"God I want out of this cast NOW" I complained for the umpteenth time again. It was big, bulky and PINK thanks to Alice. I ripped her a new one when I realized what color was on my leg
"Well Bella you know that you have another 4 weeks with that cast on so become one with the cast" he said chuckling at his tiny little freaking joke
"Ha Ha Ha" I laughed sarcastically this wasn't funny I couldn't even go pee by myself Alice has been helping me
Today was a rare day Carlisle had today off which was great when he wasn't making sarcastic remarks towards me wanting my cast off. We were sitting on the couch watching reruns of stupid shows because even though I live with outrageously rich vampires they couldn't control what was on TV.
Edward has gone back to school a week ago after arguing with Carlisle for hours on end. In the end though he had to go back to school and I was left here during the day with either Carlisle or Esme today was Carlisle.
I was starting to go stir crazy I couldn't go back to school till my cast came off so Edward and Alice had been keeping me caught up and bringing all my homework to me which was very nice of them but I wanted to go to school myself damnit
"Carlisle I wanna go somewhere I'm going insane just sitting on the couch and bed all day" I complained this argument had been one of the many we had had it I wanted to go somewhere I would even subject myself to Alice's shopping all day if that meant I got out of this house
"Bella I don't think that is a good idea you should really stay here and get more rest it's what you need"
"Please Please Please" I pleaded with him maybe just this once my pout would work I put on the pout face and heard him sigh YES YES YES
"Fine I have to talk with Edward but you do have rules to abide my young lady 1st no overdoing it 2nd if you start to feel weak or tired you better tell Edward right away no arguing, that's it for now if I think of anymore rules I'll let you know got it" Carlisle said sounding all daddy/doctor like
"Why do you have to talk to Edward?" I said it's not like he's my keeper
"Because Bella I'm sure he wants to be the first one to know and the first one to take you out" Carlisle said as if it was obvious well apparently not or else I would've known it. . . right?
"Ohh thank you, thank you, thank you" I said while hopping up and down on my butt I'm sure I looked funny Carlisle just chuckled and gave me a hug
Sitting on the couch I started to think about the past month my life had been doing so much better I still had my days when I was really sad and missed Charlie so much I couldn't stand it but those days had become less and less. I had a family a family I always wish I had they had been great
I had also started having therapy sessions much to my dismay Edward had dazzled me into agreeing
Which was very low down and dirty I would've agreed eventually to go to therapy but since Edward played dirty I was quite mad at him.
Dr. Cope is the name of my therapist and she's really nice but since I was so ticked for the first week of therapy I just sat there and stared off into space or some speck on the wall after that first week I started talking I wanted to get better and not be stuck in a depression which is apparently what you call happened to me. My therapy sessions are every other day with the exception of the weekends.
Deep down I knew that I needed therapy someone to talk to other than Edward I couldn't tell him all my insecurities he would find a way to blame himself and I couldn't have him doing that.
I was still mad at Edward so I didn't talk to him for a full 24 hours even though he begged and pleaded and that may not seem like long but it was a lifetime to Edward since we had started dating he hasn't made me mad really but that was the last straw it was bound to happen and Edward was the one who was in the line of fire. You don't dazzle someone into therapy
"Bella" Carlisle said breaking me out of my trance
"What were you thinking about Bella?" Carlisle asked concern coloring his voice
"Oh nothing much why?" I asked blushing as always
"You looked a million miles away you okay?"
"Uh yea I'm okay" I said blushing yet again at my stupidity
"Well I just wanted to get your attention the hospital called there's an emergency they need me to come in and I was wondering if you would be okay by yourself for an hour Edward will be home soon"
"Uh yea I'll be okay" I said smiling I hadn't been left alone since the accident. Therapy was the only reason I was remotely alone and that was because I insisted on it
"Are you sure you're going to be okay"
"Yes I'm sure"
"Okay if you need anything don't hesitate to call anyone and I mean it Isabella call if you need help"
"Yea yea" I said brushing it off I knew how to take care of myself I did it for 17 years before I met them
"Okay bye Bella"
"Bye Carlisle" I said
What do I do now that I'm finally alone? Well I could dance. . . NOT I could look around the house. . . NOT.
DAMNIT I can't do any damn thing but change channels on the freaking TV.
AHHHHHH I screamed in my head why did I have to be a damn cripple this sucks I want the cast off\
Then a thought ran through my head at that very moment
"I have to pee" I said out loud to my self
This wasn't just the urge to trickle it was like I could feel my bladder filling up by each passing second and it doesn't help that I have been sitting for hours drinking everything in sight
I'm going to the damn bathroom by myself it can't be that hard to hobble my ass over there
I scooted myself to the edge of the couch I stood up and grabbed the arm of the couch steadying myself god I haven't stood up by myself in awhile
I started walking well not really walking to the bathroom I would hop pretty much pretty funny if I must say so myself I was rounding the corner to the bathroom when my already screwed up center of balance got more off center and the cast on my leg or arm didn't help the fact either and I tripped
Since I had a cast on my arm I couldn't really brace my fall as I had always done oh god this is going to hurt I reached for a counter but the glass vase fell causing the glass to shatter and slice into my good arm ow that hurt
Finally after what seemed like slow motion I landed on the floor on the glass vase
I started seeing my blood running from my arm, my wrist was the worst oh god I hate blood
I started smelling my blood oh no queue the passing out and there it was.
. . . . . . . BLACKNESS. . . . . . .