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The next two days were more fun than anything I could remember. And I could remember everything of my past life, being that it was the worst memories anyone could have. I decided that becoming a vampire was my destiny in those first two days. It was my fate and falling into their hands was exactly what I needed. I allowed Alice to play with my hair while Rosalie focused on herself, applying makeup to put every woman who was ever thought gorgeous to shame. Alice held up my hair and shook her head. "How could you possibly have so much hair?"

"How could you have so little?"

Silence.

"It wasn't my choice."

I turned the fun conversation into bitter hatred. Great. Now she would never speak to me again. "I'm sorry…"

"It's not your fault. You didn't know." She was an expert at reading faces. "I was in an asylum because…for being able to see the future. That's not something to be proud of in the 20's."

"Oh." That was possibly the most ridiculous answer but what could I say to that? Actually, there was a lot I could say because I knew what that was like. I hadn't been treated for craziness, but had been treated for my odd DNA. I wasn't quite sure why I'd been there…or what they were going to do with me.

They took me shopping the next day, and for the first time I had to concentrate on not wanting to take a life. I had taken lives before because that had been my job. Only now it was forbidden. I understood Jasper as much as I could in those moments of restraint, but I believe I would never truly know how much it would take to not kill them if I had tasted their blood.

Alice and Rosalie rummaged about in boutiques and shops where shirts cost two hundred dollars. I had never owned anything so expensive. Alice held up clothes along with Rosalie and I had assumed that they were both finding me clothes. But it was more of Alice buying me clothes and Rosalie shopping for herself, as usual. They were being too kind to me and what could I give them? Surely I had no money. I could kill to get money but they wouldn't need it. They had unimaginable sums thanks to Alice.

"You could give them a show of how strong you are." Edward said from behind me. I didn't know he had accompanied us, but the more the merrier.

"I hadn't. I was curious as to what Alice would put you in. I see she's found the black and gray pea coats."

"I don't mind." I mumbled. Strength? Why would I want to show anyone that? It was embarrassing. To show something so uncontrollable like that would only make me recall why I had become what I was.

Edward stood next to me as we watched the clothes pile up. "They are just curious as to the stories."

"Stories?"

"There have been stories coming from Italy that Aro is preparing to come here himself and take his experiment home."

The name, again, sent me a chill. "Who's his experiment?"

Edward wiggled his eyebrows. "You."

I was terrified at that moment. "But…but I don't want to go."

He linked an arm in mine. I had expected there to be warmth coming from him but he was just as cold as I was. "We will see when the time comes. Besides, you feel something just at the sound of his name. What makes you think that when you see him you won't want to go with him?"

I didn't have to answer. He knew what I was thinking, how ill fit I was for my parents. They weren't even my parents. They were my adoptive family and one would think they would shower me with love. But I was adopted on a whim to never really belong anywhere, to wander through life alone and to be miserable at best.

He bowed his head, closing his eyes. What was he thinking? Was he thinking how odd I was for asking such a lame question?

"Of course you fit in." His jaw was tight as he looked up at Alice who was moving with quickness out the store. We followed, neither Rosalie nor Alice aware that we were following them. "If you allow yourself to belong, then you will."

How true. I had never thought of allowing myself to belong. I was probably too selfish, focusing on my own personal needs than anything else. I didn't want to be that person anymore. I would give Alice and Rosalie a show…I would allow them to see what I could do.

"We would all like that."

I was becoming irritated. "Edward, can I ask you a favor?"

"Depends on the favor." He grinned.

"Stop listening to what I'm thinking."

He laughed softly, making a few passerbies' quicken their glances at his beauty. "Sorry. I forget that sometimes people don't want me to know what they're thinking."

"Thank you." I smiled to myself as we passed a shop that sold mirrors. I caught myself in a mirror, my pale skin of death peering back at me and my black, black eyes. I turned my head away and made us continue.

"Edward?"

"Hm?"

"Can I ask another favor?"

"This show better be a good one."

I smiled wanly. "When and if you give me my own room, don't put any mirrors in it."

"It takes time to get used to."

"I've always needed time."

"Agreed."

Together we walked on talking of miscellaneous things until it was time to leave. Alice and Rosalie had stuffed her red convertible full with bags of clothes. That meant no room for me so Edward had to drive me home. Just outside of the open car door he stared up into the clouds. "Baseball time." Edward laughed to himself before looking back down at me. "A perfect opportunity for you to show us what you've got."

I have never been a fan of sports. In fact, I hated them. I failed gym in high school, having to retake all four years with the younger classes. That was going to be hell, pretending to be a freshman when my mind sight was already in college. But I wouldn't think about it. What mattered now was playing baseball with my family….my family.

My insides jumped at that. How wondrous it felt to be able to say that. Alice took my hand, and together we went to a large field amongst so many trees that no human cold possibly find us.

The game was simple. Everyone, including me and excluding Esme were on the outfield. One person went up to bat. But this wasn't a regular game. It included speed, quickness of the eyes, and as much strength as one had to hit as hard as they could. Perfect for me because…well…they would find out soon enough.

The rain pounded us, the thunder cracking with a vengeance. It was annoying.

"Why can't you do this when it's not raining?" I yelled to Jasper in a voice louder than humanly possible.

He grinned. "You'll see."

Rosalie was first, tapping the plate before moving into a leaning position. Emmet eyed her with intrigue but threw the ball without hesitation. At first, I thought it was the thunder. But when there was no flash and Edward went flying into the trees, I knew it was the ball. So much force she had used, so much agility. She ran through the bases, but wasn't quick enough for Edward who had already reached home base as she slid to it. He tapped her shoulder, her hand only inches from the white diamond. She growled at him as he smirked up at her.

Carlisle was next, his blonde hair stuck to his face, his skin ever radiant. I fell in love with him like so many paintings I had seen in art museums. He truly was something from another century and nothing could disguise it. He scrunched down, his lips in a line of concentration, his brows furrowed into focus. Alice threw the ball and crack it went. I was running then, ignoring the tree branches that scrapped my arm and tore at my clothes. I caught it in the air before it was even finished soaring through the air. Back I went, the rain whipping at me, my hair a heavy load down my back. But as I neared the base, Carlisle was already there, tapping his fingers on his arm. "Where have you been?" He asked with a sly smile. They all laughed and I couldn't help but join them.

"I'm learning."

"And a fast learner you are. It's your turn."

They were all on edge now, waiting. I tapped the bat like Rosalie and bent over. The rain was a sheet now and I could just barely make out Edward in the far distance. They were all spread out, each one of them a different speck of darkness. Alice threw me the ball and in one swift motion I hit it. There was a loud explosion, a burst of fire, and then…stillness. Everyone had banished into the trees looking for it. But it was no use. I was looking at it on the ground, its burnt little slivers sprayed about like confetti. I had hit the baseball so hard that it had exploded. Esme stood beside me and together we stared at it.

Alice came back first followed by Rosalie and then the three men.

"Wow." Emmet whispered as he glared down through the raindrops at what had once been their baseball. They all looked at me and that time I was sure I had flushed.

"Now I see." Carlisle nodded his head as he surveyed the pieces of smoked material.

"Great. We're going to need another baseball." Rosalie grumbled as she turned and headed off towards the house.

We all chuckled at her unintentional joke but they didn't realize that what I had done was nothing. It was not even close to comparison to what I could do, what they had kept me from doing. I was afraid to take Carlisle's arm as he held it out to me.

"I don't think I can..."

Carlisle touched my arm gently. "You can't harm me."

I felt reassured and so, without another thought, I took his arm. I would just have to take care and not hurt anything anymore. I would try. For my new family I would try.