Chapter Two

One Year Later...

I had become a receptionist at a medical office working morning monday through friday, completely moved out of my mom's house finally. All on my own, even though my heart still bears the scars of leaving behind the man i love last year. I still wish some days, I had tried to fix what we had. I knew deep down that it wasn't fixable really. I mean I would always be thinking he was with someone else. That's no way for a relationship to go.

"Did you get those files put away Grace?" My boss said as he looked down at a file from a new patient.

"Yeah and your 2:00 patient is here to see you as well." I said typing on the computer's keyboard trying to push back the memories that seemed to wanna float back into my life. No I won't rewind and go back. I closed that chapter of my life and i intend to keep that. Just thinking about that made me get depressed. I haven't been with anyone since Dave and it's better that way I think. Personally, It's better to live without all the heartache and tough break-ups that come along in a relationship.

"You always look so beautiful." A voice said sweetly to me.

That voice. Where have i heard it before. My mind scanned through my brains files looking for an answer, but couldn't find one. I need to see the face. See who this person was. Fear creeped in me slowly. Making my stomach ache softly.

"If you do this, there's no going back!" A voice echoed in my brain.

I realize this, but my curousity got the best of me. So my eyes dragged from the computer screen to the face that stood in front of me. Almost instantly regretting what I'm doing. I'm a grown women who has more self control than most my age. Usually, girls my age like to party hard at the college dorms and get in big trouble. I'm not like that. I'm a planned person. Every moment of life has been planned since the day I entered high school. College, Marriage, kids, grandkids, and my other half and me sitting on a nice beach with drinks in each hand as we talk about our kids and grandkids.

"Grace will you log in Mr. Batista's information in for me, so that I can bring him back please." Sean (my boss) asked me quickly, before, walking away.

Great. Just when I think my life is on track, Dave comes right back in it. Things happen for a reason. I know this we broke up for a reason.

"Don't get any ideas. Your here for a patient visit and that's it."I said moving away from my desk and grabbing the stack of files that sat on the corner of my desk. I walked over to the filing cabinet and gentle pulled on the handle. I noticed that my hand was starting to sweat really bad. Ugh. Great. This is all I need right now. My heart can't let go and I can't seem to be stop wanting to think about him. I miss him. Even though, I've told myself that I don't miss him. I tried so hard to build up walls to keep him out. He knew how fragile I was! I told him when we get together that I will not tolerate being lied to or cheated on. I know how it feels to have your world come crashing down around you and all you can do is watch. Watch the person you've been with for over two years walk away for some chick that thinks she can have anyrhing she wants. It was before Dave.

I'm not saying what I did was right either. But what else could I do? What could have fixed it? I didn't have the answers nor the time to think about it. I can't too much work to be done today.

"How you been?" He asked me softly.

My hands stopped putting away the files and my head raised back up. This isn't normal right? To me, it feels awkward. Seeing him after a year when I walked away. I changed my number and car. I had to. From what I heard Dave had a nervous breakdown and went off to himself. He wouldn't talk to anyone. Yes, it made me feel bad, but It was for the best. Who wants a relationship that they have to all the time worry about? I don't. It's not worth being unhappy and always on the edge with questions. Where have you been? What took you so long?

"Been good, staying busy. How about you? I asked staring at the wall waiting for an answer from. My hears couldn't hardly hear because of how fast my heart seemed to beat for him. For his voice, his personality, his kisses.

Stop! The reasonable voice in my head screamed! You don't need to get off balance! The voice was right. I'm finally in a good place in my life. I don't need a man to be happy. I've made it this far.

"I'm sorry." He said almost in a whisper, but my hears heard it and my head instantlly turned around for my eyes to meet his beautiful brown eyes that were filled with sorrow and depression. His face showed how much he has missed me this past year.

"Oh Dave." I said moving quickly back to the desk to him. We didn't touch at all, but you could feel the enegry between us. The power we brought when we're togther becomes almost unbearable to everyone else.

That's real love.

Butterflies began to fly around in my stomach and a smile flew on my face, before I could really do anything.

"Can we meet for dinner or my hotel room later to just talk. I won't try anything I promise." He said softly.

"I don't think that would be a good idea." I said slowly looking down at my hands. I can't make contact with his eyes. That would make me feel so guilty and I can't take that chance with him.

Good job I screamed at myself. I'm doing this for both us. Deep down in my heart, it ached and was pushing me to give in. To have dinner with him or just be alone to talk to try and fix things. Once he cheated me, it was over. Cheating on someone is like taking their heart out of their chest and ripping it to tiny pieces. A scar remains now, that only time can heal.

I stopped my eyes from beginning to tear-up. My life is starting to spin out of control again, unless this man gets gone again. Yes, I know that saying that seems harsh, but what else can I say? Nothing he says can make the pain go away? To make me trust him again.

"Please, you can choose the place. I just wanna make things right between us. I've been miserable for a year." He said his voice seemed desperate and like he was almost ready to jump behind my desk.

He wasn't going to give up. Now I finally realized this. It's time to give him what he wants. A chance to talk.

"Ok. We can talk outside." I said stubbornly moving over to my boss and giving him a nod. He gave me an ok look. I slipped out into the waiting room and headed toward the door feeling Dave follow behind me.

The warm air made me feel goosebumps form on my skin. I kinda of forgot what the sun can do at times. Feels amazing.

I lead him over to a picnic table area sitting down as i watched him set across from him. He didn't seem to lose anytime from the gym though. Still all muscle. Stop thinking about that.

"Start talking." I said looking at the trees as the wind blow the leave soflty.

"Look, I'm sorry. What I did was completely wrong and I understand that. I'm terribly sorry. Trust me on this. I am. It was an awful one night mistake. I don't know what all you heard, but I would have never left you. "He said standing up now and moving over to in front of me now.

"I know that you can never trust me like you use to. You may never want to be with me again. I do love you. I love you more than you'll ever know. I haven't been with a single person. I'm like a zombie at work and either the hotel or home. I don't go out. It's all because I lost the most important thing in my life. I'm not asking for another chance. I'm just asking for you to forgive me." He said looking down at my hands, before bringing one up to his lips and kissing the top of my hand softly.

My heart was pounding so hard and loud that the entire world was blocked out except me and him. It's like time has stopped for us. When I finally looked up at him, tears formed slowly in my eyes. I could see though, that he gave me this chance to speak now.

"You hurt me far more than you can ever imagine. I trusted you with everything in me and you betrayed me. You had every chance to say! To walk away! Randy use to hit on me all the time and I always walked away! You chose her. Instead of me. You wanted her! You wanted something different! Because honetly if you satisfied, you would have walked away from her! Me and you wouldn't be here right now! Maybe this is fate's weird way of telling us that we don't belong together." I said finally taking a deep breath and running my hand through my hair. My angry has found a new level.

"I was more than satisfied with you! We always made the best love that I had ever had. Don't think for one second that I wasn't satisfied. I don't know what happened that night. I knew that if I was to tell you that you would leave without letting me explain. I just could never find the perfect time to tell you." He said moving over to me and taking my shoulders in his eyes. My eyes dragging up to look into his brown eyes. His eyes seemed honest right now as did the facial expression that was on his face.

"Your right. Once a upon a time, I explaned to you that I was not going to take it, if you was to cheat on me. I was being honest. I don't want a relationship where I'm constantly wondering where you are and what your doing. Before you can ask, Yes I have been alone for this entire year! I have been missing you every second of every day! I still love you, but that doesn't change anything!" I said pushing him away. Right now, I dont want him close. My heart began to feel butterflies all over for him.

"I just want you to know that I'm sorry. I want another chance so bad that my heart aches for you. I just want to wake up beside you every morning and be able to call you mine. To have you as my wife. Will you give me another chance Grace?" He asked me softly coming back over to me and leaning in toward me meeting my lips against his, before I could answer his back.

Should they get back together?! Review please! Sorry for the slow chapter! Ive been super busy.