2 weeks later---

My cravings pained me most of the time, but with Edward there, it was a bit easier to bear. I mostly stayed in the house so I could better control myself. Alice was waiting for me to get better so we could go shopping. I kept telling her no not only because of my cravings, but mostly because I didn't want to go do the whole shopping thing.

I did, however, want to see Jacob. I hadn't talked to him in a while because of my injury plus my state of crying and twitching following that. I know that Edward wouldn't like the idea, but he wouldn't keep me back. He knows that Jacob is safe, but even so, he would still be worried. I decided to approach that.

"Edward?" I asked, while we were sitting in our meadow.

"Yes, Bella?" He kissed my head.

"Can you be open minded right now?"

"About what?" He shifted his position to look m ein the eye. "This isn't anything rediculous, is it?"

"Well, not really."

"Spill."

I took a breath, and then continued. "I haven't seen Jacob in months, and I want to go see him very much."

It was silent for a moment. "Bella, I'm not sure that's the best idea," he said, his eyes stern.

"Why not?"

"Because," he spoke in that soft voice. "I'm not sure that jacob would want to see you like this. werewolfs hate this scent."

"Jacob likes me enough not to act that way toward me. I miss him, Edward. Please?" I kissed him to emphasize my plead.

"I'm worried that he will hurt you somehow, physically or not."

"Edward! That is the most rediculous thing I have ever heard!" I pushed away from him and stood up, walking a few feet away.

Of course, he was right there, stopping me. "Bella, I didn't mean to offend you or Jacob. I'm just concerned." He wrapped his arms around me. That calmed me down.

I sighed. "It's ok, Edward, I know you want wahts best, but I need to see him. It's not just a want." I hoped that I wasn't hurting him by saying this. I looked up at him. "Edward, I don't want you to think that I want to see him more than be with you."

He chuckled. "I would never think that unless you told me so." He sighed. "All right. You can go, but I want you to keep in touch with me as much as possible. " He took out a little silver phone. "Here. Take this. Don't make me worry, Bella," he said, kissing me.

"I won't."

I walked away from Edward to use his phone. As I dialed Jacob's number from memory, I thought about what his reaction would be to what I am now. My heart sank when I thought of the possibility of Jacob hating me forever.

The phone rang twice before I heard Jacob's voice.

"Hello?"

"Jake?"

"Bella?!" His voice grew louder in excitement. "Bella! Where have you been? I heard that you went away and never really came back. Where did u go?"

I smiled at the sound of his voice. "It's good to hear you're doing well. It's been so long since I've heard you. I miss you."

"I miss you too, Bella," he said in his happy, soft voice. "I want to see you sometime. But seriously, where have you been? I heard you were going to college across the country, but I wasn't sure if it was true."

"I've been here all along, Jake."

"You have? Then why did Charlie-?" I heard his voice cut off suddenly. A silent moment went by. Finally he spoke slowly. "He did it, didn't he?"

I sighed. "If you're thinking what I think you're thinking, then yea, he did."

All I heard was growling and struggling on the phone. I froze where I stood, afraid of what he was doing.

"Jacob? Jake, are you ok? Say something."

"Give...me a minute," he said from what sounded like clenched teeth. I stood in silence until he was done. After a minute, it was quiet.

"Why did you call me?" He spoke in a cold voice.

"I want to see you. I miss you. Please say that you don't hate me," I whispered.

"Bella..." he sighed. "I...don't hate you. I'm just...really upset."

"Can you come to see me? Please? I need you right now."

"I don't think thats a good idea, Bella."

"Please?"

It was silent. Then he finally said, "All right. I'll be at your house in twenty minutes-"

"No," I interrupted him. "I'll be at the border. You can pick me up there."

"Ok."

I hung up.

"Edward?"

"You have fun. Be careful. You're all I got," he said, kissing my forehead.