I'm back! I'm sorry for keep you waiting for this chapter - well, that's if you are still reading this, because last chapter I didn't receive as much reviews as I used to. :(
But it took me this long to update because I've been very busy. First of all, the Olympic Games are happening here in my country! Yeah, I shouldn't be happy about it, but I acctualy am. And every single day I get myself watching the competitions. I JUST CAN'T! XD And I also have school, and I have been studying very hard because next week I'll make some tests.
Now, let's go back to our fic :3 One more thing I forgot to tell you about the story, is that Sam is not homeless. He and his family are still living in a normal house - well, for now XD
Guys, I'm thanful that the number of views are increasing, but somehow I fell like you aren't enjoying the storyline. The last chapter had just two reviews, and I started to think something was wrong. So please, if you feel like something is missing, or with you have any questions or suggestions, let me know. :)
Ps: In my opinion, this chapter sucks. It took me so long to write it, and it didn't came out the way I expected to. I'm so disappointed with myself.
"Zini:I loved this chapter- I didn't think what Sam did was rude; I actually thought it was hot lol. I'm so happy that all of the New Directions took time to sing to Mercedes and let her know that they care and support her. And she said she felt like they were healing her, which made my heart smile. Everyone needs to feel like they can count on someone! Great job looking forward to the next chapter:)" Thank you for all the support! :)
"Mowatts87:What they did for Mercedes was beautiful. I'm extremely grateful for Sam not listening to her telling him to leave her alone. Now that she knows that she has support, I hope she doesn't push them away. Great Update!" Tysm! You have been here since the first chapter, so I kinda of love you for it! lol XD
Playlist for this chapter:
She will be loved - Maroon 5
How to love - Cash Cash feat. Sofia Reyes
Lego House - Ed Sheeran
Being with you was the only time I've ever been happy.
It has been a great week to Mercedes. Her friends became even closer to her, Sam was always around to make her smile and she was doing well with that other stuff. Mercedes wasn't entirely comfortable with the scars on her pulse, so she kept wearing some long sleeve shirts or even jackets, but stopped hurting herself after the day of her friends performance. After that, they have been practicing for Nationals all week long. The glee members even decided that Mercedes should get a solo, and she was really surprised when Rachel agreed.
Mercedes had just finished her hair when she heard a knock on the door.
"Just a second!"
She walked to the door and opened it, she smiled as she saw Sam standing in front of her. His parents decided to go out that Saturday night, so he would have to babysit the siblings. He asked if Mercedes could help him. Of course she said yes. She was so excited to meet that kids, and also to spend as much time as she could with Sam.
"Hey beautiful." He smirked and gave her a peck on the lips. "Are you ready?"
"Yes, let's go." She stepped out of her house and locked the door.
Sam was waiting for her outside his car, with the passenger door open. She approached him and caressed his check.
"How can you be so cute?"
"It's part of the plan."
She raised her brow. "What plan?"
"To make you my girlfriend."
Mercedes looked at him in surprise and blushed.
"Sam.."
He chuckled and held her waist, bringing her closer to him, as he leaned into a kiss. Mercedes rested her arms around his neck and deepened the kiss. She loved when he kissed her. The way he held her, like she was so fragile she could break, how he caressed her cheek right after they broke appart and the way his tongue felt so good inside her mouth. They rested their foreheads together as they broke the kiss.
Sam smiled. "Let's talk about this later."
Mercedes noded and got into the car. He closed her door and did the same.
By the time they got into Sam's house, Mr. and Mrs. Evans were already outside waiting for them.
"Oh, so you are Mercedes Jones?" The woman approached Mercedes as she got out the car.
"Y-Yes." She looked at Sam, then back at his mother and finally at Mr. Evans right behind her.
"You're making the kid uncomfortable, Mary."
"I'm just kidding, Dwight!" She laughed and pulled the girl into a hug. Then she hold Mercedes' shoulders as she checked her out. "You are just like Sam has described! Beautiful, cute and you smell really good, honey!"
Mercedes was shocked, but somehow she let a laugh escape her throat. "Thank you.."
Sam rolled his eyes and huffed, as he walked towards her, and gave his dad an angry look. Dwight shrugged and walked over to his wife.
"Okay darling, I think it's time for us to leave."
Mary noded and headed to the car. Her husband looked back at Mercedes and smiled.
"I'm glad to meet you, Mercedes. I'm sure you are this great person Sam has told us about."
Mercedes smiled and tried not to blush.
"Thank you for helping my son with Stacey and Stevie, I appreciate your help, and I'm sure they will love you." Dwight turned to Sam. " See you later, son."
He got into the car and Mary waved for the kids one last time, before they get completely out of sight.
"I'm sorry about that." Sam looked at her and chuckled. "Oh, and I'm sure that when I talked about you, I mentioned 'gorgeous', not 'beautiful'." He winked at her and entered the house. Mercedes couldn't hold the blush by now. She grinned from ear to ear and followed him. As fast as she got in, a blonde girl was next to her grabbing her hand.
"So you are Sam's girlfriend?!" The little girl shouted.
"I told you she's just my best friend Stacey." Sam laughed at his sister and looked up at Mercedes. He whispered "For now" and she rolled her eyes, smiled and looked back at the girl in front of her. Who was glancing at her brother.
"But you guys kissed!"
Mercedes looked at Sam incredulously and raised her eyebrows. "You told her?"
"She is a girl!" He shrugged and pointed at Stacey, trying to defend himself. "She can be really annoying just to get the thruth!"
The black girl was ready to complain what he meant by 'she's a girl' when a little boy entered the room. He was exactly like she would imagine young Sam, the blonde hair and the way he smiled when he noticed her presence. And he had that same green eyes with caramel edges.
"Hello." Mercedes smiled at the cute boy, who didn't respond, just stood there looking at her with his jaw dropped.
"You better close your mouth Stevie, you're drooling." Sam huffed and looked angrily at his brother.
"Er.. hm.. H-Hi.." He gasped but didn't take his eyes out of Mercedes.
She laughed. "I'm glad to meet you guys. I'm Mercedes, but I think you already knew that.."
"Yes, Sam couldn't stop talking about you." Stacey rolled her eyes and the older girl smirked looking at Sam, who shrugged. "Do you want to see my dolls collection?" The blonde girl asked, as she pulled Mercedes by the hand, leading her upstairs. She looked at Sam and laughed, and followed the girl.
When the two ladies were out of sight, Sam stteped closer to his brother and leaned to whisper something in his ear. "I saw her first, don't even try it."
Stevie didn't get a chance to respond, because Sam was already moving towards the kitchen.
"Damn!" He murmured. "I hate being the younger brother.." He sighed and made his way to the sofa.
They have been watching Avatar for an hour, and Stacey was sleeping peacefully on Mercedes' chest. Stevie and Sam just couldn't take their eyes off the screen. Mercedes sighed and hold the little girl in her arms.
"I will take her to bed." She got up holding Stacey carefully, trying not to wake her up.
"Uhum." Sam mumbled and pointed at the TV, explaining something about the scene to his brother.
Mercedes rolled her eyes and walked up the stairs. She put the girl on the pink bed and covered her. She smiled looking at her angelical face, then kissed her forehead and walked towards the door. When Mercedes was about to leave the room, she heard a noise coming from Stacey. She turned and looked at the girl, who was now with her eyes open and looking directly at her.
"Sam told me you can sing."
Mercedes grinned and approached her, and sat on the edge of the queen size bed.
"Well, I do my better."
Stacey smiled. "Can you sing me to sleep?"
"Of course I can, honey." Mercedes held her hand and caressed it. "What song would you like to hear?"
"That one for Tangled, when Rapunzel and Flynn are at the boat, watching the lights!" The blonde grinned from ear to ear. "It's my favorite scene from this movie."
Mercedes knew that song. She really loved Disney movies, especially the songs. But this wasn't one of her favorites, Mercedes didn't like Tangled very much, the way that Rapunzel was waiting for someone to save her. And at the end everything is absolutelly perfect. She is a princess and has a boyfriend, who has been forgiven for all his crimes. It was so unreal. And everytime Mercedes watched this movie, she would wonder if someday someone would find her and save her. Since she knew that wouldn't happen, she just stopped watch. But somehow, the lyrics suddenly came into her mind and she began to sing.
All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be
Stacey smiled hearing Mercedes' voice and closed her eyes. Mercedes did the same and sang with her soul.
And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you
She lowered her voice and opened her eyes, to see Stacey staring into something behind her. Mercedes frowned and turned to see Sam standing at the door. He had the most beautiful smile she had ever seen, and his eyes were shining. He stepped closer to the bed and started to sing.
All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things, the way they were
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go
Mercedes slowly got up and stood in front of him, smiling.
{Mercedes and Sam}
And at last I see the light
{Sam}
And it's like the fog is lifted
{Mercedes and Sam}
And at last I see the light
{Mercedes}
And it's like the sky is new
They were so lost in the moment that they didn't even remembered Stacey was in the room. Sam hold Mercedes' hand and brought her closer to him.
{Mercedes and Sam}
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything is different
Now that I see you,
now that I see you
They stayed in a comfortable silence for a while, just staring at each others eyes. Sam was leaning for a kiss when Stacey's applause filled the room. Mercedes jumped and pulled away.
"You two are absolutely in love!"
"W-What?" Mercedes stammered and blushed. "No.. Sam and I are just friends." She glanced at him. "Right?"
Sam looked hurt at her comment.
"Yes.. Just friends." He sighed. "Well, you better sleep Stacey, mom and dad would kill me if they knew you are up until now." He moved closer to his sister and kissed her cheek. "Goodnight, dear."
"Goodnight Sammy.." She smiled and looked at Mercedes. "Goodnight Mercedes.."
"It was nice to meet you little girl.." She smiled. "Goodnight."
Sam leaded her outside the room and closed the door.
"She's an angel." Mercedes told him in their way to the stairs.
"You have just met her, wait until next week and you won't stand look at her face."
Mercedes laughed and slapped his arm playfully. They got downstars and she saw Stevie lied at the coach, snooring.
"I think it's time for me to go."
"Okay." Sam noded and walked with her to the door.
She stood outside the house looking at him. The memories came back to her mind. Since their first kiss at her house, until the song they had just sang. She remembered the look in Sam's eyes when he hold her close to him, and the way he smiled at first, but then got very serious, as he controled himself not to kiss her. For some reason, she liked Tangled a lot more now. Mercedes watched him bit his bottom lip.
"Well.. Goodnight Sam."
He didn't say anything and just pulled her into a hug. He held her close, his arms envolving her waist as one hand ran through her hair. Sam's action send chills all over Mercedes' body. Could a hug be so full of passion and desire? She embraced him strong, pressing her arms around his neck. Sam buried his face in her neck and inhaled deeply. She caressed his back and slowly pulled away, looking at his eyes, that were as dark as the moment he pressed her against the wall at her house. Their faces were so close that they lips brushed as Sam spoke.
"I want to kiss you so bad, Cedes."
His voice was so sensual when he whispered. Mercedes bit her bottom lip and looked right in his eyes.
"Then kiss me."
A flame of desire flashed in his eyes, then he shut then closed and leaned to-
"Sam?" They heard Stevie low voice call his brother from the living room.
"No.." Sam huffed, never loosing the grip in Mercedes waist.
They stood in each other arms for a while, eyes closed and breaths blowing in their faces. Mercedes smiled weakly and pulled away from the embrace.
"Go.."
"Cedes.."
"It's okay. I call you when I get home." She smiled and looked at him, who seemed uncomfortable with the situation.
"Okay." He sighed and let her go.
As she turned the corner of the street, Sam ran his hands through his hair and leaned on the door. He was falling hard for Mercedes Jones.
Sam was leaned in his car, waiting for her. He smiled as the memory of the talk they had last night when Mercedes got home.
"I'm really sorry for that, I thought Stevie was asleep and-"
"Sam, you don't need to apologize. I've already told you, it's okay." Mercedes told him.
"I know, I know.." He sighed. "But I want to make it up going out with you tomorrow."
"Sam, you don't need to."
"Mercedes, I think you didn't listen to me very well. I don't need to, I want to. And you know that."
Mercedes smiled, even knowing he couldn't see her expressions through the phone.
"So, would you go out with me?"
"Yes Sam." She chuckled. "Where are we going to?"
"Well, I was thinking about spending time by the lake, and wacth the sunrise with you." He grinned thinking about the scene. "What do you think? Is it too cliché?"
"Of course not. I think it's beautiful."
"Okay then, I will pick you up at 5:00 pm."
"Oh, you don't have to. I would prefer to go by feet, I've been trying to walk more."
"Are you sure?" Honestly, Sam didn't like the ideia so much. "You know there is no problem for me to take you there."
"Yes, I'm sure. And the lake isn't very far from my house, so I can handle it." She chuckled. "So can we meet there at 5:15?"
"Of course. See you there beautiful."
"See you Sam."
He waited for her to hang up. He grinned and cheered before going to bed, spending half an hour just thinking about how he was grateful to have met this girl.
He sighed and lifted his head, smiling at the bright sun above him. The day was warm and beautiful, just like his humor. Mercedes had accepted to go out with him, it was his chance to tell her how much he wanted her. How he needed her in his life, because when he kissed her, he saw fireworks, and everytime they touched, Sam felt chills run through his body. He thought about their embrace last night, and how he wanted to kiss her so bad. He was falling for Mercedes and he knew it, he just didn't want to scare her. She told him that they needed to "take this slow", but he couldn't. He had been waiting for one week, and his feelings for her were just getting harder. He needed to tell her.
Sam heard footsteps and turned to see Mercedes walking towards him. His jaw dropped and his heart stopped. She looked marvelous in that lilac dress, her hair was loose and the wind was blowing her curls as she walked. Mercedes had the most beautiful smile Sam had ever seen.
"Wow..." He whispered as she stopped in front of him.
"What?" She bit her bottom lip. "I know, I shouldn't used this dress, it would be better wear a jea-"
"Stop it." Sam interrupted her.
"Uh?" Mercedes frowned and looked at him.
"Stop criticizing yourself." He looked at her from head to toe. "This dress fit you perfectly, and you look gorgeous as always. So stop thinking that you are not good enough, or that your body isn't beautiful. Because it is, and I think deep down you know it."
Mercedes opened her mouth but didn't say anything. They stared at each other for a while, then Sam sighed and grabbed her hand.
"C'mon, we both need to relax."
Mercedes noded and followed him. They stopped under a tree, hiding from the sun. Sam opened a big picnic blanket and put some fruits and bottles of water on it. He sat in the grass and leaned back against the tree. Mercedes smiled looking at him and sat by his side. She raised her head and looked at the horizon, watching as the lake met the light blue sky. There was some kids playing with the water, and a cute puppy was running towards a lady.
Mercedes felt eyes on her. She turned to see Sam staring at her, and chuckled. His smile was so pure and bright that reminded her of Stevie's. He leaned close to her and his smile slowly faded away. Sam's eyes traveled for all her face, her cheeks, her nose, her chin and, finally, her eyes.
Mercedes shut them closed, since she couldn't handle him staring at her, and Sam took this action as a permission to seal their lips. He quickly held her face and caressed her cheek as he felt her tongue licking his bottom lip. When he opened his mouth, Mercedes arms hooked around his neck, and her hand gripped his hair. Their tongues met and they fought for control. Sam was totally lost. He could kiss her all day long. Right now, he just wanted her to say yes, say that she have been thinking about him everyday, say that she needed him as much as he needed her. Because he would die if she didn't.
Sam slowly pulled away, Still holding her face in his hands, he opened his eyes and looked at her. She was breathing deeply, her eyes still shut and with an expression he couldn't read. Then suddenly her brown eyes were looking right at him, and his heart stopped.
"You deserve all the love in the fucking world." He whispered.
Her eyes widened and she slowly pulled away. Sam took a deep breath and looked at the lake.
"I need to tell you something. Because I can't stand one more day looking at you and hiding my feelings."
Mercedes opened her mouth to say something, but Sam turned to face her and spoke first.
"And I need you to listen to me. I know that every single sentence I tell you, you will try to deny it or say it isn't true. But, believe me, it it. I know because I feel it."
Her eyes twitched and she noded.
"First of all, you need to know that this" He pointed at the empty space between them. "It didn't start at the party, nor when I found out about you hurting yourself. I've been looking at you since you got in Mckinley. I was attracted to you. But then, after a few weeks I got myself wondering what would be like to know you, or just talk to you. You never talked to me, and you were so confident that I didn't say anything. But when taht kiss happened, it felt so good and right, that I couldn't stay quiet anymore. The next day I came back to your house to tell you about it. Of course I used the jacket like a reason to go there. When I saw the door opened, I didn't think twice and just entered, because I feared that you wouldn't let me in if I knocked. I reached the bathroom and.. I knew that something was wrong, by the look at your face. I thought that you didn't want me there, that I was right and you didn't give a shit about me. But when I saw the blood stain.."
Sam gasped and sighed.
"Mercedes, you have no ideia how I felt there. How my heart stopped beating when I saw you bleeding and crying. A million thoughts invaded my mind. All I wanted to do was take you in my arms, hold you close and calm you down. But I knew you wouldn't let me. So I kissed you. And.. Oh my God how it felt right. When our lips touch I feel like I'm going to explode."
Mercedes was shocked. There were somethings that she wanted to tell him, but she didn't interrupted.
"I want to be with you, Mercedes." Sam held her hands and looked at her eyes. "I want to kiss you in the hallway, I want to call you my girlfriend and hold your hand when we go out."
"Sam, you don't know what you are talking about." Mercedes complained, but didn't let go of his hands. "I'm fucked up, and I have been through a lot lately. I know I'm getting better, you and the glee club helped me, but I'm supposed to have a breakdown anytime." She sighed. "And I'm really thankfull that you care about me. But I don't want to get hurt again. And if anything happens to me, I don't want you to suffer too."
"This is one of the reasons why I want to be with you! I want to be there when you fall, I want to take your hand and go through this hell with you." Sam was now speaking fast and nervously. "And I care about you a lot.. I can't see you suffering again, not alone. You don't have to fight on your own, you have the glee club and your friends, but now you have me, and I want to be the fist person you will call if something is wrong. Because.. I'm falling for you, Cedes."
"Don't say it, Sam." Mercedes swallowed hard. " It's too soon to know anything about this feelings."
Sam buried his head in his hands and huffed.
"What do you feel when you're with me?"
"What?"
He lifted his head and stared at her watered eyes.
"What do you feel when you're with me Mercedes." He repeated and Mercedes looked away. She sighed and faced him again.
"I don't know.. I.." She closed her eyes and a bunch of memories invaded her, all of them of the moments they shared through the weekend. "You can make me smile just making those stupids, but cutes impressions." Mercedes chuclked and kept her eyes closed. "You make me laugh everytime you tell your jokes, and you make me feel secure. The way you hold me when I'm not okay, or the look you give me when I'm upset... You make me want to be happy, Sam."
When she opened her eyes, Sam was dangerously close to her. His green eyes were right in front of hers, and she felt his heavy breath touch her soft skin.
"So, why are you so scared of happiness?" Sam's lips brushed hers as he spoke.
"Maybe because I've never felt it before."
He stared at her for a while, and delicately put a strand of hair behind her ear.
"I promise I can make you happy, Cedes.." He glanced at her lips then back at her eyes. "You just have to let me."
"I will." Mercedes said after a pause, and Sam imediately held her nape delicately and brought her lips to his. She responded and he invaded her mouth with his tongue, while her hands worked on messing with his hair. He slowly leaned into her, and before they realized she was laying in the grass with him on top of her body. His right arm held her waist and he pulled away to breathe. He looked down at her and smiled.
"So.. will you be my girlfriend?"
"Well.. I didn't say that.." Mercedes grinned playfully.
"Oh, no." Sam tickled her sides and Mercedes laughed out loud. She weakly punched his chest as she gasped for air.
"Stop. Sam.. Please stop!"
He smiled and continued.
"I won't stop untill you say it.. Say you are my girlfriend,Cedes." He chuckled and Mercedes laughed even harder under him.
"Okay, okay!" She giggled. "I'm your girlfriend!"
Sam stopped his moviments and looked at her, with a big smile on his face.
"This is the best thing you've said all day long."
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