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Chapter 16

Edward's POV

I was sleeping restlessly just as I did every night when I had to stay there. I was awoken suddenly by my bedroom door being pushed opened. I opened my eyes and I felt a sob leave my throat. I heard footsteps approaching my bed and heavy breathing. I clenched my eyes shut clinging hopelessly to thought that maybe if he thought I was asleep he would leave. I felt my sheets being pulled back and the cold air hit my skin. I tried to hold back my whimper.

"Eddie" he whispered. I tried to roll further towards the wall, further away from him.

I felt his hands on my arm pulling me back towards him.

"Come on Eddie, you know you want to and you know what will happen if you try to fight it" he threatened as he turned me around to face him.

I knew what would happen; I had the scars on my back to prove it.

"No" I whispered hopelessly as I felt his hand slip into my boxers. I felt tears slipping down my face and I started to sob quietly.

"Please don't" I pleaded with him. As I felt his hand violating me, doing things that not man should be doing to a young boy and I cried silently.

I felt a hand on my chest and someone whispering in my ear as I was pulled from my dream. It couldn't be, I thought panicking, it was impossible. I shuddered and all I could think was no, this couldn't happen. I flung my hand out trying to get whoever it was away from me.

I heard a shriek of pain and my heart stopped when I realised that it was Bella. I had hurt Bella. I jumped up in alarm.

"Bella?" I said my voice shaking in horror, how had I fallen asleep? How could I have done this to her?

"Oh my God I didn't…I thought….I'm sorry" I reached towards her trying to see if she was alright. Before I could touch her she flinched away from me and my heart broke.

I felt myself let out a sob and I ran towards the bathroom. I had to get away from what I had done. I slammed the door behind me wishing I could lock it.

I fell to the floor breathless as I cried. How could I have hurt Bella? Sweet, innocent and beautiful Bella. I had promised myself after I had saved her earlier tonight that I would never let anything hurt her and then I went and hurt her myself. I cried louder griping my hair in my hands. I had ruined the only good thing in my life.

I heard a soft knock on the bathroom door.

"Edward" she called "Can I come in?"

I tried to quieten down.

"Edward" she called anxiously.

"No" I whispered she couldn't come near me when all I did was hurt her "Stay away from me" I said a bit louder.

I heard the door open but I couldn't look at her, not after what I had done. I cried harder, I didn't deserve to look at her and see her beauty.

I heard her kneel in front of me "I could never stay away from you" she whispered.

I stared at my knees and said what I had always felt "I don't deserve you. You could do so much better"

She grabbed my hands "Never say that" she said passionately.

I sobbed even more, how could she say that after what I had done?

"There's no one better for me then you" she whispered.

"Yes there is" I said furiously looking up into her eyes, she looked away briefly her eyes sad.

"How about some one who doesn't hurt you?" I asked "How about someone who doesn't freak out when you try to touch his dick? You can't possibly want me" I said feeling even worse at the tears running down her face "I'm broken Bella. Can't you see that?" I pulled my hands out of hers and covered my face; I couldn't stand for her to see me.

She grabbed my hands back "Edward I love you. I know you didn't mean to hit me. You thought I was someone else didn't you?" I closed my eyes. "Who did you think I was?"

I sat there contemplating whether to tell her. Maybe if I did she would realise that she couldn't be with me.

"Edward" she asked slowly "Do you love me?"

I opened my eyes in shock "You know I do" with all my heart

"Then please tell me" she pleaded "Who did you think I was?"

I looked in to her beautiful tear filled eyes and knew I was going to tell her. I could see the love and concern on her face and I let myself hope, that just maybe, she would be able to love me even after I told her.

Bella's POV

"My grandfather" Edward whispered softly. I gasped in shock I was fully prepared for him to say his father.

"Why did you think it was your grandfather?" I whispered gripping his hand tighter.

Edward took a deep breath and looked down at our joined hands.

"My mother" he started, his voice dead of emotion and his eyes fixed on our hands "was a drug addict and my dad…" he whimpered softly "he killed himself when I was 6"

"My mum used to leave me at my grandfathers house when she was… too high to look after me or if she was out with one of her many boyfriends" I rubbed circles into his hands encouraging him to go on and also dreading what I could see was coming.

"He was my dad's father and he…" he trailed off and seemed to search for something to say "he used to abuse my dad when he was a kid…that's the reason why he was so messed up and why he killed himself"

"My grandmother had died years before I was born so he lived alone. I used to sleep in my fathers old bedroom and every night that I was there…" he started breathing deeper and I could feel his hands were sweating. "Bella I can't…."

I leaned over and held his face in my hands "Its ok, just let it out" I whispered softly my voice shaking.

He looked into my eyes and took a deep breath. He closed his eyes and leaned back against the bath.

"He used to come into my room at night and at first he would just…watch me. I would wake up in the middle of the night and find him just staring at me. And then…he would start to touch me and…make me touch him"

I squeezed his hand as more tears rolled down my face I felt anger at his grandfather for putting through this.

"I always tried to stop him but he was too strong" he whimpered "When I would refuse he would use his cigarettes to burn me and said if I told anyone he would kill me"

I moved over and wrapped my arms around him and he cried into my chest.

"It's not your fault" I whispered into his hair.

"Yes it is" he cried out "I should have stopped him or told somebody"

"Edward you were only a kid there was nothing you could do"

He cried harder pulling me tighter against him.

I just held him and I thought he had fallen asleep until he spoke again.

"My father killed himself because of what my grandfather did to him. How do I know I'm not going to turn out the same way?" I gasped. I pulled him up to face me.

"Don't say that Edward! Please that's not going to happen. I'm here for you and where going to get though this together" I said furiously staring into his eyes.

"You still want to be with me even after what I told you?" he sounded generally shocked.

"Of course I do. I love you no matter what" I said kissing him gently.

I pulled him up and led him to my bed and we lay down.

"Edward" I asked softly "What happened to your grandfather?"

He sighed softly "He died when I was 8 just before my mother left and I was put up for adoption…he died in his sleep with no pain"

I was shocked at the injustice that the man had ruined his own son and grandson's lives had died peacefully.

I rubbed his back soothingly "You have to tell your family"

"No"

"Edward" I said stroking his face gently "They have to know"

He looked at me for a long moment "Will you come with me?"

I nodded, I would go anywhere with him. "Tomorrow but now you need to sleep" I kissed his forehead and hugged him to me tightly.

After awhile I heard his breathing even out and I knew he was asleep and soon after I joined him.

Edward's POV

"My grandfather" I whispered softly and I heard Bella gasp.

"Why did you think it was your grandfather?" she asked tightening her grip on my hands.

I took a deep breath and looked at our hands; unable to look at her while I said this.

"My mother" I said still not looking up "was a drug addict and my dad… he killed himself when I was 6" I felt a pain through my heart as I remembered my father. I had loved him so much; the only time I had seen him smile was when he looked at me. His eyes where always sad and full of pain and when I looked in the mirror I saw that they were just like mine.

"My mum used to leave me at my grandfathers house when she was… too high to look after me or if she was out with one of her many boyfriends" or clients. I felt Bella rubbing circles into my hand. It calmed me down slightly.

"He was my dad's father and he…" I trailed off "he used to abuse my dad when he was a kid…that's the reason why he was so messed up and why he killed himself" and left me alone I thought bitterly

"My grandmother had died years before I was born so he lived alone. I used to sleep in my fathers old bedroom and every night that I was there…" I started panicking "Bella I can't…."

She pulled my face into her hands "Its ok just let it out" her voice shook with emotion

I looked deeply into her eyes, shocked that I didn't see disgust there. I closed my eyes and leaned back.

"He used to come into my room at night and at first he would just…watch me. I would wake up in the middle of the night and find him just staring at me. And then…he would start to touch me and…make me touch him"

I felt her squeeze my hand.

"I always tried to stop him but he was too strong" I said my heart was pounding as I remembered the pain he used to cause me "When I would refuse he would use his cigarettes to burn me and said if I told anyone he would kill me"

I felt Bella wrap her arms around me and I cried into her chest. I couldn't believe that she was still here.

"It's not your fault" she whispered soothingly to me as she rubbed my back.

"Yes it is" I said tearfully "I should have stopped him or told somebody"

"Edward you were only a kid there was nothing you could do"

I cried harder I knew if I had told someone, if I hadn't been so frightened, it would have stopped.

She held me while I cried for a couple of minutes, until I could bring myself to tell her my deepest fear.

"My father killed himself because of what my grandfather did to him. How do I know I'm not going to turn out the same way?" I heard her gasp and she pulled me up so that she could look me straight in the eye.

"Don't say that Edward! Please that's not going to happen. I'm here for you and where going to get though this together" she said sounding determined.

"You still want to be with me even after what I told you?" I asked shocked.

"Of course I do. I love you no matter what" she said and my heart swelled in relief. She leaned forward and kissed me gently.

After that she pulled me up and led me to her bed.

"Edward" she asked after a moment "What happened to your grandfather?"

I sighed "He died when I was 8 just before my mother left and I was put up for adoption…he died in his sleep with no pain"

This was the dark irony of my life; my grandfather who was the worst kind of man, who had ruined so many lives, had died peacefully. While my father who was a good man and been so badly hurt had died in the worst possible way, by his own hand, driven to do so by his own father.

She rubbed my back again "You have to tell your family" she whispered softly

"No" I said almost like a reflex.

"Edward" she said stroking my face lovingly "They have to know"

I looked at her for a moment and realised I would do anything she asked "Will you come with me?" I asked knowing I couldn't do this on my own.

She nodded "Tomorrow but now you need to sleep" she kissed my face gently and hugged me to her tightly.

Soon after I fell into a deep slumber and for the first time in years I didn't have nightmares, I dreamed about the most beautiful girl in the world, the girl who had saved me.

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