Trying to stop but is it for real
Ed's P.O.V.
I was speechless, he had actually confessed he loved me and kissed me. I didn't know what to think or why my heart was pounding. And before I knew it I was jumping up and hugged him tightly not wanting to let go of this happy feeling that was inside me.
"I love you too." I whispered to him.
He hugged me back and we stayed like that for a while before he pulled back and pulled me off the ground letting me sit on the couch next to him.
"Are you okay?" he asked me.
"Yeah." I laid my head on his lap while he petted my head and we stayed that way for a while until we heard a knock at the door which made me sit up and Roy walked over to the door and opened it to reveal Riza.
"Sir, I have some papers that you need to look over and sign." She said handing him the papers and leaving not even noticing me on the couch. Roy shut the door and walked over to his desk and sighed as he sat down and started looking through the papers.
"I think I'll go back to my room." I said getting up and walking towards the door.
"Ok but Ed remember I'll be wanting to check your arm for any new cuts so please try not to."
I nodded and left out the door and down the hall into the dorms and went into my room walking over to the bed laying down. I sat up a minute taking off my boots and laying back down relaxing, soon falling asleep.
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I slowly opened my eyes, got up and looked around the room at the clock to see it was 8:00 a.m. and about time for me to go see Roy. Then suddenly memories of what happened yesterday came to mind, I had cried and confessed to Roy that I cut myself and he told me he loved me and I said it back. But did he really mean what he said or did he just say that to make me feel better? Doubts filled my mind about Roy and I got sadder by every bad thought of him not really loving me. I pulled out my blade and held it in my hand for a minute before realizing that he would check my arm so I couldn't cut on my arm. So I pulled up my pants leg to my flesh leg and put the blade to my skin, I quickly made a nice long cut down my leg. I pulled back the blade setting it on the bed and watched as the blood ran down my leg onto the floor. I sighed, relaxing as I walked over to the bathroom and got a towel wiping the blood off my leg and not if even bothering to bandage it pulled down my pants leg, putting on my boots I walked out the door. Going down the hall I stopped in front of Roy's office and knocked.
"Come in." I heard him say and I opened the door and walked in closing it behind me.
I noticed that no one but Roy was in the office as I walked closer to his desk. He looked up from his papers and smiled a little at seeing me. I got up and walked over and held out his hand, knowing what he wanted I held out my arm to him and he pulled up my sleeve and sighed at seeing no new scars.
"I don't see any new cuts, lift up your shirt" he said letting go of my arm.
"What!"
"Your arm isn't the only place you can cut yourself you know." I said and I sighed and lifted up my shirt and he looked at my stomach making me blush slightly but it went away we he looked back up at me.
"Good well just to make sure I want to check you everyday."
"Why, don't you trust me?" I asked him.
"Can you promise me that you want do it anymore?" he asked.
I just looked down not saying anything knowing I couldn't keep that promise cause I had already cut my leg this morning which was started to hurt putting pressure on it.
"I thought so."
"Can I go now?" I asked looking back up at him.
"I suppose."
I turned around and started walking towards the door when pain shot through my leg making me limp slightly, I hoped Roy didn't notice but he did.
"Ed what's wrong with your leg, your limping."
"Nothing's wrong." I said quickly making him even more suspicious.
"Come here."
I sighed and turned around walking back over to him sitting on the couch.
"Lift up your pants leg."
I didn't say anything but I lifted it up to show him, reveal the bloody cut going down my leg. I looked up at him to see his eyes wide with shock.
"Ed…why did you do this to yourself?" he asked me looking up to meet my eyes.
"Because of yesterday when you said you loved me and I started to have doubts about what you said and I got real sad thinking you only said that to make me feel better." I explained to him now having tears streaming down my face.
"Edward…I meant what I said." I started to cry more and he pulled me over to him and hugged me tight while I cried on his shoulder. He pulled me away and leaned down and kissed me on lips and that stopped my tears and I slowly kissed back. He ran his tongue across my closed lips and I hesitated but opened my mouth letting his tongue enter my mouth. After about a minute he pulls back and smiles at me and smiled back.
"Come on let's go clean and bandage that cut."
I just nodded and followed him out the door and down the hall towards my door. We walked in and closed the door behind me and walked over sitting on the bed and pulled up my pants leg as he got a cold wet rag and bent down and put the rag on my cut. It hurt for him to clean it but it started feeling better when he wrapped it up. When he finished he put away the bandages and I laid down on the bed relaxing. He came back out and walked over to me kissing me on the forehead and I smiled at him.
"I have to be going back to work now but I want you to get some rest and then get something it eat later ok." He asked me as he stroked my cheek before pulling back.
"Ok I will, promise." I said closing my eyes and slowly drifting off to sleep as he smiled one more time before leaving the room.
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Well how was it? I know I haven't updated this story in like forever but I finally got around to typing it so I hope it was good! Please review for me!