Kindle the Thoughts

Stellar's POV:

The vivid memory attacked me as I tried for the 4th time that night to close my eyes and drift off to dream world. I opened my eyes to stare at the ceiling, staring off to blank space before turning my head a little to see Garnet next to me, then to my other side where Amethyst and Pearl were. Soft breathing was the only audible sound coming from their unconscious bodies. "Stop trying to hide things away from me!" was all I could hear resound in my mind as I lightly groaned. Feeling guilt attack me left from right. I turned my head towards Garnet once more and stared at him as his chest fell and expanded again, then reciprocating the action. Gathering my thoughts, I nod my head in confirmation to myself.

"Garnet?" I whispered as I turned around in his hold around my waist. Careful not to wake up the other 2 gems beside me. "Garnet?" I whisper a little louder, poking his face softly to wake him up.

"Hmm? Why are you awake?" Garnet asked, slightly slurring his words. Tightening the hold around me, and pulling me closer to tuck my head under his chin. "Are you still bothered about our talk?"

"Noooo…. Ok, yes." I said in hesitation, circling my arms around his midsection, burying my face in his neck. "Garnet… Why won't you tell me things? I want to know too… I want to protect you guys if something is bothering you. Were family aren't we? Shouldn't we tell each other everything?"

"Princess, look at me." Garnet said, loosening his hold on me so I could scoot back a little to look up at him.

Backing up from his embrace, but still hugging his midsection, I looked up to see three different colored eyes staring down at me, with a small smile on Garnet's face. He moved his arm that was not under me and pulled any hair strands that was covering my face away. There was only soft breathing audible from the other 2 gems, as he cupped my cheek and softly stroked it with his thumb. Like he did whenever I felt down, he knew it made me calmer.

"You are precious Stellar, to innocent, naïve, immaculate. I see so many things that can harm you in the future, and with that in mind, I fear that one day, we won't have all of this. Me not having anyone to protect, not having anyone to call my little princess, not having anyone to make me smile. I want to do what's best for you, not hurt you." Garnet said softly, observing my emotions carefully.

"I know, but it feels like… I'm too weak… Too weak to protect you guys, to even protect myself. I know I can't control my powers that well, but I want to help too! I don't want to be useless…" I said, murmuring the last part, looking down at my hand that was near my chest.

Garnet made a little confirmation noise before pulling me back close to his chest, then moved his hand to brush through my hair. He tucked me back under his chin, and continued his actions for a few minutes before breaking the silence.

"So, this is what it's about." Garnet said softly, tilting his head downwards to place his lips on the top of my head. Then scooting his head back upwards just a little to make a coherent sentence. "Why do you think your weak Stellar?"

"That's because! Because…. I never help you, you barely let me go on missions with you, and even when you do, I just get attacked or stand there and watch you guys. And if I do get attacked, you guys have to protect me all the time." I whispered, frowning as vivid memories bombard my mind. I whimper before burying my face in Garnet torso, tears slowly building up in my face, as I struggle to hold them back. "I really am useless…" I think to myself.

"Have you ever thought about the times where you saved us?" Garnet asked, continuing to brush through my hair.

Looking up quickly, I stare at Garnet who just looked forward at nothing in particular. "Ummm, no." I reply shyly, reclining my neck back into its original position in Garnet's torso.

"I thought not. Stellar, what you're feeling right now is insecurity. A human emotion where you feel uncertainty, anxious in a sense, and unconfident. It's not uncommon for people your age. Honestly though, even if you were useless, as you say you are, do you think we would love you any less?" Garnet asks nonchalantly.

"I guess not…" I said, as a tear escaped my eye, then another until it finally burst. Tears poured out my eyes, while I started to sniffle. "I just want to be able to protect you guys too."

Garnet kissed the top of my head lightly before saying, "you already are protecting us. From the sadness that would follow if you weren't here."

He stopped stroking my hair, and reclined his arm from under me before slowly ascending into a sitting position. I just look at him in confusion, before I see him reaching for a box of tissues that was on the shelf behind the bed. Pulling out a couple from the box, he reached for me to pull me up into a sitting position, then pulled me to sit in his lap before dabbing away my tears that were quickly rushing down my face. He continued to do this until my tears died down, and it slowed. During the entire thing, he rocked me back and forth and rubbed my back comfortingly, while humming a quiet tune that was audible for only me and him. Now that only one or two tears were coming down, and not a full stream, Garnet began again.

"Think about the time where you protected us with you bubble and your shield. Does that not mean anything to you? We could have been a sticky situation if it wasn't for you, you provide all the protection we need. Even if you don't see it for yourself, you are our little shield that protects us from harm. You do a lot more than you think princess." Garnet said, dabbing away the final tears that ran down my cheek with a new tissue.

"Then I'm not useless?" I asks, crawling off his lap and turning my body to stare up at Garnet.

"I don't know where you came up with the idea in the first place." Garnet said, extending his hand to ruffle the top of my hair.

Grabbing his hand that was extended, I hold it with both hands before pulling it down to my chest and holding it near my chest before I smile up to him. Garnet lightly smiled back before taking his unoccupied arm, wrapping it around my waist, and dragging me down with him back onto the bed.

"Garnet, am I really useful?" I asks, staring up at Garnet with hopeful smile on my face.

"Of course you are cutie-pie." Garnet replies, taking his hand out of my hold and poking my nose softly. "You are our shield, and our sunshine. What would we do without you?"

I grin even bigger, before hugging Garnet midsection and nuzzling my face into his hard torso. After a few seconds, I stop, and move up a little until I'm tucked underneath his chin. Closing my eyes, I smile as I feel solid arms wrap around my waist in a protective hold, and squirming to turn his body towards me in a more comfortable position.

"I love you Garnet, I'm sorry I doubted you and myself. But you never answered my question, what did you talk about with Pearl?" I asked, eyes still closed as I begin to yawn.

"That's for another day, now sleep my little princess. We'll talk about it tomorrow, ok?" Garnet replies softly, stroking my hair in long strides.

"Mmkay" I reply, barely coherent with one word as I start to doze off, sleep overtaking me. Snuggling a little closer to Garnet, I finally fall asleep, not noticing two pair of eyes staring at me from the back.

No One's POV:

"Are you ever going to tell her?" Amethyst asked, scooting closer to Stellar. Arm supporting his head as he stared down to her, as she breathed softly in her sleep.

"Maybe, maybe not." Garnet said, staring down to the girl in his arms as he continued to stroke her hair.

Pearl sat up as he got up out of bed and walked towards the stairs. "Don't. It'll only put her in danger." he said as he slowly descended down the stairs.

"Of course you would say that." Amethyst said, turning his body to lay flat on the bed without hitting the two gems beside him. Putting both hand behind his head, arching one knee up and preparing to sleep once more.

"I will do whatever is necessary for her, if she wants to know, I can't stop it." Garnet said.

"Then don't tell her, if you know what's necessary, it'll destroy her!" Pearl hissed out from downstairs, but not loud enough to wake up the sleeping occupant.

"I know…" Garnet murmured under his breath, closing his eyes once more before fully encasing Stellar into his hold, pulling a blanket over the two of them. "I promised, didn't I…"

Sighing, Garnet slowly fell asleep, and hoped that the visions of Stellar wouldn't assault him as he slept. He has seen her death more than enough times, he didn't need to imagine what might happen if he got his hands on her.

"I love you, my precious gem." Garnet murmured under his breath, sleep soon enough claiming him.

Hey Guys! ~

I wanted to thank you for reading my story, even if its some of you! I'm glad you guys are enjoying, or just passing by, Lol.

Kufufu, I left it on a cliffhanger! (≧▽≦) I'm so evil (Your really not...) *Cry in corner*

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