HEEEYYYYY GUYYYSSS! Yeah, I'm sooo happy and idk why. XD I think it is because of the huge support I have been receiving from you. The reviews and the views are surprising me! You are actually liking this fic, and I wasn't expecting this at all. :3 Thank you so much, love you!
Well, I have to explain somethings before this chapter, that I think you may have doubts about. This fanfic actually happens in the period of season two. Quinn has gotten pregnant and all that Quinncedes moments happened. And they keep being good friends until now. ( Because I absolutely love their friendship ). Kurt didn't move from Mckinley, but he is still bullied by David, and he is also dating Blaine. Sam hasn't dated Quinn nor Santana. And I think this is it! If I remember anything more I'll tell you in the next chapter.
"whoknowstv: Self cutting is something that definitely should be discussed and educated on. It happens more than you think and teenagers have a lot of pressure these days. I'm glad that you brought this issue to the forefront. By giving them a forum, such as telling a story by using a backdrop of Glee characters, it will help themselves to understand how serious this form of depression is.
With this story, you could possibly save a life. So for that I say THANK YOU! Keep up the good work." Definitely, self harm is such an important issue, and it happens frequentely. I thought about how it could affect people by getting this teme in the glee universe, and I really hope I can help someone to realize how good and beautiful they are. And, like you said, If I possibly save a life, I will be very pleased and happy to know that one story helped one person to get thought everything. :)
"Alliecattie3: Run Sam Run and catch her! Mercedes story is heartbreaking! She really needs help and I'm thinking Sam is the man for the job! Hope the Glee club is supportive also!" Well, you are going to see their support in this chapter! Hope you like it. And thank you for keep reading!
"Mowatts87: Wow...I wasn't emotionally ready to read that. I can't wait to see how you allow their friendship to develop!" Haha, I'm sorry for that. Okay, maybe I'm not lol. Just kidding, hope you like the next chapters then! Thanks!
"krystinlgregg93 :Wow this is great I wonder Mercedes parents point of view why did they leave? But fantastic start." You will see more of Mercedes parents soon. Thank you!
"Zini: Wow this is so sad but I'm enjoying it (sounds terrible but this is a great story so far). I hope that Mercedes will allow Sam to help her because she needs someone to love her and support her. I hope that she'll realize that Sam won't leave her; it would be cool if we got his point of view too. But this is a really good start and I hope that you'll update again soon." Oh, thank you so much. Well, I will try to give you some of Sam's point of view, it's just that it's easier for me to describe Mercedes feelings, idk why.
The songs for this chapter:
Keep holding on - Glee cast version
Kiss me - Ed Sheeran
Stand by you - Rachel Platten ( This song is on the chapter, so maybe you'd like to listen to it first.)
Thank you again for all the support.
And remember, you are beautiful and loved. And if you don't believe it, here is a proof: I LOVE YOU. :)
Mercedes was tired of crying. It felt like she had no more tears left. She washed her face and took a deep breath. After getting slushied in the middle of the hallway, she went home running. Mercedes took a shower, and all she wanted to do now was lay in her coach and watch some movie. But her mind wouldn't stop thinking. She sat on her coach, embracing her legs, as her thoughts invaded her once again.
The whole glee club knew about her secret. They knew she was a freak who couldn't find a way to confront all her troubles and accept herself. Her closest friends now must been thinking she was weak. Mercedes wasn't strong, but she didn't want anyone to know about it. That's why she always forced that "Confident Diva" style, so nobody would worry or think that something was wrong. And it was good for her, because the less people know, the less they judge you. At least, she could suffer without worry with what people would think about her doing this. But now the thruth was out, because of one person.
But, even if she tried to stay mad at Sam, she couldn't. Because, first, Mercedes felt as if she had taken a weight from her back. There was nothing more stuck in her troat. She had let it all out, she had told the thruth and it somehow relieved her. And second, whenever she was around that guy, all she could think was how handsome and kind he was. He was treating her like never before. His concern felt real, and when he looked at her, Mercedes could bet there were feelings in his green eyes. The same feelings that grew inside her after their fist kiss. But she wasn't sure. She couldn't just give herself to him right now. Maybe it was what she wanted to do, but it was not right. She was so fucked up.
Mercedes closed her eyes and tried to push her toughts and feelings away, hoping that Sam would not give up on her after finding out everything she has hid from everybody until now.
The sound of the doorbell made she open her eyes and sighed.
"Fuck.."
Mercedes stood up and calmly heade to the door. Before she could entirely open it, she found herself pressed against the wall, with Sam's hand holding her arms alongside her head. He closed the door with his foot and looked at her.
"Tell me to stay away from you once again."
"What? S-Sam... What are you doing?"
"Just tell me Mercedes." He pressed his body against her. "Tell me you feel nothing for me. Tell me you don't want to kiss me right now!"
She swallowed. Since when her troat was that dry?
"Sam.."
"Just tell me one more time Mercedes... And I will leave you alone."
"I..."
She stared at him. He looked so much prettier this close. His eyes turned dark, and she could feel his heavy breath, as it blowed against her skin.
"I can't"
She never looked away. The way that their bodies were touching was sending chills all the way up her spine. Their eyes were brighting so hard as they looked at each other, that it felt like they were staring at their souls. Mercedes was scared for a moment. All that thoughts came back to her mind. She looked so fragile standing there, looking at his eyes, searching for help. She was so afraid he would do what everybody else used to. Right now, he could scream in her face, tell her how she was weak and useless, that she would never be good enough. But Sam didn't. And suddenly Mercedes felt everything but fear.
"I knew it." He whispered and attacked her lips with so much desire that Mercedes felt her knews got weak. He slipped his tongue into her mouth, letting a moan scape his troat. He slowly loosed Mercedes' hand, that went right to his hair, and held her waist, as she deepened the kiss. Their bodies were on fire and they couldn't take their hands out of each other. Sam grabbed her tights and lifted her. Mercedes hooked her legs around his waist, as he made his way to the coach, carring her with him.
He sat on it with Mercedes on his lap.
"Please don't.." She said between kisses, trying to hold her tears back. "Don't hurt me.."
Sam pulled away and looked into her eyes, so she could see how serious he was as he spoke.
"I won't."
He caressed her cheek, and she controled herself from crying again. She smiled and leaned to give him another passionate kiss.
After a long make out session, Mercedes was now sitting next to Sam, while he held her close to his chest.
"I'm sorry.." Sam said, braking the silence between them.
"For what?" Mercedes raise her head, so she could look in his eyes.
"For everything that happened to you. You have been through a lot, Mercedes. I can't even imagine how I would react if something like that happened to you. You are really strong."
"I'm not." She whispered.
"Of course you are!"
"Sam, you saw what I do to myself! I've been cutting my wrists and crying all the time. I am a lot of things, but strong is not a part of them." Mercedes looked down. "I'm worthless.."
"Look at me." She didn't move. "Look at me, Cedes." She slowly raised her head. "Don't you ever say that again. You are worth it, for milion reasons. Have you ever seen how beautiful it is when you smile? Or how leggings fit you perfectly? And you have an amazing character! You are so kind with people, and you are always trying to help when something is wrong. You are an awesome person, Mercedes. Don't you dare think unlike it."
The black girl stared at him in shock. Nobody had ever said something like that for her. Even Kurt or Tina, they just used to tell her that she was a good friend. Mercedes couldn't find her voice, she didn't know what to tell him, so she just leaned close to him and kissed him.
This wasn't a sensual kiss like the others, it was kind and lovely, and they both depposited all their feelings in it.
When they broke the kiss, Mercedes closed her eyes and hugged him.
"Thank you..."
Her voice was so low that Sam almost didn't hear it.
"I just told the thruth." He smiled and did the same, sitting back on the coach.
"Well, I wish I could stay more.." Sam run his hair through his hair. "But I have to be back home to make the dinner for Steve and Stacey."
"It's okay.." She smiled and stood up. "Hmm.."
She wanted to ask if they would see each other tomorrow. She knew they would, at least in glee club, but after everything that just happened, she didn't want him to be the type of guy that don't even look into her eyes the next day.
"I'll see you tomorrow before class, okay?" He got up and carresed her arm.
"Yes, fine." She smiled and he gave her a peck.
He was already leaving when she called him. He stopped at the door.
"By the way... You can call me Cedes more often.." She smiled shily. "I liked it."
Sam smiled.
"Okay then.. Good night... Cedes."
He blinked at her and closed the door.
"Good night Sam.."
She smiled and covered her face in her hands. She couldn't express the feeling growing inside of her. Was this happiness? It's been a long while since she was really happy. But thinking about Sam's lips on hers and the way he said all those cute things to her, made Mercedes sleep smiling.
Mercedes was closing her locker when she felt hands covering her eyes.
"Hi Sam." She laughed and turned to face the blonde.
"What? How did you know it was me?" He raised his eyebrows.
"Because you are the only one who would do that." Mercedes rolled her eyes and smiled. "And... Your perfume.. I smelled it."
Sam looked at her and saw she was blushing.
"You are so cute."
"W-What?" Mercedes lifted her head " I'm not."
"Of course you are. And I love it." He laughed and leaned down to kiss her, but was stopped when she pushed him away.
"Sam!"
"What?" He seemed perplexed. "Can't I kiss you?"
"No.. Not here, at school."
"Okay.." Sam stepped back and run his fingers through his hair. He looked embaressed and Mercedes felt guilty for the way she acted.
"It's just.. We really need to take this slow, okay?" She stared at him and bit her lip. "Can you do this for me?"
He looked at her and put his hands on the pocket of his jeans.
"Yes.. For you I can." He smiled, and it made a smirk appear on Mercedes' lips.
"So, I'll see you at glee club?" Sam asked.
"Yes, you will."
"Good."
He stepped closer to her again. Her body tensed up with his move, and Sam noticed it. He chuckled and gave her a kiss on the cheek.
"See you later Cedes."
"Bye Sam."
She stood there watching him walk to the classroom. Mercedes smiled shily and got her books from her locker to go to her first class. When she was passing by the corner of the hallway, she heard a chuckle and turned her head, to see a three cheerleaders staring at her and whispering. Mercedes didn't have to hear to know about what they were saying. These girls have just seen Sam Evans, the football player and one of the hottest guys at Mckinley, talking to Mercedes Jones. The fat, short and ugly girl, who was nothing but a loser. She rolled her eyes and sighed, ignoring the girls as she kept walking.
She was ten minutes late. Sam was sitting alone in the choir room, waiting for Mercedes. He had to admit, he was nervous. He started to think she wouldn't come when he heard steps in the hallway. As fast as she entered the room Sam was already standing.
"I'm sorry, I got stuck with the math teacher and all his speech about his own life and-" Mercedes stopped brutally when she noticed that they were the only ones in the room. "Am I this late?"
"A little bit." Sam laughed and approached her. "But there is a reason why I'm the only one here."
She raised a brow for him.
"The others are in the auditorium." He explained. "Since you were late, I stayed to tell you today's practicing will be there."
"Okay.." Mercedes shrugged and smiled. "We should go, I don't want to get even more late."
"Yeah, of course." Sam grabbed her hand and they run down the corridor in their way to the auditorium. By the time they got there, the place was empty, and the curtains of the stage were closed.
"Sam..." Mercedes started with that judging voice of hers.
"Calm down, I'm not lying to you." He looked at her and smiled. "Just come here."
He led her to the stage. There was a chair few steps away from the edge. Mercedes looked at Sam, then the chair and back at Sam.
"What is going on?"
"Just sit Cedes, please."
She bit her lip and stared at him for a while, then she sat on the chair, apprehensively.
"Fine. Now, just listen us. We have some important things to say."
"Us?"
"Yes." Sam chuckled and the curtains behind him opened, revealing all the new direction's members there. Mercedes' eyes went wide and she smiled. Sam walked to his place beside Tina as the first notes of the song filled the air. Quinn took a step forward and started to sing, directly to Mercedes.
{Quinn}
Hands
Put your empty hands in mine
And scars
Show me all the scars you hide
And hey, if your wings are broken
Please take mine so yours can open too
Cause I'm gonna stand by you
{Kurt}
Oh, tears make kaleidoscopes in your eyes
And hurt, I know you're hurting, but so am I
And love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine so yours can open too
Cause I'm gonna stand by you
At that point Mercedes had tears falling from her eyes, once more. Now, Quinn was singing with their friends vocalizing in the background. All of them smiling at Mercedes, everyone was there for her. That moment she forgot about everything that once made her mad and angry at the world, and grinned at her friends.
{Quinn} {New Directions}
Even if we're breaking down {hey}
We can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone {alone}
Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven {Oh,hey}
I'm gonna stand by you {you}
Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone
Cause I'm gonna stand by you
{Sam}
Yeah, you're all I never knew I needed
And the heart, sometimes it's unclear why it's beating
And love, if your wings are broken
We can brave through those emotions too
Cause I'm gonna stand by you
{Tina}
And oh, truth, I guess truth is what you believe in
And faith, I think faith is having a reason {And nah nah nah}
Love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine so yours can open too
Cause I'm gonna stand by you
{Quinn} {New Directions}
Even if we're breaking down {hey}
We can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone {alone}
Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven {Oh,hey}
I'm gonna stand by you {you}
Even if we can't find heaven {oh}
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone
Cause I'm gonna stand by you
{Santana}
I'll be your eyes 'till yours can shine
And I'll be your arms, I'll be your steady satellite {uh}
Now when you can't rise, well, I'll cry with you on hands and knees
When the beat dropped, everyone was dancing and clapping along with the rhythm. Sam had Mike and Artie by his side, but he still didn't look away from Mercedes. Quinn was with Santana and Kurt in the center. Tina, Rachel and Brittany were swinging near to Puck and Finn.
{Quinn} {Santana}
{Cause I} cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we're breaking down {hey}
We can find a way to break through {C'mon}
Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone
{Cause I'm gonna stand by you}
Rachel went to Mercedes and grabbed her hands, pulling her out of the chair and bringing her close to everyone. She laughed and started to dance with them.
Even if we can't find heaven {hey}
I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven {oh}
I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone {you're not alone}
Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Love, you're not alone
{Oh, I'm gonna stand by you}
(ND: Even if we can't find heaven, heaven, heaven)
Yeah, I'm gonna stand by you
"Guys.." Mercedes didn't know what to say. She sighed and wipped away the few tears left in her eyes. "Thank you so much."
"Did you understand what we were trying to say?" Santana rested her hand on Mercedes' shoulder.
"We love you, Mercy." Quinn looked at her friend and smiled. "We are your friends, who care about you. You need to know that, whatever happens, we are here for you. We'll always be."
"You could've told us." Kurt approached her. "We would have tried to help. And you know you can always count on me, I'll be there for you."
"Thank you, Kurt." Mercedes hugged her friend. She turned to the others and sniffed. "How did you guys planned this?"
"Yesterday after you left, and after we all stopped crying, we decided that we had to sing you a song." Finn explained.
"And everybody also agreed that we should let you know that we will always stand by you." Rachel smiled.
"I was the last to know about it." Sam looked at her. "Because.. Well, you know. I was doing more important things." He smirked and Mercedes blushed. She rolled her eyes and chuckled. "But then at night we met up at breadstick and chose the song. And how I would take you here."
"Oh, and Mr. Shue told me that he wouldn't be here today, 'cause he has got a cold." Tina told her. "But when I told him about the plan to help you, he was really upset for not being here, but asked me to tell you he was sorry, and he hopes you hold on and be strong."
Mercedes looked at her friends and smiled.
"I don't even know what to say to you.. I needed this." She took a deep breath. "I needed to know that someone would be there for me. And after this, I'm sure I can count on you for everything. Thank you so much."
"Oh come here, Mama." Puck smiled and pulled her into a hug. Everybody laughed and did the same.
And in that hug, between all of her friends, Mercedes felt safe. She felt like all that broken pieces inside of her were coming back to their places. Her friends were healing her, and she started to feel loved. It was good. After a long while of walking through the darkness, Mercedes could finally see the light.
Hope you liked it. Let me know what you think about this chapter. Please review :)
What did you think about Sam's action? Was he rude or he was just trying to make her feel loved?
Until next chapter, XO.