Bonus Chapter #2
A/N: This takes place about 4 and half months after they started dating. This is one of my favorites, if you remember a couple chapters back I mentioned how they broke up for 5 days and Christian over reacted once before about a guy, the same way Ana did with Victoria. Well this is that story. I think it takes a look at Christian's insecurities and him learning a little more about trust. (Mr. Grey some of your shades are showing) This part of the story includes two songs. Sometimes music is the best way to express oneself. And the lyrics to these songs i think say alot to how they are feeling. I hope you enjoy, this is me trying to make drama. (No cheating! Ever)Let me know what you think.
Christian:
I'm heading to the cafeteria for lunch. Thankfully this semester I still have lunch with Ana, but also with Danny and Jenny. I haven't seen Ana in a couple of days, expect for lunch time. She's been busy with cheer practice and also her mom has been coming home early. It's putting me in a bad mood, not having my daily Ana fix.
When I walk in I stop in my tracks, at our table is Ana and Danny, but some new guy. A surfer looking guy, with wavy blonde hair. He's sitting on the edge of the table, his hand on Ana's shoulder and they're both laughing. My blood is boiling.
I quickly walk over to the table as he hugs her goodbye and walks away. I plop down next to Ana with a grunt. She turns to me and smiles.
"Hey Handsome." She kisses my cheek.
"Hey." I mumble and open my lunch bag. "Who was that?" I try to ask uninterested.
"That's Tony! He's been a friend since me and Danny were in middle school. He had to move away last year, but he's back for good now. He's in my math class and was bugging me for help. He's also in the football team with Danny." Ana tells me joyfully.
I take a bite out of my sandwich "I see so are you going to be helping him?" I know I shouldn't feel this way, but if she hangs out with him, without me, I'm going to be pissed.
"Don't know yet. Maybe tomorrow. We have a test on Friday."
I don't say anything else and finish my lunch quickly.
"Something wrong?" She puts her hand on my shoulder. "You're very quiet today."
"I'm fine." I shrug her off. "I need to go meet with Mr. Alkins. I'll talk to you later." I stand up and see the disappointment on her face, especially when I don't kiss her good-bye. But I have to leave, I can't stay here. She hasn't done anything but talk to someone, and I feel out of control. So I head to the gym to go work off this anger I'm feeling.
I know I should trust her, I mean we're always together. Well you haven't been this week. And now she wants to hang out with him tomorrow. I shake off the thought. I'll make it up to her after school for brushing her off at lunch.
It's after 6th period and I'm heading down the hall when I spot Ana talking to Tony. I hide myself behind a wall and listen.
"You need to be the one to tell him, not me. I've been keeping this secret for too long. It's time to come out." Ana tells him.
"But I can't. I think it would be better coming from you."
"No it wouldn't. You need to tell him."
"What if he gets pissed, you know for lying to him."
"You'll have to deal with it. No more hiding. I got to get to class. I'll catch you later." I watch as she gives him a hug and a small peck on the cheek, and then heads to class.
She's cheating on me. How could she? Has this all been a joke? Fuck this I'm going home.
When I walk in the door my mom is already there.
"Christian, what are you doing home?"
"I wasn't feeling well. I just need to go lay down." I tell her as I head upstairs.
"Ok get some rest. I'll be up I a few to check on you." She tells me.
Ana:
I'm walking out of school to meet up with Christian when I notice his car missing. That's odd. I pull out my phone and I don't have any texts or calls from him.
*Where did you run off to?*
*Sick. Went home.*
Ok… maybe that's what was wrong with him at lunch.
*Feel better. I Love you*
After 5 minutes I don't get a message back and walk home. I decided to make Christian some Chicken soup and bring it to him.
Around 5:30 I call a cab and go over to Christian's house. I ring the doorbell and Grace opens the door.
"Hello Ana, how are you?"
"I'm good Grace. I brought some soup over for the patient." I hold up the bag containing the soup.
"That's sweet of you dear. He didn't want dinner, so maybe he'll eat this. Go on upstairs. I'm sure he'll be happy to see you."
"Thanks" I run upstairs and knock on his bedroom door.
"Go away." He yells.
I push open the door and put my head in. "It's me. I wanted to check up on you." I enter his room and close the door. "I brought you some soup." He's sitting on his bed, his arms crossed over his chest, giving me an evil look. Okay?! "How are you?"
"I've been better. You can go now." He dismisses me. I look at his questionably.
"Did I do something?" I ask wondering what the hell is going on.
"Oh, don't try to act all innocent Anastasia. I heard everything." He yells at me.
"What are you talking about?" I'm so confused right now.
"You and Tony" He spits out in disgust.
"Me and Tony? What are you talking about Christian he's just a friend."
"A friend? Ha! A friend you been cheating on me with." He raises from the bed and walks over to me. My jaw drops to the floor. What the fuck?
"I'm not cheating on you!" I scream
"Whatever, I heard you. After 6th period. You're tired of hiding this secret and you want him to tell me. Don't worry I know. So you don't have to lie anymore. Now you can go." He's in my face and pointing at the door.
"What you heard was part of a conversation and not the whole thing. We've been together for almost 5 months. I thought you trusted me." I can feel the tears start to prickle in my eyes.
"Then what were you talking about then? Hmm?"
"It's not for me to tell." I feel the tears to fall. I can't believe this. He has absolutely no trust in me.
"Don't start with the water works. I know what I heard and unless you can tell me differently. I want you to leave." He pulls open the door.
"Fuck you, Christian!" I turn around and run out of his room. I can't believe he thinks so little of me. I could just tell him what I know, but It's not for me to tell, and I would be betraying Tony if I did. Luckily there is nobody around when I get downstairs and I run out the front door, and jog home.
When I get home I drop myself on the bed. My mom comes into the room a little while later to say goodnight.
"Hey kiddo, I just got home. Are you ok?"
"Yeah mom. I'm fine." I wipe the tears off my eyes.
She looks at me skeptically. "You sure? I can tell you've been crying."
"I said I'm fine mom." I snap, but I regret it immediately "Sorry. It's just been a long day."
"Ok. I have to work a double tomorrow so I won't be home till really late."
"Ok." And with that she closes the door, and leaves me to cry myself to sleep.
I feel like shit the next day at school. I still can't wrap my head around how he can't trust me. How quickly he just pushed me away. Are we over? It wasn't said, but it feels like it. When I get to my locker I see him talking to Victoria, she's twirling her hair and looking doe eyed at him. That girl has been after Christian for a while. She's always flirting with him. He usually brushes her off, but today he seems to be digging it. He turns around and notices me and looks at me with a devilish smirk. This ends now, if this is how he wants to play, I'll play.
I storm up to him and get between him and Victoria. "Do you mind?" Victoria scoffs. "We were talking."
"No I don't mind. What kind of game are you playing Grey?"
"I'm not playing anything Anastasia. Just asking Victoria here if she wants to hang out after school today. Since you're probably busy with someone else." His voice is dangerously cold.
I don't know what comes over me, but before I know it, I've smacked him in the face. His hand touches his cheek and he looks shocked. I'm shocked myself.
"You know what Christian, you got what you wanted. We're over!" I spit at him and turn on my heel and walk away.
"Ana…" I hear Christian call out to me, but I don't care. I run into the girl's bathroom and curl in a corner and cry.
Christian:
I can't believe she hit me. Ok so maybe I had it coming, but I was only doing what she was doing. Right? She broke up with me. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I mean if she was cheating on me it would have happened anyways. But why do I feel so awful.
"So about tonight Christian?" I look over a Victoria. I wasn't asking her out, we were talking about John's party last weekend and how the cops were called. Nobody got into trouble, thankfully. I knew if I talked to her she would make it look like we were flirting with each other. I could have been talking about the gum on my shoe and she would have had her tits in my face. I just said all that to make Ana jealous.
"I don't want to hang out with you. I got to go." I walk away and shortly after the bell rings, and I head to first period.
Lunch time comes and I'm glad I'll have a chance to talk to Ana, but when I walk into the cafeteria she's nowhere to be found.
"Hey Christian. Can I talk to you?" I look up and notice Tony has approached me. My disappointment turns to anger.
"What do you want?" I snap.
"I talked to Ana. She told me you guys had a falling out because of something we were talking about."
"I know all about you and Ana. You don't have to hide anymore. She's all yours." I sneer No she's not she's MINE.
He starts laughing "Really? You think Ana and I are together?" He says between his laughter. "That's why you broke up? She didn't tell you what was really going on?" I must look really confused because he stops laughing. "You're an idiot! Ana is beautiful girl, but she isn't my type." He shakes his head.
"What are you talking about? I heard you both, you were afraid I would be mad at you for lying." I cross my arms over my chest. How is Ana not your type. She's perfect.
"Well, I always knew Ana was a loyal friend. Only because I saw my friend go home in tears, I'll tell you this. I'm gay!"
My jaw drops open is surprise "What?"
"You heard me. We were talking about Scott Green. He's out of the closet and I've been lying about being straight. I've had a crush on him since freshman year. I don't know how to tell my parents. The thing is I really like Scott. Ana wants me to tell him. But I also don't know how anyone else would feel or treat me, especially the football team."
Fuck I am an idiot. I just blew the best thing in my life away because I didn't trust her. I let the green-eyed monster take over. "Shit!"
"Yeah. I told you this because I hate seeing Ana so upset and I would hope that it would wake you up. She didn't deserve the way you treated her. I hope you can work this out because she has told me how much she's in love with you. That's what she wants me to have. But if you hurt her again, I'll kick your ass. And if you would please keep this to yourself."
"Thanks and I will, I promise. I'm sorry that you had to tell me."
"It's ok. Thanks to Ana I think I'm ready. I just want to be able to be the one to do it."
"I understand. I hope it works out for you." We shake hands and he walks away.
After school I go straight to Ana's house. I can't believe how quickly I pushed her away and didn't trust her. I guess there was a part of me that thought this was too good to be true. I mean she could do so much better than a fuck up like me. She's never given me any reason to doubt her and the first chance something happens I hurt her.
I get to her door and knock and knock. Praying that she'll come to the door. After what seems like forever she opens the door. Her eyes are red and puffy. She's wearing one of my t-shirts and a baggy pair of sweatpants.
"What do you want?" She snaps at me.
"I'm sorry" I plead.
"You're sorry? Sorry for what?" She's angry and with every right. Her fist are clenched tight together at her side.
"I talked to Tony and he told me everything. I'm sorry I didn't trust you. Sometimes I wonder why you're with me…"
"I'm going to stop you right there. The only reason you are here is because you knew you were wrong. Would you be here if Tony didn't talk to you?"
"I don't know.." I whisper. Would I be? Yes I would. I would be demanding answers out of her.
"Exactly. I need you to leave. Don't you need to go meet Victoria?" She says her name with such disdain.
"No, I was never going to hang out with her."
"So you were just trying to hurt me. Just go Christian." I see the tears pooling in her eyes. How could have been so stupid. "I need to be with someone that trusts me." The thought of her being someone else is like a dagger to my heart.
She starts to close the door and I put my hand out to stop it. "Ana, I'm sorry. I'll make it up to you. I love you, baby." I beg
She shakes her head. "It's a little too late for that. Goodbye Christian." She closes the door on me. I feel tears fall down my face. I'm so angry at myself, that I'm boiling inside, I slam my fist into the brick wall of her house.
FUCK! I wouldn't be surprised if I broke my hand. But right now I don't feel anything but the pain in my heart. I get back to my car and drive home.
I'm thankful nobody is around and I quickly go up to my room and wrap my hand up. My knuckles are bruised, scratched up and bleeding.
An hour later I'm sitting on my bed looking at pictures on my phone. I've sent Ana a million texts all saying how sorry I am and how much I love her. But she hasn't responded to a single one.
*Knock Knock* "Christian?" My mother's voice comes behind my closed door. "Dinner's ready."
"I'm not hungry." My stomach is in knots, the pain is eating me away. I knew I should have locked my door, because my mother comes in.
"Something wrong Christian? Are you still sick?" She comes and sits down on my bed putting her hand on my forehead. I shake my head. "What in the world happened to your hand? Have you been fighting again?" She seems really disappointed in me, and that's the last thing I need right now. I finally break down and my mom pulls me into her arms.
"Ana broke up with me and I punched a wall." I sob into her shoulder. When did I become such a pussy?
"What?" She says surprised. "What happened?"
I spill out my spineless guts and tell her everything that happened in the last two days and she listens to every word.
"Oh Christian, this is a pickle. You're going to have to give her a couple of days to calm down. Then try and talk to her again."
"And if she doesn't want anything to do with me? I love her mom."
"I know honey. Just give it sometime. I know she loves you too, but she's hurt right now, feels betrayed. In a couple of days write her a letter, telling her how you feel. Make it up to her. But right now I would like to get that hand X-rayed."
My mom takes me to the hospital to find out that my knuckles are badly bruised and my ring finger has a small fracture in it. They wrap my hand up and give me a note for school saying I might not be able to write for a few days. But it will more likely be better in a couple of days. Lots of ice. I'm not looking forward to school tomorrow.
ANA:
I walk into school Friday morning feeling like utter crap and thankful it's almost the weekend. I'm going to have to do everything in my power to ignore Christian. If I see him I'll break down. I had to turn my phone off just so I could stop getting his text messages.
On top of not trusting me he went out to purposely hurt me. I still love him, but I don't want to be with him right now, even though it hurts. This has to be the longest day of my life. Lunch time comes around and I cross my fingers that I won't see Christian.
It fails, I see him sitting at a different table talking to John and Danny. He looks as bad as I feel. Good. I notice that his right hand is bandage up. I wonder what he did there. He looks up and catches my eye. He gives me a half smile, his eyes vacant and sad. I have to resist the urge to go and hug him. I nod at him and turn away. I sit next to Kate and Jen at our table.
"Hey Ana. How you doing?" Jen asks.
"Been better." I shrug. I can still feel Christian's eyes on me.
"We're going out tonight…" Kate interjects.
"Kate I'm really not in the mood."
"Well you are not staying home and crying." Kate says firmly.
"I was going to eat ice cream too, thank you very much."
"Anyways, we're going to Expose. Its karaoke night, your favorite. You need to do something to keep your mind off… things."
I sigh heavily and glance up to catch a glimpse of Christian, who is still looking at me forlorn. "Fine I'll go." I huff.
"Great. We'll pick you up at 6." I nod, looking away from Christian. I rather stay home and hide under my covers forever. But I know my friends are trying to help, but I'm not looking forward to it.
Later that night Kate and Jen come pick me up. It's teen night at the club so when we enter we have to get our hands stamped because we're underage. Kate and Jen are going through the book of songs, but I already know what song I want to sing.
An hour passes and I'm starting to have a good time watching people sing and butchering some great songs. That's when I feel the hairs on my back stand up and the charge of electricity that I only feel when Christian is in the room. Great!
I look to the door and I see him along with Danny and John. They sit at a table in the back. I have a feeling this was a set up.
"Ladies and Gentleman. Our next singer is Ana Steele"
Everyone claps as I get to the stage. I take the mic as the music starts. I'm a pretty good singer, so I know I won't make to much of an ass of myself. Although if Christian keep staring at me I might crumble. I look away and focus on the Miller Light sign in the back.
Christian:
I can't believe I let Danny and John drag me out tonight. But here I am, going to listen to people sing karaoke. Another reminder of how much I miss Ana. She loves this stuff, she's always dragging me here. I put up with it because she has a beautiful voice, it makes my heart sore every time I hear her, a voice of an angel, my angel.
When I walk in, I can feel her, this pull that draws me to her. I don't see her when we sit down, until I hear her name called to the stage. I watch as he approaches the stage. She's wearing a pair of skinny jeans, and a Pink Floyd t-shirt.
Our eyes meet when she grabs the microphone, but she quickly looks away from me. I haven't touched her in almost 3 days. I miss her like crazy. When she starts singing, the lyrics and her face break my heart.
If anyone asks, I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I'll see you
Her eyes meet mine again, and I see nothing but hurt and sadness in them.
I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
I watch as she turns from me and shakes her head to keep the tears away. I just want to run over there, hug and kiss her. I feel Danny put his hand on my shoulder. I did that to her, I caused her pain.
If anyone asks, I'll tell them we just grew apart
What do I care if they believe me or not?
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
"Guys I'm going to head out." I tell them standing from my stool.
"Christian—maybe you could talk to her." Danny tries to reason.
"I can't. I gotta go guys. Sorry." I move to the doors and stand there watching her finish singing.
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away?
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry
Our eyes meet one final time as she finishes the song. She frowns. I mouth 'I love you' then turn around and leave.
Ana:
I'm surprised to see Christian leave. I'm not sure how it makes me feel. I'm more surprised he didn't try and come talk to me. I walk back to the table, Danny and John have joined us.
"I was hoping they would talk…" I hear Danny whisper.
I clear my throat. "I know what you guys were trying to do." I tell them
"Sorry Ana." Jen mummers.
"It's fine. I know you guys are only trying to help."
The rest of the night goes on without a hitch. But in the back of my head I can't stop thinking about Christian. I do miss the giant jealous idiot.
The weekend passes and I keep myself busy working on some projects. On Monday I notice Christian isn't in school. I haven't heard anything from since Thursday night.
I decided after school to work out at the school's gym. I've been running on the treadmill for I don't know how long. I feel someone touch my arm and I pull out my earbuds and stop the machine.
"Mia? What's up?"
"It's Christian. I know you two broke up, but um…" She stutters and messes with her hands.
"Just tell me Mia."
"He's been locked in his room since Friday night. He's not eating and won't talk to anyone. Mom is worried and so am I. I was hoping maybe you could talk to him." She pleads with me.
"Mia, I don't know."
"Please Ana, you're the only one that can get through to him. I know you miss him as much as he misses you. Please." She begs. She is right I do miss him. I miss his touch, his kisses, his scent.
"Alright I'll go talk to him. But I make no promises."
She screeches and gives me a hug. "Thank you Thank you."
"Your welcome. Let me go get changed and I'll go with you."
"Yeah I'll wait here."
We run into Danny as we're leaving and he gives Mia and I a lift to her house. "Thanks for the ride Danny." I tell him getting out of the car.
"No problem Ana…" I know he wants to say something else but decides against it.
Mia and I walk into the house, it doesn't seem like anybody else is here. I leave Mia in the foyer and walk upstairs to his bedroom and knock.
"GO AWAY!" He yells out.
"It's me…"
Quickly the door unlocks and opens and standing before me is Christian, shirtless.
"Ana!" He says my name like a prayer.
"Can I come in?" I ask him
"Yeah, of course." He moves aside and I walk in. His room is a mess, clothes and papers are thrown everywhere. His face is pale and he has a bit of a 5 o'clock shadow. He doesn't looks he's showered, his copper locks are a little greasy. The man is a walking disaster and it breaks my heart.
"I would ask how you are, but I think I already know. Mia tells me you haven't left your room in days."
He shrugs and goes to sit on his bed. "I guess, whats the point. I don't have you." He puts his head in his hands. I notice his hand is still wrapped up. "I miss you Ana. I'm so sorry."
I sit down next to him and put my arm around him. "I miss you too Christian. But you hurt me."
"I know" he breathes. "I still have a lot to learn. I would do anything to get you back."
I brush my hands against his cheek and feel the stubble of his facial hair. He leans into my touch. "I know. One step at a time. How about we start with you taking a shower and shaving. Then clean this room. Your family is worried about you. I'm worried about you." He nods and looks around the room. "Now get in the shower and after we cleanup we will go get something to eat."
He stands up and heads to his bathroom. I start cleaning his room up, putting clothes in the hamper and picking up papers and trash. I notice a bunch of pictures on his bed. I pick them up and there are some of me and him and some of just me. I notice a picture of me sleeping on his pillow. When did he take that? I place them in a pile on his nightstand.
I start organizing his desk and notice some sheet music. I don't get a chance to really look at it when Christian comes out of the bathroom, he smells good and is clean shaven. He is only wearing a towel that is wrapped around his hips his body still slightly damp from the shower. I stand there staring at him.
"See something you like?" He smirks. Damn, I was caught looking.
I shake my head and smile, turning away. "Get dressed." I giggle. "Help me finish cleaning, then we are going out to eat."
"You know you don't have to turn around. You've seen it all before." Cocky bastard.
I ignore him and let him get dressed. I might of sneaked a peek or two. We finish cleaning up his room and we decided to go to the diner for dinner.
We both order a cheeseburger and fries and either of us has barley said a word. He reaches across the table and takes my hand.
"I'm sorry I was such a jealous asshole. And I didn't trust you. I know I learned my lesson, and I promise to do whatever it takes to make it up to you."
"I know your sorry. I should have talked to you sooner, but I was just hurt. I kind of hoped you would of talked to me on Friday."
He shakes his head "Hearing you sing that song and the pain in your eyes, knowing I'm the one that caused that. I didn't want to hurt you anymore then I have by ruining your night."
"We will get through this one step at a time." I smile as our food is served and it looks delicious. I haven't eaten much the last few days either. "Have you really not been eating? The guys who is always on me about eating, making sure I ate all three meals. The same one who sneaks snacks into my lunch bag?" He shrugs at me. "I understand. Lets eat up because this looks good."
While we are eating we talk about everything and nothing, avoiding talking about the break up. There's really no need. Everything has been said. I think lessons have been learned. We both just want each other back.
"I keep forgetting to ask you what you did to your hand." I ask as I shove the last French fry in my mouth.
He puts his hands through his hair and sighs. "I punched the brick wall outside your house on Thursday. I bruised my knuckles and fractured my finger. But it's already feeling better. I have complete movement of it."
"Christian!" I take his hand and kiss it. "What did that wall ever do to you?" I smile.
"It came between me and you!." I lean over the table and kiss him. "Should I check the wall for damage?" I giggle and he laughs.
"No I think it survived."
After we finish eating he drives me back to my house. "Are you coming to school tomorrow?"
"Yeah I'll be there." He brushes his injured hand on my cheek.
"Good. I'll see you tomorrow." I'm about to step out of the car when he grabs my arm.
"I love you Ana."
"I love you too, Christian. We'll get passed this." I lean over the center console and kiss him gently on the lips. I then hop out and go into my house. I turn back to him and wave good-bye and I see him touching his lips. He finally waves to me and then drives off after I get inside my house.
At school the next day I'm sitting in first period listen to the morning announcements. After the principal is done talking and signs off, someone comes over the speaker, interrupting the start of class.
"There's a girl out there that I hurt." Christian's voice echos through the room, causing everyone to look at each other. "I don't think I could tell you sorry enough for what happened. I love you and I told you I would be willing to do anything for you. Later today someone will give you a message on where to meet. I have something special for you after school. I love you baby. Thank you for my second chance."
My face is a flame as most people in class knew that message for for me. I hope he doesn't get in trouble for that.
"That was the sweetest thing. What do you think he's up to?" Amber, a girl in my class asks me.
"I don't know."
"So you guys are back together?" I nod. "That's great. You guys make such a good couple."She tells me genuinely.
"Thanks." I'm thankful she does dig for information to why we broke up.
In 3rd period, John hands me a note.
*My lovely Anastasia,
Would you do me the honor of meeting me in the music room today after school.
Love Always
Christian *
I smile and fold the note up and put it in my pocket. At lunch I don't see Christian, Danny or John. Which I find odd. But Jen told me they were helping Christian with his surprise. Luckily, only my 1st period class heard Christian's announcement. I tell Jenny and Kate all about it. There are both excited and are coming with me after school.
The rest of the day drags by as I wait for the final bell to ring.
Finally the bell rings and I rush out of class to meet up with Kate and Jen at our lockers. Mia also joins us on the way. I'm eager to see what Christian has up his sleeve. We make it to the music room and the door is locked, so I knock.
I'm surprised when Tony answers the door. "Tony! What are you doing here?"
"Helping your boyfriend beg for forgiveness." He laughs and ushers us inside. "I think your going to like this Ana. Its super romantic."
We turn the corner and Christian is sitting at the piano and next to him are John and Danny with guitars. "What's this?"
"I've written you a bunch of letters this past week to try and tell you how I feel. But this song I think says it best. And I know how much you love Bryan Adams." He winks as he starts playing followed by John and Danny.
* It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on
You're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I wanna love you longer
Do you still turn the fire on?
I can't believe he's singing. I've never heard him sing before. He has a wonderful voice. And he's doing all of this is front of a group of people. He's usually so shy about these kinds of things. I can never get him to do karaoke with me.
So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it go
So if I love you a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me (oh believe it), every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
Still getting closer baby
Can't get closer enough
Still holding on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all the moves
I remember you yeah
I remember the nights, you know I still do
As he repeats the chorus again, I feel my eyes start to well up, he hasn't taken his eyes off me. And he's right I am a sucker for Bryan Adam songs, and this is the most perfect song. Is it possible to love him more?
"Damn Steele. This is the sweetest thing ever." Kate whispers to me. I just nod, keeping my eyes on Christian.
The one thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm praying
That's why I'm saying
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Babe believe it, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, if I can't stop loving you
No, believe, I don't know what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you*
Playing out the final notes, I run over to him. He stands and moves away from the piano bench and I jump into his arms, kissing his face all over.
"So do you forgive me?" He asks shyly
"Yeah. Water under the bridge. I love you." I kiss him which turns hot and heavy.
I totally forgot everyone around us, until they all start clearing their throats. Christian drops me to the ground, but keeps his arms around me.
"When did you guys set this up" I ask.
"This weekend. I planned on doing this even if you didn't come over yesterday. I talked to Danny and John, e-mailed them the music to practice. That's what we were doing at lunch today."
I leave Christian's arms and go to hug Danny and John. "Thank you guys."
"Hey I would have done almost anything to get you kids back together. You both were moody and sad. There's only such much we could all take." Danny tells me and everyone nods in agreement. I giggle. We were pretty sorry looking people this week.
"Did you guys get in trouble for the announcement this morning?"
"No. Tony helped me there. He hacked into the system for your class."
"Well, I learned a thing or two from Ana freshman year when she hacked into the security system." Tony laughs at the memory.
"Shh….nobody knows about that." I smile.
"Now that you guys are ok, go home and celebrate." Jen winks at us. "We don't need to deal with the backup sexual tension between you two. I think that's worse." We all laugh. If Christian goes two days without sex, he becomes my little lap dog till I give in. I think it's kind of cute. The guys clean up and we all head home.
"I think I'm going to have to hack the system again so I can record what happened today." I say as we walk into my house.
"Only if you promise next time your mad to watch it so you remember how wonderful I am." I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him.
"I think we need to finish making up… in my bedroom."
"As you wish!" He lifts me in his arms and we make up over and over again.
Christian:
I roll on my side next to Ana, propping myself on my elbow after a couple rounds of making love. "I love you." I lean over and kiss her "so much."
"I love you too."
"Thank you for forgiving me. I'm still so sorry…" She places her fingers to my lips.
"Enough. It's over and done. You know—since now I know you can sing I'm going to have to hear it more often." She smiles wickedly at me.
"Fine, but not in public."
"We'll see." I was about to push her down to have sex again when my phone rings. I moan and roll over to the nightstand and pick it up. I look at the caller ID.
"It's my dad." I groan. "Hey dad."
"Christian I was wondering when you were coming home. Where are you?"
"I'm at Ana's. I'll be home in 20."
He's silent for a moment. "Does that mean you two made up?"
"Yeah. We've been here "talking" I wink over at Ana. More like moaning then talking.
"Alright when you get home I would like to talk to you."
"Um sure. I'll see you soon." I hang up. "I have to get home."
"I figured. Plus it's getting pretty late." I look over at the clock and it's after 8. I lean over and kiss her passionately. Something to hold me over till tomorrow.
"I'll see you tomorrow?" I get out of bed and start putting my clothes back on.
"I'll be there." She smiles at me. God, I'm so lucky that she took me back. I wouldn't know what to do without her. "I'll miss you."
"I miss you too." And with one final kiss good-bye I leave and make my way back home.
"Hey dad, you wanted to talk?" I ask as I enter his office.
"Yeah sit down son. Your mom told me a little bit about what happened with you and Ana. That you were quite upset this week." My dad was away on a business trip last week and missed all the drama. I was hoping he wouldn't find out.
"It's fine now dad. We talked and worked everything out."
"Mia says you sang to her." He smiles.
"She has a big mouth." I grin. "But yeah I sang to her."
"Well I'm glad to hear things worked out. Now I'm going to ask you something and I don't want you to take this the wrong way. You and Ana are pretty serious, you know she's not the only girl out there, and I guess I wonder if you have your eyes open."
"You mean like wanting to date other girls?" He nods. "No dad she's it for me. I know we're young and everything, but she's it." I say kind of irritated. "I mean you and mom met in high school and got married."
"I know son. I'm not against it at all. Ana is a wonderful girl. I just had to ask. You're young. I mean look at your brother."
"I'm nothing like Elliot." I say sternly.
"Well, thank goodness." He laughs. "Now I have to also ask if you two are being safe?'
"Dad!"
"Hey I'm not ready to be a grandfather. I'm just asking."
"Yes dad." I mumble
"Good. Now your mom saved you some dinner. I'm sure she's going to want to hear all about today." He grins at me causing me to roll my eyes. I can only imagine what will happen if Ana gets a hold of the footage.
I came out of my dad's office and my mom comes up to me crying. "Oh Christian." I look at her strangely.
"What's wrong mom? Why are you crying?"
"Mia told me what you did for Ana. I couldn't be more proud."
"Mom really?" Standing behind her is Mia with a huge smile on her face. "Mia really? Did you have to tell them?" I glare at her.
"Yes I did." She huffs and crosses her arms. "It was so sweet. I hope one day a boy does something like that for me."
I shake my head and hide my face in my hands. "Guys I did what I had to do. Now can we drop it?" This is so embarrassing, but I would do it all over again if I had to.
"Yes dear. I'm glad you two worked things out. Your dinner is in the warmer. And why don't you ask Ana over for dinner this weekend. I need her help with something." My mom tells me as I grab my plate out of the warmer. Yes! Mac and Cheese.
"Help with what?"
"I know she's really good with computers and I was hoping she would help create a site for Coping together."
"Oh yeah, I'm sure she would. I'll ask her about this weekend."
"Thanks dear."
I'm finally left in peace to eat my dinner. I decided to text Ana
*Mia told my parents what I did today. My mom was in tears*
*LOL. It was pretty sweet.*
*Only the best for you. Mom wants to know if you want to come to dinner this weekend. She wants help making a site for Coping Together.*
*Sure, I would love to help*
*Great. I'll let her know*
*Also tell her I found the footage from today :op Love you*
Damn it!
*Songs: Cry by Kelly Clarkson and Please Forgive me by Bryan Adams