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Dedicated to: Shugar High Author, she requested the song!
Lithium
Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but G-d, I wanna let it go
Gabriella Montez slowly made her way down the halls of East High, her torture, her own hell. She walked past the cheerleaders.
"Hey loser." Sharpay Evans, the leader of the pack, spat in her face. Gabriella didn't respond, she just kept walking, it was part of their morning routine. Then Sharpay would cling to Troy Bolton, he would nicely tell her to get lost. Then they would go to homeroom where Chad Danforth would insult her. She sighed, here she was all alone.
Come to be, don't make me sleep alone
Couldn't hide the emptiness you let it show
Never wanted it to be so cold
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me
Lunch came, Gabriella's favorite period of the day. She made her way to the rooftop garden. She would get in so much trouble if the school knew what she did up here everyday. She took out a water bottle and took a swig. The Vodka tasted good, it was bitter in her mouth and slid nicely down her throat. She ate her lunch, just as the bell ring she took one final slug. It helped ease the pain.
I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me
Troy looked at her, she always looked, different after lunch. Nothing effected her as much. Sharpay would insult her. Chad would knock her books to the ground, but it would never bother her. It was as if she was simply indifferent. No one else seemed to notice the pain she was in, no one else noticed the bruises she sported.
Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Gabi sighed, she couldn't remember when this little habit began. It must have been when her mother would bring home men that thought it was funny to hit her. She sat in her last class, not knowing whether she wanted it to end, or go on forever. Everyone was against her. The world wanted her down.
Oh! Don't wanna let it lay me down this time
Drown my will to fly
Here in the darkness I know myself
Can't break free until I let it go
Let me go
Troy got bold, he walked away from his friend's and up to Gabriella's locker as she was putting her books away. She looked exhausted. "What?" she asked tiredly.
"What's wrong Gabriella?" he kindly placed a hand on her shoulder. "How can I help?"
She laughed bitterly, "And why would you want to help me? Why would anyone? I'm just a piece of trash." She slammed her locker shut and walked away.
Troy was puzzled, but was pulled out of his thoughts when he saw her walking away. He ran after her, he grabbed her arm and spun her around, "I want to help you because you're not trash. You're a beautiful, smart, kind girl that needs help. Let me help you." He pleaded, he could see her slowly sinking away from everyone.
She thought about it, "We'll see."
Darling, I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find my place among the ashes
I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me
She walked into her empty home and filled her water bottle up again. She took it to her room and sipped on it as she attempted to do her homework. She chucked the book across the room. I can't do this. I need to end it, this is a miserable existence. She thought to herself. Suddenly there was a knock at her balcony door. She opened it to find Troy standing there sheepishly. He spotted the water bottle and took it from her. He put it to his lips and took a sip. He nodded his head, he'd been correct in his thoughts, Vodka. He dumped it over the balcony, despite her protests.
"I'm going to help you." He said, it was no longer a request. Now it was an order. She nodded mutely.
Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with you
Oh, I'm gonna let it go
She couldn't do it alone. But now she didn't have to, Troy was with her. She smiled despite the situation. She didn't want to let it go, she didn't want to forget it. But she was going to.
Song: Lithium by Evanescence
I don't know if this was what was wanted, but it was the best I could come up with. I guess I didn't really understand the song.
Mollie XOXO