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Chapter 4

Bella's POV

I just stared at the table after Edward had left the room. I felt my eyes fill up with traitor tears. Stupid, stupid I said to myself I shouldn't have started to have feelings for him when I knew he couldn't possibly return them.

Alice grabbed my arm and said to me gently "I'm sorry Bella. H…he has some…problems don't take it personally please".

This intrigued me. What possible problems could this beautiful boy have?

"What do you mean?"

"Well" she said hesitating for a moment "he..."

"He's a jerk" Rosalie interrupted suddenly. I looked up at her surprised she looked murderously angry

"Rose" Alice said loudly "No Bella he's not he's just…hard to get to know…once you start to break through his barriers he closes them right back up again" She said sadly

"Alice you have to stop defending him…look at the way he treats you and your whole family he takes you all for granted and doesn't appreciate anything your parents have done for him" Rose said getting angrier by the second. "If it wasn't for them he would be stuck in some orphanage somewhere because everyone knows no other family would have adopted him"

Shocked I couldn't believe what Rose was saying. Neither could Alice apparently because I saw the first look of anger on her face. And if I was Rose I would have been scared for my life

"Rose" she said quietly clenching her fists "I know you're my best friend but you have no right to say that about him. No matter what he does he's still my brother and I love him…so don't you dare"

Rose remained silent. I was completely confused I had to find out what was going on. I looked at Alice who was fuming silently. Although I was slightly afraid for my life I decided to ask her.

"Alice" I said quietly and she looked up at me "I don't understand"

She sighed "I know…I'm sorry… well you know both my brothers and I were adopted" I nodded "Well Emmett and I are biological siblings. We had great parents but they both died in a car accident when I was 8" she said sadly

"Oh Alice I'm so sorry" I said sympathetically

She smiled weakly "Thanks Bella…we didn't have any other family so we went to an orphanage but were lucky enough to be adopted by Carlisle and Esme soon after"

"So what happened with Edward" I asked curiously



"He…wasn't lucky enough to have good parents like Emmett and I…he's never talked about it but his case worker told Mum and Dad what she knew. Apparently they were both drug addicts who could barely look after him so they had to leave him with his grandfather a lot. Anyway when he was 8 years old his father committed suicide and his mother couldn't handle everything so she left him"

She looked at the table sadly "He was in an orphanage for about a year until Carlisle and Esme adopted him…we where all quiet and shy when we were first adopted. In mine and Emmett's case because we wanted Mum and Dad to like us…but with Edward he stayed withdrawn never talking about his parents or his home before he was adopted. He comes across often as rude or abrasive" she looked at Rosalie "But I think he's just got issues with other people which I think is understandable after what happened to his parents"

I nodded not knowing what to say.

We all sat in silence for a couple of minutes until Rose broke the silence "Alice…I'm sorry if I what I said upset you but I hate it when he does things like that because I know it hurts you when he doesn't open up to you just as it hurts Emmett"

"I know Rose" Alice said her face softening "But I know he's a decent person under all his facades and I'm not going to give up on him"

Neither was I. I thought to myself

Edward's POV

I walked quickly towards the stairs suddenly losing my appetite. I put the plate down on the table and sat on the bottom stair and put my head in my hands. I knew I had been rude but what confused me was why I felt so bad about it. Normally it wouldn't affect me at all. Of course I didn't like being mean to people but I felt as though I was doing the person a favour…like I was letting them know it wouldn't be good for them to get to know me. But I didn't want Bella to feel that way and that scared the shit out of me.

I could hear their voices coming from the kitchen. Oh God I didn't want to hear what they were telling Bella about me.

I heard Roses' raised voice saying I was a jerk. Well who could argue with that? I wasn't surprised she had never liked me. I was surprised to hear Alice defending me.

"No Bella" she said "he's not he's just…hard to get to know…once you start to break through his barriers he closes them right back up again" she sounded sad. She had always tried to get me to talk more ever since we were kids.

Every time she tried to coax me to tell her about my childhood I always imagined telling her the truth. And the resulting reaction. But I would never do that to her.



"Alice you have to stop defending him…look at the way he treats you and your whole family he takes you all for granted and doesn't appreciate anything your parents have done for him" Rose said with a venomous anger. "If it wasn't for them he would be stuck in some orphanage somewhere because everyone knows no other family would have adopted him"

I felt even sadder I didn't want them to think I was ungrateful because I was eternally so. I just didn't want to burden them with my past

I once again heard Alice defending me saying how Rose didn't have the right to say that about her brother. I quietly headed upstairs having heard enough and went into my room.

I lay down on my bed breathing heavily. I couldn't handle what was happening to me. This thing I felt for Bella was insane and…impossible. Ah I thought angrily to myself what did I think was going to happen? For us to fall in love and live happily ever after? I almost laughed, living happily ever after was not an option for me and I couldn't deny her hers.

Wait what was, I thinking I didn't even know if she felt anything for me. This was ridiculous. As I was thinking my eyes began to droop and I fell fast asleep thinking about Bella.

Bella's POV

Although the mood of the 'girls night' was slightly… less happy after the discussion about Edward. Alice was determined we still have fun. After dinner we moved to the lounge room to watch movies

"Are you serious" Alice asked both her and Rose looking at me with incredulous expressions on their faces.

"Yes" I said nervously why was it such a big deal?

"You have never seen Clueless before? How is that even possible it was only the best movie of the 90's" Rose looked at me so dumbfounded as though she expected me to suddenly tell her I was lying.

I didn't know what to say. But Alice just jumped up grabbing the movie and putting it in the DVD player.

"You'll love it" she said patting me on the arm

And I did. The clothes were a bit dated but I knew it would be a movie I could watch over and over again without getting tired of it.

We watched a few more movies when Alice asked if I wanted to stay the night as it was getting late. I agreed and rang Charlie to tell him I wasn't coming home. Rose left as she said she had to work in the morning.

At around 1 o'clock we made our way to bed. When I walked into Alice's room I was amazed at her room it was huge. Her bed looked about big enough for three people and her walk in wardrobe looked bigger than my room at home.



I was so tired that as soon as my head hit my pillows I was asleep. It felt like I had only been asleep for a moment when I heard screaming coming from down the hall. Shocked I sat straight up.

"Alice" I whispered trying to shake her awake but she didn't wake up. She just rolled over. I got up a walked to the door trying to listen harder.

It sounded like a male voice incoherently yelling out. It sounded like "Nooo, No". Scared I walked slowly out towards the sound. It stopped all of sudden. It had seemed to be coming from the open door at the end of the hall I walked towards it when suddenly a large shape walked out almost bumping straight into me.

"Oh" I said startled jumping back

The moonlight from the window shined onto the shapes face and I could see that it was Edward and he was glaring at me.

Edward's POV

I was sleeping, but I wasn't relaxed I felt the usual nervous anxiousness that I always did in that place. I jumped awake when I felt the cool air touch my recently exposed skin. The blankets had been thrown off of me. Tears ran down my cheeks as I looked up into his face. His eyes just like mine. He smiled at me but there was no love there. Not the love he was supposed to feel for me.

"No, No please…please don't…please…I'll do anything just don't do that to me" I pleaded no hope in my voice I knew it wouldn't stop him.

"Eddie be a good boy...you know you'll like it" he said and I felt like I was going to vomit.

"Nooo, no" I yelled squirming away trying to stop him from touching me.

As I yelled in my dreams I felt the words leave my lips as I jolted awake. I jumped up sweat pouring down my face. I put my face in my hands gripping my hair. I tried to pull myself together when I looked up realising my mistake I had left my door open. I always closed it to prevent anyone hearing me when I had nightmare.

Shit, shit I thought to myself jumping out of bed heading towards the door. Praying no one had heard me. I decided to go get a drink of water so I made my way out of my room. I was horrified when I was leaving to almost bump into something small. The shape jumped backwards and I realised it was Bella. Had she heard me? I glared at her angry that she might have heard me yelling out.

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