I stood still for a few minutes, replaying what had just happened in my head. Everything was unfrozen again, the bird was long gone and the squirrel was up another tree. Everything started moving again when the unknown Volturi member disappeared into the trees.
I had to think quickly, I had to do something before Alice would figure out what I was going to do.
I ran as fast as I could to La Push. I figured that Alice can't see my future when I'm in wolf territory, so I could take that opportunity to figure out what I'm going to do. I didn't think of anything until I got there.
Once I could faintly smell wolves in the area, I stopped and let myself collapse. I was strong enough now to withstand anything, but I was really mentally unstable at that point, and I felt like I could rip something apart. So I let gravity take over, and I sank to my knees.
I was shaking, not only with sadness, but with rage. How dare they force me to take away my only love? My life? Why do they want me? I would think that they would at least wait until my abilities showed themselves.
I still wondered why my abilities were taking so long to show up. Everybody else's powers were there right at the transformation.
I had to tell my family something. But what? They all know that I love them very much, and it will be difficult to convince them otherwise.
The breeze picked up, and my hair was softly blowing in it. It had gotten darker, the sky was turning a darker blue with some red mixed in. I could just remember the aphorism now:
Red sky at night, sailor's delight. Red sky in the morning, sailors take warning.
I certainly wasn't getting any delight right now…
I would have to tell them that I wanted to join the Volturi. I would have to convince them that I wanted to leave them. I would have to break Edward's heart and his being to save his life.
I would have to tell him that I didn't love him anymore.
Hey sorry it's a bit short, but that's how it's got to be. I'll be getting more out soon.