Abel and the girls were quick at the house, in and out. They said they were going back to meet Jax cause he had plans for them for the day. While I had some concern, they weren't scared little children anymore I had some faith that Jax had done some growing in 15-years. Probably not, but keep the faith, right?
"Does being a parent ever get easier?" Amanda grunted, looking down at her phone.
I chuckled, shaking my head. "I don't think so. It hasn't for me. What's your dilemma?"
"Fucking Raven," she pressed send and tossed her phone down on the table. "She's been dating this crazy psycho girl for about a year now and they've been fighting like crazy. Raven said she's gonna have to come stay here for a while cause she's not gonna fight Cassie over their apartment. I thought having a lesbian as a daughter would mean less drama."
I laughed, cause I knew how that was. My youngest sweet little flower child was very into the ladies, and I thought the sme thing. "It's more drama!" She threw her hands in the air agreeing with me. "But I mean, two women? Come on, we should have known." We both laughed together for a minute. I went back to browsing through photo albums. I was really going to have to show these to the kids eventually, cause there were so many memories.
Of course, I'd have to take a few pictures out to avoid suspicious questions I didn't want to answer for them.
I opened a third album, pictures from our wedding first up.
"God, I was so fat."
Amanda rolled her eyes, peering over at the picture. "You were fucking pregnant, not fat."
"I miss being pregnant. I always loved it." I ran my fingers over the picture of me, Jax and Abel, little Nova growing in my tummy. It blew my mind thinking about all the time that's passed by and how things have changed.
"Ope and I tried for a few years for a baby, but it never happened. I'm kind of glad though. I don't know how you did it by yourself with 3. Toby and Raven were enough." She leaned back in her chair, reading another text message from Raven I was assuming. "Well we're gonna have a very full house for the next two weeks."
"Manda, we can get a hotel."
She immediately objected, shaking her head. "Absolutely fucking not. I'm gonna see if Toby would mind Abel staying with him or something."
I rolled my eyes. "I'm sure Nova wouldn't mind." Whether they realized it or not, I noticed last night that they hit it off. I saw that look in her eyes; that same dangerous look I used to give her father. Just two weeks, Mom. What's the worst that could happen? My sons words echoed through my head. A lot, was the correct answer. I wish I could have erased their memories completely so I never had to worry about any of this.
"Let's hope not. That girl doesn't need wrapped up in Charming drama. As much as I missed you and them, you guys were better off far away from this place."
I laughed. "You're telling me."
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THIRD PERSON POV
Abel, Nova and Alex met Jax back at the clubhouse just like they agreed. He was ouside, smoking a cigarette and bullshitting with Toby while he worked on one of the bikes. Nova wanted to hop out and go talk to him but decided not to. She wouldn't want to leave, and today she was speding time with dad and siblings; she had a lot of time left to spend here with Toby.
"Park your truck over there," Jax pointed to the back of the lot. "We're gonna take my car." The girls got out and headed over, hopping into Jaxs Escalade. Abel parked his truck where his father told him, and then climbed in shotgun. Jax peered in his rearview, seeing the girls. A smile lined his face. "It's crazy that the last time I had you kids in a car with me, you were all in car seats still pretty much."
"So where are we going?" Alex asked, looking around as they pulled out of the parking lot.
"A few places," Jax threw his cigarette out the window and rolled it up. "We're gonna go visit your Gramma first, though." Though they'd be visiting more than that.
"The cemetary?" Nova questioned. "Wicked." Typical.
The family pulled into the cemetary, parking the vehicle off to the side. Jax hopped out, the kids following behind him. He began walking over to a set of tombstones, stopping when he reached the first one.
"Your Gramma would be really proud at how you kids have grown up." Jax brushed his hand against the cold marble.
"Who's John?" Abel asked, looking at the stone directly next to Gemma's.
"That's my dad. He passed away when I was young. He'd be happy to see all of you, too, I'm sure." Jax smiled a bit, thinking of how different things would be if his mother and father were still alive.
"What was Gramma like?" Alex asked, not able to remember her at all.
"Awesome!" Nova and Abel replied at the same thing, turning to each other and letting out a small chuckle.
Alex sighed, so frustrated that she couldn't remeber any of this.
"Now," Jax had thought this through a million and one times, and he always came to the same conclusion. "There's someone else here I think you guys need to meet, too." He walked a few plots down and up a row, to a fimiliar name. "Guys, this is your brother."
All of their faces were undescribable and confused.
"We had a brother?" Abel questioned, trying to remember. "He was only a year younger than Nova."
"Why didn't Mom ever tell us we had another brother?" Alex asked, not sure how to feel about this. Jax sighed and crossed his arms, sitting down on the ground infront of his sons burial place.
"Because it was my fault he died, and she didn't want you guys to know that." But Jax did. He wanted to make sure when his family left Charming this time, they would never want to come back.
"How was it your fault he died?" Both girls asked in unicine.
"Well.. I was on drugs really bad at the time and your mom was busting her ass taking care of you and Abel," he motioned to Nova. "And I was cheating on her. She caught me cheating and lost her mind and it sent her into early labor with him. He was so early he passed away only a few minutes after we was born." Jax felt tears well up in his eyes, ready to burst, but he stopped them. His children weren't going to see him cry, that was damn sure.
"Why wouldn't Mom tell us that? That's fucked up that she would keep that from us. Wow." Was Nova Rae's reply. Jax shook his head.
"Do you ever give her a fucking break?" he shot at his middle daughter, standing up and heading back over to the car. "Let's fucking go." He had finally realized what he left Logan to deal with, and he had never felt worse. If he was there all those years those kids would have never spoken to or about their mother like that. She had done way too much for all of them for that to happen. Jax got in and locked the doors, so his kids couldn't get in while he made a phone call. They all three just stood there, giving him a confused look.
"Hello?" Logan answered, her and Amanda pausing their conversation.
"Hey.." Jax wasn't sure how to say it, so he just came out and said it. "I think it's time to tell Abel the truth. I'm telling him today, Logan. He deserves to know."
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Logans POV
I dropped my phone straight down on the ground, feeling my body go cold and numb. I was started to shake beyond my control, and I just wanted to scream. My eyes welled up so full of tears, they over flowed and poured out without me even having to blink.
"What's wrong?" Amanda asked, laying her hand on my shoulder.
"Jax wants to tell Abel. He wants to tell him I'm not his biological mother."
Amanda gave me the saddest look I think anyone could give another person.
"What're you going to do?" she asked me.
I quickly stood up and grabbed my phone off the floor. Jax had already ended the call, so I was guessing I didn't have a whole lot of time. I gathered my things up, grabbing my purse, keys and cigarettes.
"I gotta go." I told her through my tears. "I need to stop this. Or be there for this. Fuck I don't know what I'm going to do, or what I should do. I just don't fucking know." I opened her door, standing there for a minute. "22 years are about to go down the drain." I told her and I left. I don't think I had even driven so fast in Charming in my life. I got to the Club House in 15 minutes, seeing Jaxs car and bike already there, no one in sight. I was out of my car before it had even come to a complete stopping, leaving my keys inside of it. I didn't care.
I absolutely lost my mind when I walked into the club house and saw Jax sitting a table with all of our children, looking more serious than I had ever seen him.
"Oh, hey Mom!" Abel said. That was a good sign. "Dad was just telling us he had something he needed to tell us. Well, me I guess."
"Jax." It barely came out, it was mousey and high pitched. I ran my hand through my hair, letting out a big breath. "Please." I begged at him. He stood up from the table and walked over to me, urshering me into the meeting room. "Don't tell him." I begged as soon as we got inside.
"Logan," he looked at the ground for a second. "He deserves to know the truth. Especially with her being around here. Would you rather her tell him?" That sent electricity up my spine, striking awake some type of evil and hate I've never felt.
"Fuck no!" I shouted.
"Then we need to tell him."
I kicked the bottom of the door, making it shake. He was right. And I hated that more than anything. Without another word we both walked out and I pulled up a chair, sitting down next to him.
"Are you gonna tell us what's going on?" Alex asked, leaning back in her chair.
I let out another big breath.
"We have something we need to tell your brother.." And a few tears rolled out again.
"Mom," he reached across the table and grabbed my hand. "What's wrong? Are you okay?"
I couldn't do this. I didn't want to do this. I just looked over to Jax, and he knew what it meant.
"Abel," he started. "Your mom and I remember the day you were born just like it was yesterday." he smiled at that, and so did the girls cause the same was true for both of them as well. "It was a crazy day, but a great day. You were born, and your mom came home to live for the first time in 4 years."
His expression changed to confused. "What?" he laughed out. Nova chuckled with him. "That doesn't make any sense."
"Abel," I opened up. "I'm... I'm not your real mother."
"What." It was dull and dark; I had never seen this emotion come from him before. Fuck.
Thank you guys so much for being patient with me! Vacation was GREAT. We had a blast, and Nova loved the beach and meeting my husbands family! She's for sure a water and beach baby, no doubt. However, it's back to the real world now. The school year is coming to an end, so I'll be a little busy until the end of this month, but will try to get a much done and posted as possible, when I can. I love all of you!
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