Chapter Fifteen

"Crystal!" I called out as I entered into our dorm; it wasn't necessary for me to be calling out her name in such a small location, but there was urgency with what I wanted to tell her.

"Don't yell." I heard her say, as I got closer to her bed which was the only one with the curtains down. "I'm trying to nap and your yelling is no help."

"Read this," I asked, as I slipped my hand with the folded letter between the curtains. "out loud and without making a comment, so as not to disrupt the flow." I ordered.

I heard the crumple of the letter before she began with that soft voice of hers.

'A very interesting letter that one. Should I just flat out say that maybe I am Sirius Black? That wouldn't exactly be fair though, considering I haven't got a clue as to who you are.

Rumors are going around that I'm dating Margaret Smith? MARGARET SMITH? Of all girls? Please, give me a little bit more credit… I got to clear something up though, the reason I haven't dated anyone is not because of the bet but because I really haven't got the time. I don't know how I lost my time, but I'm getting back into my old self, meaning infinite time limit. With Christmas just around the corner I would think I'll be quite adorable, and the girls will just throw themselves at me. I don't know.

The one thing I know for certain about girls is that they cannot make up their fucking minds. Honestly, you confuse me, you want me or do you not want me to be Sirius Black? Maybe isn't really an option. It's getting a bit annoying really, it might be my mood though, can't put my finger on it. Well, you should know that Remus has had enough experience to know by now that telling Peter a secret is like putting a billboard atop Gringotts There a percentage of girls I wouldn't date, true, but only about twenty percent. Marriage and living together… to me the difference between them is a ring and a piece of paper saying "you're married". I stand my ground though, if my girlfriend wants to get married I'll write a paper saying we are, frame it and hang it on the door to the house, and hopefully, that will be the end to the discussion.

Our animosity against Severus It's nothing really, except he's a pain in the arse and doesn't wash his knickers which I find repulsive and punishable. Plus he smells like garlic.

Reply soon, Sirius'

No sooner did she finish reading the letter that she finally poked her head from behind the curtains. With surprise in her eyes, she said "He's admitting it."

"Which also means that someone will bound to tell him."

"Who?"

"Remus!" I exclaimed, leaning against the bed frame. "How long do you expect him to keep a secret like this from his best mate?"

She cocked an eyebrow at this; her head slowly nodding to what I've just said. "Right. Since he hasn't said anything about your identity, why would he do so now?"

I knew she had a point, but it wasn't enough to calm me down.

"How about James? He's not necessarily reserved as Remus is."

After making herself comfortable in a seating position, did she finally gave me her "serious" look. "You're being silly with this. You've met Remus, you know he's a good guy as James is."

"In case you've forgotten, I, as of recently, began speaking to Remus in such a casual manner, albeit weird knowing that he knows. I have not met the rest, nor am I necessarily interested speaking to them now…"

"You know Remus already."

"Do I? I recently began speaking to him, which should tell you a lot!" I exclaimed.

"You're exaggerating, Isabelle."

I didn't say anything as I leant against the wood, slowly sliding myself down only to stop when I felt the mattress underneath me. So I was exaggerating, but that's my right, isn't it? It is apparent that Sirius is no longer interested in hiding his identity, knowing full well who he is. The whole 'I'm hot and I know it' deal; confidence might also be playing a part, but I doubt that this revelation was not too hard for him to do.

"Ever thought what would happen if he saw me?" I asked, casually looking down at my feet. "He would be expecting someone to look as good as he does."

"You know, he might not be all that superficial. He has gotten to know you, well, as much as possible through the letters."

"Oh yeah, he'll certainly look past the surface and admire my inner qualities, correct?"

She sighed, "There's no need to be sarcastic, you know."

I furrowed my eyebrows, still not looking up at her. "You're quite pretty; if it weren't for the fact that you're with Remus, you and Sirius would have looked quite nice together."

"Oh for crying out loud!" she started, "You are not the troll you are making yourself to be, so knock down the self-pitying."

I scoffed, "Why did I even bothered finding out his identity? Oh sure, it would be nice to know how he looks but if I knew it's Sirius I w--"

"Are you hearing yourself? You haven't even gone through one phase and are now wallowing in a feeling that isn't even there!" she snapped, obviously referring to the 'rejection phase'.

Her attitude was something that I was not expecting from her.

"This is not you, Belle." she continued, "You're the girl with the confidence; the one who doesn't give a fl--you just don't care what others say. Just be the same with him."

"Easier for you to say!" I retorted, as I stood up from the bed. "He's now expecting something; his best mates know who I am. How can I even win at this?!"

Silence ensued, as I stood there. Give a minute or two before I finally said, "Unless you do something; you're close to Remus…"

"What the bloody hell are you talking about now?!" she exclaimed. "One minute you're all pissed-off and the next you're… planning something!"

"Of course!" I started, "You can somehow make Remus not spill anything about my identity."

"PMSing much?" she finally said with a smirk.

I groaned, as I slid back down onto the bed.

"I heard he hooked up with Melanie and it's serious!" said one girl as Sirius passed by her.

"Well, I heard, he dumped her!" said James in a perfect imitation of the girl, who quickly blushed and scurried away.

"Looks like you are back to being gossip material, Sirius," said Peter walking up to them. "Apparently, Melanie has been crying her little eyes out for a couple of hours…. Wow, I hadn't said that in so long."

Looking down the length of Gryffindor table I spotted Remus glaring at me. Things were definitely back to normal.

"Things are definitely not back to normal," Remus said later in the Common Room. "There is still that little fact that you are falling in love with Isa–"

"What?!"

"Oh God…"

"It's like a Mexican soap opera." Everyone looked at James.

"I was in Mexico last summer okay!" he said defensively.

"Back to the topic please," said Peter. "Remus… please tell me you weren't about to say the name that I think you were about to say."

"No, I wasn't, it's a code," he said lamely. "A code, James and I use to refer to her… because… well… I don't know…"

All this time I sat on my bed gaping at the wall, the word 'no' forming on my lips but no sound coming out.

"You have to be joking," I whispered closing my eyes. "Please… tell me you are joking."

"Was it funny?" Remus said attempting to smile.

"I am going to ignore that."

Everyone looked at me.

"If you are not going to tell me," I said. "I'm not going to break my brain trying to figure it out and I'm not going to make assumptions either… if she wants me to know…" I sighed. "She'll tell me."

I stood up and walked out of the Great Hall, sat on the stairs and read the letter by myself.

So you have finally gotten annoyed by me repeating that you're Sirius Black? Good. You have finally confessed… or something. At least that topic won't be touched from now on. Hah.

Back to your old self? The answer can only mean I'll be able to hear your daily escapades. Plus, you'll serve as a source for juicy gossip! Something us "girls" cannot get enough of. Speaking about gossips, I heard you once thought of "making a move" on Crystal before Remus had the chance. Whatever happened? How did Remus win over Romeo? Is it true what they say about the "quiet ones" y'know, having "special talents" that only a select few get to see? I see. I see. That certainly is good gossip!

The one thing you hate about us girls is that we can't make up our, and I quote, "fucking minds" Oh, how shocking! This is coming from the one person who really doesn't care about feelings? Seriously. You should have seen that one coming, right? I won't say anything more about that, because I don't want to appear like I'm "attacking" you personally.

So Christmas is coming up? I did not see that one coming. I must have been concentrated in school work and life to have noticed that up. Funny how those things tend to creep up on a person, right? One moment you're bored out of the mind, and the next you can't believe that time has went by so quickly. Yeah, that's life.

Are you staying for Christmas or spending it somewhere else? I've heard that staying in Hogwarts for Christmas break isn't all that bad. Perhaps the only part that might be weird would be eating with the professors in the great hall, but that's about it. One is free to roam around the school grounds. Hmm… I would like to try that out one day, and I only have two more opportunities to do so before we graduate. I should add that to my "To do list"

Sincerely,

Your little miss sunshine

"You are really not going to tell us what the letter said?" asked James almost pouting.

"No," I chuckled.

"Why?" asked Peter.

"Just because," I looked over at Remus who nodded.

"It's between Sirius and her. Not us."

"Are you going to keep hooking up?"

"Oh, Jamesipoo," I said. "Truth is… I haven't changed one bit."

Remus snorted. "The power of love cannot cure a man from his needs when he doesn't know who he is supposed to be loving."

Everyone laughed.

Things were definitely back to normal.

Well, hello... long time... really long time... i have no excuse whatsoever (unless, i'm a second semester senior counts ;P) Well, here it is, a bit short but hopefully the next one wont be, got to wait and see. Don't forget to review (those things make me so happy, you've no idea) and I hope you enjoyed this one!!