A.N: Oh my god this chapter was so hard to write I had like no ideas what so ever! But it ended up being okay. And yeah I know Deidara has changed a bit from BMBB but I guess he just grew up alot mentaly from the last fan fic. This story is also alot angstyer then the last one but this whole tale is rather angsty.

And for this beginning part of the chapter the naration is alittle werid so let me just clarify.

Everything writtin normally is as if Hinata is speaking

Everything writtin in italic is the main plot

You'll be able to tell when naration goes back to normal

Okay enjoy the chapter and be sure to reveiw!

Chapter Ten: The Monster

I find that pain is something that binds people together, maybe even more so then love.

Sasuke jumped quickly off the bird once it landed, he was fallowed by Deidara. The two sprang off into the caves of a cliff that pointed the end of the trail. There hearts beat as one as they looked for the woman that was held dearly to both.

All ninja sooner or later feel the power of sorrow when a loved one is lost. Deidara was one however who has never felt any real loss.

The caverns split many times over but Sasuke's eyes spared them precious time in finding the correct root to Sakura.

He'd been numb when he watched his own parents executed.

They turned a corner and found the biggest cave yet. Deidara's eyes widened seeing Sakura slumped up next to the wall and blood covered the floor around her. He could feel his blood run cold and his mind fog up.

He hadn't batted an eye when his respected teacher Sasori-no-Danna lay dead in a crumbling Akatsuki hide out.

Sakura dead…

He had barley even flinched at the loss of both of his arms.

How?

But now in these fleeting seconds Deidara felt the bombardment of emotions as he watched his human obsession lay there…lifeless.

Girlie…my girlie!

That was up until she took a sharp labored breath and coughed hard.

(back to normal narration)

"She's alive," Sasuke said walking over but stopped suddenly. Deidara however ignored the other man's stall and ran right over to Sakura's side. She was asleep, her thighs covered in dried blood and birth fluids and her arms tied behind her back.

The blonde carefully moved Sakura's body forward so he could untie her bruised wrists and get the robes off from around her midsection. She took a long breath as her charka began to run normally and she began to heal herself absent mindedly. Deidara slowly took her in his arms so she rested bridle style.

When he looked up he was surprised to see Sasuke had taken off his mask and hand his hand over his mouth and was staring at something on the floor with a mix of sorrow and fury. Deidara's breathe hiked when he noticed that it was a baby, it was a bluish color and looked to have been dead for a few hours now. It wasn't his kid, but it belong to Sakura and he felt…sort of bad for Sasuke too but he said nothing.

"I'll take Sakura to the bird yeah," he said after a few moments of dead silence.

"Yeah," the other man said still staring at the baby as if hoping it would begin to move. "I'll be there in a second."

"Right hmm," he said shifting his shoulders slightly so he could carry the woman more comfortably in his arms. He left the Uchiha to mourn alone he knew that would be for the best.

Deidara, Kakashi, and I sat in the hospital waiting area quietly. It had taken us about two hours on clay dragon to get back to the hidden leaf and in that time Sakura hadn't woken up. So here we sat waiting for any new to come up. Good news bad news I sure as hell didn't care, Sakura kind of deserved it after pretty much lying to everyone that's ever loved her. But for Deidara's sake I preyed quietly that she would live because if she died, Deidara would too and maybe some bystanders too.

A medic ninja came over to us his face a bit strained but over all he looked relatively calm. Deidara had his ANBU mask strung on the side of his head and he gave a cold look at the doctor as if threatening his life if he didn't give good news. I absent mindedly put my hand on the blonde man's shoulder to calm him down before the medic began to speak.

"It seems Haruno Sakura will make a full recovery," he said with a kind smile "she opened her eyes so you are all aloud to see her now, room 420 just right down the hall to the left."

"Thank you sir," I said getting up.

"I'm going to head to the Hokage's," Kakashi stated "she's going to want to know what's up."

"Right," I said "come on Deidara-kun."

Deidara gave a dangerous smile and got up heading down the hall before me. I heard Kakashi take a deep sigh before teleporting away with a soft poof. I rolled my lavender eyes to the ceiling before catching up with the weirdo blonde.

"You know you don't have to act like a complete ass all the time," I said just making him smile even more.

"Pearl you really don't want to see me be an ass hmm," he said as we walked side by side.

"Ugh you're nauseating," I muttered as we entered Sakura's hospital room. Sasuke's head snapped up and he glared in our direction before turning back to Sakura.

"Hey girly," Deidara said as he went over to the bed side completely ignoring the Uchiha's glares. "It's nice to see you up yeah."

Sakura sat up in the bed and looked a lot better then she did only about a half hour ago. Most of the scratches on her face where already healed and her face wasn't sickly pale anymore. Her short baby pink hair was tied in a tight bun on the top of her head but even if she looked healed her eyes where broken with a mix of hate and sorrow.

"Eat your heart out Deidara," she said not looking at him. Deidara looked slightly hurt but for one who didn't know better you'd think he didn't have a care in the world at the moment.

"Hum even after saving you twice," he said with an upbeat air "you treat me like a criminal."

"Ironic isn't it?" she snapped back "and you only helped save me once."

"I saved you twice," he said again "Today from Itachi and a year ago from your own damn lust for something new hmm. Remember?"

"Leave her alone," Sasuke growled getting up.

"You used me," Sakura growled making herself into a victim.

"I used you girly? Hmm?" Deidara's face cracked and his real pain began to show in his features. "Is that the bull shit you've been telling your oh so loving and clueless husband?"

"Shut the hell up," Sasuke growled getting himself in front of the blonde man. The two glared daggers at each other, perhaps I was the only one that noticed Deidara was about an inch shorter then Sasuke.

"Okay all three of you," I spoke making the two men look at me harshly and Sakura looked away. "Enough."

Deidara was the first to calm his expression and rolled his visible eye to the ceiling. "So where were we un?" he scratched his nose "Oh right," he snapped his fingers together like an actor getting ready to say his lines. "Girlie," he said turning to Sakura who glanced back at him her pink eyebrows knotted together. "What I wanted to say before you so rudely interrupted me was that I'm so relived your okay." He smiled lightly but Sakura didn't change mach emotion. "But I kind of wished I didn't care so much yeah," he turned away and out the door.

I watched Sakura but her eyes didn't flicker one lest bit for the man who loved her. She took a long breath before looking at Sasuke and smiling wryly.

"Overly dramatic don't you think?" she quipped making my eyes widen a bit.

"You know Sakura what you did to him was really shitty," I said making her glare at me.

"Why would you care he's insane and probably just obsessed or something," she said with a shrug.

"So what" I growled "we're all insane for even taking this life style! All of us are murderers so what makes him so different from us? You're torturing him Sakura he just wants you to see him as someone who cares for you. He doesn't care if you don't love him. To him all he cares about in this world is art and you. You should have seen his face when he found out you'd been kidnapped Sakura. You should have seen the fear and rage in his eyes!"

"Hinata," Sakura said with a honey sweet smile "you're a good girl but this is adult business and I don't think you really understand."

I was fuming but I couldn't stay for much longer so I left the room after Deidara so he wouldn't get himself in trouble. That woman was pure evil and I needed to make sure Deidara didn't kill himself over a person like that. He wasn't in love with her after all he was in love with her deceptions.

I ran down the hallway but stopped short at a hospital room with a big window in it. It wasn't being in use but the light was on and the big window was open letting the breeze come in. Deidara was leaning out the window sill his hair being fluffed by the wind.

"Deidara," I sighed walking over to him but stopping short.

"What?" he snapped still facing outside.

"She's not worth your effort," I said quietly "she's become something not even I or Sasuke relate to anymore."

"It's my fault un," he muttered turning his head to look at me.

"How where you suppose to know," I asked "I believe she did love you but she didn't know what to do. And when you came back she wasn't sure how to react, instead of being truthful to her own heart she lied to everyone just so she'd be in paradise forever."

"So I'm just a casualty yeah?" he asked humorlessly.

"Pretty much," I replied walking over to stand next to him. "What are you planning on doing?"

"I don't know really hmm," Deidara grumbled smacking his head lightly on the side of the wall. "I guess I could stay here see if I could get any missions…I don't really care anymore."

"I could find you a studio apartment," I offered and he smirked.

"Why are you so nice to me Hinata-Chan?" he asked looking over at me and I lightly blushed because he called me by my real name.

"B-because you're like how I use to be and still am," I said nervously pressing my index fingers together "you have something to prove to this world but no one seems to want to care."

A.N: Thank god an up beat ending to a chapter! I was starting to think Deidara was going emo on us.