What Am I Really? The Ultimate Naruto Story (Fanfiction)

by AnimeNoob12345

This is the story of how Naruto's and Blue (the main character)'s lives were determined from before they were born. They search for the true meaning of their own lives, and uncover a secret that threatens to destroy the Leaf Village. Dun dun dun! Story is told mainly through Naruto's and Blue's diaries.

8. Chapter 8 (Naruto)

(Naruto)

That's it! I can't take this anymore! What's so different about me? Why can't I just fit in? Who am I? What am I?!

I see it in everybody's eyes. I'm an outsider. I'm nobody. They all just pretend I don't exist! I hate them! I hate this! I'm tired of always working so hard just to be accepted. What do I owe them? Nothing, that's what! Nothing! I don't care about how Iruka- Sensei always talks about the Will of Fire. Why do I have to try so hard for them to accept me? Who else did. Sakura, Ino, Sasuke, everyone… They never had to! They had families. They have people. I have nobody. Nobody at all. And I'll take it! Just don't expect me to help you when you need it!

It hurts. Don't you see? You don't know what it's like. Everyone avoids me, and when I actually do see them… I see hate. Hate for me. Hate for everything I do. Hate for everything I am! Why?! Just tell me this: WHY? I can't stand it. It's too much for me. I didn't do anything to deserve this. Why can't you just accept me for who I am?

Or this who I'm meant to be? Am I meant to be hurt like this? Is this my destiny? I can't do this. I need somebody. Anybody. Just help me, please. Please help me. What do I do? If I'm always going to be like this- shunned, hated- then why do I continue?

I'm losing hope. I try to tell myself that things will change. I tell myself that I will be accepted for who I am. I hate this so much. What's the point of living if no one wants me to? I'm so lonely all the time.

I always have this voice in my head. It says destroy. Destroy everything. If I don't like it, I don't have to deal with it… But I fight it back. I'm afraid of the person I'm becoming. I feel hate more and more. Everytime I look at these buildings, I imagine them burning to the ground. I can see clouds of ash swarming through the streets, engulfing everything, showing everybody my pain. What's happening to me?

I feel like if I answer one question, I'll know what to do. I need to know my past. I need to know what makes these people hate me. And then, I'll know what I've always wanted to know.