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A/N This chapter might be confusing. It almost runs at the same pace as the last chapter, only from Bella's perspective.

Chapter 6

BPOV

"It frustrates me that I have all these words inside of me
that you will never get to hear."
Absentions, Silence

I hadn't made it very far when a large black wolf walked in front my car. It had been so long since I'd seen the wolves I was momentarily dazed. The last time had been in the field with Laurent, I didn't exactly stop to take in their beauty. They were massive to be sure, but I no longer feared them. I stopped my vehicle and got out of the car carefully. I moved towards the back and peered into the window checking on Lizzie in her rear facing seat. She was still sleeping.

Somehow in the time it took me to check on her the wolf and turned back into its human counterpart.

"Bella." Sam's tone was rich and smooth.

I turned to face him narrowing my eyes, "Yes?" I asked crossing my arms across my chest defensively.

Now that I was away from Emily's soothing presence and their sweet son, my anger at Sam filled me. I peeked again at Lizzie out of the corner of my eye and had to count to 10 slowly in my head.

"You can't leave yet, you see, Jake needs to see you first." Sam's words were mumbled like he was trying to tell me something but couldn't. The look of discomfort etched into his face brought me a sense of satisfaction and then guilt. Is this because he is under some kind of gag order?

"Does it have to do with the fact that Carlisle and Alice Cullen are in town?" I asked raising an eyebrow in challenge.

Sam's mouth popped open in awe as he eyed me with admiration, "Did you invite them?"

I couldn't help the laughter that bubbled out of me, "I haven't seen them in over 3 years." I told him honestly, "I don't care to either."

Sam seemed to ponder my words and he walked towards me with his hands slightly raised. This man who could turn into a HUGE wolf was approaching me as though I was the dangerous one. I wondered idly if he could see the fire behind my eyes that was directed at him. However there seemed to be bigger fish to fry at the moment.

"Can we go back to Jake's?" his words were plaintive. He didn't want to fight me, and I had Lizzie to think of.

I considered for a minute and decided if and only IF Jake was honest with me would I stay any longer than I needed to.

"Get in." I told him with a sigh.

He quickly climbed into my vehicle and I got behind the wheel. I let out a deep sigh.

"Look Sam, I get you thought you were being protective, and I want to forgive you. I just can't yet. One day when I can think more clearly you and I are going to have it out."

"I'll deserve it." He told me darkly.

It didn't take long to get back to Billy's and by that time little Lizzie seemed wide awake.

"Hungy Momma. Hungy." she whined.

I smiled indulgently and released her from the confines of the car seat and reentered Billy's house. Upon entering he wheeled over, his weather lined face drawn in concern. I felt drained.

"GWAMPA!" she exclaimed, "HUNGY!"

This little girl so full of life could make even the most stressful situation lighter.

"Well your Mama made some very tasty stew, would you like to eat with me?" he asked.

She giggled and reached for him with grabby little hands. I leaned down and made sure the transfer was easy. "Do you mind?" I asked him.

"No, you're both welcome as long as you'd like." he smiled his eyes twinkling.

I watched him go about getting two bowls of stew and smiled when he put Lizzie's in the fridge. It was something I would always do, to ensure her meal was cooled down faster.

With Lizzie taken care of all I could do was try to imagine why the Cullen's were in town and what exactly it had to do with me. It had to have had something to do with me or Jake wouldn't want me to stay on the Res. Would he be honest with me and tell me what's going on? Or would he be like Edward and decide I was safer if I didn't know all the details?

I frowned as the thoughts bounced around my head. I reached up rubbing my temples.

"I'm going for a walk to clear my head." I announced, and before I could say another word Billy cut me off.

"We'll be fine here."

The words were reassuring as I walked out the door and headed to the back of the house. I paused in the location Jacob had broken my heart. I knew logically that he was bound to lie. I wanted to hate Sam, but he was looking out for his people. Besides how responsible could a girl who ran with vampires be?

I noticed Sam keeping me within his line of vision and I was too mentally exhausted to be angry about it.

I sat cross legged on the ground holding my knees to my chest; I don't know how long I was there lost in my own dark thoughts.

"I went to your house late that night." Jake's husky voice sounded from behind me, making me jump. I let out a squeal and scampered to my feet.

Once my heart rate settled down I pushed myself up to look at him. "What?"

"I went to your house. I was going to try to find a way to get around Sam's Alpha orders." He frowned and little crease appeared on his brow, "Charlie gave me your note and I was crushed. I was too late. I was going to try to make you remember, because if you guessed..." he trailed off his deep brown eyes haunted with sadness, "It wouldn't have mattered. You would have understood…"

I looked into his pained bright eyes and I couldn't be mad at Jake anymore. Besides how many men would welcome you and a child with open arms. There were a lot of crappy guys in the world and Jake had always been my sun. His words had hurt and cut me to the quick, but they weren't his words.

"I forgive you." I whispered, "I did a long time ago... For the record I did figure it out too." I sighed kicking a rock, "But I wasn't sure if you would talk to me..."

He pulled me into his warm embrace and he smelt of pine and sweat and it was so warm it comforted me. We stayed that way for a minute before I pulled back my eyes filled with so many questions.

"Let's go sit over there, and I'll fill you in." he pointed.

I followed him to a small bench that was just behind the house. We sat in an awkward silence.

"You better just tell me." I told him.

"The Cullen's the little Pixie and the Doc are in town, they're looking for you..."

"WHAT!? WHY?" I asked effectively cutting Jacob off.

He smiled ruefully, "Shall I continue?"

Huffing I nodded my consent and tried to keep myself quiet.

"They were asking for permission to change you..." he paused, his eyes meeting mine.

Rage. Change me? I stayed silent my lips pressed into a hard line.

"They wanted me to amend the treaty, which I did. I told them you would have to ask for it, you would have to want it. It was to be your choice. They couldn't bribe you or threaten you..."

I was completely taken aback, "So you told them if I say, hey y'all I know you left me for dead, but I really want you to change me into a vampire... you would allow it?"

"Yes." he nodded once.

I studied Jacob thoughtfully, he had certainly grown up. On impulse I leaned forward and kissed his cheek, "I appreciate you giving me a choice, but I don't want to be one of them. I have Lizzie and I'd like to... I don't know maybe have more someday... I don't want to live forever and watch everyone I love die..."

Tears leaked out of the corners of Jacob's eyes and I could tell what those words meant to him.

"I didn't mean to keep you detained on the Res, it's just they can't come on our land and they didn't know where you were... So, I didn't know if you would want to see them, but I'm almost sure they were going to go to Charlie's... If you saw them I wanted it to be on your terms."

My heart burst with emotion and I smiled shyly at him, "Jacob Black, you've grown up."

He blushed and I chuckled, "Seems you'll be doing the blushing from now on..."

He was quiet and I appreciated the fact that he was giving me time to absorb this new information, the funny part was I didn't need time. Over the past 3 years I had played out scenario after scenario... Most involved being with Jacob... The Cullen's … as the years went by became less complicated.

"I want to see them." I announced to Jacob, "I want to tell them to rot in hell!" the vehemence in which I spoke made my body shake.

Jake stood and walked around to me. "When?" he asked, with a mischievous glint in his eyes.

"Now." I growled, "Right now."

Trying to figure out how to get to the Cullen's was the hard part. So I had Jacob take me to the woods behind their old house. I knew they would be able to hear us. But I knew I had to get this over with. I stood at Jacob's side, as an equal. It was a new sensation, though not unpleasant.

I wasn't sure I was going to be able to ask him, when he walked into the woods and a few second later a Russet colored wolf emerged where Jake had been.

"You're beautiful." I told Jake running my hands through his thick silky fur.

He kneeled down and his head cocked to one side. Giggling I clambered onto his back, withOUT falling and straddled his back.

The ride through the woods was exhilarating. The wind on my face and through my hair had me feeling alive. I wasn't afraid.

When we got to the tree line Jake changed back and pulled on a pair of shorts and we walked into the large sprawling backyard.

"You wanna talk? Let's talk." I said in a loud controlled voice.

Within seconds Alice's Cullen was standing in front of me. Having had 3 years apart it was eerie that she looked exactly the same. It was like the blinders had been taken off and somewhere along the line my self-preservation had kicked in.

"Bella!" her voice tinkled excitedly, "We have so much to catch up on, but really we have forever, come, on." she reached for me bouncing excitedly.

I took a step back from her incredulous, "No."

She stopped her face pinched in confusion. "Bella come on."

Was I a dog or a pet?

"I'm not some puppy you can order around." I told her through gritted teeth, besides I'm not going anywhere with you."

"Stop being impossible!" she whined.

Jacob growled under his breath, but made no other sounds.

"Impossible? ME!?" I shrieked, "You guys all fucking left me! I have nothing to say to any of you. In fact you can all go straight to hell. I will NOT now or EVER be a vampire."

My face was flushed and my breathing rough.

"You'll change your mind." She assured me.

"No, I won't." I told her, "You've seen me and for the remainder of the time I'm here, no matter the length will be spent in La Push. I don't ever wish to see you again."

"Bella, we're sisters." She simpered.

I rolled my eyes and shook my head. "We were almost sisters once." I told her softly, "You guys… You left me. I didn't leave, YOU did. I moved on. Isn't that what Edward wanted? I'm living a perfectly happy human life just fine."

"If you were to ever reconsider…" Carlisle chimed in, his inhumanly perfect face filled with compassion.

"I won't."

I turned on my heel grabbing Jacob's hand.

The adrenaline I felt coursing through me was unlike anything I'd ever felt before. I didn't see if Alice was going to try to stop us. I kept going not looking back because honestly, why would I look back? I was done with the Cullen's.

Jacob and I walked across the treaty line and I sagged against him, "You don't mind if I crash with you?"

"I'd love for you to stay with me." he responded thickly.

A/N

I might update a second time this weekend if I have some time. The reason for the double update is because I will be unable to update next week. I'll be having surgery on Wednesday and I'll be under narcotics and while it might be amusing, I don't want to risk it. :P

-Tabby