Chapter 1 When I just can't find my way

Disclaimer: characters belong to CLAMP

a/n : dedicated for d those who had read the High Priest, this is the sequel anyways. I couldn't help it not to write this things down.

Summary : Touya is helplessly love the High Priest. But he only made the Saint shivers in fear for reasons. So, he has long way to go to make up their relation.

Warning: AUC! Touya was out of his usual character, for being a maniac and rapist. So, this fic may contain rape. If you didn't like it, please pick other title. I just want to make an experiment to Touya. But once again, just because Touya raped Yuki doesn't mean that he didn't love Yukiusagi... That's why I keep using 'make-love' as Touya mentioned about what Yuki preferred as 'rape'.

setting: take place before Sakura begin her journey

Touya's POV

Sort after our little games, we fell asleep. I hold him dear in my embrace as we driven to sleep. It felt so good, having him near me right here, even tough we covered in our after-love-making-thick-liquid. You may say that it is gross, sleeping without cleaning our body first, but I knew too well that we were too tired to do that, maids could always clean it for us later. Besides, I love this scent coming from his damp grey hair and body, as much as I loved him.

When I finally woke up, I couldn't hide my happiness when I saw him, my cute snowy rabbit, in my arm. I kissed him in forehead several times before slowly released him and got sleep robe to wear. That is when I heard sounds of maids in outer chamber.

They greeted me as I enter the room.

"Did Your Highness need something?" she asked politely.

"I want to eat here. Bring me more because I'm going to have breakfast with someone else."

"Sure, Your Highness."

"And…"

"Yes, Your Highness?"

"Send a man to shrine and tell them that High Priest has been sick since last night. I'm afraid that he must off of his duty today."

"Do I need to call a doctor too?" she seemed worried.

"No, he just exhausted. After take enough rest, I believe that he will get well soon."

"Then I'll tell chief to prepare nutritious mush," she smiled back with knowing smile.

"Thank you," I smiled for her sincere.

"Excuse me, My Liege," then off she gone.

I go back to my room. Find that he still asleep as I leave him moment ago. Now that sun's shine filled the room, I can clearly see every evidence I left on his body last night. Bruises, red and purple on his not-so-long-ago-was-flawless skin, and dried cum and blood…

Wait, BLOOOD?!

I flip the blanket and find the source of the blood. It came from his tight entrance, looked swollen. He moaned as I tried to inspecting the scar. Then Yuki suddenly move away from me, as far as his body allowed him, which mean he was fully awake now. His face reflected fear, confuses and pain. Great, maybe he hated me now.

He… hate… me… sure.. What did I do? I didn't mean to scared him, I… It's true that I want to keep him for my self but not made him scare like this.

"Yuki, I think that we must clean our body."

He still didn't make any move or any voice. Just look at me with his large grey eyes, afraid that I will repeat the same thing. That time, I knew that I did scared him. From this point forward, it seemed there isn't much thing I could do.

However, first thing comes first. His scar needed treatment, I no longer care if he hated me. He was my first priority after all. It seemed easy to act as badguy tough. I couldn't wait any longer so I grab his hand.

"Do you want me to help you cleaning or you prefer to stay here and fucked again?" I smiled at him, I knew that it only made him more scared than he already was.

His confuse face somehow looked interesting. My poor feline friend, but at least he allowed me guiding him. He was about to walk to the bathroom by himself when his legs failed him. It must hurt him a lot that he failed to hide it from me. I didn't mind at all to lift him in my arm, since I had it in mind to carried him in bridal style.

I placed him carefully onto warm water which spills as the weight subsided. I pour water over his hair, wet enough before rinse it. While bathing him, he has been avoiding me all the time. It seemed that my touches causing him startled, or winced; low growl or gasp of strained voice of pain.

It's not fair, he looks so cute even tough made such rueful expression in his face. It's not fair that he hurt me by his startles, his winces, any yet I'm hurt more knowing that I was the one who causing those startle and wince. But it made everything become clear that it just natural for me to fall for him.

I rub his skin gently, touching the pink, red and purple as evidence of our lovemaking. After get rid dried cum and blood off of his body, I wonder about that certain place. He must be disgusted that I've left my seed there…

"Yuki, it will hurt a little but please bear the pain," he gave me that questioned look again despite his fear toward me.

Once again he winced when I slid my finger in that area.

"I'm afraid if we don't take care of it properly, then we need to call somebody else to treat the wound…"

"I'll. Please," he cut my sentence.

He can't hide his red face from mentioned about someone else. Well, I take this as he would likely hide this just for us. Who would share story about himself being raped, tough. Besides, he didn't like talk to much about his personal life to others this far. I'm sure that the news will spread widely someday but I also sure that day aren't too far in the future.

So, I slid my finger on his entrance. He winced at shot of pain as I rub my finger there. He gasped when I reach the inner place, his fingers turn white from clenching too hard at the tub edge. A little more and I slid my fingers off. He labored heavy sigh he has been hold since I run my fingers there. Soon, I'm done with him.

I lift him and wrapped his delicate body before returning back to bedroom where the sheet has been replaced with the new one. I was drying each part of his body, every inch of it. When I glance at him, Yuki quickly turned his face away. However, I'm still worrying him.

"Now, spread your legs," I said while choosing one of the medicines from the storey.

He gasping again in surprise, face turns red again for hundred times maybe. His gasps were loud enough for me to hear in silent room. Then I found the ointment before turned to him again.

"Let me look at the scar. You don't want anyone else, do you?"

He didn't seemed to say so much. But his clenching fist told me more than needed. He hold dear of the sheet beneath him, not wanting to continue the treatment. It could be embarrassment or fear, or both.

"Don't be silly. Now, spread your legs wideee…."

Of course, I don't accept no as his answer. I rolled his body so he was upon his stomach before separated his legs, even tough he tried hard to close it, my strength still exceed his. I smear the medication which granted me with gasps and moans.

Once I'm done with him, I covered his still naked body with blanket. I sit on the bed edge, upper half of my body hovers upon him. I caress his hair, nuzzling my nose in his warm cheek.

"Almost forgot that you haven't eat yet."

I walked to the front room. There, I found the food in trolley. Mush in a big bowl, very large one to fit Yuki's high appetite. I manage to take the breakfast the chief had for us and return to him.

"This, head chief made this mush special for my beloved Yuki. Eat this, no need to rush. I've sent a man to the shire that you'll rest for entire day."

Yuki didn't say anything. He just silently stared at the bowl before him laced by his pale slender fingers.

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Yuki POV

I ate the mush bit by bit. It tasted sour despite the fact that the chief was the one who made it for him. Maybe the mush will taste wonderful in different situation. But right now…

I continued to eat while my king took a bath in another room. Silent was all that filled the room besides the clanging voice of silverware.

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When Touya went back to his room before noon, Yukiusagi got a fever. Touya did his best to heal the High Priest.

Yukito: "I'm getting so much better, thanks for Your Majesty's attention this whole time. I must went back to shrine now. I wish God blessed Your Majesty with health and fortune."

Next time on "The Thorn Never Hurt Me": When I'm out of my way.

That's it for chapter1. Reviewwww…….

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