Fire is catching
Chapter 21
Authors Note: Lucy is caught in the middle of a poisonous rain! It seems like she has given up hope and is waiting for her end.
Sorry guys, this is just a suuuuuper short chapter, but it's just that it makes sense to let that chapter end at that particular point to keep up the tension. Sorry! I hope that you enjoy it anyway.
Lying in the dirty mud I close my eyes and let myself be soaked in poison.
My skin doesn't feel like a part of me anymore, just like a blistering case which causes me suffering.
The little needles still sting and I really want to get away, but I can't, I don't have the energy anymore. Being in pain is really exhausting and there's no way I can get back up.
I know that I should get back up, that I should keep fighting, I owe it to Jack, who always cared for me, I owe it to Mary and all the other hard-working people in district 8, I owe it to my father and my dead mother and I owe it to Lisanna, Milliana and all the other dead tributes that didn't deserve to die so young.
But I can't. I simply can't. The last weeks, especially the last days were so exhausting and I was so scared, always on high alert, always terrified, and now I'm tired of fighting. I'm too exhausted, I can't go on. I'm sorry everyone, but I can't go on anymore.
Now that I surrendered, I'm waiting for the moment of relief. I want to black out, it would take the pain away, but my body is somehow fighting it.
Normally, you should black out if the pain gets unbearable, that's what I keep repeating to myself. If it gets unbearable, you will pass out, you will pass out, just hang on a little longer, you will pass out. So why the hell am I not unconscious yet?
I scream at my body to finally give up, please just let me black out, pleeeeeaaaaase!
Slightly opening my eyes I see the dark cloud above me. I wanted to see the sky before I leave, but all I see is black, darkness everywhere. I'm wet through, my skin covered in terribly painful blisters.
I make a last attempt of getting up ,collect all the power that's left inside of me,but I don't even manage to lift a finger. How pathetic.
Tears run down my disfigured face as I take one last, heavy breath.
I stop fighting it and give up.
Then the darkness finally overwhelms me and I receive it gladly. It takes the pain away and makes me feel light, as if I'm floating in the black nothingness.
My last thought is that I'm looking forward to seeing mom again, and then my mind is shut down as well,leaving nothing.
My destroyed body is lying in the mud, getting wet and more poisoned with every second, but I don't care. I don't feel it anymore. I don't even exist anymore. All that's left is an empty shell.
They say that if you die you see your greatest moments, your best memories passing by. But for me, that's totally not how it was. I felt it more like a pleasant dark, overwhelming me, freeing me from all the suffering. I'm even happy about my death because it means the end of the games, the end of all the terror. It's over, just like that. There is nothing dramatic about it, just a calming nothingness.
I'm finally at peace.
As my eyes flutter open I look around confusedly. I'm surrounded by dark walls but golden sunlight is coming inside the room, illuminating certain areas. I blink as I look directly into the brightness and shield my eyes with my arm. My arm.
Images of purple rain drowning me, corroding my skin, soaking me in acid flood my mind and I gasp for air, the feeling of panic coming back.
Is this heaven? Not like I imagined it to be. Maybe this is just the room in which you wait for heaven, how am I supposed to know how the afterlife works?
Sitting up I lean myself against the cold stone wall. Is this a cave? It certainly looks like one. Should I just wait here? Moving my limbs still hurts which startles me a little. Maybe it takes some time for the pain to leave after you die. My skin looks way better than it did before. All that's left are red patches, a few scratches and a lot of burns, the greenish blisters are gone completely.
A small figure is standing in front of the light now, darkening the cave. I can only see her small frame against the strong sunlight, illuminating her contour, making her look like an angel. Maybe she is one. Maybe she'll take me to heaven.
Authors Note: So yeah… Lucy is in Heaven now, if that even exists. May she rest in peace. New chapter will be uploaded soon. I hope you enjoyed this one.
Natsu: What?! Heaven is a cave? How lame! I imagined it differently…
Author: Well what do you think it was like?
Natsu: Well I thought that it would be a place full of fire and it would be really hot up there and everybody would fight against each other. Oh and there would be a looooot of food and all my friends would be there and everybody would eat together.
Author: Never ending fire? Fighting? Geez Natsu, you're picture of heaven is more like hell.
Natsu: Really? Hell is like my Heaven? That's awesome! Now I don't have to worry about my actions anymore and can just destroy stuff without caring about it, right?
Author: Well, you destroy stuff already all the time anyway….
Natsu: Oh right, I totally forgot that!