I decided not to tell my parents or friends that I saw Will. After all, we didn't really talk much. The rest of the week went by like a blur as my thoughts were constantly clouded and turning to Will. I hadn't seen my ex-boyfriend since he broke up with me whilst I sat helpless in the hospital bed connected to different tubes and machines. That day was one of the worst days for me. Obviously except the day of my attack but I really didn't expect Will to break things off the way he did.
Flashback
"Will!" I sat up on my plain white bed, careful not to disturb any of the tubes the nurses had stuck in my arms.
"Hi." He replied. His expression solemn and silent.
"What's wrong?" His eyes were glued to the floor. The heartbeat monitor showed a slightly increased of heart beats per minute as I began to worry about Will's unusual behaviour.
"Look Jo, I… I think it would be best if we would stop seeing each other."
He shoved his hands into his pockets and slightly tilted his head to look up at me. My eyes widened at the realisation of his words and you could hear the monitor increase another bit more.
"You mean, you're breaking up with me?" Tears began to gather in my eyes as I sat vulnerably on the hospital bed whilst my first boyfriend, my first kiss, my first everything tore my heart.
"I didn't want to do this. Believe me. If I could I'd stay with you forever, princess. But I need to keep you safe. I need to be sure that something like this won't happen again."
Will walked to the side of my bed and crouched next to it. He took my hand into his and slowly caressed it with his thumb.
"Why? Why, Will? Why now?"
"One day, I promise, I'll explain. For now, I just need you to stay away from me."
He brought my hand up to his lips and kissed it softly before standing up again and turning to face the door. My hands trembled as I brought them up to my face to prevent the tears from falling.
"I'm sorry."
Those were the last words I heard from him. Until now, of course. After his surprising appearance at my locker he didn't talk much.
Flashback
"Will?"
"Hey, princess."
"Will. What are you doing here? How did you know where I went? What happened?"
"I can't say right now. But I will explain soon like I told you. Just know you might see a little more of me in the upcoming few weeks."
"You broke up with me Will. Why are you here?"
"I missed you."
Out of nowhere, my right hand swung out, hitting him across the face.
At first he stepped back from the obvious shock. However, after recovering, he took a few steps forward and placed his hands on my shoulders.
"You can't do this again. You can't just come here and expect me to be happy with anything you're telling me and then leave."
Slightly pulling me into him I took in the smell of his cologne. I closed my eyes for a few seconds before opening them again to make sure this was not a dream.
He pulled me into a tight embrace, enveloping me in his arms. At first I tried to fight him but after finding that very pointless I slumped against him as he planted a kiss on my forehead before pulling me back and making me look into his eyes.
"Eventually you'll know everything. Just give me time, Jo."
I crashed my lips against his trying to put every tint of anger in my body into the kiss. This was how our arguments usually ended when we were still together. Will would apologise and buy me some flowers and I'd run right back to him. Or in many cases the other way round.
After that Will left quickly. I didn't try to follow him since my body was still in shock and refused to move. For quite a while I sat on the cold floor of my school until I realised Patrick's detention was over.
Patrick didn't know about the incident either. After the whole thing I walked back to the car park and acted as if everything was normal. Luckily that night my parents weren't home to see how distraught I felt. Eventually of course life caught up with me as Saturday evening arrived and I was reminded of my 'date' with Nick.
I decided not to cancel for the obvious reason of not upsetting Nick once again and of course I did promise him that one date. Nick and I arranged for him to pick me up around 4-ish and go to a small amusement park a couple miles away from our town. By 3 o'clock I was ready and sat in the kitchen with a large cup of black tea in hand. Music played in the background causing me to relax only slightly.
Once I heard the car pull up I switched the radio off and left the house. Nick was waiting for me outside his car wearing light denim trousers, a dark red t-shirt and a blue checked shirt over it. Luckily recently it had been quite warm so I was able to wear some ¾ skinny jeans with a white sleeveless top and a small dark blue sweater over it.
We said our hello's and how are you's and got into the car.
In the car Nick turned his music on and I immediately cringed to the sound of the horrible music the jocks at our school listened to. Quickly pressing the 'stop' button I looked up at Nick.
"Where do you keep your music?" I asked looking around the car.
"There's a whole collection of different things in a basket behind your seat." He replied smirking slightly but without taking his eyes of the road.
I twisted my arm so that I was able to reach behind my seat. After some digging around I felt the basket and took it out and placed it on my lap. Browsing through the various CDs I took out the ones I knew and liked which was about 7 or 8 out of the 50 that were there.
"This is probably the best one you have." I said examining one of the CDs.
"What?" He asked. Shooting a quick glance at the CD I was showing him.
"Yeah that one's a really good one I think..." He continued.
"I certainly didn't take you for an Arctic Monkeys fan." I said whilst inserting the CD into the music player.
"I could say the same about you." He said laughing under his breath.
We managed to listen to about half of the CD before we arrived at our destination. The amusement park was already filled with many people. Nick parked the car and we walked to a small booth where he purchased the wristbands for the rides.
"Right. Where do you wanna go first?" He asked scanning the large park and the rides.
"I propose that we get the biggest rides over and done with first and then we can cool down with the Ferris wheel and some candy floss." I replied already eyeing the biggest roller coaster.
Unfortunately after the first three rides, Nick and I were already beginning to feel slightly nauseous due to the many spins and turns and upside downs we had to endure earlier on. We decided to go on the Ferris wheel as not many people were on it and so we'd be able to stay on for longer.
Once we got into our little carriage we leaned back and sat in a comfortable silence while enjoying the view of the night sky. Both of us had our necks tilted to look up directly at the stars above us.
"I love looking at the sky." I sighed with content.
"What is it that you love the most about it?" Nick asked.
"I guess I simply enjoy knowing that it is the only thing that not a single person on this planet can have."
"What do you mean?" He asked not understanding.
"Well, every person is looking at the same sky. That's what all of us have in common except for the fact that we're human. It's the most beautiful thing out there and yet nobody owns it."
"I see what you mean. Alright, how about this? For every question I ask you, you get to ask me one." He said turning to face me.
"Okay. Fine. What do you want to know?" I asked smiling at him.
"Why did you move here? I mean Pittsburgh is so far away from California."
"My parents have to travel a lot near here for work and they thought it would just be easier for them to travel from here and it would give them more time to spend with me."
"Huh. Okay. Your turn."
"Why do you choose to be a nerd? Not in an offensive way. But, you clearly can fit in with all those popular kids at school if you just took of the glasses and dresses like this to school." I said.
"I don't see the point in trying to be like a group of kids who try to show others that they're better than them through a made-up social hierarchy. Plus, the nerd kids are so much more interesting, you can have a proper conversation with them."
I laughed at the indirect comment Nick was making about being able to have a conversation with the jocks and cheerleaders.
"Okay, my turn now. What are you with Patrick? Whenever I see you two in the hallways you guys seem so close but you've barely known each other that long." He said.
"I guess you could say that at the moment Patrick is the closest thing I have to a best friend. I don't know we just get along really, really well."
We talked for about an hour longer whilst sitting on the Ferris wheel. The guy operating it obviously didn't mind since there were barely any people who wanted to get on. After that we got some popcorn which we ate on the ride back. Nick dropped me off at my house where he walked me to the door and we said our goodbyes and I thanked him for taking me out.
"See today wasn't so bad was it?" Nick said referring to the date.
"It was great actually, thanks." I replied.
"So what are you thinking about my little offer? You wanna do this again sometime?"
"I'll think about it." I said and gave him a quick peck on the cheek before quickly going into the house and closing the door.
I could feel my cheeks flushing red as I smiled to myself. Maybe going out with Nick wasn't such a bad idea. Maybe I can finally get over Will.
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