Title: Dragonfly in Amber

Author: FaithfulPureLight (and her sister)

Disclaimer: I wish. I really do! But alas I do not and I am only borrowing them. (Looks over to her lawyer. "Was that good?" lawyer nods. "Yay! Ok on with the introductions and then the story!" sister cheers in the background. I pull out Edmund and Peter and my sister pulls out Lucy and that witch Susan. "We own u as soon as the documents are done remember that") again just kidding!

Rating: For reasons explained later I am rating this a M for mature

Summary: Lucy starts having nightmares that she can't remember. Soon Edmund and Peter are too. What could be so terrible that our heros would willingly forget a memory of Narnia?

Dedication: to elektrum. Review the stories she writes. They are amazing!!!!!!!!! but the dedication is because she pushed us to get this terribly difficult chapter out for you guys!

Chapter 5:

Lucy's POV

I am sitting on one of the few stone benches in the garden, soaking up the delicious sunlight even if it is very chilly. I don't quiet know what, but there is something familiar about this day. The smell of Mama's sleeping rose garden, or maybe it's the bird's song.

Looking down I open the book in my lap. Little Women, by Louisa May Alcott. Mother always encouraged my reading of books decent for my age. Susan always approved of this book too so I'm slightly hesitant to open it. What if it changes me as well? Susan has recently been saying I should become a proper lady and worry about such things as clothing and make-up.

I always knew in my heart of hearts the moment Su came back from America that something had changed. I just didn't want to believe it. But after the episode in my room last night no doubts and hopes can remain.

But even if she no longer believes in our sweet Narnia, how could she leave me after a nightmare that affected me so violently. Even as I begin to think about the flashes and images that make no coherent sense I begin to tremble.

I finish the first chapter. It's not that bad. I like Beth. She's always so quiet, but she knows when she is needed. And she has an innocence to her that for all her life she could believe in what others call fairy-tales. Meg reminds me a lot of Susan. In private wishing to still believe in those fairy-tales; but in public trying to act the grown women. So much so, that she has all but destroyed the little girl she once was. Jo and Amy do not remind too much of my brothers. Though Jo has the same fierce braveness as they do.

It is strange that I can take almost anything in this world and compare it to my siblings. Mother says it is a gift. I think I just know them better. Although last night when Su had said that horrible thing, I hadn't been able to read Edmund's expression. Peter had seemed hurt, like he had lost his final shred of hope for our sister.

But Ed had been harder. At first, his expression had been shocked. Then he looked like he would have loved nothing better than to strike our older sister. He had looked at Peter, and that was when I stopped deciphering it. It wasn't that I gave up, it was that I couldn't. He seemed to have pulled the shutters down over his emotions.

Even as I sit here in the sun, I still can not read that expression. I suppose I will just stop trying eventually. But not now.

I wonder where my brothers are anyway. Probably together. When Peter comes home you rarely see one without the other. Su and I used to be that close too. Now however she seems pained by my very existence. So I will not try and act as we used to in Narnia and in those few years after we came back.

I turn to the second chapter, wondering what awaits me at the end of this book. No doubt a interesting ending; surprises have always been my forte. It is a bit chilly though. My hands are going numb as I sit here. Mama is making hot chocolate. I can smell the rich aroma from here. I am going to go have some. With any luck my siblings will join me.

"Lucy! Your so flushed. Come inside dear. What on earth made you go outside in this cold weather?! Honestly." She is sighing. I can't help but giggle. She makes a face. "What were you screaming about last night dear? Was the nightmare that bad?" Her face becomes gentle as she speaks. I have stiffened however. She wouldn't understand.

"Nothing mother. Do not worry." I know she is probably plaguing herself with guilt for not coming to my side, but I am actually rather glad. My brothers were there. That was enough. Even if it had only been Edmund it would have been fine. They keep me safe.

She nods. I wonder where they are any how. Susan is shopping with Marilyn that much I know. But the boys... Oh well. They're probably playing cricket with the neighborhood boys or something. I am not worried.

But it is Edmund's turn for a nightmare tonight. And if Peter was upset when I woke screaming from something I can't remember...how will he react to Ed's demons?