes, "It's punishment I was out to late the other night and the rents told me I needed a job" "Harsh" I reply. Of course she and Spinner had been showing signs of attraction here lately, I wouldn't imagine it being to hard on her. "So are you all ready to order or what?" She laughs. "Yea" Manny and Sean say in unison. Manny orders first, "I'll take a salad and water" Sean came next, "Veggie burger and a Coke" Then it was my turn, what to do now… "Umm, I'll take the same as Manny" Darcy wrote it all down and took the order behind the counter. "What book are they reading now?" Sean asks, trying to make conversation. "Umm, I think The Tell-Tale Heart by Edgar Allen Poe or at least that's what it was last week" I reply. "Of course they change there book every time you turn around" Manny says while Sean and I shake our heads in agreement. They never can settle on just one book, it's like they get bored with the one that they are currently reading so they pick another. It's crazy; I imagine what it would be like if they were in high school again and had to read one book and write an essay, how did they even get through high school if they can't make it through a book? It makes no sense. Darcy comes back with our food and sits the correct food in front of the person that ordered it and I look down on the salad as it is placed in front of me. I take a sip of water, and take the fork moving the salad around, hoping no one notices. After a while I glance up at Manny who's giving me some kind of look, she knows that I haven't eaten a bite and that I'm not going to. "May I be excused" I don't wait for an answer I just get up and make my way toward the bathroom. Once inside I look at my reflection in the mirror, mirrors can be addictive. I pinch the fat on my cheeks, and then I pinch my arm and the bottom on my leg. I don't think I'm losing any of my fat at all, but it's only been a couple days since I went on this diet, so hopefully it will start working soon. I walk back out into the dining area and see Manny grabbing her purse and Sean scooting out of the booth. I make my way back over to them and smile, Manny gives me another one of those knowing looks but I just shake it off and lace Sean's fingers with mine as we walk out the door of the dot and toward my house.

Manny's upstairs talking to mom about mom's night, as I just lay on the bed thinking about everything. I hear the door open upstairs and guess who? My step-dad and he's drunk. I hear them talking, trying to get him upstairs but he doesn't seem to be taking orders, like always. He doesn't ever come to the clubs instead he goes out to some club and drinks it up with his buddies. I don't see why he likes that stuff, I've tried it before, it's gross! "EMMA!" Mom's yelling, I'm going to have to help yet again. I make my way up the stairs and rush up to Snake taking his hand and pulling him up the stairs, I've gotten used to it, I'm the only one in the house that can actually get him upstairs, I'm not even sure it's safe to have him up there but it gets him away from us when he's like that, and that's all that matters. I get him upstairs and sit him down on the bed as usual he slaps me across the face for 'being mean' to him. And the sad part is he doesn't remember anything when he comes back to his senses, he doesn't remember hurting me or anything. And he doesn't care, because in his life all that matters is him. When I get back downstairs in the living room I see Manny and Mom talking again, like everything was normal, I guess they're used to it too. I go downstairs in the basement and crawl in bed, touching my face, it stings a bit but like I said, I'm used to it. I slowly drift off to sleep and in about 20 minutes I'm completely passed out.

Okay, there's that post. I know I'm not that great of a writer but I get bored and I have to have something to do, and this is just what I do. R&R!