The Dark Depths of Desire
A/N: I'm sorry that this chapter took me so long to get out. Thank you for being patient. I hope you all enjoy. There is a couple of lemons in this chapter; if you don't like it, don't read it. As always, this is for entertainment purposes only…I own none of it.
Chapter 4: One Changing Element
Hermione was in her fifteenth week of pregnancy, and still unable to get rid of the constant urges she was having. At first she was afraid to talk to anyone about her embarrassing feelings, but after two weeks of torturous intoxication she confronted Poppy with her newly acquired feelings.
Poppy assured her that it was simply a reaction to the hormone levels that were in her body during this stage of the pregnancy. She told Hermione that most witches usually relieved their cravings with the help of their husband. Of course, for Hermione this proved to be an obstacle she would have to figure out on her own.
The first time Remus came to visit with them while she was suffering from these urges she tried, with no success, to distract Remus and get him alone. She kept hoping to find some time with him to help her alleviate a little of the constant arousal she was fighting.
But, on this night she sat in her room trying to read a new potions periodical to distract her mind from its continuous desire to wander to more erotic fantasies. After a full half hour of losing her place on the page and pacing in front of her bed to try and focus on the reading in her hands, she finally gave up and decided to get a snack.
But her plan was thwarted as soon as she opened her door and froze in place at the sight in front of her. Remus and Severus were on the couch in an intimate embrace. Hermione gasped quietly as she took in the vision of Severus sitting on the couch, facing her, with Remus leaning over him, kissing and worshipping Severus's collarbone.
Hermione was captivated by the sheer passion that they had for each other. She watched as Remus moved up to Severus's neck and bit down just enough to elicit a strangled moan from the strong wizard below him. Remus ran one of his hands over Severus's robes to unclasp them and push them off of his shoulders. He then moved his attentions to the buttons that ran down Severus's chest.
Hermione knew she should keep moving and leave them alone to give them privacy. But her body would not listen to her mind.
It was then that she looked up to Severus's face and found him staring directly at her. He held her gaze with an intensity that unnerved her. All at once she was frightened, aroused, confused and unable to process any intelligent thoughts.
Severus continued to hold her in a dark trance as he ran his fingers into Remus's hair and directed his lover's attentions on his torso. Remus was fully focused on Severus's pleasure as he laved at his nipples and continued to explore the lanky expanse of the wizard's chest. Severus moaned loudly and bucked his hips slightly when Remus ran one of his hands down to his trousers to press on his erection.
Hermione licked her lips unconsciously as she continued to watch the interaction between the two of them. She blushed when Severus focused again on her and smirked at the obvious reaction they were causing in her.
Hermione was confused by the display that he was giving her…and she didn't know what to do. Deciding to take advantage of his offer, she slowly started to move her hands over her own body to tease herself. She grasped one of her breasts and started to massage it gently as her other hand snaked its way down her abdomen towards her core.
Severus raised one eyebrow at her bravado. He then grasped the back of Remus's head with his hands and pulled his lover up to him to plunder his mouth.
Hermione's breathing became labored as she watched Severus push Remus to the side to lay him on the couch. Severus adjusted his position to climb on top of the other wizard and begin to give Remus the same attention he just received.
Hermione continued to touch herself as she listened to Remus moan and whisper Severus's name in appreciation of the wizard's skilled hands and mouth. It was enticing to watch the two wizards push and pull at each other in a desperate attempt to gain more pleasure from the other. Hermione found it hard to stay quiet as her level of arousal rose to new heights. She wanted so badly to make her presence known, to find a way to somehow become a part of the action…but her fears of Severus's reaction kept her in front of her door…watching.
"Merlin, Severus, you are generous tonight." Remus vocalized his approval of the unusual tenderness that Severus was showing him.
It was then that Hermione realized that Severus was putting on a show for her. It infuriated her that he was playing games with her in the same way that he had accused Remus of doing at the beginning of this little demented arrangement they had.
She pulled herself away from her doorway and made her way quietly to the kitchen to find a snack. When she went back to her room she took one quick glance over at the two wizards enjoying each other on the couch and noticed that both of their shirts were removed and Severus was expertly working on removing Remus's trousers.
She clicked her door closed as quietly as she could…but it still made a small sound.
"What was that?" Hermione heard Remus's voice coming from the couch. She pressed her ear to the door to listen to Severus's explanation.
"It was nothing Remus, don't stop."
"We should move this to your room, Severus. I don't want Hermione walking in on us."
"I thought that was exactly what you wanted." Severus's voice was sarcastic as he bit out his remark.
"What are you talking about?"
"Don't play innocent with me, Remus. I know in that mind of yours that you want to have the both of us at the same time. It's why you keep trying to play with me in front of her…to show me off…to try and tempt her and raise her desire for me. I will not be pawned off like some second-hand gift with purchase."
"Severus, I only want for all of us to be comfortable around each other. And that comfort includes me being intimate with both of you. You should never feel threatened by her."
"Oh, believe me I am not threatened by her at all. I am quite certain of my control over you."
"Really? Care to prove that?" Remus's voice was playful as he issued the challenge.
Hermione listened as she heard the distinct sound of Remus grunting in reaction to something Severus did.
"Go to my room. Take off all of your clothes; and prepare yourself. I will not be gentle with you tonight."
Hermione heard the sound of rustling around as the wizards got up from the couch. When she heard Severus's door click shut she went to go lay down on her bed, thinking they had both gone to Severus's room.
"Hermione…I know you are listening. So listen well. He is mine; and he will forever be mine. But I fear that I will not survive the final battle when Voldemort chooses to raise his armies against Dumbledore. My life as a spy has numbered my days, and I am not foolish enough to believe otherwise.
"I am not a sensitive man, but I have strong enough feelings for this man to know that he will need comforting and someone to keep him sane after my demise. You and his unborn child are the influence he will need in that time. My acceptance of you in our life is…bittersweet. But it is acceptance, none the less."
After that she heard the sound of his steps towards his door and the sound of it clicking shut behind him. That night Hermione got no sleep. Severus seemed to be trying to prove his claim over Remus by leaving the silencing spell down and taking him many times throughout the night. She heard both men scream their orgasms with a brutal force she had never heard before. And at one point in the night the pictures on her wall that was connected to Severus's room began to shake from their frantic and passionate coupling that pounded into her consciousness.
Hermione was ashamed of her actions as she listened to them moan and talk to each other using intimate and lewd words. She couldn't help herself as she touched her own body and brought herself satisfaction over and over again.
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The next morning was a Saturday, so Hermione took her time getting ready for the day. Once she was showered and dressed she finally came out of her room to see Remus sitting on the couch in the living room. He was still in his robe, sipping on a cup of coffee.
"Morning, my dear." Remus gave her a tired smile as he took another sip of his coffee.
Hermione smiled her greeting and looked around to see if Severus was around.
"He's already gone for the day. He said he had some errands he needed to get done. He also said he would be gone for most of the day." Remus motioned for her to come and sit next to her on the couch. "I think he orchestrated this so I could have the chance to talk to you."
Hermione sat down next to him and leaned her head over to rest it on his shoulder. "It feels good to have some alone time with you." Hermione yawned unexpectedly, revealing her sleepless night.
"You didn't sleep well?" Remus looked over at her with some concern.
"Well, it's kind of hard to get some sleep when your roommates are up at all hours of the night." Hermione watched as Remus blushed slightly. "The two of you made the pictures on my walls shake."
Remus laughed at her comment and leaned forward to put his cup of coffee down. "You liked it, and you know it." Remus flashed a cheeky smile before he came back to sit close to her. "Hermione, Severus and I discussed you last night. It seems that he is finally ready to allow you to have a more active role in our relationship. He realizes that our little girl is going to change everything." Remus placed his hand lovingly on Hermione tiny protruding belly.
"I want you to be comfortable with me. I know that the only physical contact we have had does not bring about the best memories…and I want you to be prepared for my aggressive behavior when I begin having the urges to mate with you in the future." Remus looked around nervously as he tried to form his next words carefully. "I guess what I'm saying is that I don't want our only times together to be harsh. I want you to experience more than just the rough, sometimes brutal side of me." Remus's eyes betrayed his own uncertainty at Hermione's acceptance to his unsaid proposition.
"Is that what you truly want? Because I don't know if I could allow myself to be intimate, in that way, with someone that doesn't really love me in return…it makes me so vulnerable." Hermione looked at him with doubt in her eyes. "You love Severus. I can see it. And he loves you, Remus. Your heart will always belong to him first."
"No, Hermione." Remus turned on the couch to face her and grasped her hands in his own. "I love the both of you. I think fate has brought you both into my life, because I feel at home with the two of you." Remus scooted closer to her on the couch with his face only inches from hers. With one hand he caressed her face lightly with the reverence of an old lover. "Please…let me have this."
Hermione sat there in silence as her body tingled in response to his advance. She closed her eyes slowly as his hand strayed down her jaw-line and found its way to her collarbone. With light touches he pulled the collar of her blouse open to reveal one shoulder.
"Severus is not going to like this…and he will blame me." Hermione's words were breathy as she felt Remus lean down to place a soft kiss on her collarbone.
"Let me deal with him." Remus unbuttoned the first two buttons of her blouse. He then looked up at her eyes and stopped his pursuit of her. He stayed there for awhile, just looking into her soul with his piercing gaze. "I can't help it Hermione…I want you. You are so beautiful, intelligent, kind, and good. I want to be more to you than just the man that got you pregnant. I want to be there for everything…I want your good and bad…I want your love."
Hermione watched as Remus's eyes moved down to her little baby bump and he placed one of his hands over her stomach. He just sat there in awe of the life that was growing within her…he wanted so badly to be connected to the woman carrying his child.
"Remus," Hermione said his name weakly. She took a deep breath to gain her courage and strengthen her voice. "Show me the proper way to do this?"
That was all it took for Remus to take her lips with his own. He melted into her with a slow, pent up passion. Hermione wrapped her arms around his shoulders. She instantly felt a flood of arousal hit her as her hormones came rushing to the forefront.
Hermione moaned into his mouth as a surge of aggression fueled her desire. She shocked Remus with her sudden change as she bit his bottom lip.
"Hermione let me love you." Remus pulled away from her slightly and stood up from the couch. He pulled her up and took her hand to guide her into her room.
Once they were there he closed the door and pushed her up against the door. He passionately found her mouth with his as he pressed his body against hers.
Hermione squirmed underneath him as her body responded under his enthusiasm. It didn't take long for her to begin breathing hard and gasping for air. She kept pulling him closer to her…trying to find a way to make him become a part of her body. She felt like she couldn't get close enough.
Remus felt her frustration. He pulled her away from the door and began to tease her lips with slow deliberate kisses. He ran his hands down her back and cupped her arse. Using his new discovery, he rocked their hips together leisurely.
He walked her over to the bed and pushed her down in one quick move. Hermione squeaked at the sudden change and looked up to see Remus untying the knot in his robe. She watched in fascination as he slid the robe from his frame to reveal his body to her. He was strong and sinewy. His muscles were long and smooth.
Her eyes fell over his chest, noticing all of the scars and newly formed red marks that showed the years of his Lyanthropy. She then continued her observation down his body until she saw his erection. She became enthralled by his erection as he came closer to the bed to crawl over her. She moved her hand to reach out and touch him.
Remus grabbed her wrist and stopped her from reaching her destination as he settled himself on his knees over her. He then took her hands and pushed them down just to the sides of her head. He held them there as he murmured a charm under his breath that removed all of her clothes.
Hermione gasped at the sudden skin to skin contact. But she was soon distracted by Remus's kiss. He laid down over her and rocked his hips against her. She felt the heat of his erection pressed against her belly as her body hungered for more.
"Remus, please, I need more." Hermione pulled one of her hands free from his grip and wrapped it around his back. She seized his body in an attempt to find more friction.
"Ughh!!" Remus tried to control himself as she pushed for more. "Hermione, I love you." He moved his attention to the base of her neck. Taking in every inch of her. He released her other hand as his hands moved down to grip her hips and run along the sides of her breasts.
"I feel like I'm on fire…I need you in me." Hermione arched her back up off the mattress as she flung her head back. The torturous urges that she had been feeling for the last couple of weeks came all at once. She was finally feeling some relief. She pulled her legs up and opened them to allow Remus to settle in between her thighs.
"Are you ready?" Remus looked down at her…seeking her approval.
Hermione nodded as she prepared herself for pain.
Remus slowly slid into her tight heat with gentleness and love. Hermione didn't know how to process the complete and whole feeling she had. It didn't hurt, or even feel uncomfortable. She felt full and connected. She wrapped both of her arms around Remus's shoulders in a tight grip and pulled him down to lay on top of her.
With him firmly inside her she began to move her hips in small, slow circles.
Remus stayed still as she found her comfort zone. He loved watching the expressions of pleasure and surprise cross her features with each new little move of her hips. She began to find a rhythm that felt good. Remus grunted as she rocked a little harder and began to pant with each movement.
He lifted himself up onto his elbows and used his hips to start thrusting into her in time with her gyrations.
"Merlin, Hermione, you're so beautiful." Remus's words came out in short pants as he concentrated on staying under control. His heart was pounding and his mind raced to all of the times he had dreamed of being with Hermione in this way.
Remus felt Hermione's body respond to his as she found a rhythm with him that was easy. He could feel her beg for more as her hips started to thrust towards him with more power. She grunted with each thrust as she gripped his back with a strength he didn't know she possessed.
Hermione ran her nails down Remus's back as she arched her back off the mattress. "Harder, Remus!!" Hermione lost control of her body as she gave into her desires completely.
"Bloody Hell!!" Remus grunted loudly as he began to slam into her with a force he would normally only use when he was with Severus. He felt out of control and complete all at once. She was pulling out of him emotions he had yet to find with Severus…it was so different, yet the same. "You're so tight, Hermione. I can't last much longer!"
Hermione wrapped her legs around his hips as she clenched her body around him.
"Come with me, Hermione." Remus pressed one hand between their bodies and found her clit with his fingers.
Hermione screamed in pleasure at the unexpected jolt that ran through her body. She felt the familiar shocks of her impending orgasm begin to take over her body. She twisted her hips in tiny circles to find her release.
After a few thrusts she screamed Remus's name as her body convulsed around him. She felt Remus's body shake with each thrust as he lost control of his rhythm. He pounded into her with fierce, slow thrusts until he let out a guttural shout with his own release.
Remus dropped on top of Hermione as he tried to catch his breath. When he realized that he was lying on top of his future child, he pushed himself off of her and snuggled next to her side. Hermione closed her eyes as the sated feeling she had been searching for during the last two weeks began to take over her body and induce a slumber.
She wrapped one arm around Remus's hip and pulled him to her to kiss him with a tenderness he had yet to receive from her.
They fell asleep in her bed, wrapped in each other's arms.
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That day they spent most of their time just enjoying each other's company. Once they woke up, Remus convinced Hermione to take a bath with him in her large tub. It didn't take long before Remus had her pinned against the wall in the tub, making love to her slowly and tenderly. Remus kept repeating 'I love you' over and over again as he rocked into her with astonishment that she was in his life.
Hermione couldn't help but wonder if he was repeating it so often to try and convince her of his love, or if he was trying to convince himself. Her mind kept wandering back to Severus's words of ownership over Remus. She knew everything would change when he came back from his errands.
They spent the rest of the afternoon talking, reading together, and making out on the couch like school kids from time to time.
It was now 5 o'clock in the afternoon, and Remus and Hermione were lying in front of the fireplace with a book on the floor in front of them. They both read about the magical properties of the whooping willow as the time for dinner approached.
Hermione kept getting distracted from her reading as she would spy on Remus with a side glance. Anytime Remus caught her not paying attention to the reading material he would scold her like a professor and threaten her bodily harm.
His threats always made Hermione laugh. She kept pushing her luck, testing him and teasing him with her foot. Finally, Hermione squealed as Remus grabbed her hands and pushed her over on the ground to pin her underneath him.
"That is it. You have had plenty of chances to do right…now I shall have to punish you." Hermione smiled and giggled at his display of authority as he tried to intimidate in the same manner that Severus does.
"I would like to see you try." Hermione issued a challenge to him with a smirk.
"Oh, don't tempt me Ms. Granger." Remus smiled down at her before he leaned in to capture her lips. Hermione moaned her appreciation of his affection as she wrapped her arms and legs around him to heighten the sensations.
"Oh, Remus, you make me feel so good." Hermione moaned out her words as he ventured to her neck to show some attention to all of her body's needs.
Just then the door to the dungeon quarters opened in a flurry as Severus came rushing in with a few packages from his day of running errands.
The sudden intrusion spooked Hermione. She pushed Remus off of her quickly and sat up on the ground as her cheeks began to blush in embarrassment.
Severus looked at her with anger at first; but then his countenance changed as he looked over at Remus. "By all means, don't let my presence interrupt you." Severus raised one eyebrow towards Hermione in a sort of challenge. "Please, continue."
Hermione looked confused as she turned back to Remus to see him watching his lover as he tried to decipher his meaning.
Finally, Remus turned back to Hermione and cupped her face with his hand. "Hermione, it's okay…just pay attention to me." Remus guided her head slowly forward to kiss her in front of Severus's critical eyes.
Hermione closed her eyes to his presence and tried to focus her attention on Remus's kiss. He slowly pushed her back down to the ground and positioned his body over hers. She felt the same stimulation that Remus's touch always gave her…but at the same time she felt Severus's gaze penetrating her soul. She realized that she was even wetter than usual from the knowledge that he was watching the two of them.
She kept trying to take Severus's existence in the room out of her mind…but it wouldn't let her go. She pushed Remus over in one quick movement as she mounted him on the floor. She hoped that by showing some aggression and gaining control over the situation she would be able to continue without any trepidation.
But she still felt on display.
Finally, Hermione pulled away from Remus slightly to stop the kiss.
"I'm sorry, Remus, but I can't. I keep feeling like he's judging me."
"Hermione, it's okay. We'll work on it. You will become more comfortable with Severus's presence with time."
Hermione sat up and removed herself from Remus's body. She sat next to him on the ground as she looked at him with a question, "I don't understand. Why is it so important to you that we do this in front of him? Why can't this part of our relationship remain private between us?"
"Because it is the only way for the two of us to not become jealous of each other." Severus inserted himself into the conversation in a matter of fact tone. "Would you rather sit in your room, wondering what it was like for your lover to be with another person? To constantly wonder if he enjoyed the other person more than you…or if he treated you differently?"
Hermione looked down to the ground as she heard Severus reveal all of her deep fears that she was afraid to voice when it came to Remus. She never felt like she had any claim over Remus. She always felt like Severus would be the one that was first in Remus's heart.
"It is the only way for this little threesome to survive." Severus stood in the same place he started in with a serious look on his face.
"Severus, don't scare her. You and I had time to discuss this last night…but Hermione is still adjusting to all of these changes in her life." Remus got up from the floor and stretched out his hand to help Hermione get up off the floor.
"What have you been doing all day with her, Remus? These were the exact things you were supposed to discuss with her." Severus scolded Remus.
"I had more important things to discuss with her first. She is my mate, Severus, and I will treat her the way I want to."
Hermione stood there listening to the two wizards bicker over her. She didn't know what to think of the whole thing. "Please stop talking about me like I am not in the room." Hermione placed her hands on her hips as she tried to demand some respect from the two men in her life.
Both of them turned to her and looked her up and down to assess how serious she was.
"Let's just put this aside for now and enjoy a nice dinner together." Remus, ever the peace-maker, tried to get everyone off track.
"As you wish. But you will have to deal with this before the birth of her child, Remus." Severus sneered at Hermione as he made his way to his room to put away his purchases from the day.
That night they ate in an uncomfortable silence. Hermione then made her way to her room to get ready for the night. Remus came into her room just as she was pulling her nightshirt over her head. He smiled at her as she covered her body up.
"I love the way your body looks." Remus came over to her and wrapped his arms around her waist.
"Even with my belly starting to get bigger?" Hermione was embarrassed about the way her body was changing.
"Especially with your little belly. Hermione you are carrying my child. You couldn't be any more beautiful to me than right now." Remus kissed her lips sweetly.
"Thank you, Remus. I am starting to become uncomfortable in my own body and I feel like I'm getting so big."
"Never worry about how I see you, Hermione. You are exquisite in my eyes…you could never be anything but perfect to me."
Hermione loved the comfort he gave her in these times.
Remus squeezed her softly and gave her a deep kiss before he let her go and said goodnight. She watched him leave her room, and then heard him enter Severus's room for the night.
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A/N: Thank you so much for the kind reviews. You have been very patient with me through last week while I got this chapter done. It gave me some problems as I wrestled with where their relationship is going. Please continue to review!!