HJS-NS-23-Authors Note- Hey everyone thanks for the reviews I hope you like this chapter. OMG Tuesday epi was AMAZING! Lol Jamie totally stole the show and I'm not going to say anything else in case you haven't watched it yet but besides naley not being back together I think it was probably one of the best episodes of the season! Enjoy and don't forget to leave a review.
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Haley started squirming around in Nathan's arms. Great now she'll be awake soon and probably regret falling asleep in my arms Nathan thought sadly. I love having her in my arms especially for the past 3 hours. I haven't had this feeling in a long time. I feel alive again for the first time since she left, I don't have this deep ache in my chest where my heart Is, he thought holding her tighter and trying to remember the feeling for forever. He had been awake for an hour but he couldn't stop watching her sleep. His eyes kept zoning in on her beautiful, pink, full, lips. How I missed those lips he thought regretfully. It took all his strength not to kiss her.
Haley moaned trying to stay asleep just a little longer before giving in and finally opening her big brown eyes. "Hey" she said with a sleep-laced voice. God it feels good to be lying on Nathan's chest she thought with a tiny smile. It was the first time since she left him that she felt complete again. She felt completely hollow without Nathan like her heart was missing from her chest but she wasn't ready to admit it to herself, let alone anyone else.
"Hi" he whispered gently caressing her hair. "How was your nap?" he asked softly.
"Good" she replied closing her eyes and listening to his heartbeat. "How long was I out?"
"Um about 3 hours" he told her.
"Oh" she said sitting up. "So I guess we should talk about those papers I gave you a few days ago." She said in a monotone voice.
"Look Hales I've been thinking about what I want to do. I don't want a divorce but if it's what you really want then I guess that's the least I can do to make you happy" Nathan said twisting his wedding band.
Haley saw him squirming and saw the broken look in his eyes and how much it pained him she wasn't happy with him. "When I looked at getting a divorce it said we have to be separated for a year so I guess we'll see what happens in a year from now" Haley told him biting her lip nervously.
"Then I have nothing to worry about because a year from now we will be sitting in our apartment with our two babies and being a happy family." Nathan told her. "I let you go once, I won't ever do it again. I love you Haley James Scott, Always and Forever." Nathan said caressing her cheek.
Haley leaned in and kissed him softly loving the feel of his lips on hers. Without him asking permission she parted her lips and let his tongue roam around her mouth. She wrapped her arms around his neck deepening the kiss as she leaned her body more into his. Nothing made sense in her life except that she knew she never wanted this kiss to end and it scared her.
Moving her hands from around his neck she gripped the bottom of his t-shirt and lifted it off only breaking the kiss to get it over his head.
"I'm sorry I'm...how can I say... erotically charged" Haley said blushing looking into Nathan's eyes her lips swollen and red.
"Is that the fancy smart words for horny?" Nathan asked chuckling and he kissed and sucked on her neck making her want him even more.
"Yes" Haley moaned before grabbing his lips and attacking them again. Nathan's hands traveled underneath Haley's shirt as he rubbed small circles on her stomach inching his way up. Just as Nathan was about to take her shirt off he felt one of the babies kick knocking Haley back into reality.
"We…uh… need to stop" Haley said pushing Nathan away lightly as she tried to catch her breath.
"You're right" Nathan said confusing Haley.
"I am?" She asked surprisingly disappointed.
"Yea we need to take things slow," he told her tucking a piece of loose hair behind her ear and smiling.
"Like friends?" she asked scrunching her eyebrows.
"Like maybe friends who are going to have two beautiful children and occasionally kiss" Nathan said with a smirk.
"You are something else," Haley said shaking her head smiling.
"I know" Nathan replied cockily.
"I think I'm going to go to bed," Haley said standing up.
"Can I stay with you tonight?" Nathan asked in a pleading tone his eyes full of hope.
"I…" Haley sighed. "It's not a good idea" she said nicely her eyes full of doubts. "It's too soon."
"I just want to hold you and sleep by your side Hales, nothing more," Nathan said sincerely keeping his eyes locked on hers.
"Just as friends." Haley asked frowning.
"Just as friends" Nathan said nodding.
"Fine but I have plans to go shopping with Damien in the morning and I can't cancel because I promised and I don't back out on my promises ok? It's important to him and it's important to me too." She told him hoping he wouldn't get mad.
"If it's important to you then its okay" Nathan told her even if he was a little annoyed. West was getting a little to close to his wife for comfort.
Haley grabbed her cell phone off the table and called Damien.
"Hey" Haley said into the phone when Damien answered.
"Hey Hales what's up?" Damien asked.
"I just wanted to call and tell you that I'm going to spend the night with Nathan but we're still on for tomorrow and I will see you at 10." Haley said.
"Are you sure that's a good idea Haley?" Damien asked in a worrying tone.
"Damien I'm a big girl I can make my own decisions" Haley said slightly frustrated.
"Okay we'll talk more about this tomorrow though" Damien told her.
"Whatever" Haley said rolling her eyes.
"Night Hales" Damien said.
"Night" Haley replied before hanging up and turning to look at Nathan.
Nathan could tell she was agitated so he walked to her and wrapped his arms around her giving her a hug. "Come on lets get you three to bed," He told her taking her hand.
Holding his hand she led him to her bedroom. He stripped down to his boxers and crawled into bed as she went into the bathroom and changed into an old shirt of Nathan's she stole and a pair of shorts before crawling into bed next to him and laying her head on his chest. He saw her wearing one of his shirts he thought he lost and smiled before wrapping his arm around her, and gently placing a kiss on her forehead, before both fell asleep immediately.
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When Nathan got to his apartment he texted Lucas telling him he was home in case he was worried or wanted to come over. After texting Lucas, Nathan went and turned the TV on to ESPN while he waited. About 15 minutes later there was a knock on the door.
"Come in" Nathan yelled from the couch knowing it was his cousin.
"So how was your night?" Lucas asked cheekily strutting into the apartment. "Good I bet," he added winking.
"Dude stop it." Jake said pretending to be shocked. "Haley's like my sister."
Nathan looked from Jake to Lucas furrowing his eyebrows together in confusion. "Ok first how did you know I was at Haley's all night?" he asked not being able to hide his smile any longer as he thought about how great last night went.
"Well I went to see her at 8:30 last night but I saw your car so…I might have called Lucas and told him" Jake said looking at the ground embarrassed.
"Okay that doesn't explain how you knew I stayed the night" Nathan said.
"Well I called the apartment at midnight to see how you were doing and how everything went and you didn't answer so…" Lucas said shrugging. "We came to the conclusion."
"Don't get too excited guys, we're back on track in a certain way" Nathan said vaguely. The divorce is still on but she did give us a year to see if we're meant to be" He said seriously. "If we're not together in a year well…I promised to give her the divorce."
"I…" Jake started to say he wasn't expect that. "You're still going to live together again right?" he asked
"No…At least not for now." Said Nathan trying to sound calm." But that's fine." He added seeing sadness in Lucas and Jakes' eyes. "At least she's not running away from me now and that's something. We're friends and if that's all she has to offer right now well…I'll take it." He added with a small smile sadder than he intended.
"Well then lets play some NBA live to get your mind off things," Luke said sitting on the couch and grabbing a controller.
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Damian parked his Hummer and picked up the suit bag plus some shopping bags from his trunk. He was laughing with Haley about some joke.
"Thanks Hales." He said with a nice smile. "I really appreciate your help." He added gently taking her shopping bags.
"No problem" she said smiling back at him. "You clearly needed someone to help you choose a suite," said Haley with humor.
"What do you mean? That my taste sucks?" Asked Damien pretending to be offended.
"Humm…. yeah I do!" Said Haley laughing following him in the building. "I can't even believe what kind of shirts and ties you showed me!!" She said grimacing pretending to shiver with horror.
"Gosh you're harsh! You're breaking my heart!" Said Damien overreacting and putting a hand on his chest.
"You've got a heart?" Asked Haley pretending to be surprised.
She saw actual sadness in Damien's eyes.
"I didn't mean it Damien. I…you're a nice person". Said Haley uncomfortably.
"Thanks" he said forcing a smile. "That proves you don't know me." He mumbled to himself.
"What?" Asked Haley frowning.
"Nothing… "Said Damien brushing the air.
"Okay…" She said glancing at him from the side. She knew it was better to drop it but she could see that Damien had some deep scars. Don't we all? She added to herself. But a part of her wanted to know why Damien acted the way he did with most people.
Haley wanted to exercise during her pregnancy and even if it was getting harder everyday she wanted to go to her flat using the stairs. It was only on the first floor but it was true exercise for her.
Damien gently put a hand on her back to help her up.
"Anyway I didn't mean to criticize your taste," Said Haley trying to change subject.
"It's too late," said Damien pouting. "You hurt my ego," he added pretending to be offended.
"Aww I'm sorry." Said Haley winking. "Anyway you'll look decent now." She added a bit uncomfortable giving compliments to Damien.
"Decent??!!!... Only!" Asked Damien pouting even more. "I should have asked someone else to help me."
Haley laughed. "Nah!" She said shaking her head vigorously. "The green shirt brings out your eyes." She sighed. "You'll look more than decent." She added blushing. But you're not my Nathan she added to herself.
"You're blushing!" he added laughing, but his laugh died in his throat as the blood drained from his face when he saw someone standing in front of his door.
Haley who was now looking at him frowned. It was like Damien saw a ghost. She followed his eyes and saw a tall young man of about 25 standing in front of his door.
"Harry…" Said Damien in a whisper.
"Damien" said the guy nicely keeping his eyes on Haley's belly. "It took me a while to find you," he added with some sadness deep in his voice.
His look made Haley really uncomfortable.
"And you are?" Asked the man giving his hand to Haley.
"His neighbor." She answered taking her bags from Damian's hand. "I'll see you later" said Haley walking away and hurrying into her flat.
"What are you doing here?" Asked Damien coldly.
"I think I arrived just in time," said Harry pointing to the spot where Haley was standing. The man sighed, "I'm not here to fight Damien," He said with a tired voice. "Are you going to let me in or are we going to talk outside?" He added calmly.
Damien sighed with anger. He opened the door."Please come in." He said with a fake smile. "I'm so glad to see you." He added with sarcasm.
Harry walked in and looked around the flat.
"So Damien…What have you been up to?" He asked sitting down looking straight into Damien's eyes.
"Oh come on! You didn't come to make small talk did you?" Asked Damian sarcastically. "I haven't seen you for two years now! And you just show up?"
"Whose fault is that?" Asked Harry. "Did it help you to go away? Did it ease your mind?" He asked trying to keep his cool.
"I don't know hat you're talking about…." Said Damien shaking his head. "I…I just don't have the time to go home."
"Right…and what are you telling to your fellow students here huh? That your parents live in Durham?" Asked Harry ironically. Seeing Damien's face change Harry shook his head. "You did didn't you? I can't believe you did that! You think not coming home will erase the past? Did you forget Jen??"
"I…Go home Harry." Said Damien coldly looking deep into Harry's eyes.
"You're a robot Damien! Do you feel anything??" Harry stood up and walked to Damien. "I know you and all this cockiness won't fool me! I'm your brother Damien! You can fool everyone but not me!"
"I'm not trying to fool you Harry!" Damien sighed and walked to pick up a cold drink from the fridge. He needed to find a good lie.
He saw sadness in his brother eyes and decided to play a truce.
"I…I just want to forget my past. I came here to start a new life Harry, you should let me." Said Damien calmly.
"Yeah?!…Okay." Said Harry nodding. "I'll go and never bother you again under one condition."
"Shoot!" Said Damien slightly annoyed.
"Look me in the eyes and tell me that your heart is not aching, that you're not overwhelmed by regret, pain and guilt." Harry walked closer to his brother. "And tell me that you're not trying to repair the past in a sick way with your neighbor." Added Harry sure of himself.
"I…arrgh you're killing me here!" Said Damien angry now. "What do you want me to say huh? That I forgot my pregnant girlfriend who killed herself because I convinced her to get an abortion?" Asked Damian spitefully walking to the door. "Well…no I didn't and I never will…but is that a crime to want to reconstruct my life?" He asked rhetorically. "No it's not! So…back off!!" He added aggressively.
"You're being irrational here! I'm not trying to judge you Damien. I'm trying to help you! Nobody accused you of anything and you know that!" Harry sighed. "Our parents need you Damien…I need you. It's like…It' like my brother died the day Jen died." Added Harry his voice full of sadness.
"He did die on that bridge. He died when she jumped off." Said Damien coldly looking deep into Harry's eyes. "Your brother died two year ago Harry. You better go home and grieve because as far as I'm concerned…He'll never be back." He added seriously.
Harry threw his hands in the air. "I give up Bro…" He shook his head " but I'll be back and I won't let you mess up that girl's life. I'm sure her kid has a father and you shouldn't try to replace that man. He...he deserves his chance too you have no right too come and…"
"Goodbye Harry." Said Damien cutting him off. He opened the door and looked down. He didn't want to look at his brother...show him that he was still human hidden somewhere deep inside.
"Bye Mimi." Said Harry sadly hoping that using Damien's childhood nickname would show his human side, but Damien kept looking down. "I love you lil'bro." He added patting his shoulder.
Damien closed the door behind his brother and sat on the floor. "I love you too big brother." He said in a whisper drying the single tear rolling down his cheek.