*PRESENT*
In the days following the accident I was a zombie functioning just enough to keep myself alive. I couldn't eat or sleep everything I ate came back up and every time I slept I had nightmares of the accident. I could remember what happened easier when I was sleeping but I didn't want to remember I wanted a decent night's sleep. Maybe I deserved getting no sleep it was my fault all of it was.
*1 wk Later*
I was still a zombie and when I see myself in the mirrors around here you would think I was anorexic. I'm staying with Carlisle and Esme for the time being but I bet their just itching to get rid of me I was always a burden. They don't act like it though but that's just an act. I see the pity in everybody's eyes when they see me it's horrible.
Edward has really been there for me I don't know how many of his shirts I've ruined with my tears. He just cracks a small smile every time and tells me its okay but I still can't help but apologize.
I'm such a mess up if only I could have saved Charlie. It's my entire fault that Charlie's dead if I would have just told him I was driving no fighting and stood firm he might be here right now. I'm a failure as a daughter.
The funeral was held 3 days after the accident and since my arm and leg was broken I had to be brought by wheel chair and again Edward was there with me through it all. I cried that night harder than any other night since this happened falling asleep in Edwards arms while he hummed that weird tune again. I had to be taken from Charlie's funeral I was crying so hard leaning over his body he had no life to him if only I could've seen his smile once more or gave him a hug.
As I lay on my bed crying I curled my feet so that I was in the fetal position with tears running down my cheeks this seemed inevitable these days I had a constant stream of tears all the time.
Esme and Carlisle entered my room
"Bella?" Carlisle said using a fatherly voice
I sniffled and lifted my head off of my bed wiping my tears on the sleeve of my hoodie in the process
"Yes"
"We would like to offer you a permanent place in our home" Carlisle said
I started panicking they couldn't be real who would want me anymore
"No, no I couldn't ask that of you it's too much" I said as I started trembling and shaking they couldn't want me I was ruined and killed everybody I ever loved everyone I ever loved I lost I couldn't love anyone ever again
"Bella I know this is hard for you but I already consider you as a daughter and everybody else considers you a part of this family" Carlisle said pleading with me
"Really you still want me in this family even though it's my fault Charlie's dead"
Fresh tears started rolling down my face
"Oh dear" Esme said rushing to my side and taking me in her cold embrace
"Honey none of this is your fault do you understand me" Esme said pleading for me to understand that it wasn't my fault
"But it is I knew Charlie was tired and shouldn't be driving I begged for him to let me drive so he could sleep it's all my fault if I would have just taken the keys from him he would still be here"
Esme just rocked me back and forth while Carlisle brushed my hair out of my face. It was nice to have a family but I just couldn't they would leave me eventually. I liked the feel of Esme's motherly embrace since my mother died while giving birth to me
"Honey I will say this for the rest of eternity if I have to this is not your fault, none of this is because of you, this isn't your fault and I repeat myself again NOT YOUR FAULT"
Esme kept on saying that it wasn't my fault while I sobbed into her
"Thank you" I whispered to her
"If the offer still stands I would like to join your family"
"Oh Bella, you just gave me the greatest gift ever, another daughter"
They both got up to leave but only after giving me a kiss on my head it felt nice and made me feel loved and wanted again.
Maybe this could work out and I could have the brothers and sisters I always wanted. I would try for them to be better. And for Edward I would try even harder
I know this is a short chapter but it's almost like a filler
Bella will heal exceptionally fast her emotional state that is because she has a new family
Now don't get me wrong she still grieves occasionally she lost her father for christs sake hehe
R&R please tell me what you want to happen.