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Vicor´s point of view – at the Benedict house.

I was cleaning the room Drue had stayed in – not that there was much to clean. Something got my attention, and at first I did not know what it was, but after a little while I discovered it was a letter. The letter had my name on it written with Drue´s handwriting which I found kind of odd. If she wanted to tell me something, why did she not just do it? As I opened the letter and started to read it, I understood why… She was gone…, and she had not told me. I felt my hands starting to shake of anger. She had left… and her way of telling me was with a fucking letter.

Hallo there, Victor.

When you are reading this, I am gone, Gone? What did she mean by gone? What had I done to make her leave? As far as I knew I had only been kind and respectful towards her.

and I am most like on my way back to my husband. Her husband who she had told little about… Great, how do I find him and beat up his ass for taking her if I do not even know who he is? That CIA guy most likely knew who he is…

I knew my destiny, and I accept this destiny. Wrong, Drue. You are wrong. You belong with me that is your destiny. Do not tell me that asshole of your husband is, because you are wrong.

I knew what was going to happen, and I accept this destiny. You may accept it, I do not, and I never will.

The people who took me will most likely bring me back to my husband, and I knew this before I went there. Like I have already written: I accept my fate, and what this fate is going to do to me. I know that my odds for surviving are minimal, but it will be my cross to bear – NOT YOURS. How could she not understand that it is my cross to bear? She left in order to save someone – Sky…, and I could not protect her. She never gave me a chance to protect her. She made her choice without saying anything, and now I had to live with her choice.

I accepted this fate when I said yes to marry him. I have always known how I would die and at who´s hand – the question is just when and where. Why marry a guy who would be your death?

This will never be your cross to bear… Well, Drue. It is, because you are my soulfinder. You are my other half. My missing part. You are the yin to my yang.

But I did not write this letter so that you should feel bad or go after me. I am going after you. I am going to look for you till I find you.

I do not want you to go after me. Well, I am. Deal with it.

I want you to live and to be happy. I am. With you.

Without me. I feel like you do not listen. I want you. I am happy with you. Why do you not listen?

Because that is what is going to happen, you are going to move on and be happy – without me. Again you do not listen. If you just would talk to me…

I am going with him so that you will be safe. Even if safe does not involve me. I want you to be happy – even if happy does not involve me. I knew when we first met that our lives were only crossing together for a short while, because nothing last forever. I want you to be happy even if happy does not involve me. I feel like this is a cliché for one of those romantic movies Diamond loves so much. Why I never understood… I mean a girl meets a guy. We fall in love. There is something standing between them. They overcome it, and they live happily ever after. Even if I basically hated those movies, why cannot we be one of those couples? The ones that made it..?

I know that you are going to look for me, but I am asking you: Do not look for me. You will not like what you find if you make it. So you do know me a bit, because I was starting to wonder if you even knew me at all.

This is not a threat but the reality. It is my cross to bear – not yours. I want to be with you. You are my soulfinder that makes it my cross to bear.

In another life things could be different – I could have been different. I could have been what you need, but I am not, and this is not that life. I am not that person, and I do not think I ever will be. You are perfect just the way you are. I do not want you to change for anyone. I want you just the way you are.

I am so sorry, Victor. I hope that you with time can find it in your heart to forgive me for my shortcomings and move on so that you can live the life you were meant to – without me. Forgive you? You and I need a serious talk when I find you. I just need to find you first.

Drue.

I was sitting with her bloody letter in my hands feeling like the world just had ended, and maybe it had. My whole body was hurting from missing her and from the fact that she had left. She had left to protect everyone here and most likely to bring back Sky. I just did not know why. I wanted to hate Sky and my little brother, Zed, but I could not. How could I hate my own brother and his soulfinder who was like a little sister to me? I simply could not. I had nowhere to place all the hate, anger and pain I felt. I could feel how I was losing myself because of her. Before her this would not have happened. I would have been able to control myself and my feelings. But now? After her I could not. I was feeling all these things, and I did not know how to deal with that. I had always been so controlled by myself, because I was so scared of hurting someone with my ability. I did not feel that way with her. She made me feel like it was okay to not be okay and controlled all the time. She could make me laugh. She could make me smile. She made me see the world in a different light. And now she was gone… As odd it might sound I did not know who I was without her. I needed her. She was my soulfinder, and we were meant to grow old together. We should be together. I was at some point going to propose, and she would say yes. We would get married and have children that were a mix of both of us. We would see them grow up and find their place in the world. They would get married and have children. We were going to do all of those things, but before that could happen, I needed to find her. The question was just how…