Tears

Notes: So….I'm totally torn I had intended her to kind of end up with neither and go through the chapters and then wrap it up with the gunshot that happened in the first chapter. However I like the complicated relationships and more and more I like her with Sylar. is so confused I have no idea what I'm going to do. Feedback and ideas would be loved.

She sat on her bed, legs drawn against her chest. Her forehead against her knees and she let the tears streak down her cheeks. She'd sat on the toilet while Matt had taken his shower. He'd talked and she'd listened. He'd been angry and while he didn't yell at her his words hurt. She felt like one of those stupid girls in a movie, she had everything she needed in front of her but that bad boy came into town and she just tossed it out the window. Even now, even after Matt had laid it all out told her she needed to decide what she was going to do. She couldn't, she'd been in love before but she'd never been in love with two people at the same time and it was ripping her heart out. He'd looked down at her and then just walked out. Silently passing judgment on her.

He'd had to deal with a wife that had cheated on him already, he told her he wouldn't go through it again. She wanted to promise him it wouldn't happen, that she wasn't like that. But she'd be lying to the both of them and the though that she could actually be anything like his ex broke her heart just a little more.

When it came to Sylar, god she didn't know what was wrong with her. She should have been running in the other direction. He was hateful to her, hurt her, but he made her insides tighten and she couldn't imagine not actually seeing him again. She still didn't understand what he had been doing at her house or how for that matter he even knew where she lived. Such a though should have scared the shit out of her, it didn't.

"I'm pathetic"

Standing to her feet she walked towards her closet and dragged out a bag, she needed to get away for a while. Put some space between her and them and just…do whatever. Once the bag was packed she mass emailed all close friends and family so no one would worry and then she dragged her suitcase to her car before shoving it into the back seat. Then it was nothing but the road and her music. She didn't stop for anything but gas and even then the stop took no longer then ten minuets. She didn't want to be around people, didn't want to see anyone that might have a passing resemblance to anyone she may know. Six hours later she pulled up to the cabin. Her own world. No TV, no phone, no internet. Just her and herself.

Two hours later, it wasn't so much fun. Being alone had sounded like such a wonderful idea but then being alone also allowed her mind to think about things she'd rather not. Slowly as the time ticked by her mood got lower and lower before she was sniffling.

"You cry a lot don't you?"

Her head snapped up, he was standing in the front door. Shoulder propped against the frame and a bored look on his face. She opened her mouth and closed it a couple times before the ability to form words finally came back

"What are you doing here? Why are you here?"

"Nothing better to do. You were easy enough to find."

"Go away. Why can't you just leave me alone? You said it was nothing, that it meant nothing, so why the hell won't you just stay away"

She heard her voice break but didn't care. She didn't know what to think. He'd been to mean to her, so cold and hurtful and then he'd shown up at her house and if she really thought about it he'd seemed jealous. She didn't want this, she'd been so happy and had a normal life till Matt had shown up on her patient list. But now? Every day was more trouble then the last.

"I told you, I was bored. I figured I'd see what you were up to when you lugged that suitcase out of your house"

The look that flashed across his face told her he'd said more then he meant to.

"You never left did you? You were still there"

He didn't say anything, just stared at her and she smirked. He was full of lies but slowly the smile slid off her face and confusion took over. Why had he stayed?

"You don't get to be silent now, you show up here uninvited. You cause my window to explode, throw me into a wall, attack Matt, all but stalk me and then want to not say anything. I'm not playing this game with you. You told me it meant nothing. You told me to stay away, called me a whore, and n-"

"Are you finished yet?"

"No!" She got to her feet and stormed over to him poking a finger in his chest. One of those dark eyebrows arched up but he didn't bother to stop her. She got the impression that she amused him. Well, she was tired of it. "I want you gone, don't come back just…just stay away"

He moved quickly, pushing off the wall and twisting and next thing she knew her back was to the wall and he had her pinned. They were inches apart and he lowered his head so that he could look her in the eye. She wasn't scared. Not anymore, to many times had they been alone and he'd never done anything to her, well anything to bad, but she was a little worried about his temper.

"You think I enjoy this? That for some reason I seek you out. I should have killed you that first night, at the latest I should have strangled the life out of your pretty body the second time we were alone. Yet every time I let you go. I don't like it and I don't want to understand it. But you, you are a big pain in my ass."

"You like me?"

"No."

"Yes you do, that's what bothers you. You actually care about me. You were jealous of Matt. It's like we're in high school. This is absurd Ga-Sylar."

"You think to much" He pushed away from her before just staring down at her. He didn't seem like he knew what to do.

"I should, just kill you now. You wouldn't be able to stop me and this would stop being a problem for me but for whatever reason-"

"You can't" She couldn't help but smirk at him.

"I can't."

She didn't know what to say, it was as close to a confession of feelings as she would get from him, but what did she say afterwards?

"You don't have to leave"

"I never intended to."

"I figured."

"Your cops going to be mad, you'll tell him about this sooner or later. You're a horrible at telling lies. Then again, I'm sure he'll just find out for himself."

"He's not my cop."

"Of course he is, otherwise you wouldn't have been crying. He seemed angry before he left. Doesn't like to share does he?"

"Apparently neither do you."

He was silent for a moment "No, I don't"

The silence fell between them again, he wasn't a talker she knew that. She looked up at him to ask a question. Something about food but she'd barely got her mouth open when suddenly he'd crushed her to the wall again and slanted his own mouth over hers. She was startled and for a moment didn't do anything before her arms slowly went around his neck. He was right she most likely would tell Matt about this but for now she would just enjoy it. She felt him lift her off her feet and slowly her legs went around his waist. She really didn't know how to avoid trouble.