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Chapter 5: An impossible choice
"What? Why?" Itachi said, pulling up an eyebrow.
"I mean, you know each other for a week or something?" Itachi said. "Isn't that a bit early? And, I'm not sure if we can afford another person in our house. And I guess you want my bed then too hm." He put his arms over each other. "Where do I have to go to have sex then?"
"I got Neji pregnant." Sasuke said and looked at the floor. He waited for Itachi to scold him to death now.
"Ok very funny." Itachi said.
"He has a uterus. He's pregnant." Sasuke softly said.
Itachi pulled up an eyebrow. "Oh sure. That's the most normal thing in the world, a boy having an uterus." He said, sarcastically.
"It's true...Neji where are those scans?" Sasuke asked and looked at Neji.
"One minute." He said and then walked into Sasuke's room, opened his backpack and took the X-rays out, walking back and passing them to Sasuke.
Sasuke passed them to Itachi. "Uhm, what was it again? This was a girl and that a boy and that Neji." He said, pointing them out for Itachi.
Itachi took the X-rays and looked at them. It went deadly silent. Itachi, unlike Sasuke, was a genius in the brain. And 'very' good at biology.
"...Holy crap..." Itachi muttered, while staring at the X-rays.
"..Yeah...So.." Sasuke sat and then looked at the floor again.
"And it actually works..?" Itachi asked, looking at Neji, who nodded a bit uncomfortable.
Itachi was silent again for a few seconds, before speaking up. "And why exactly did you wanted children with Sasuke hm?" Itachi asked Neji, shooting Neji daggers with his eyes.
"You knew it, Sasuke didn't." Itachi snapped. "What kind of asshole are you, do you need money or something?"
Neji looked at him frowning. Ok he hadn't expected that.
"It's really not what you're thinking." Neji muttered. "I.. I didn't really knew what he was doing and I liked everything so much that I couldn't think clear anymore. I just.. forgot."
Itachi glared at Neji. "I don't believe a shit of it." He snapped.
"Itachi, it's not Neji's fault. He didn't wanted to have sex, nothing of that kind. I did it, it was my fault, not Neji's." Sasuke said. Damn, he knew Itachi wouldn't be happy.
"It's rubbish." Itachi snapped. "I don't want him in my house. We don't have the time and money for it."
"Itachi please..It's not rubbish. I'll just work more. He has to stay here, his uncle doesn't want him home anymore." Sasuke said and looked at Itachi.
"I don't care." Itachi snapped. "We already have it tough enough. You're 'not' going to work for that piece of shit, he's healthy enough to work himself." Itachi stamped to where the coats were hanging and grabbed Neji's jacket, throwing it into Neji's face. Neji quickly caught it.
"Get out." Itachi snapped at Neji.
"Itachi no! Neji's not going...He's not a piece of shit..I got him pregnant so he won't be able to work for long...I..I can do it alone Itachi, we won't bother you I promise.." Sasuke said, feeling his insides turn. He hadn't expected Itachi to react like that.
"He has time enough to gather money to get a flat." Itachi snapped. "It's not our business. And it's not your fault that you got him pregnant, he should have told you. And I want 'you' to get a good live so he has to get out, because he'll ruin your life! Get out you!" Itachi yelled at Neji again, this time grabbing him at the arm and dragging him with him towards the door. How dare that little brat just invade this situation which wasn't easy already.
"Itachi stop! It's not his fault! He didn't mean for it to happen and it's still my child too! I will take care of it...but please don't kick him out.." Sasuke said as he grabbed Itachi's arm, the one Itachi held Neji with.
Itachi opened his mouth to say something but Neji stopped him. "Sasuke.. I'll safe myself for now, please don't ruin your relation with your brother for this.." Neji said.
Itachi looked at Neji and then at Sasuke. "See." He said. "He even says himself that he can go. So stop complaining about it and just let him have an abortion or something."
"He can't have one, it'll kill him...And he can't save himself, he has no where to go...He's staying Itachi.." Sasuke said determined. Neji was his responsibility now.
"He's not staying." Itachi snapped. "I don't allow it. We're having enough problems already."
"I got him pregnant so I'll take care of him. This is my house too." Sasuke snapped back. Neji wasn't going anywhere.
"Yes but if one doesn't agree with something it wouldn't happen." Itachi snapped. "And I don't care, he should've told you even before you guys started kissing."
"I kissed him, he wasn't planning on doing 'anything' with me. He didn't even wanna go on a date I practically forced him into everything. It's my responsibility." Sasuke snapped.
"He still has a voice." Itachi grunted. "He could've easily told you. And don't act ridiculous. If you would have forced him you would've raped him."
"I don't care Itachi. He didn't tell me, he was ashamed of it, he didn't wanted any of it to happen, it just happened. We used a condom so it was ok, but it ripped. And that was my fault too because I used the thin ones." Sasuke said angry.
"Ashamed or not, he should've told it." Itachi snapped. "I want him out of the house!"
Neji was looking at them very uncomfortable, while still having Itachi's hand wrapped around his upper arm. He didn't knew if he even wanted to stay anymore, since Itachi was so enemy like against him.
"Well I don't!" Sasuke yelled back and looked Itachi straight in the eyes.
"Sasuke stop it!" Neji yelled at Sasuke. "Please don't ruin this just for me, I don't deserve that!" He couldn't destroy the bit of family Itachi still got left.
"It was my fault, so I'll take care of it!" Sasuke yelled. It was his responsibility. He had to take care of Neji and his child from now on. And Neji needed a home right now. And that was here.
"Just let him go to the hospital and the police or something, let him ask for an allowance!" Itachi snapped, being highly irritated. "Else you have to choose between him and me!"
Sasuke was silent now and looked at Itachi desperate. Choose? How could Itachi ask him to choose? "...What..?" He asked overwhelmed.
"Both of us isn't going to work because we just don't fucking have enough money you idiot!" Itachi snapped, he was almost yelling now. Not something usual with Itachi. "So choose! Live with him or with me!"
Sasuke looked at Itachi and then to Neji. Choose...? He couldn't choose..he loved Itachi...but Neji..Neji was carrying his child...Neji needed shelter..And Neji might just be what Sasuke needed...He couldn't choose...He looked at Itachi desperate.
"I don't like to give you that choice either, but there is no other way." Itachi snapped.
"...Sasuke please choose your brother.. I'll find something..." Neji said, laying his hand on Sasuke's arm.
"No...I'm not choosing...Itachi, Neji needs a place to stay...Please.." Sasuke was practically begging now. He never begged. Never.
"There always exists places like hotels." Itachi snapped. "You can invite him as much as you want, but him actually living here, I have to say no upon."
Sasuke looked at Itachi angry and then walked into his room, coming out of it with a small backpack, filled. "If you want me to choose so badly, fine." He snapped at Itachi and grabbed Neji's hand, then looked Itachi in the eyes again.
"...Sasuke don't.." Neji protested.
"Shut up. He wanted me to choose so I'll choose. He wanted this, not me. " Sasuke said and kept looking at Itachi, waiting for him to respond.
"Surprising that you care more about someone you know for half a year then someone you know your whole life." Itachi snapped, walking into his room and starting to get his things together.
Neji laid his free hand before his own mouth in shock. Sasuke's brother was actually leaving, just for him..? "..Sasuke.. don't do this to yourself.." He said.
Sasuke just stood there, feeling tears come to his eyes. He didn't care more for Neji then Itachi, but Neji needed him now...Neji had his child now..what was he supposed to do, just dump them on the street...? He looked at Itachi, not knowing what to say anymore.
"..Sasuke please I can afford a hotel for at least a month..." Neji tried another time. He was feeling too guilty now. Itachi was still getting some things together and was putting them into a huge bag.
Sasuke suddenly pushed Neji aside and stormed outside. He quickly walked of the stairs. He couldn't use this...Itachi leaving him...why was he supposed to choose between them..? If one of them was gonna leave it should be Sasuke. He forced things on them, so he should go. And he would. It was better if he left then the other way around.
"Sasuke wait!" Neji said and quickly ran after Sasuke, grabbing his arm. "What are you doing?"
"..I'm leaving.." Sasuke said and pulled his arm free and continued walking. If Itachi thought they didn't have enough money for three, then he would leave. Not Neji and not Itachi. They needed this. They were smart, kind, knew what they wanted. They should get the chance, not him.
"Sasuke don't be an idiot." Neji said. "You're not going to leave. If anyone has to leave, it's me. I'm coming into your life all of sudden. Your brother is right, you two can't use another person in the house. Please go back to him.. I'll just search a hotel and stay there and I'll spare up some money. I can come as much as I want, Itachi told you. Please Sasuke.."
"..No. You should rest, be fine in a house...And Itachi needs to have a future...and you need to have a future..I wouldn't get very far anyway, you two need it more.." Sasuke said and gave Neji a fake smile. Anything to make sure Neji and Itachi were both fine.
"Sasuke you know that Itachi won't accept me." Neji said. "It's not fair for the two of you if you would leave. Or if Itachi had to leave. I'm not your family and I will have a future. I'm going to work in that restaurant and I'll make more then enough money. Sasuke please, go back to your brother. I'll get my stuff and I'll go in search for a place to stay. Ok?"
"No...I can't just put you in some hotel, let you do it on your own..It's my fault you're pregnant, I should be responsible for this..for you...He should've never asked me to choose...How can I fucking choose between my own brother and the person carrying my child...my fucking child.." Sasuke said. He didn't know what to do anymore, everyone was making his life way too complicated.
"..Sasuke it doesn't matter.." Neji said. "You can visit me, I can visit you.. we'll find a way. But you and your brother can't use this right now."
"..Yes we can..I already said I would work more...And you're going to work too...it's just another person in the house, that's all it is..." Sasuke said and looked to the floor.
"Sasuke your brother doesn't want it and you should respect it." Neji said. "I think he just loves you really much and wants the best for you.." He said, stroking the back of his hand against Sasuke's cheek.
"..I know he does, but if he wants the best for me he shouldn't send you away...I wanna do this together and not living at different places...what if the child gets born..? Are we supposed to move it all the time? And once you get a big stomach, you won't be able to come here anymore and I have to go to you and I can't because I have to work and we will barely see each other anymore.." Sasuke said.
"When we are that far we will have thought of another possibility Sasuke." Neji said. "..Your brother really loves you.."
"I don't want everyone to leave! I want to have control of my own life!" Sasuke suddenly yelled. He didn't wanted Neji to go or Itachi. They couldn't go and leave him again. He wanted to be able to choose for himself. Do what HE wanted, not have to deal with what Neji wanted or Itachi wanted. Just what he wanted...for once..
"..Of course you want that.." Neji softly said. "Who doesn't want that?"
"...Everyone, and they all take it, and they make it impossible for me to control my life...My whole fucking life is impossible to begin with.." Sasuke snapped and looked away annoyed now.
"...I'm sorry.." Neji softly said.
"...I'm leaving.." Sasuke said and turned around, walking away. He hated this..He didn't want this anymore..his life was just sinking deeper and deeper..He was a total failure...and his stupid brother didn't even bother to keep him home..He didn't care.
At that moment Itachi came down. "Sasuke what are you doing?" He asked.
"..Leaving." Sasuke said and continued walking. He didn't care anymore. His life was fucked up and he was never gonna be able to fix it. Itachi and Neji should have that chance.
"...Why that?" Itachi snapped. His confusion turned into anger now. Why was Sasuke leaving..?
"Because my life will never get any better and yours could...and so can Neji's..so you should take the chance then and not me...you need the home and I'll just..figure something out..." Sasuke snapped back and then walked out of the building. It was cold outside.
"Do you think I'm going to live together with Neji?" Itachi snapped. "You can forget that. Come on Sasuke, just live with me.."
"No.." Sasuke snapped back and kept walking. All the way. He didn't care. He couldn't do it. He couldn't go home and make one of them leave him too. Like his parents had. He wouldn't do it. It was better for everyone if he just went away.
"...Sasuke please.." Itachi said, so Sasuke could still hear him.
Now Itachi was the one who was pleading.
"No..." Sasuke said and felt his eyes starting to prick. He just had to keep walking now. Just keep walking.
"Sasuke please don't go!" Itachi yelled, sounding desperate now. Neji was silently watching. This was all his fault...
"My life is already ruined anyhow! You could make something from it and I don't, now just leave me alone!" Sasuke yelled. He wanted to run, he really wanted to run. Just run away from everything and start over. But his legs wouldn't run. He was cold without his coat and he wanted to go back so badly too. But he couldn't. He was useless.
Itachi was silent now, feeling his eyes starting to water. Neji was biting his lip too. Suddenly Itachi gave a frustrated yell and then stormed up upstairs again, to grab his stuff.
Sasuke didn't even notice. He just kept walking, turned a corner. He wanted to leave this fucked up life behind...no matter how much he wanted to stay with Itachi and Neji.
Sasuke was working in one of the shops he worked at. He had given up on school for a couple days now and lived wherever he could. He was putting some boxes in stock when his cellphone rang. He answered it. "Uchiha Sasuke." He said.
"Hey, Neji here.. Sasuke where are you?" Neji asked at the other side of the phone.
"Nowhere." Sasuke said. He didn't wanna talk to Neji. Should he hang up?
"..Sasuke please.. Itachi is gone too. You should go home." Neji said. "Where are you?"
"Nowhere. Working. He should go home and so should you." Sasuke said and then continued with the boxes, holding them in one arm.
"Your home isn't my home." Neji said. "Why have you not been answering his calls..?"
"I don't wanna talk to anyone. Besides, I'm busy with work." Sasuke said and grabbed another box.
"Sasuke please.." Neji said.
"What?" Sasuke snapped. He really wasn't in the mood for this, he could get fired for calling during work.
"Please just go back home Sasuke. I miss you." Neji said. Well, he finally admitted it.
Sasuke was quiet for a while. Neji missed him? He missed Neji too...and Itachi. He missed his old life. But his old life sucked. And it would only suck more in the long run. "...I miss you too..but I don't wanna go back to my old life.."
"...So you're going to let everyone down..?" Neji said.
"...I'm not letting anyone down..I making it easier for everyone." Sasuke said.
"..Not for me and your brother.." Neji softly said.
"..Yes I am..." Sasuke said back.
"That's what you think.." Neji said. "Itachi's a mess. And so am I."
"..You'll be fine...I'm not usefull for anything.." Sasuke said.
"Where did you get that idea?" Neji asked.
"...I know I'm not..I'm not smart, I'm mean to everyone..I'm a dramaqueen and I am a total burden to Itachi..He would be so much better of without me.." Sasuke said a little sad.
"Then why does he miss you so much?" Neji asked.
"Maybe he misses me, but it's better this way.." Sasuke answered.
"..Why?" Neji asked.
"...I told you just now..I'm useless...I just bring him trouble..And you too.." Sasuke said.
"You're not useless Sasuke." Neji protested.
"Yes I am...I've never done something to help someone out...I can't do anything, I barely bring any money home...I..I'm just useless Neji.." Sasuke stated.
"..Sasuke... you are already helping people with showing that you care.." Neji said softly.
"I only show that to you." Sasuke said. Well that was out now. He couldn't take it back anymore.
"..That's nice of you.." Neji said. "..But still, you aren't useless.. to me you're not, to your brother you're not.."
"You're right." Sasuke said. "I'm more like, a burden to you and useless to the rest." Sasuke said and sat down on a pile of boxes.
"Sasuke please don't act like this." Neji said. "If you were a burden I wouldn't try to get you back."
"You don't know me yet." Sasuke mumbled.
Neji was silent now. He didn't knew what to do.
"I'll hang up now." Sasuke said and waited for an answer.
"...Do I have to beg you to come back..?" Neji softly said.
"No. It won't work." Sasuke answered.
Neji breathed out, feeling his voice tremble. "...Can I call you again..?" He asked, feeling his eyes starting to prick.
"You could try...but I won't promise I'll pick up.." Sasuke said. He knew that if he talked to Neji a lot, he would wanna go back and ruin Neji's and Itachi's life again. They would be fine after they've gotten over him.
"...Why are you doing this to me?" Neji asked, while he felt the first tears leaving his eyes.
"..What? Doing this to you? I'm not doing anything but helping you.." Sasuke said. Why did Neji say that?
"...You're t-the only person I care about now Sasuke.." Neji said. "..And now y-you're just leaving me.."
"..Don't cry..." Sasuke said softly. Neji was gonna make him feel guilty. He knew this was gonna happen. He should just hang up. But he couldn't do it. Not to Neji.
"..D-don't say that." Neji snapped. Why did 'everyone' he cared about had to leave? Why?
"..Sorry...Neji you don't understand..you don't know me well yet...I suck...ok? I can't help you...I should've never thought I could..I'm just a child myself...and an annoying one and one that nobody can handle...I don't want you to know me like that.." Sasuke said softly.
"..T-then why don't you j-just go live with Itachi d-dammit!" Neji yelled into the phone.
"..Because I don't wanna be a burden to him anymore...I can't do it..I'm the reason he has to live the way he does...on his own he would have it so much better..." Sasuke muttered.
"If he didn't c-care he'd left you l-long ago.." Neji said, wiping away his tears.
"I know he cares...too much...so much he would ruin his life for me..But I don't want him to do that anymore..I don't deserve it, I'm a brat.." Sasuke said.
"You're n-not.." Neji said.
"I am.." Sasuke answered and sighed.
Neji was silent now. He wouldn't go into discussion about something stupid like this.
"...I don't know what I want anymore Neji.." Sasuke said. He had said it. He just needed some help. He needed it. He didn't wanna be a burden, but he just needed advice.
" ...Do what you feel is right.." Neji softly said. He couldn't give a better advice.
"..I don't know what's right.." Sasuke said. What a lousy advice. He didn't know what to do with that.
"It's difficult to say what's right.. I think you should go back to your house, and call Itachi.." Neji said.
"...I'll make him miserable.. And I don't wanna go there if you're not there either...I want you there.." Sasuke said.
".. I don't want to ruin the bond of you and your brother." Neji said.
"You won't...he just has to understand that we need to stay together and take care of each other...and not when we're living apart..that won't work." Sasuke said.
"..Why don't you give him some time to think?" Neji asked.
"He should know what I want and not start yelling at you for it. It wasn't your fault and I got you into the house and he just has to live with it...I've put up with plenty of him too." Sasuke answered.
" ..Can't you.. try for a month or so with him and me coming by a lot? Perhaps he'll make an exception." Neji said. To him, it was a good idea.
"He won't. He'll say it's working perfectly fine with you out of the house and we need the money or something. That'll just make it worse." Sasuke said.
" ...Can't we try?" Neji asked. "This way he's never going to accept it."
"..Well that's the problem right...He won't accept..He'll hate our baby...he'll hate you..I can't live like that.." Sasuke answered.
"Yes and that's why I can't go live with you." Neji explained.
"It's why I'm not coming back." Sasuke mumbled.
"..Can't you just try?" Neji muttered.
"..No...I can't live between you..I've done my fair share of living in the middle.." Sasuke snapped.
Neji was silent again. He didn't get him.
"I gotta go, I have work.." Sasuke said.
"...What are you going to do with.. us..?" Neji weakly asked.
"...Meet me after work..At that bank.." Sasuke said. He knew it was stupid if he wanted to start over. But he wanted to see Neji so badly. Kiss him and feel him again. That's what he really needed.
"Alright.. how late?" Neji asked.
"Seven. I'll see you there ok?" Sasuke said. He really had to continue work now.
"Alright. Untill then." Neji said.
"Bye." Sasuke said and quickly hung up when he saw his boss coming towards him.
A/N: Well, this chapter has no cliffhanger, but you probably do want to know what's going to happen next. I'll try to update as soon as possible!