A.N: We are nearing the end of Curse of Curves and finally thoughs damn curves come up! You know what that means! Oh yeah it is LEMON time!! Well it's my first girlXguy lemon so be nice okay? And enjoy the craziness!

Warning: This chapter is full of lemony goodness so if you can't deal with that kind of stuff you've been warned. lemonsex

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disclaimer: I do not own naruto but I strapped Deidara to the bed and told him I owned him. Does that count?

Chapter Thirteen: My Almost

I didn't sleep well that night; all I kept thinking about was planning Sakura's murder. Thoughts that usually didn't ever cross my mind and it scared me that they did now. It scared me that my mind could even work this way. I feared these thoughts.

I rolled over shivering under my covers though my room was not cold. Naruto had said everything would be okay but I didn't believe him. Somewhere in my heart I knew Deidara would die regardless of his helpfulness. Good guys win bad guys lose end of story not grey area. The thing is I don't believe Deidara is really evil, misguided maybe, insane no doubt, but evil? No, I don't think Deidara thought it wouldn't be artistic.

I could feel the tears running down my cheeks and I closed my eyes willing myself to sleep. It took a while but I ended up drifting off into an uneasy sleep.

"Tsunade told me that the Elders are making there verdict hmm," he said slouching in my recliner chair. Neither of us had felt like doing anything today so we simply crashed at my place ate ice cream and watched the cheesy soup operas Deidara liked. "Should be getting the news some time this week yeah."

"Old bastards," I muttered taking a spoonful of vanilla ice cream and stuffing it in my mouth. My sadness and anger had become cross and annoyed over the night and Deidara was becoming more and more surprised as to what was coming out of my mouth. "Tsunade can't walk two steps without them getting pissed at something, and then they take months negotiating and nothing ever gets done!"

"You seem mad un," he pointed out the obvious.

"Of course I am," I stated disgruntled "because of them you might still be put to death. And your like one of my best friends now, how could I not be pissed?"

"Why do I feel like a dog when you say the term 'put to death' hmm?" he asked "wouldn't executed be less demeaning yeah?" I rolled my eyes and he smiled lightly. "But I get what your saying Pearl," he said popping a spoonful of ice cream in his mouth. "You now I haven't had quality ice cream in years un."

"Friendly's is the best," I said with a smile that didn't reach my eyes. "I'd miss you, you know if you die."

He gave a surprised look the spoon still in his mouth. I could tell I'd caught him off guard with that statement and I blushed looking away. He gulped down the ice cream in his mouth and regarded me quietly. I heard him shift but didn't look up till his arm was around my shoulders. He looked a bit unsure but he stayed like this watching the soup opera.

Feeling unsure myself but grateful for the show of kindness I leaned my head on his chest and we ate more ice cream silently for a while. It was awkward since we both already in love with someone but I had a feeling that Deidara's old love was beginning to untangle. Could that be because of me? I didn't want him falling in love with me but I wouldn't lie to him like Sakura did and I wouldn't cheat on Naruto. My brain buzzed.

"Hey Pearl," Deidara said resting his cheek on my head. I made a sound that was suppose to mean 'yeah?' "Do you have any sake un? Maybe we could get wasted or something."

"That sounds like a wonderful idea," I said but didn't get up or shift position.

"Then we could make out have sex then we could wake up the next morning and wonder what the hell happened yeah," he muttered and I choked on a laugh.

"Blunt today aren't you?" I asked and I could feel him chuckle.

"I'm still wondering about that sake un," he said and I giggled getting to my feet. "We don't have to have sex but I really am in dire need of getting drunk hmm," he said with a boyish smile.

"You know me too," I said walking into the kitchen "and maybe I can get layed later too, I'd have to call Naruto however,"

"Aw what about me?" I heard Deidara whimper as I got two glasses and a bottle of warm sake.

"I'll get Ino or something I'm sure she'd be willing," I said back and heard Deidara burst into laughter. I walked back into the living room where the blond was recovering from his laughing fit. "Here," I said pouring his drink then my own and sitting down next to him.

"To drinking for the sake of getting drunk," Deidara said raising his glass. "And maybe having a good lay later un." He shrugged and we clicked out glasses together and took the first sip. "I'm glad we're enjoying ourselves un. It would be an artistic moment if I where to die."

"And if you don't die?" I asked and he looked at me then at the ceiling in thought.

"I don't know," he said "I guess I wouldn't call it art since it wouldn't be fleeting, but even if that's the case I don't mind yeah." We looked at each other and smiled before looking back at the TV.

We drank for about two hours and I'd had go and pull out three more sake bottles. I've probably never drank so much in my life and I could almost hear my liver screaming in pain. Deidara however kept me from falling asleep right there because he was such an amusing drunk.

"So then Tobi fell asleep right on the damn three tails! Can you believe that? I'm there trying to explain something and he falls asleep on me! I thought I was going to explode!" he said making crazy movements with his arms as I listened to him talk. "Do you have any more sake un?"

"We ran out," I said with a drunk smile which probably not all that attractive.

"Well shirt…I mean shit," he said and I giggled. He looked at me with a smile wavering slightly. "I really like you Hinata yeah."

"I really like you too Deidara," I said with a half lidded gaze. "If I didn't love Naruto…I-I think I'd love you."

"Who do you love more?" he asked leaning back in the sofa nether of us really sure what our conversation was about.

"Naruto…sorry," I said "he's my everything but you're my everything too…just in a different way."

"That makes sense yeah," Deidara said even though it really didn't make sense. "You know if I didn't love Sakura I think I'd love you too Hinata."

"That's pretty funny," I said and he raised a brow in question "we both almost love each other."

"Almost," Deidara nodded.

"Almost," I repeated touching Deidara's cheek. He nuzzled my hand absent mindedly. "Is that okay with you?"

"Hmm? Oh yea its okay I don't mind," he said with my hand still cupping his cheek "In love almost in love it doesn't matter to me yeah. The only thing that really matters is that you're with me Pearl…my Pearl."

"Am I a clam anymore?" I asked.

"No, no Hinata you are a pearl," he said leaning closer to my face "a beautiful priceless pearl." And that was it our lips met. It was slow and awkward at first from our drunkenness but became deeper and more passionate. Something in the back of my mind was telling me that this was bad and that I was kissing my best friend! But god was he a good kisser and soon even that one sober part of my brain fizzed out.

We broke the kiss to breath and I took one shallow gasp before I attacked his lips again craving more. Our mouths where now open and our tongues grazed and lapped at each other both seeking dominance over the other.

My hand had somehow gotten tangled into Deidara's gold hair and his hand where on my neck giving me soft kisses and nips. Deidara leaned back on the sofa and I fallowed still kissing him hungrily.

(Lemon ahead)

I slowly sat up straddling Deidara's waist. We stared at each other as if memorized as to what we where going to do next. Just the very thought of it seemed utterly absurd in every meaning of the word. Having sex with Deidara that just seemed crazy and I'm sure he was thinking the same thing for me.

"You still want to do it un?" he said propping up on his elbows. I pressed my sore lips together.

"Once," I said looking down at him "that way it's art." He smiled but more of a matter that I was excepting his art. "Do you love me Deidara?"

"No," he said "do you love me Hinata?"

"No," I replied and he smiled.

"Then we have nothing to worry about yeah," he said slowly sitting up so I was still under him. Carefully his hands went up my shirt very slowly. His hands where warm from the alcohol and kissed my flesh as they moved up to my bra then back down my back. The feeling of his figures running down my skin gave me shivers.

Impatiently I took off my shirt and threw it on the floor. He smiled softly looking me over. I kissed him again needing to feel his mouth on mine again. As this went on he unclipped my bra from the back and slipped it off my shoulders.

"Your beautiful Hinata," he gasped as our lips parted. I flushed red and he smiled god-like. He lowered his head and kissed my neck and caller bone while his hand cupped my breast and the other held my hip. I let my head fall back a little from the sensation of his kisses plus his hand sucking softly on my nipple.

He pulled away lightly and pulled his shirt off from over his head and the hair tie coming out with it. His hair fell around him wildly and his bright blue eye looked at me with pure white hot lust and passion. He reminded me suddenly of Naruto, if not only a bit older, I felt guilty but I couldn't bring myself to stop now. Just once, I told myself, just once for Deidara. My almost love.

My eyes moved down his chest and abs, I saw the seal and the mouth that was stitched up over his heart. The seal when opened would make Deidara into his own artwork. A marvelous explosion I hoped I'd never have to see. I ran my hands along the symbol before moving them down his body and to the band of his pants and pulled at it coyly. Deidara smirked through his hair.

I painfully slowly unbuttoned his jeans while he began to pull down my gray sweat pants from around my waist. Soon everything was completely off and I kissed him again and we ran our hands over each other's bodies.

Slowly I parted with his lips and settled down on him till he completely filled me. He gave a soft moan and I smiled. Slowly I pumped my body up and down on him my hands clenching his hair as we both found a rhythm.

I began to rock on him faster and this time I was the one to cry out. As I moved faster he went into me harder and soon we where both panting but with me being the more vocal. I felt Deidara's back arch under me and heard my moans become more desperate. Then we both went over the edge together and I limply fell onto his chest with us still joined.

We where gasping like fish out of water and I could feel his heart moving at a hundred and fifty miles per hour then I felt my own also hammering in my chest. After a little while Deidara chuckled softly.

"Holy shit," I said.

"No, kidding un." He replied as we both began to catch our breaths.

"That was awesome Deidara," I muttered still stunned by the whole situation. "You do realize you're a physic right?"

"Hmm?" he asked brushing his fingers through my indigo hair.

"Well you said we where going to get drunk, make out, and then do it," I said "and you where completely right."

"Holy shit I was right about that yeah," the blond said as if just realizing now and in a way that hinted that we weren't on top of each other naked, which we where. I smiled anyway and closed my eyes to drunk and to tiered to bother with a silly thing like getting dressed and cleaning up the living room.

A.N: Does anyone else see the similar but different plot line?

Deidara: I'm not complaining un!