I have decided that I like pain. I like every bit of it. Pain to me is pleasure. I think I may get them confused. Pain masks pain. If that doesn't make sense to you, you have not felt true pain. To me, physical pain is much better than emotional pain. Emotional pain will not go away. Most physical pain can be taken away with medication. Even for the most severe, you can go to the hospital and get an iv. Emotional pain can rarely be taken away. Sometimes the physical pain can mask the emotional. Sometimes they cancel each other out.
I am taunting him. I want him hard and angry. I like him hard and angry. He's so big that if he takes it out on me, it feels like he is ripping my cervix apart and trying to split me in two. He is the kind of man that needs to do that. He needs to take the power and use it occasionally. So I taunt him. I want to make sure he hurts me really good.
"Derek, you may as well let Mark fuck you. You are all pussy." I tell him smartly as I look into his eyes. I know he doesn't want to hurt me. He is not the type to hurt me. "You can't even hit me... Look at you." I started with reverse psychology but now I really do want it.
"Oh I think I'm all man. Do you need me to show you that I am all man?" He asks as he runs the crop over my abdomen. I feel it's smooth leather run underneath each breast. I draw in a tight breath as I he flicks my extra-sensitive nipples. I can feel it shooting in my core as he runs it up and down. He quickly travels back down my abdomen and over my navel. "I'm all man, Mer. I am all man." He repeats as he runs down one pussy lip and back up the other. I spread my legs as much as I can, wanting him to tease my clitoris.
"Mmm..." I moan as I feel him flicking it with the tip of the crop. He knows all my spots. He knows just where to rub. Derek quickly flips the crop around and rubs me with the blunt handle. I close my eyes and imagine the head of his thick cock rubbing over and over stimulating every nerve and teasing me. "Oh god yes." I moan.
"Oh you like that, huh?" He asks with an evil laugh. I look up at him. He's going to get me. If I were him, I would get me too. "You won't like this." He says with a smirk as he rubs the crop over my thigh and raises it in the air, coming down hard on my leg.
"Oh..." I grunt, feeling the pain taking over. The sting of the leather hitting my skin sharply sends chills down my spin. I feel him do it again, and again. I refuse to yell. I refuse to cry out. I close my eyes and take it.
"How did that feel?" Derek asks with a grin as I open my eyes. I feel his soft hand run over my burning flesh. It's soft, but only intensifies the pain. He runs smoothly up my abdomen, and ends at my breasts. Derek takes my nipple between his two fingers and squeezes hard. I feel a sharp pain go through my chest and straight down to my core. "Do you like that, Mer?" He asks with a smile as he looks into my eyes.
"Oh... Yeah..." I whimper as he continues on. "It feels so...Good." I grunt as he pinches my navel, moving down to my dripping wet pussy. The more he hurts me, the more I am turned on. It's his power. He is showing me that he is a man. He is all man. Derek teases my labia minora with his fingers, pinching it sharply. I buck my hips as the severe pain. I feel the tears stinging my eyes. It hurts and it hurts pain. It is piercing.
"I think I got you..." He tells me with a laugh as he sees me wincing in pain. "You have been a good girl. You didn't fight. Maybe I should let you know just how good you are?" He asks with a grin. "Maybe I should untie your feet so that you can spread those legs of yours. I want to taste you, Mer. I want to lick your pussy dry." He tells me with a nod as he crawls backwards and releases my my ankles. "Don't make me regret untying you." He tells me as he pulls the soft silky ropes and makes his way between my legs. I'm ready for my reward.
"Oh... Yes." I moan as he rests his face between my legs and breathes a warm hot breath over my silky folds. I'm wet for him. I'm always wet for him. "Oh..." I say softy as he runs the tip of his tongue over my wet slit, from top to bottom. The feeling of his warmth running over mine is almost too much.
"You taste nice, Mer." Derek mutters as he lifts his head for a second. I draw in sharp breaths as he circles my clit slowly. He knows my spots. I will never admit it, but he knows every single one of them. He knows just how to get me where he wants me and satisfy my sexual urge.
"Oh...Derek..." I moan as he flicks over my clit, sending me in a gasping, hip thrusting spasm. I'm too sensitive and he is pushing me further. I begin to shake and attempt to pull away as he continues on, ignoring my feelings, almost knowing what is best for me. "Ah!" I mew as I feel the sensations telling me to pull away and stop.
"Mmm..." Derek moans as he presses down on my hips, making it impossible for me to fight. I let out gasping breaths as I feel the perfection that is coming over me. It is the white cloud of pure pleasure ready to wash over my body and renew my soul.
"Ah...Ah...Ah..." Gasp as I feel myself needing to thrust. I need him to know how much I need this. I need him to know I want him. I want all of him. "Oh god, Derek!" I shout as he gives me one last hard lick, sending me over the edge. I pant loudly as I feel my walls pulsating, letting lose a white tide of my sticky warm cum into his mouth. Derek greedily sucks me as I lay back, my body twitching and my mind spinning. I couldn't form a real thought if forced. I'm gone. So gone.
I lay there with my head to the side, eyes closed. He has sucked the life out of me. I feel so weak, I can't even move. I wonder if he realizes what he just did me to. He took me over the edge and tossed me off. I am free falling, feeling myself contracting and pulsating. I feel Derek's hands on my thighs as they quiver from fighting. I was fighting for and against my orgasm.
"Was it really that good?" He asks with a smile as he looks up. I open my eyes slightly. My belly hurts from the ripples that washed over it in my pleasure.
"Yeah." I say with a faint nod. The truth is, I could go to sleep right now. Right now, I am so tired I can barely take it.
"So are you ready?" Derek asks as he feathers his fingers over my already damp mound. Damp partially from cum, and partially from his saliva. I feel his finger slide in and graze my clit.
"Ah!" I shout as I feel the powerful sensation. It is uncomfortable. It hurts. "Stop! Ow... No!" I say loudly as I look into his eyes. "I'm not ready yet."
"Not ready, huh? I will have to find something else to occupy my time." He says with a nod as he crawls up to me. I look him in the eyes as he leans down. I feel his lips cover mine. Why does he have to do it? Why must he do it when he knows it bothers me so much? His tongue snakes between my tightly closed lips. I want to fight him off, but I see no point. I can't use my hands and I think fighting just fuels his fire.
"Mmm..." Derek moans as he pulls away. I'm not saying anything. It didn't help before. I will just let him have his way. I'm so used to letting everyone have their way, I don't even care anymore. I'll just let him do what he wants. "Come on, Mer... You know you like it." Derek breathed loudly. I hate it. I hate it, and I hate him.
"I hate you." I tell him as I turn my face away. Derek stays in the same spot, just staring at me. I refuse to look at him. I refuse to react.
"Mer... What the hell is wrong with you? This is not normal. Girls like kissing, Mer. They love it. And you... You don't." Derek muttered as he looked at me.
"Just fuck me, Derek." I demand. I don't want to talk about me. I don't need to talk about me. I just need to avoid this conversation and sex is the best way. I close my eyes and think of his thick cock. I need to get wet for him again. I need to let him fuck me so that I can forget all of this.
"Fuck you?" Derek says in shock. I think he is surprised that I have flipped from no kissing to sex. I doubt that he gets the correlation. "Gladly." He says with a smile. He really is a man. Only a man wouldn't notice that I am in distress.
"Please untie me." I say sadly as I look up at him. Derek smiles as he releases the ropes that are on my hands. I feel the ropes slide off of my wrists as I'm freed. During my whole fight, I thought about how I would get him when he finally untied me. Now I don't care. Now I just feel so down and weak, I don't even have the fight in me. "Thank you." I moan as he lays his body over mine.
"You smell good..." Derek tells me as he kisses my chest. "Like sex and flowers." He points out as he pecks kisses between my breasts.
"Just fuck me." I moan as I close my eyes, awaiting his gigantic member.
"I have no problem fucking you..." Derek tells me as he lays between my spread legs. He feels so strong and in control as he lays above me. He is the boss. I was weak. I'm in pain. I'm too tired to fight for power.
"Good" I say with a smile as I wrap my legs around his thighs and wait for him to thrust his throbbing member deep into my core. "Very good..." I breathe.
Derek smiles. For the moment, he is determined to show me. I feel his hard cock slide into my wet folds. I was more than ready for him, dripping wet. My naturally slippery, white lubrication guiding him into ecstasy. I moan loudly as he withdraws and goes right back in for the kill. I'm tight and ultra-sensitive. He is hard and thick. The perfect combination.
"Oh god, Derek..." I squeal loudly. "Oh yes... You big fuck!" I tell him as I thrust my hips into him. I need him to numb me. As his thrusting increases, my grip tightens on his back.
"You are so fucking tight, Mer!" He shouts. I am. I am that fucking tight. I am always that tight.
"Oh...Oh...Oh..." I pant loudly as I grind my hips against him. His thick manhood fills me up, moving my walls apart with every penetration.
"Fuck...fuck...fuck..." Derek grunts with every thrust. We've had sex, but this is rough. Derek is putting in all he has, hitting me hard, and hitting me fast. I feel his mouth suck on my chest as he pulls in and out with force. There is no ease, even with my wetness, it's still tight. And he is still thick. I know he loves it.
"Faster...faster...faster..." I shout as I buck my hips up at him, moving along with his motions, playing with his ass cheeks, my fingers teasing the crack. "Oh yeah...Right there...Right there!" I shout as I pant hard.
"I fucking need to cum. Fuck!" He shouts as he slams me. He begins to thrust frantically as I spread and wrap tighter.
"Oh god...You are fucking great!" Derek yells as he slides. "Cum for me, Mer... Fucking let it go and flood my cock with your sweet juices." He says as he rolls his eyes back and smiles.
"Fuck...I'm there... I am there!" I scream as I feel myself on the edge. I could pull away, but I don't have the personal strength to do it. I need it too bad. The pain and sadness are all gone now. "Oh...there...Oh...MY GOD!" I shout as it comes faster than I thought. I feel my body hit it's mark and go out of control. My feet begin to twitch and my eyes close as every nerve is awoken. "Oh...Oh...Oh..."
"Oh fuck...Here is it...Here I come!" Derek spits as he drives himself into me. I feel his hard rod start to pulsate and shoot out his spurts of cum. I lay there, our juices sliding out and around his cock, dripping down his balls. I feel better now.