November 13, 20xx

Dear Ruka,

I'm going to start writing the date from now on, just in case you needed to read them in chronological order. Anyways, updates.

They planned out your funeral. Service, casket, everything in one mere week. I heard from my mom that the casket was glossy and black - it's like your opposite, kind of, I always imagined you were going for the regal-themed color.

I didn't go. I just stayed at home and played games and ate in my room like usual. My dad's starting to get annoyed, but he's still not doing anything. Mum and sis tried dragging me to it, but I knew better. They gave up. Basically, everyone went except me.

What else is there?

Oh, your Facebook is spammed. I bet if you logged on right now, there would be hundreds of notifications. I'm looking at it. There are some people who have never talked to you before, but they're wishing you random shit. "Rest in peace." "Another angel is born in heaven." "You were so kind and smart." "I can't believe you're gone." Oh, and the classic "I wish I got to know you better."

Aren't you popular? You're getting more attention than ever. There's even an article on you from the local county register.

Local Teen from Alice Academy Shoots Himself

Despite the redundancies, it's not badly written. And you're even on the second page, you attention-whore. I'll get you to do an interview some time in the future.

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I feel like more happened this week, but I don't really recall.

Oh wait.

There's been a couple.

The first thing that happened was our midterm. Math midterm. It was pretty easy to breeze through, and I did well like usual. But Jinno pulled me aside after class and gave me a giant long-ass lecture.

It wasn't really a lecture. It was more..like...condolences. He said that he was glad I was feeling better. And how I should always face forwards. He told me how brave I was and how much he admired my level of maturity. He even gave me a pat on the back.

I don't get it.

I always get full scores.

I don't get why this time is any different. Shouldn't he be more surprised if my grade drops? Adults are confusing.

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Oh, the second thing, you ask?

We got some transfer kid in our class. It's some ugly, pipsqueak girl. She has giant glasses, braces, bangs, and braided pigtails. Her appearance is deceptive. You would think she's smart, but she can't even answer what the derivative of ln(x) is.

I don't like her. She took your seat right by the window. There was another seat in the front, but she insisted on taking over yours. She's so thick-skinned. I wonder if she felt the other students' glares.

I hate how Jinno agreed to it. He even looked at me while he gave her permission as if he was taunting me.

You're probably wondering if your spot is now occupied by her.

It's not.

I pushed her out of the seat. I basically told her to choose another seat or get out, and she started crying like a little bitch. I really don't like her.

Jinno made me stand in the hallway. I remember him shaking his head and saying, "I thought you were mature. What happened?"

How does that inconsiderate nerd and my academic performance fall into the same category? I think something's loose in his brain. He's getting old.

But that's pretty much it. I saved your seat like the good friend I am. The nerd chick eventually accepted the other seat, but she now glares at me everytime she turns around. Like I did anything wrong.

I think that's enough for today. I'll write more maybe tomorrow. Or next week. I'm not sure. Probably if something happens.

Talk to you later,

Natsume