Sorry it's a little short, I've had a busy few days but I wanted to publish something so hope you enjoy. :)
I don't own these characters, the talented Classandra Clare
Clary's point of view
My heart begun to pound a little harder, and my fingers and Palm became clammy when Jace sat down next to me, and I tried to calm the nerves, I shouldn't be nervous, I have nothing to be nervous about.
"You know, I'm blaming you if his disappointed in the drawings." I smiled at him.
"I swear on my life he won't, and if he does, I swear by the angel his crazy." I couldn't help but smile at him.
And before I knew it I blurted it out. "I know you don't, but I do want to talk about it."
He raised an eyebrow but I could see in his eyes he knew exactly what I was talking about. "Look Jace I wanted to kiss you back, I really did." He begun to smile. "But I can't." And like a blink of an eye his smile faded.
"Why not, why can't you? I've met dozens of girls for less then an hour and they could." And it was like my heart was torn to pieces in one persons hands, did he think that of me, did he want me like he wants all the other girls?
"I was going to say I would want to get to know you first, but now. I don want to, Jace I thought it was something more than a fling and I am obviously wrong. I'm glad we never kissed because I would have regretted it for the rest of my life! Im not just some girl you can toss around." I walked towards the door. "And tell Max when he comes back, I'll be in my room, when his done with the stories I'll draw with him."
"Clary wait!" I heard Jace say but I was already at my door. I opened it, and took a quick look to my side, and saw him standing in the hallway.
I turned back and walked in my room and shut the door before I did anything stupid. I had a shower and tried my best not to cry, and all I could think about in the shower was. What would your Dad say if he saw you upset over a boy?
I knew we still had dinner later tonight, so I but some leggings on and a long sleeve orange top. With a back that hung down to meet the middle bottom of my back. I put some 6 inch nude heals on, Izzy said made me look taller, and I wouldn't have dared wore any lower while I was around Izzy. I decided to dry my hair and put it in a high ponytail with some makeup. If Jace was going to be like that to me, I was giving him something to miss.
I walked down stairs and went down and I saw Jace, Max and Alec sitting at one end of the table, there was a gap across from Jace, and next to the gap was Jocelyn and across from her was Max, and then Izzy next to Jocelyn and across from Alec, I took the only spot free.
"Sorry I'm late, I was writing."
Jace stopped talking to Max, and looked up at me, trying to avoid my gaze at the same time.
"Who were you writing to Clarissa?" Jocelyn ask taking another bit of meat.
"Jonathon." I saw Jace clench his jaw, and furrow his eyebrows, I had never told him I had a brother.
"Tell him I said hi, how is he, I haven't heard him since last time you saw him. He has to come down to the institute."
I saw Jace tense up more, I decided not to be cruel and as much as I enjoyed it I decided to put him out of his pain, but not after a piece of meat... Or two.
"I think his going good, I miss having an older brother around, I told him that and I think he is organizing a date to come to the institute." I saw Jace's once tight shoulders relax, I almost laughed. But then I thought about it, why was he getting so worked up? Was it because he thought I could find another guy better than him? Or was it something more? A pit in my stomach hoped it was more.
I ignored it having so more food before long everyone had finished. Jocelyn left and the rest of us started to clean up the kitchen and dishes.
"Hey Clary I finished the story, there's still about four hours till my bed time, do you think we could start on the pictures?"
I replied with a smile, he was almost nervous to ask. "Of course, were finished here anyway, I'll get my sketch pad and meet you in the library." I said.
I quickly went back to my room, grabbed my sketchbook and a bunch of pencils out of my desk draw, and walked quickly back towards the library. I sat down on the desk in the corner, which was right next to the couches. I moved the seat from the piano next to my seat so Max could sit down next to me, it wasn't long until the quick light thuds of Max's shoes ran into the library.
He slowed down walking over to me.
"So what's the book about exactly?" Asked as he sent the half a page of writing on the table. I opened my book to a new page. Careful to make sure he couldn't see any of my drawings. My sketch book is like my diary and I have a few drawing of Jace, Izzy and Alec I'd there I'd rather him not see.
"It's about the four best shadow hunters in the world, a couple and a brother and sister who fight demons."
"That sounds awesome Max, what do they look like?"
"You four obviously." He said looking at me like I asked a dumb question.
"But whose the couple?" I knew it wouldn't be Izzy and Jace but still prayed it wasn't me and Jace.
"Jace and you obviously?" He said as his eyebrows and eyes changed into a questioning gaze.
"Jace and I aren't dating Max." I told him letting out a small frown, why was I frowning?
"But he likes you, and it think you like him to, don't people date when they like each other?"
"It's a little more complicated then that, and we don't like each other." I lied, I was unsure if he liked me but I knew I liked him as much as I hated it.
"But he likes you, his never liked a girl before. I can tell." He started to get defensive so I tried to find an exit route.
"Okay, well, this is for the book anyway. You write it, so you read me out the story line, and I've already sketched a bunch of boxes, so the story flows." I tried to smile, but I could only think of what he had just said about Jace.
I finished drawing the story, it was about midnight, Max had already gone to bed by 10:30 but I had continued, and apparently to make my life easier, I had to draw a picture of Jace an I kissing, it was the last scene, and Max had made it clear before he left he wanted that to be sketched not just written. I nodded with a slight laugh, he was persistent. I ripped the pages out my sketch book, and went past his room and slid the papers gently under the door, his room was across from Jace's.
"I thought his a little young for you to be slipping notes under the door at midnight." I turned to see who was speaking, I was greeted with a familiar smirk.
I rolled my eyes. "It's the finish Manga story."
He started to walk toward the door, where a tip of what seemed like blank paper was sticking out under the door.
He reached down to grab it. "NO!"
He stopped and slowly stood back up with his hands up in defense and surrender.
"He said he wanted to be the first to read it, other than me obviously." I lied, I didn't want Jace to see what in my defense, Max made me draw, though in Max's defense I weirdly enjoyed it, thinking about real life. I eventually successfully brought my hand out of the daze.
"He won't ever know." He said bending back down.
I quickly pushed myself between the door and him. Me being so short, left his gaze at my stomach. I wondered if he could see my pounding from there. "I will know. And I'm a crap liar."
"I'm starting to think it's a love letter." He smirked standing back up inches away from my face, I felt a small flush creep over my face.
"Very funny Jace Wayland." I said sarcastically as I rolled my eyes.
He begun looking deeper into my eyes, and I felt air hitch in my throat. I thought to myself, move, snap out of this, move. But my legs wouldn't budge. But I kept an angry face on, but I could feel my frown relaxing, I wouldn't be able to handle much more of this.
"Can I talk to you Clary." My brain instantly relaxed, I was out of the haze. "Away from Max's room so he doesn't wake up. We took a few steps down the hall and went into my room.
"What do you want Jace?" I said sternly, finally as long as I don't look into his eyes, my brain is back functioning.
"I'm sorry about what I said before, I didn't mean it that way, I just, it's just. to tell you the truth Clary, I've never liked a girl before, not like this, I just don't know how to speak right when I'm around you." He begun stepping forward, his gaze setting into my eyes.
Shit Clary, don't look in his eyes, Clary look somewhere else, shit I can't move my feet now. He came over so close, moving a piece of hair out of my eyes, but leaving his hand their cupping my cheek, I took a step back and I met the wall. Shit this wasn't a great place to be. Should of stood next to an open door... Or window.
"I like you Clary, I really do, take all the time you need, get to know me as much as you want, but one thing I know won't change, I like you Clary. And I hate it because I don't know how to even breath when I'm around you, when were on a mission the first person I check in is you. And that top your wearing, I can't keep my eyes off of you." She subconsciously smiled to her self, I knew he would like this shirt.
I almost wanted to slap myself in the face, I can't like this guy, I'm not supposed to like guys like that, love destroys. All shadow hunters know that, but he said that and he looks in my eyes, and I feel like melting.
I'm sick of being the perfect shadow hunter, love can't destroy that much. I hoped not.
Jace moved his face closer, his nose touched mine, lips millimeters away, his eyes looking at mine for permission. One hand on my cheek, and another begun to graze my waist.
I couldn't take it anymore, I closed my eyes, and moved forward that millimeter so our lips touched. He pounced in the opportunity, leaning me into the wall. I wrapped my hands around his neck. Slowly making my way through his hair. Our lips bashing together, I pushed his body more into mine, his arms moved to wrap around my waist, pushing me further into his body, until we could be no closer. My back leaning into the wall. I felt all my sanity fly out the window, I melted into him.
I opened my mouth to gasp, he took this as access moving his tongue slowly into my mouth.
I almost jumped at the sensation. He moved his hand to my side, my hands still tangling through his hair.
My shirt rode up slightly and he moved his fingers under my hem, wrapping his warm arms around my bare back. I moved my head back desperate for air. He moved one arm from under the hem of my shirt, and pushed my hair away from the left side of my neck, leaving it bare, I was still catching my breath and he was to.
He begun nipping my neck with small kisses, and I heard myself let out a slight moan. I quickly covered my mouth before I did it again. He smiled into the nape of my neck.
He looked back at me, and we begun kissing more passionately now, not rushing it as much as before, I moaned under his lips. He moved his hands, one went to the side of my waist pushing me further into the wall, the other slid down the right side of my body, I wrapped my right leg around his torso, thank god for my high heels, other wise I wouldn't be able to reach.
He moved his hand under my thigh, and I moaned his name, he continues to move his arms up and down my thigh. Breaking from kissing every now and then to kiss her neck as they caught there breath.
A few minutes passed, and Clary tried to talk to him while he was kissing her neck. "Jace it's late. I need to go to bed."
"I didn't think you were that type of girl." Jace smirked and stepped away. He could see in my eyes exactly what I wanted to know, what were they now?
"Do you want to go on a date with me tomorrow night, I want to take you out, properly before."
I knew before, was code word for, I kiss you like that again and I ask you to be my girlfriend, I liked that plan. "Sure." She smiled and he placed a kiss on my cheek I felt my cheeks warm, and he left, I quickly got changed into some pajama shorts and a tank top, it was a warm summer night.
What are you doing to yourself, you shouldn't have done that, you hate girls who do stuff like that. I hardly know him, I kept tossing, eventually I told myself that I was 18 years old, most shadow hunters are preparing for marriage, you are still one step behind, it was alright, she fell asleep to a dreamless thought.
Jace's point of view
I quickly scurried to my room, making sure not to be seen coming out of Clary's room some time past midnight.
I silently shut the door, I leaned up against it and slid down the door. I couldn't even stop the smile that appeared on my face.
I had never had a kiss like that, I mean yeah I'd had many kisses like that, more and less intense and what not, but that wasn't the issue, we didn't just kiss, it felt like I gave her part of me. I had never kissed a girl other then selfish reasons, this time I wanted to make sure she was okay with it, take it slow, and make sure she was happy, I'd never done that before, half the girls his kissed I hardly remembered their names.
But Clary, forgetting her name would be a sin, it rolled off my lips like water off metal. And her face, I knew every small freckle she had, every wrinkle that came next to her eye when she smiled, the teeth that twinkled when she spoke.
Wait what, I'm not supposed to be like this. Am I? But I couldn't help but think if this is what Maryse and Robert felt when they knew each other were the one. When Jocelyn met Clary's and her brothers Father, was this what it felt like to be in love. But Jace Wayland doesn't fall in love with anyone do I?
He took his pants and t-shirt off and fell asleep to the thought of what his feelings meant, and why he has them, but eventually the thoughts subsided into the back of his head, and he had ream of red hair spilling onto snow, on a cold winters day, as her smile shone bright, the dream was different to any other dream he had of a girl.
In this dream, he dreamt of Clary, laughing and throwing balls of snow at him, as they laughed and it felt so right, he didn't want the dream to end when Alec came into his room.
"Come on sleepy head, another demon attack appearance at that run down house." Alec said then left the room when Jace rolled out his bed.
he turned to see the time was about 11:30am, he knew he didn't usually sleep in, but he smiled at the dream he had, had and knew exactly why.