I woke up refreshed and still kind of upset at what took place last night. If I remember right Edward had agreed to try and make love to me he can't withdraw his words. Maybe he thinks I forgot but that is far from it. Today would be the day we had a big fight and then later in the night I would seduce him I only hoped it would work
I laid awake for a little while closing my eyes and enjoying the sun beams on my face warming me up to the core
I opened my eyes to find topaz ones staring at me and in our room not Alice's anymore I looked around and spotted that the bookcase had been thrown through the 52' plasma TV grrrreeeaaatttteee
"Hi" I said timidly sitting myself up looking him in the eyes searching for any trace of the anger that I had seen last night but what I seen was breathtaking caramel orbs of goodness
"Sorry" he said looking skittish like he didn't want to be here or he was afraid of what I would say to him well good be afraid be very very afraid
"For what Edward you don't want me to be a vampire and you don't want to make love to me what could you possibly be sorry for" I said giving him his morning dose of sarcasm he deserved it for all I cared and yet I acted like I didn't care and really in all reality I was devastated that he didn't want what I wanted
"Bella can we not fight and just talk please" he said peering into my eyes staring at their boring brown color
"Sure" I huffed out still feeling like being a bitch
"Bella I'm sorry for everything I said and I know I said that we would try but if I lost you I don't know what I would do and I love you but becoming a vampire really I don't want to take away your soul I don't want to end your life" he said when I went to say something about having a soul he put his hands up to my lips
"Let me finish please" he said and I just nodded in agreement
"All my life I have gone through the day to day activities living but never really feeling yes I would laugh when everyone else laughed and frown in the right moments answer the right questions with everything I did, I was never really complete" he said still looking me in my eyes reading my expressions as he said everything
"Then I met you Bella and my whole world changed everything was brighter it's like my eyes had been veiled Bella and after you everything was clear I felt human again I could be doing the most mundane things with you and it would seem brand new and exciting"
Great he thinks the things we do are mundane how freaking great well I will have to change that tonight I looked back into his eyes processing what he was saying while reading his expressions doing the same as he was doing to me
"Don't you see love you're my life I can't live without you and if that means you will have to become a vampire like me then I guess I will have to live with that but I'm going to let you know I don't like this and not because I don't love you I do really but because I'm taking your soul away from you" he said the last part quietly
"Can I talk now" he just nodded at me looking down from my eyes
"Edward look at me" I said putting my hand under his chin trying to pull him up to eye level he finally peered up at me locking my brown eyes to his warm butterscotch ones
"I love you" I said very slowly
"I would give up everything to be with you Edward you have to know that" begging him to understand I took his face into my hands putting our foreheads together trying to get as close as possible
"You have a soul Edward" I stated
"Bella I" he began to tell me otherwise I put my hand on his lips shushing him in the process
"Don't Bella me Edward I've seen your soul don't you understand your beautiful handsome kind and everything in between if you didn't have a soul you would have killed me long ago but you didn't because you love me and because. You. Have. A. Soul." I said trying to convince him this was an ongoing fight that one day I hoped to win with each word I poked him in his rock hard chest
"I'm a monster" he said mumbling it through my fingers
"Edward you are not a monster everyday you tell me I'm beautiful and that you love me you hum a lullaby to get me to sleep you stay with me when I have nightmares and you stay with me when I want you to even though it causes you physical pain to be that close to my blood you catch me whenever I fall and hold me up when I need you" I said explaining my heart to him and why he wasn't a monster he could never be a monster in my eyes
"If you want me to agree to thinking of myself as beautiful you're going to have to agree that you're not a monster" I said with finality no room for arguments
"I will try Bella but only for you it's you that does this to me love and only you" he said nuzzling his head in my neck smelling my yummy smelling blood
"And I will try to Edward but only for you because I love you with all my heart" I said repeating his words in some sense knowing that he need to hear that knowing that I felt the same way about his as he did about me
We embraced each other just enjoying the feel of each other's arms and loving the fact that we were alone but who knew that wouldn't last long in a house full of vampires you're bound to get interrupted
Knock…………………….Knock………………Knock
Three loud knocks sounded on the door I groaned and tried to pull away from Edward but he wasn't having any of that he pulled me tighter to him
"Let go Edward" I half whined half laughed the knocking on the door just kept up
"Who goes there" I said laughing
"Open the door Bella we need to talk and some other stuff" Alice said huffing and puffing like she was the big bad wolf I just giggled at her still trying to get free of Edwards grip
"Alice give me a couple more hours PUHLEEEAAASE" I begged apparently Alice wasn't in the fighting mood or she didn't want to break down the door she walked away grumbling incoherent words
Maybe she seen my future and thought it best to leave me up here with her brother talk about a terrible power seeing your brother naked and all your other family members
"Edward remember how you said we would try" I whispered knowing he would hear me the moment the words came out he visibly tensed was it really so bad
"Yes" he said strained
"Does the offer still stand you know trying"
"Yes Bella but I also said we had to stop when I feel like I'm going to lose control" he said
"If that's the case though we won't even get to the touchy feely phase let alone a 2nd 3rd or home run bases" I said complaining at his terms to this whole agreement I was whining like a petulant child but I didn't care I wanted my way
"Okay Bella you don't like that proposition I have another one for you" he said smirking at me why the hell does he have to be so damn hot any other guy that smirked at me and I would be smacking it off his face
"Anything" I said without thinking
"Okay hold on a sec" he said running into his closet and running back to me within the second I'm sure it was even shorter than that like a millisecond
"Edward freaking warn me when you do that it scares me" I said playfully scolding him
"Sorry" he said grinning sheepishly
"Okay Bella now remember you said anything" he said and then he went to get down on one knee oh my god this isn't happening no no no I shouldn't have said anything well wait maybe this was good Isabella Marie Cullen that had a nice ring to it right no pun intended on the ring I told myself this was perfect
"Isabella Marie Swan will you marry me?" he asked perfectly and then instead of stopping there he had to make it that much sweeter
"I've loved you from the first time I saw you you're my life and I hope to spend the rest of eternity with you"
I couldn't speak it was like the cat literally took my tongue and voice box and ran laughing in its wake
I nodded because it was the only thing I could do of course I would marry him
"Bella you have made me the happiest man in the world no wait slash that this universe" he said picking me up off of our bed and twirling me I was laughing in sheer happiness my life couldn't get any better
"Edward I have a couple of conditions though" I said hoping he would accept my rules if you wanted to call it that
"What are they Bella" Edward seemed to be on a high and I was also but I wanted to get this out of the way before I could be really truly happy
"I want to be changed which you already agreed to but I want you to do it and I want to make love on our honeymoon night" I said in a rushed breath hoping he caught it all because I didn't like to repeat myself.
"Bella" Edward said to me frowning thinking of ways he could protest what I was asking
"I'm the most dangerous one to you Bella don't you understand I could lose control more than Carlisle could because your blood sings to me and yes I already agreed that we would make love and I'm not arguing that I'm just arguing the fact that you want to be changed by me what if I lost control love?"
"You wouldn't and I'm going to keep telling you that you won't lose control and when I am turned I will be saying I told you so" I said sticking my tongue out at him and lightening the situation a little
"Bella I can't lose control with you me tasting your blood would be bad what if I couldn't stop" he kept saying lose control but I kept reassuring him that he wouldn't
He sighed really loudly
"Fine but I have conditions for you condition" he said saying that tongue twister with ease I laughed at that it was funny
"What are they Edward" I said he was going to try and change my mind
"Carlisle will have to be there" he said like I would actually say no to that
"Okay" I said excited that we could get over this little road bump easily and now that everything was clear I could be elated I let my smile take over my whole face and Edward returned one ten times the intensity of mine I kissed him all over his face excited I was going to be a Cullen
"Bella Cullen" he whispered in my ear with a husky voice
"AHHHHHHHHHH" we both heard a blood curdling scream o my damn I'm scared is that Alice
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I know its short next chapter will be wedding planning and Alice going psycho because that's just how she is gotta love her.
There will be lemons after the wedding Bella decided that since they were now getting married there would be no reason to try and seduce him when she knows she's getting it on there honeymoon
Please R&R I will get chapters up faster if you do it's like written encouragement.