Well, this time around I wanted try out a little bit longer and angstier story with actual connections to real life. Hmm, my inspiration was my dearest friend, who is my everything. I hope you do enjoy this one and feel that crushing feeling too so that in the end you can be set free. FEEL THIS. Hopefully you will share your thoughts about this one with me. I sound so depressing…haha.

Please do not flame (I do not find a reason for it so you better not either). I apologize for the possible misspellings and other errors.

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Pairing: Sasuke x Naruto

Summary: Pain, painkillers, loneliness and then that someone sat next to you. You did not want him there, but needed him to support you even if it hurt. Naruto, are you able trust Sasuke - trust that he will carry you no matter what? SasuNaru, M for SEX

Disclaimer: I have no rights over the characters or whatsoever (do not sue me Mr. Kishimoto), I am just loaning them and returning to the rightful owner (Mr. Kishimoto).

Soon Sasuke comes back and shoves a plastic mug in my hand and orders me to drink it with one gulp. Then he laughs and I know he was joking, I smile a little. Then suddenly his phone rings and he takes it from his pocket. Sasuke furrows his eyebrows at the caller's name and then excuses himself. I follow him, but so that he cannot see me. I can still hear him. It seems the caller is his girlfriend and they have some kind of a fight. Sasuke sounds tensed and he almost angrily answers back whatever he has to answer back. My chest begins to ache again and I am scared to hear him yell and shout.

I do what he told me to do earlier jokingly and I drink the liquid with a one gulp. Suddenly I get really dizzy; I did not drink that much, did I? What did I even drink? Then I remember that I am not supposed to drink. Alcohol and the medication are a dangerous mixture, I should know this. My stomach takes a turn to the definitive pits of hell and I fall on to my knees. My whole body shakes like an autumn leaf and I cannot get myself up. Someone shouts that there is a guy dying here and I almost laugh - if I could. Sasuke comes after finishing the phone call and sees me on the floor, people staring at me and panicking. Does he have epilepsy, someone asks out loud, but my mouth does not work so I could give them a decent answer.

Sasuke's eyes widen and he runs to me. He lifts me up and cups my cheek with his palm. My eyes began to roll backwards and all the power leaves my body like a genie from its lamp - slowly but steadily. Sasuke starts to panic and I can hear him swearing and shouting "what did he take??", but no one knows. He drags me into the toilet and pushes my head near the toilet bowl. I am about to doze off, but he shouts angrily that I have to throw up. I cannot make myself do it and I do not have the strength to tell him that either.

Sasuke probably sees this and does what he thinks is the best solution; he sticks two of his fingers in my throat and with his other hand he presses my stomach so that I do not have any other choice but to throw up everything. The salty liquid burns my throat and mouth as the stomach fluids come up too. Tears roll down my cheeks and my limb body is in the hands of a person who I trust most in this world; who I love most in this world. When there is nothing to offer to the toilet anymore I pass out because of the exhaustion. Save me, okay? Just this once?

I wake up in a bed, but it is not morning yet. Through the window I can see it is still dark, the room itself is faintly lighted and I blink a few times in order to recognize the place where I am. Then I see Sasuke sitting on the floor leaning against the bed. He has buried his head in his arms and I just keep watching him breathing there. It takes some time until he notices that I have woken up and when he does, the expression on his face lightens the faintest. He even smiles a little and crawls near me. Sasuke strokes my cheek gently and it feels so soothing that I have to close my eyes. Then suddenly I feel something warm and wet against my lips. The softness of the touch gives me wings and I feel I could fly. I open my eyes and I can see how his eyes are still closed and lips united with mine. Even after the kiss he still keeps his face close to mine and exhales in my mouth. My first kiss.

Then Sasuke opens his eyes and looks straight into mine. I must look a little surprised, but he…he looks like he wants to take the kiss back. His eyes darken and he releases my face from his hold. He then stands up and does not say anything except leaves the room. I just stay in the bed and run my fingers over my lips. My lips are hot and taste like Sasuke, I lick them and wish he would have never ended the bliss.

I stand up from the bed and close the door behind me. I walk into the living room where everyone is still having fun and partying. I see Sasuke sitting among everyone else and acting like our "something" never happened. My chest aches again, but for the first time I do not let it take over me. I look in his direction and I know he sees me. Our eyes meet for a brief second and I turn my sad face away from the scene. I want to go home.

I take my leave, but already in the front yard my legs give upon me and I collapse on four legs. The stream of tears is like a flood and my stomach starts to hurt again. I throw up and by that time everyone is already on the porch watching my abasement and laughing. Geez, the nerdy freak is drunk, haha, they laugh and point to me. I want to scream but the vomit has burned my throat and the tears have created beds on my cheeks. From the corners of my eyes I can see that Sasuke stands with everyone else looking stern and keeping silent. It does not matter still; there are thousands of worlds between us. I curl up in a ball and let the freshly started rain wash me away.

I close my eyes and wish I would die so I would not have to face anything anymore.

Then I feel warm and soft hands helping me stand, keeping me close. The fragrance of that person is vivid and I find myself pressing closer to that warmth. You should all be ashamed of yourselves, the voice shouts. It seems it belongs to a girl. She helps me off of the ground and gives me a sincere smile. I am Hinata, you do not probably recognize me, she smiles hazily. I smile as hazily back and let her take me to my home. I wake up in my bed and look around. This is my apartment and I am wearing my pyjamas and…there is someone next to me. The person sleeps calmly next to me on my bed, a girl.

I am sure we did not do anything but it soothes me to know that there is at least one person who is okay with sleeping in the same bed with me. You are in love with him, are you not? A voice asks me. I flinch a little until I notice that Hinata is awake and watching me from under the blanket. What?? I blurt back at her. You always cling to Sasuke like a baby monkey, she smiles a little. He is my best friend, my only friend, I answer silently. You poor thing, she says sympathy in her voice. I lay myself next to her and we talk about everything. Thank you for lightening my heart, I say to her and she says that anytime. We both fall sleep.

The next morning we wake up and I lend Hinata my clothes since she does not have spare. We make breakfast together and head for the university. Everybody looks at us warily and mostly at Hinata's clothes. Hinata just radiates like the sun not caring what people think. I envy her. Suddenly she takes me by the hand and squeezes. I wonder what is she thinking until I see that Sasuke walks pass us. Did he see that? Hinata just smiles innocently, but I am starting to feel nauseous again. In the lecture hall Sasuke goes to talk to Hinata before the professor comes in. I sit across the hall so I do not know what is going on except that Sasuke's expression darkens and he looks pissed off. Does he hate me that much? What was the kiss then? I turn my gaze away and bury my head in the books again deciding to push all the bad thoughts to the furthest corner of my mind.

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