Over the next few weeks I continued to stay in Edward's room just resting and waiting until my cast could be taken off. Edward and I had been getting closer and I love our make-out sessions. I just wanted to take it to the next level but Edward was always worried about his control I knew deep down he won't hurt me and I trust him with all of me but he still says that's not enough
I have 1 week until I get my cast off. 1 week to plan on how to be with Edward for Edward to make love to me! This was a job for. . .
"Alice"
Within seconds the pixie vampire was in front of me
"I already know what you're going to ask me and I think it's a great idea" Alice said all excited bouncing like she was one crack
"Guess what this means. . . SHOPPING"
I groaned god why didn't I think this through before I asked I hate going shopping
"Alright Alice we can go shopping when I get my cast off but nothing too extravagant okay?"
"Okay Bella" she said way to nicely this was going to be hell
"Don't tell Edward he would probably freak out"
"Yeah yeah I know Bella I can block him out"
"How?"
"Oh not really hard I'll just keep singing Barbie Girl in my head" Alice said laughing
I started laughing at that too just imagining how he was going to react
"Kay thank you Alice"
"Welcome"
As Alice was leaving Edward made his way through to the room
"Love why is Alice singing Barbie girl in her head it's quite annoying"
"I don't know" I said hoping he would just let it drop and thankfully he did
"What do you want to do, love?" Edward asked
"Um you could take me downstairs so we could watch some TV and I could visit with everyone else"
"Sure"
Within seconds I was on the couch I had gotten used to them running around even though I couldn't see it.
"Finally you're sharing Edward what were you doing getting it on hmmmm shaggin' her?"
I blushed at his comment yea right like Edward would be doing that with me but soon enough he wouldn't have a choice
Edward growled at Emmett and Emmett just put his hands up in surrender
"Dude chill out you don't have to be such a prude" Emmett said still egging on Edward
"Emmett stop" I said hoping he would
"Whatever you say gimp"
"Hey that was mean Em"
"Kay pipsqueak"
"Whatever Hulk"
"Awesome I get to be the big green dude"
Rosalie came down at that moment and smacked Em in the back of the head
"Ow Rosie what was that for?" he said rubbing the back of his head
"I heard you picking on Bella" she said looking at me and winking I knew this routine play it up she gets to hit Emmett in the back of the head more and I just couldn't resist going along with Rosalie we had come quite close together since my father's accident
"But she knows I didn't mean it right Bella?" Em said looking at me with is pleading puppy dog eyes but I wasn't falling for that
I looked to Rosalie and winked and then looked back at Em
"No Em you really hurt my feelings making fun of me like that and now I feel like a cripple" totally playing it up I started sniffling. Edward was behind me trying to stifle his laughter knowing full well what was going on
SMACK
"OW" rubbing the back of his head again
"See I told you about making fun of Bella but you didn't listen to me" Rosalie said smirking
"I'm sorry Bella" he said looking like someone had kicked his puppy I almost felt bad for a second but then realized that when my cast was off he would prank me more than ever so I might as well get what I could in on him
"S'okay Em" I said enjoying his discomfort
I couldn't hold it in anymore and started laughing really hard. I almost peed myself I was laughing so much
"Aw man" Em said walking away knowing that I had played around, but only before turning around once more
"I'll get you back Bella" and stomped the rest of his way out
"Just ignore him Bella I'll see you tomorrow" Rosalie said following after Em on his fit throwing trail
"Okay now that that is over what do you want to do love?" Edward asked
"Um Buffy the Vampire Slayer sounds good" I said Edward groaned
"Hon really we've watched that so much I know all the words to it"
"PLEASE" I begged
"You know I can't say no to that" and I did know that now if that only worked on other matters
I put a big smile on my face while he got it ready to watch which didn't take that long because Alice bought all the seasons on DVD
"Thank you"
"Welcome" he grumbled I knew he hated Buffy but damnit I like it and I can't do much else
We watched Buffy for a couple of hours before my eyelids started getting heavy
Edward picked me up and made our way to his. Our bed I like the sound of that our bed and laid me down
"Sleep my love" he said and I was half tempted to do just that
"I'm not tired" I lied hoping we could do something else
"What do you want to do then?" he asked me
"Kiss me" I said hoping that we could have one of our many make out sessions
Within seconds his luscious lips were on mine our lips entangled together as one fighting for dominance.
Smokey the Bear always said to prevent wildfires well this wildfire is out of control my body was burning with passion and unfulfilled desire. I wanted everything broken leg be damned. I laced my fingers in his bronze locks tugging his hair lightly while holding him to my lips hoping that he would pull away. Edward groaned into my mouth god that was the hottest sound and I wanted nothing more than to make him do it again
"Bella" he moaned I knew he was getting close to his breaking point
I shivered in pleasure this kiss was deeper than any of the ones before I tried to get Edward's shirt off of him and he helped me by completely ripping it off of his body I shivered again at the sudden change from hot to cold this was heaven
Edward found my lips a mere millisecond after he had his shirt off I ran my hands down his back Edward shuddered in response
I ground my hips into his ever growing erection and he again moaned out my name and shuddered in pleasure
"Bella"
"Edward" I moaned reaching for his erection with my good hand.
My hand was mere inches from grabbing onto his dick oh god I've waited so long for this. This is what I wanted
Edward froze the moment my hand made a connection with his dick. His hand locked around my wrist like ice handcuffs stopping me from any further movement
"Stop" he said breathless laying stock still trembling as he took in each heaving breath he lowered his head to the crevasse of my neck and inhaled deeply from my collar bone to up underneath my chin I shivered in delight
"Bella we can't do this" my heart just crumpled he doesn't want me
"Edward why not don't you want me" I said defeated tears pooling in my eyes I just wanted to show him how much I love him couldn't he see that
"Bella don't you ever say that again" he snapped at me and I flinched because he had so much anger laced in his words he hopped up off of the bed and started pacing his shirt still beside me in tatters
"Sorry"
"Bella I will always want you ALWAYS but it's so damn hard your blood is just so appetizing I can't lose control with you your heart beat is racing and AH I just can't" He said sounding saddened
"You won't lose control" I said for the bazillionth time hoping just once that he would believe me
"You don't know that Bella and I can't take chances with you"
"Just go hunt Edward your eyes are black" I said overwhelmed yet again
"That's not because I'm hungry for food that's because I'm hungry for you" he was turned on by me and his eyes turn black I would have to keep that in my arsenal
"Oh" I said blushing hotter than I have before
"See Bella I told you there's nothing more that I want to do right now than make love to you but I'm so afraid Bella I'm scared that I'm going to hurt you" he sounded so small and fragile when he said that I just wanted to get up and hug him tell him everything was going to be okay
"I'm scared to but I know that we belong together Edward we do" I wanted him to understand that I was just as afraid as he was scared out of my mind
"I don't know if we'll ever be able to be together like that Bella" saddened by his own admission
"Can we just try if it doesn't work out then fine but we can't say no to something we've never tried" I was begging, pleading that we could at least try to make love
"Please" Edward looked up at me and just sighed in defeat
"Yes Bella we'll try but not right now okay and when I say that we have to stop we have to stop okay"
"Yea yea" I said brushing it off I know that he won't lose control I just have to get him to believe in himself
"Now go to sleep love please" he said coming over to his side of the bed and plopping down on it
I rolled over as best I could and cuddled up to him I was burning up from our recent activity and his body was the perfect antidote
"You'll be the death of me Bella Swan" he said kissing the top of my head I just huffed in response he chuckled and I held him tighter enjoying the vibrations from his laughter
"I love you Edward Cullen" I kissed his chest
"I love you too Bella Swan" he kissed my head
I drifted off into the dark abyss of sleep the unconscious realm of all things fiction
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