Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight L

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. :(

A/N This chapter is mostly Bella's point of view, it starts as Bella, and overlaps the

first chapter a bit, to explain Bella's dream. I think I'm going to try to stick to Edwards POV. I like doing it better. Bella will still have her little parts, but I still like doing Edward better.

Thanks for reviewing so fast, but it might take me awhile to upload more chapters, I still haven't finished the whole thing yet. :) oh, parts like this, is Edward reading peoples thoughts.

BPOV

I knew I was dreaming. At least, I hoped I was. It was snowing, and I was standing barefoot on the edge of a cliff, looking down on a perfectly round meadow, filled with wildflowers and sunshine. Edward's meadow. The sun beat down on me, I could feel its heat, but it was snowing, and I felt cold.

"I've missed you Bella. It's about time you came back," Edwards voice sounded from behind me. I spun to face him.

Edward was standing with eyes closed, facing me. The sun was shining directly on him, and everywhere the reflected light hit, a flower grew.

I ran to him. It was just like old times; me always to eager, him trying to keep me calm. But yet, even though he was practically right in front of me, it seemed like the distance between us was endless. Just before I reached him, he opened his eyes.

They were blood red.

Suddenly, the places where the light reflecting off him touched, instead of growing flowers, started on fire. I spun around and started running in the other direction, towards the edge of the cliff. I slid to a stop with an inch to spare. The edge dropped off into nothing.

I slowly turned to face Edward. He was coming at me in a low crouch, hunting me. A low growl ripped from his throat.

"Edward, go away, go away!" I whimpered. "Don't hurt me!"

Everything went dark, but I could still hear.

"Edward, when was the last time you hunted?"

"Two months."

"Go hunt. Now. You won't miss anything if you leave. Don't put her in danger that way. Go,"

Suddenly it was light again. Alice was standing in front of me, protecting me from the red-eyed Edward. Edward turned and ran, moving to fast for my eyes to see.

"Good, he's leaving." I whispered.

Alice spun me around so that I was facing her. "Bella, Edward will be right back. Don't worry."

I shuddered. He was going to come back.

Suddenly I was wide-awake. "Alice?" I cried out, still frightened from the dream.

"Bella, I'm here, it's okay."

The room started shaking. "Alice, where, is, Edward?"

"He's hunting, but he'll be back soon, don't worry." Alice sounded confused, like she wasn't expecting my reaction. "Bella, calm down."

"What color, were his eyes?" I whispered.

"Black. Bella, what color do you think they would be? Red?"

I whimpered.

"Bella, Edward would never do that. You know that. He won't hurt you." Alice murmured.

I shook my head "Yes he will! He's coming back!" I suddenly realized that we were not alone, and my voice cracked up to a high-pitched squeak. I pressed closer to Alice, trying to get farther away from Edward, who just appeared in the doorway.

EPOV

I never should have left. Alice was right. My leaving hurt Bella even more then it hurt me. I'll never forgive myself for hurting her.

And now Bella finally saw me as what I really was. A monster. Bella really didn't deserve me.

Alice looked up. 'Edward, I don't know what's wrong. She just woke up and started crying again. Edward, she's terrified. Of, you.'

Alice's thoughts sent my head spinning. Bella was afraid of me. If only she had been that way from the beginning, before it was impossible for me to let go of her. To forget, go on like I was before. I moaned, sinking to the floor.

"Edward, stop torturing yourself." Alice hissed. "She will forgive you, I just don't know when, just don't do that to yourself. She WILL forgive you."

I wanted to believe her, but staring into Bella's wide, terrified eyes, it was next to impossible.

"Try talking to her." Alice whispered, to low for Bella to hear.

I shook my head. "No."

Alice sighed "Then go wait in her room, I have an idea."

"Alice, do you really believe-,"

"Yes Edward, this will work. Just don't get mad if she decides to tell you everything. Bella's been through a lot the past seven month's."

"Like what?" I growled.

Alice grew silent, she obviously knew something she wanted to keep from me; she was translating the dictionary into sign language to keep me out.

"Just go, she won't sleep when you're here." Alice glared at me, and I reluctantly stood up. I didn't want to leave Bella, but Alice's idea might work.

I slowly, well, slow for me, walked up to Bella's room.

It looked different then I remembered. The walls were blank, and it just looked empty. The dresser, which used to have pictures and CD's on it, was cleared off. The only things that were the same were the computer desk, Bella's bed, and the rocking chair. I sat down in the chair, letting my head fall into my hands so that I wouldn't look at the clock.

Did time always pass this slowly? Or had I just not noticed, because I never really had to wait for things. Either way, it was agony.

I tried to keep myself calm by listening to Alice, but it only helped by making time seem to speed up.

I didn't know how long it was; Alice was in the V's when she finally came upstairs, carrying Bella. She set her down on the bed, the turned to me.

"Edward, I'm warning you, stay calm when she wakes up, don't even think about looking upset or mad at her. She'll see it. And don't do anything if she tells you about what she's done. Got it?" I nodded. "Good. I'm leaving now. Let her wake up on her own, then talk to her."

Alice slipped out the window, leaving me alone with Bella. Then the real torture started.

So, is this chapter better? It might be a while before I add another one; I still have to write the rest. If you have any ideas as for what Bella should say in her sleep, or what to tell Edward what she wakes up, please tell me.

Bella MMR Swan