I sit in the passenger seat of Derek's Mustang convertible. This is quite a change from the Honda that he used to drive. Now he has his own new American muscle car. A Shelby GT500. Derek is poor, or at least I thought he was. I wonder just how he has the money to pay for this. I guess it's not really my business. Derek goes through the gears, feeling the need to show everyone his car's power. I have to admit, the thing is cold in the middle of winter, but at least it looks good.
"How long have you had this?" I ask as I run my hands over the dashboard. It is a sexy car, there is no doubt about that.
"Not long. A couple of months, I guess." Derek explains as he shifts once again. I feel a bit of car envy in my veins. The car is hot. I should be driving this car. "It's a bitch to drive in the snow." He complains. "It slides all of the time. Damn rear-wheel drive. But I still love it." He admits as he gives me a cheesy grin.
"Was it new when you got it?" I ask, running my hand over the cool leather seat. Black and red. This car is hot.
"Of course it was." He says happily. "I knew I wanted one a few years ago when the new body came out. I saved up some money for a down payment and here I am." He says happily. Derek looks good in this car. It has the power and the style to match his personality.
"Yeah, I guess it is better than the Jeep." I agree as I think of my own crap vehicle in Grandma's driveway. It is good for the winter, but it utilitarian. It's not a status symbol. At least I hope it's not. If it is, then I am in trouble because that makes me look like something I don't want to be.
"I just love to drive this thing." Derek says with a smile as he grips the shifter. "I look for reasons to drive it. It's like an addiction. Damn Mark keeps asking to borrow it. In his dreams. No one drives my car." He says frankly. There is goes.... I was actually thinking about asking. Derek just pulled that thought from out of my head.
"I need to get some stuff for my horses." I mutter more to myself than to Derek. Derek quickly glances over.
"Let's go." Derek says with a nod. "But not feed. I am not putting feed in the trunk of my car." He tells me frankly. He is awfully protective of this car, but at the same time, I can see why. If it were mine, no one would be breathing in it.
"No. I don't need feed. I just need a new brush and some de-wormer." I tell him. "Light stuff that can all fit in a grocery bag. But it's fine. The feed store is closed, I would have to go somewhere else. I can do it tomorrow. I was just talking to myself, really." I explain, not even wanting to go.
"No. We have nothing else to do. We can go. Just point me in the direction." He says as he drives along. I sigh, going to Smithson's is something to do. Not to mention, I can pick up some fresh muffins. There's are the best..
"Okay. Just take a left up at the next light. Smithson's is on the left." I explain as I point in the direction. "We really should have brought Mark with us." I tell him, feeling bad that Mark didn't come along. He and I are friends and I don't like to ditch him.
"He didn't want to. He is pissed that I won't let him drive. Im just not. You have no idea how much I pay for this thing. I don't want it damaged. Not to mention, he hates sitting in the back. You have no idea how tight it is back there." Derek says as he points to the back seat. I look back there and nod. It is tight and I wouldn't even want to be sitting back there.
"Insurance would pay. I doubt that Mark would get in an accident." I tell him with a shrug. He looks at me with a shocked face. "What?"
"I can't believe you would tell me that. Mer, it doesn't matter if he smashes it beyond recognition. Sure, they would give me the money, but that doesn't bring my car back. It's gone forever. I don't want another one. I want this one." He says as he parks the car, killing the rumble of the engine.
"Yeah, I see your point." I agree. He is right. He wouldn't get his car back. This man is full of car love. He is a typical man, for sure. As I get out of the car, I run my fingers down it's black shiny paint and smile. "You love your car..."
"I love my car." He admits as he walk to the entrance of the store. The automatic doors slide open for us, a greeter offering up a cart. I shake my head no, knowing that I'm not getting much. "Lead the way." He says as he walks through the main entrance. "Holy shit!"
"No kidding," I say as I look at the huge mountain of soda can cases made to look like a gift. Coca Cola and Sprite, red and green. "That thing is huge." I say as we walk up to it. Derek and I walk around teh gift, spotting and opening. "Oh my..."
"Are you thinking what I'm thinking?" He asks as he crouches down and looks inside at the big emptiness.
"I think I am." I say with wide eyes. It's so risky I can feel my heart almost beating out of my chest. I watch Derek, looking like a kid in a candy store. I drop to my knees and him to his. He crawls. We crawl into another world. I hope no one saw us.
"Wow... It's like another world in here." Derek says as he looks around. I have to agree. It is like a whole different world. Unless someone saw us come in, I doubt anyone knows we are. I see no camera above us, so I don't think they are going to catch us in the act.
"Yeah. But we should- I think maybe we should hurry, don't you?" I ask as I look around nervously. There is always a chance. What if we crawl out and security finds us? This will be just one more place that we have been caught in.
"Yeah, maybe we should." Derek agrees as he looks at me. I can tell you, I don't want to be on bottom this time. He can put his ass on the floor and I will ride his cock until it falls off.
I half lay, half sit as I rip my pants off. He can work around my panties. When it comes to a situation like this, we will work around whatever we need to. I don't even pay attention to Derek, but I am hoping that he is at least working on his end of the deal. I smile when my pants and shoes lay to the side with my jacket. He is already undressed, hard and ready. I can't believe how thick his cock is at the moment. That is definitely thanks to the situation.
"You on top?" He asks as he lays back. I don't think he really cares, he just wants a good fuck. He is willing to do it the way I want it, just so he can get it.
"Yeah. Oh.... Yeah." I say as I straddle his lap and smile. My long thighs keep his cock away from my pussy. He wants to thrust up and into me, but I think he can tell by the look in my eyes that he has to wait until I am ready.
"Just...get on it." Derek almost begs as he looks at himself. His velvety head is dripping pre-cum and it more than ready for me. I gently rub my clit over the head of his cock, holding it with one hand and rocking my hips. "Oh God....It's not nice to tease." Derek says with a grunt. I can tell that he is more than eager for the spoils.
"I can't... Damn-it!" I say as I slowly sink down on his cock. I'm not even sure why I was teasing him, like I have time to do that. "Oh!" I groan as I feel his thick cock slide into me inch by inch. My pussy is soaking wet, letting him slide in freely.
"Damn, you were ready, weren't you?" He asks with a smile as he looks into my eyes.
"I guess I was." I tell him with a giggle. "But don't you know by now? I am always ready. I think I was born ready." I state as I begin to rock on him quickly. I need to get this done before we risk being caught.
"Oh yeah, I'm sure you were born cumming. And that is just- It's sick, Mer." He says with a sour look on his face. I have to agree. It is very sick. "Oh God... I'm going to cum quick. I swear your pussy is tighter than ever." He moans. It probably is really tight to him, because he has a horse cock.
"You are so thick, Derek." I groan as I lift myself off slightly and fall back down. I can feel my leg muscles stretching with the effort. He feels so good inside of me. So natural. So right. "Oh..."
I continue to rock on Derek's iron pole as he slides his hands up under my shirt. I left it on, knowing that we needed to keep on as much clothing as possible in case we did get caught. Derek left his shirt on and I feel the soft worn cotton underneath my hands and I use his chest for leverage. His chest is hard. I don't know if he works out, I guess I have never really asked him. I would assume he does something because it feels so perfect.
"Faster, Mer, faster." Derek grunts as he thrusts himself upwards. He thrust just a little to hard, his ass coming off of the floor and causing his long cock to hit me just a little too hard.
"Oh." I groan in with a slight bit of pain in my voice. I pain goes away as I begin to feel my body tensing up. It's amazing the things that come along naturally from two bodies reacting to each other. "Oh yeah... Oh... Cum for me, Derek." I moan, knowing that he likes it when I say it.
"Damn, Mer... I'm almost there. I hope you are close, baby. I can't hold it much longer." He warns. Just as he finishes his sentence, I feel his long cock begin to pulsate wildly. That was all it took before he began spurting his hot cum into my core. I begin rocking frantically chasing my own orgasm. I have to admit, I'm a little mad that he came first. Then again, it was my fault, seeing as I was on top and in control.
"Oh God, there it is! Finally..." I gasp as I feel my walls begin to tighten down and strangle his cock hard. My body instinctively pulsates. I wouldn't be able to stop it if I tried. My eyes roll back in my head and I forget where I am. I feel Derek's hands massaging my breasts under my bra, his thumbs rubbing my nipples. "Oh, oh, oh!" I shout softy, maybe just a little too loudly for a grocery store. "Oh God, there, there....OH!" I gasp as I feel the wave come over me hard, making everything foggy and clear at the same time.
"That was pretty good." Derek tells me as I sit on him, panting lightly. "I'm sorry I came so quick." He apologizes. I nod my head for him, signaling that it is alright. As I come out of my fog, I quickly realize where we are, the sounds of the market coming back into my ears. I jump off his cock and begin dressing myself frantically. Derek quickly does the same.
"We need to get out of here. Inconspicuously." I add as I get on my knees and peek my head out. I'm actually surprised the store is so dead. Then again it is later. They may be close to closing. I see no one and I quickly climb out. I don't even look around or wait for Derek. I go on my way. Derek follows behind me, I can hear him, but I don't look. When I look back, I see him nonchalantly tying his shoe like he had the laces come free. I think we actually pulled it off. Wow was it a rush.
I look around in shock. Okay, there was a reason no one saw us. There is a reason that things began to get quiet. No one is here. I didn't think we had been there long, but apparently we were. I look over at Derek, wondering if he has made the same realization that I have. By the look on his face, I would say it's so. Now what to do? I have no idea.
"Everyone's gone." He says in shock as he looks around. I am in the same state of shock that he is in. Yes, everyone is gone.
"Yeah. I uh... I noticed that right away." I mutter as I look up. There are some lights on, but not many. Surely they have a security office. There has to be an officer or someone around. "I can't believe this!" I say as my heart starts to beat quickly. This is unbelievable. "We are freaking alone! They locked us in." I say as I look around, seeing no one.
"What the hell is with this place? I would at least expect the workers to be here for a few minutes." He states as he draws in a breath and quickens his pace to the doors.
"No kidding. It's like they flew out of here like their ass was on fire. What the hell was that? I mean, really? How can a store-full of people disappear in what, five minutes?" i ask as I follow him to the door. Derek stops in his tracks and spins around.
"I am not a five minute man! I think you know better than that." He says sharply. I think he's actually angry about the comment. I can see the glare in his eyes. He eyes me one last time before he turns around.
"I didn't- That wasn't meant to be offensive, Derek. I just, it was fast. We were trying to be fast. Besides, we both got off. What is the difference if it's two minutes or twenty?" I ask. I really can't see what the big deal is. We both enjoyed it. We both orgasmed. I mean, if we were in it for love, I may be mad. We are in it for sex, and it was good sex. Period.
"Oh, there is a difference." He growls as he makes it to the door. I watch as he places his hands on it and tries to open the automatic door. Nothing. "Look... The last car is leaving." He points out. I begin jumping and waving my arms. "They'll never see you. And I bet if I open this, the alarm will go off." He points out. I frown as I look at the door.
"You're probably right." I agree as I look around for some other option. Apparently I think they are floating in the air tonight. "Well, one thing-" I say as I look at the security camera and wave at the door. "At least they can see that we tried to get out." I say with a shrug as I shake my head.
"What the hell... If we are going to be here, we may as well have fun." He says as he grabs my arm and pulls me. I don't know were we are going, but Derek always shows me a good time. I follow him down the aisles and smile when I realize what we are doing. "Yeah?"
"Yeah!" I tell him as I accept a bike. What is better than riding down the aisles of a huge store, with no one is your way? "This is- Yeah." I mutter as I climb on and ride off down the aisle, taking a sharp left.
"I never thought I'd be doing this." Derek laughs as he cruises up alongside me. We slowly ride down the main aisle, making our way to the end and then cutting down a few side aisles.
"Can we get in trouble?" I ask him as I look around. We are riding bikes. That is definitely not waiting by the door, begging someone to let us out.
"I think as long as we don't destroy or steal we are good." He tells me. "I have a feeling no one will even know we were here. We'll put stuff back ad leave early in the morning. They probably thought my car broke down. If they see us on tape, they can't identify us. We will just avoid this place for awhile." He says as he make it to the other end of the store. "I bet I can kick your ass." Derek says as he gets into race stance. I look over at him.
"It's on!" I tell him with a nod. "Three, two, one...Go!" I shout as I begin pedaling. I have horse riding legs. They are hard as rocks. I know I can beat him. I dig in with all my might, looking over. We are neck and neck. "No way will you win!" I say loudly as I put in the extra effort and breeze past him.
"Wow... I'm shocked. You're....fast." He says as he comes to a breathless stop.
"Yeah, I guess I could have warned you." I say with a giggle as I ride to put my bike back. It is getting old quick. Derek places the bikes back up and grabs an oversized ball, bouncing it at me. "I used to love playing four-square." I tell him with a nod. "I haven't played in a long time.
"Me either. I always had the advantage." He says with a smirk as he looks me in the eyes.
"Long arms." I point out. He nods and chuckles. He does have really long arms, but big guys have big arms, I guess. I purposely throw the ball at him rough, but he easily gets it back to me. I shake my head. How does he always come out on top? "I'm tired." I mutter, realizing how exhausted I am.
"We cold sleep." Derek says as he grabs the ball and puts it back. I watch as he goes and aisle over, me following him. Derek grabs a thick sleeping bag and grins. I will take it. At this moment, I will take anything.
"Now we have to find a place to sleep." I point out as I look around. "We could do the floor."
"No, there were some lounge chairs. Let's do those. They have thick cushions in the other department." He explains as he walk. Derek quickly gathers all our necessary sleeping materials. I look at the two chairs. They have never been so inviting. "You take that one, I'll take this one." He says as he points to my chair, which is identical.
"Sounds good." I tell him as I spread out my blanket. I lay down, watching him do the same. I close my eyes for a moment, and then look over at him. I am surprised that he had been watching me. As I look into his eyes, I want to tell him. I'm ready to tell him my secret. Should I?
There is a moment before you release a secret. It's a time when you can't breathe. It's a time when you a wracked with fear. You don't know if what you are doing is right or wrong. You won't know until you do it. Some secrets are nothing, while others may be life shattering. The only way you know what will happen is after it has happened. Sometimes that it too late.
"He said he loved me." I spit out. Okay there is no going back now. I have opened my mouth and let it all out. Well, not all of it, but I did let something out. I let out enough that I will have to elaborate.
"What?" Derek asks. If I thought he really didn't hear me, I would drop it as quickly as I can. I am sure he heard it, and now he is going to wonder no matter what.
"He said he loved me." I repeat once again. And he did. Jack said he loved me, and I took it to heart. I really believed it.
"Who said they loved you? Oh God.... You aren't seeing someone, are you? We said we wouldn't do that, Mer." Derek says quickly. I can see that he is upset at the possibility that I have cheated on someone with him. "Shit..."
"No, Derek. No. I am not seeing someone! God! Who do you think I am?" I growl, in shock that he would say that. "No."
"Then what are you talking about?" He asks with confusion in his voice. I draw in a breath and shake my head. I don't want to tell him. Now, I really just don't want to tell him.
"Eh... Damn you." I say as if it is his fault. It is my fault for opening my mouth. And now, I must tell him. "He said he loved me." I repeat as I think back.
[i]I'm scared. I'm so scared. I'm not ready for this. The first kiss was enough. The first kiss from Jack was everything. It was so amazing. It was magical. But apparently, it was not enough. It is never enough. Now Jack wants more. He wants the next level. He wants sex. And I am scared. I want to do it for him, but I don't want to do it. I just want him to like me. Love me, even.
My mom is always at work. I never see her at home. That is what makes this so easy. So simple and yet so life changing. I lay back on my bed and look at Jack. I just want him to be happy. This will make him happy. He will know that I am committed. I don't want to do this, but I have to. I have to.
"I'm not sure..." I say as he lifts my shirt over my head. This is the most he has seen of me, and I can feel the butterflies filling my stomach.
"Oh, come on, Mer. You said you loved me. If you love me, you'll do this. It's not bad, I promise. You'll like it. You won't ever want to stop. Come on, Mer. You will do it if you love me." He tells me. Maybe he is right. All I ever wanted was to be loved. He wants to love me. He does love me. I can make him happy, and he will love me.
"Do you love me?" I ask him, hoping and praying that he will say yes. I need him to say yes. I need him to need me. I need him to want me.
"Of course I do. And you love me. That is why we need to do this. That way you know I love you, and you love me." He tells me with a huge nod as he pulls his shirt over his head and tosses it. I look at his chest and smile slightly as he leans down and works on my pants. "Don't worry, this will be fun." He says with a smirk as he pulls his own pants down. I look at him in shock. I have never see it like that. His cock is hard and looking at me.
"Jack, I'm scared." I tell him with a frown. Maybe this is a bad idea. I don't want to do this. I'm afraid to do it. I'm only fourteen. I'm just fourteen. I watch as he rolls a condom on himself. "I'm not sure I can do this. Not yet."
"Oh relax, Mer. It will be good. Now spread your legs." He tells me as he pushes me back and helps me, scooting me forward towards him. "Oh yeah..." He groans as he pulls me and slides in.
"Ow!" I scream as I feel him ripping inside of me. "It hurts!"
"Just lay there and be quiet. It will stop." He says as he runs his cock in and out of my virgin pussy.
It takes my breath away. It hurts. I can't believe how much it hurts. I don't want to do this, but he doesn't care. I don't want to do this, but it isn't up to me. I just want him to love me, and this is my way to secure his love. If I told him to stop, he would be mad at me. I just lay there and wince as I feel the pain.
"Oh, that was good." Jack says with a grin as he pulls out. I look at him in shock. It was fast. Really fast. And I felt nothing but pain.
"I love you." I say as I look up at him. He looks down at me and begins laughing. He is laughing at me. "You love me, right?" I ask, so unsure of myself. Unsure of my feelings and my confidence.
"Are you kidding me?" He asks as he jumps off the bed and laughs in my face. "Mer, you are so stupid. I just wanted to fuck you. I don't love you." He says as he pulls up his pants and tosses the condom on the floor. I watch as he pulls his cellphone out of his pocket and dials. "And you weren't very good, either. What a lousy fuck." He says as he walks out. I can hear him down the hall, bragging to someone.
I feel a knot in my stomach. I just gave him everything I had, and he tossed it. It meant nothing to him. I loved him, and all he wanted was sex. He just took my world and tossed it. Apparently I am not worth loving. Even when I gave him everything he wanted and everything I had, I was unworthy of him. I am disgusting.
"I will never love again." I mutter as I begin to sob. If that is love, I don't want it.[/i]
I don't say a word as I roll over away from Derek. I told him the story, but right now I can't tell him anything else. I can't bear to tell him anything else. I know he is sitting there in shock, just staring. I just thank God he didn't say anything. He didn't say a word.