"I wanna be skinny" An Emma Nelson Story: Part 5
I sit up in my bed and yawn, it's Sunday what to do what to do? Well besides cheerleading practice at 5. I climb out of bed and take my shower a nice long warm shower, I think it might have been the best shower I have had for weeks. When I get out I put on black shorts and a yellow and purple dotted tank top on. Then I straighten my hair and slip on purple knee socks.
I go upstairs and see my step-dad sitting in his recliner holding his head, hangover, it happens every time and he goes through about 3 pain killers every time it happens. I roll my eyes and walk over to where mom is, stirring up a salad. "Hey mom" I kiss her on the cheek. "Good morning sweetie" She doesn't look up from her work, "I'm going to have to go into work here in a few minutes so I figured a salad would do you and Manny over." I don't tell her that I'm not going to eat any of it; I just smile and walk into the living room.
Manny is watching TV, America's Next Top Model, figures. She is so concentrated on the show that she doesn't even feel me sit down beside her on the couch. I wave my hand in front of her face, knowing this HAS to get her attention. "HEY!" she yells, while slapping my hand. I let out a little laugh and let her be, enjoying her TV show.
Not knowing what to do considering everyone else is occupied with there own things I head back downstairs to my room and call up Darcy.
D: Hello?
I'm not really sure why a person with caller ID answers like they have no clue who it is, but oh well.
E: Hey, Darcy, anything going on at your house?
D: No, Mom and Dad are having there annual credit card bill fight. And my sister is on the computer, how about yours?
E: Ahh nothing special.
D: So, Paige tells me we are going to start working on a routine.
E: Joy.
D: Yea, I no.
E: Well, I think I'm going to head off, maybe to the dot. But I'll see you at 5.
D: Okay, have fun.
E: Bye
I hang up waiting a few minutes listening to every little thing happening upstairs. I hear Tyra Banks announcing the eliminations, mom telling Snake that she is leaving for work, and Dad walking into the kitchen getting another pill out of the medicine cabinet. I look at the clock, 3:32. I decide to get out of the house; I don't bother sneaking out of the basement window because mom is gone.
I walk into the mall and head straight for my favorite store, Hollister. I take in the scent of men's cologne and feel a slight burn in my nostrils. I head straight toward a rack of clothes and search through them all. I decide on getting 3 t-shirts, 1 pair of shorts, 2 pairs of jeans, and 1 scarf. I'm surprised I didn't buy a pair of jogging pants, if you haven't noticed there like my weakness; I wear them pretty much every day. The cashier rings me up and I leave the store with my bag and head back toward the house…
I walk in to the sound of silence, it sounds nice. It's not a lot that I get to be in my house and not hear a sound, every time this happens I always take advantage of it, but today I don't have that much time. Its 4:45 and I don't think Paige would like it to much if I was late any more than I already have been. I decide to leave on the clothing I already have on and head out into the chilly winter air and head off to cheerleading practice.
I walk in and see pretty much everyone down on the floor stretching, and talking. I join the group consisting of Manny, Darcy, Paige, Hazel, and Jesse.
Jesse joined Degrassi Community School a couple years back, at first her and I despised each other, but then we decided to surrender and at least be friendly when were around each other. But just for the sake of the cheerleading squad.
As I sat down Paige was whispering something to Darcy and Darcy whispered it to Jesse, Jesse just laughed and looked up at me. "Hey Emma, You look like you've gained a couple of pounds" Do I really? Do I really look like I've gained? I rush into the locker room and step onto the scales, 116, how can I look like I've gained if I've lost? Maybe it's just Jesse being Jesse. I shrug my shoulders, trying to tell myself I don't care when deep down I'm picturing myself in my mind just getting bigger, and bigger, and bigger.
Manny comes into the locker room, "Emma, she didn't mean it. That's just her she's just jealous" I can feel some wetness in the corner of my eye but I just wipe it away quickly and turn on my heel to face her, "No its OK I no. No big deal" "Are you sure Em?" "Yea" I put on a fake smile and walk out the locker room doors and back into the gym, going back over to the group I was joining. After a few seconds Manny came back out of the locker room and walked over to us with a smile on her face as well.
The rest of the day was just kind of a blur. I kind of just sat back and looked at myself in the mirror, sucking my stomach as much as I can, and flipping through magazines looking at all the pretty, skinny people and hoping that one day, I'll be as skinny as one of them.
Okay so that's part 5 and I took the advice and used regular font instead of bold. And here it is, I was just bored today so I decided to type it up, while working on a Niley story. LOL! I know I'm not a great writer! But like I said before it's just something I can do when I'm bored! 33