I run into S.T.A.R. Labs so quickly that Cisco seems concerned.

"Woah, woah, slow your roll there, Kat," he says. "What's on your tail?"

"Zoom," I gasp, sitting in the chair beside his. I'm not used to running, ironically.

"What?!" Cisco sits up, his face gone slack.

"I think. I think I understand what Jay- the Time Wraith was trying to say."

"I thought we decided he was fixated on Barry's Time Remnant?" Cisco says hesitantly.

"Please. Vibe him. Zoom. On this earth," I beg.

"There are many issues with that, Miss Claythorne," saya Harrison Wells, entering the Cortex.

I face him, determined not to show any emotion. But I was full of excitement and trepidation, all of which I'd allowed Cisco to see.

"First of all," says Harrison. "It's entirely out of character for Zoom to ignore an enemy. You cannot suggest that for the past weeks he's allowed us to continue peacefully, without any sort of contact with you."

I can't argue with this.

"And secondly, Zoom is very, very gone," he says.

"There is no corpse, and even if there were, he's known to have been in more than one place at a time," I reply. "You knew this was an alternative. You know it still, so why are you trying to prevent it?"

"Kneeeew what?" Cisco looks between us, confused.

"Believe it or not," Harrison says, raising his voice slightly. "I would be extremely disappointed to find my archnemesis still alive and hunting me and the people I care about."

The words hit me like a kick to the stomach. Of course. He's the bad guy. How can I continue to forget this? Continue to forget how he's hurt people here? Hurt and killed so many people.

What they do for me here at S.T.A.R. Labs is a kidness beyond reason, not a duty.

"Please. Can I just try?" I ask.

"Try what?" Cisco presses.

Harrison regards me for a moment. I feel as though I can hear Jay whispering to me to put on am act. Throw in fake tears, manipulate him. Whatever it takes. But then I take the step from chasing after Jay to becoming Zoom.

He faces Cisco. "Katrine and I believe Zoom may have left behind a Time Remnant of himself."

"Oooh m- that could work," Cisco says, rolling one hand in the air as he considers it.

"Perhaps," Harrison says. "But I advise extreme caution. This project of yours has been fsr too dangerous."

I nod in assent, eager to find Jay and leave. No more questioning if S.T.A.R. Labs is my home, no more questioning if Cisco is a friend, no more questioning if I'll wake to find Harrison's knife in my back for Jesse's sake.

Cisco nods.

"Let's vibe a villain," he says with slightly too big a grin.

"Lets," echoes Harrison, watching me flatly.

I nod, fighting both tears and a smile. I would save all my emotion for Jay, just as I had saved my hate for so many years.

I had hoped to use that to battle grief, perhaps even allow me to finish him. But they lie about it bottling up. Perhaps for a few months or so, but after so many years, I'd found most of it to have dissipated. It was so much more superficial than I'd thought. It had done nothing to battle my grief.

I wasn't so good at goodbyes. I wasn't so prepared to let go.

I needed, if nothing else, a final goodbye. A proper goodbye. Not one with evil plans or desperate beggings of him to stop.

Not with Zoom and Katrine. With Jay and Katnip.

I would chase that as fast and long as I had to.