I'm so sorry. I've been super busy and tired. I got pricked with needles and such, and then I went to a water park and I was uber tired after that, and then I went out to dinner with my cousins and that was fun but tiring. And on top of all of that, I've been packing. I leave next Saturday. But on a happy note, I got a brand new laptop today. It was a late birthday present from my dad and brother. Anyway, we broke 1800 reviews. Here's the new chapter. No one have a heart attack at the end, please? And forgive the vulgar language from Gavin. Thank you. And thanks for the reviews and the support and what not.
Chapter 27:
Shane knew as well as I did that I wasn't hungry. But we had to eat. I begrudgingly pulled Caitlyn out of our dorm. There were people milling about in the hallways getting to know each other. We said hello to quite a few but didn't stay and talk to most. Except Faith.
"Hey, I'm Faith." She'd introduced herself rather hyper. "And you two seem really down." She toned down the hyperness upon noticing the huge bags and tear streaks still adorning our faces.
"Our boyfriends leave tomorrow for their European Tour." Caitlyn explained. "Well, husband and boyfriend." She corrected, gesturing to me and then herself.
"Oh, that must be hard. Are they in a band or in the military?" She asked genuinely curious.
"They're in a band. Connect 3?" I answered, almost bored.
"Oh. I've heard of them. Not my usual scene, but I love When You Look Me In The Eyes." Caitlyn's eyes filled with tears as a smile light up her face.
I smiled. "They wrote that the last time they were on tour. Nate specifically for Cait after hearing Shane complain to me."
Faith smiled. "Awesome. It's a beautiful song. I wish my boyfriend would do that. Nope, instead when he goes on a tour, it's to a foreign country and I only get gifts back." She sighed sarcastically. "I'd so prefer a song than an original solid jade Japanese elephant." We gave her a slightly confused look, not sure what she was getting at. "I collect Elephants." She explained. "And my boyfriend is in the military. He's 3 years older than me."
"Ahh. So, it's got to be pretty hard for you." I sympathized.
She shrugged. "Eh. Yes and no. It can be. But I just keep thinking about when I graduate college, and we'll get married, and then I can live with him on base." She smiled. "You said you were married?" Faith asked me.
I smiled. "A grand total of 3 weeks." I laughed. "Not even, actually."
"Wow. I give you credit for that." She said sincerely. "Personally, I'm hungry. Who's up for grabbing food?" She asked.
Caitlyn and I shared a look before nodding. "That's actually what we were on our way to do." Caitlyn said smiling brightly.
"Awesome. You want to go to the cafeteria or one of the places on campus or somewhere in town?" Faith asked.
"Anywhere's good." I shrugged. "Don't have too much of an appetite. But we have to eat, so…"
She smiled and dragged us the cafeteria. After getting our food, we found a place to sit. "So, I gathered your name is Cait, but I didn't quite catch yours." Faith said pointing a fork at me.
"Mitchie." I smiled. "So, what are you majoring in?" I asked, making conversation.
"Composing. Or, that's what I'll be doing when I graduate. Hopefully. What about you two?" She replied.
"Music Theory." I answered.
"You want to teach music or something?" Faith asked.
"Mitchie's a singer." Caitlyn said.
"Oh. What about you, Cait?" She asked.
"Production." She answered smiling happily.
"Cool." Faith nodded. "Do you guys work together a lot?"
We shrugged nonchalantly. "Not… really…" I said.
"I've just taken almost every single song Mitchie's written and made music to it." Caitlyn smiled.
Faith laughed. "You two are something else. You seem pretty down to earth for being celebrities' girlfriends, or wife as the case may be."
"We try." We laughed.
We hung out with Faith for a while before heading back to the dorm. Caitlyn decided to go for a walk or something. I sat in our room setting up my computer. Once I was finally online I made a mental note to change my home page to the boys' Tour Diary. Yes, they were keeping a tour diary via blog on the official C3 website. Each of the guys would make their own entries and Rich would make general updates as well.
I wasn't expecting to see any updates on it when I opened the page. I was shocked to find all three guys made an entry despite the fact that the tour hadn't officially begun yet. Not wanting to get my hopes up, I clicked on Jason's entry first.
Hey, so yeah. Tour totally hasn't started yet. We know. But for us? It so has. We said good-bye to the girls. Man was that hard. Last time Stas was at college the distance kinda took its toll. Honestly? I'm scared. I didn't want to leave her this morning. I love her so much. I cried. I'm not ashamed to admit it. I. Cried. I'm going to miss her. I'm gonna miss Mitchie and Caitlyn, too, but it's different. That's like missing a sister. Missing Stas is like missing my other half. I'm like jelly with no peanut butter. I'm just a jelly sandwich. Three months without her is going to be impossible to bare. I just… I feel like she doesn't seem to be as worried. She was upset, yeah, but not worried. Maybe I'm freaking out for no reason, but I lost her once. I don't wanna again.
I smiled as I read what Jason wrote. Anastasia could be so stubborn sometimes. Jason loved her. That much was clearly evident. I clicked on Nate's next, saving Shane for last.
I think I've switched places with my girlfriend. She barely seemed phased that I'm leaving for 3 months. I, on the other hand, am freaking out. I love being in the band, I love touring, and I love making fans happy. But there is one thing I love more. Caitlyn. But it doesn't seem to matter how much I tell her that. She's handling this whole thing a lot better than I am and that scares me. God, I just hope she's not getting sick of me or something. But, I'm pumped for the tour. As long as Mr. Newlywed isn't moping the entire time. But, he did just get married 3 weeks ago. It's understandable that he doesn't want to leave Mitchie behind. I don't want to leave Caity behind, and we aren't even engaged. And yeah, technically tour hasn't started yet, but… we had to say good-bye to our loves, and that's when it starts for us. I just hope I survive this.
I frowned slightly, unsure of what Nate meant. But I moved on. I hovered over the link for Shane's page. I was anxious to click on it. I wanted to read what he wrote but I was afraid that there wouldn't be anything like what Jason and Nate hadn't written. I was almost right.
I hate tours. I hate tours where I can't bring my wife with me. I'd love to tour Europe, if she was with me. She made music enjoyable again and it hurts entirely too much without her. I know I'm not even on tour yet, but damn it. You say good-bye to your wife of 2 and a half weeks and tell me you're happy about leaving. I am psyched about going on tour, but at the same time, I'm not. I don't know if I can survive this. I tried pushing her away the last two days, and it didn't work. I've tried to detach myself, and I can't. I'm completely and totally addicted to Mitchie. I apologize to any fans who find my performances lacking while on this tour. It's going to be hard missing her. For once, she had to be the strong one. I almost lost in when we moved the girls into school. I didn't want to leave. I hope she knows I love her, and that I'm only doing this because I have to. Not that I don't want to, but I'd rather her be with me. I'm lucky she's not selfish. I'd give up everything, all of this, just to make her happy. But she'd never ask me to do that. I hope I can make this up to her when I come home at Christmas. But first I have to survive the next 3 months without her.
PS. Mitchie, I know you're reading this. And don't worry. I was hungry, too.
I blinked away the tears that were falling. That explained a lot. I sighed. He understood completely what I meant. That I couldn't handle talking to him. He was amazing. He really was. I quickly shut down my computer and crawled into bed. I heard Caitlyn some time later, but I was too caught up in my own thoughts pretending to be asleep.
Classes started the day after the next. Time started passing quickly. I hadn't talked to Shane much. But when I tried to hold back the sob, he heard. He whispered something about being hungry and told me to go eat. He meant go cry because he would be, too. Nate finally explained to me what Shane meant every time he said he was hungry and to go eat. I had understood it as our way of getting off the phone, but hadn't really grasped what he meant.
"He starts crying every time he hangs up. Some times he's crying pretty hard, other times it's just a few stray tears." Nate spoke quietly since Shane was sleeping not too far from him.
"He does?" I asked.
I imagined Nate nodding as he said, "Yup. He's not the only one of us who cries, though." He admitted.
"I'm not the only one crying, either." I replied.
"I wouldn't know." He answered. "She doesn't indicate anything of the sort. Neither does Stas."
"I don't know about Stas, but Caitlyn does." I told him.
"As long as she's not bottling it up." He sounded defeated. "I just wish she'd open up."
"She's not going to let you see her weak." My phone started beeping, indicating another call. "Oh, Nate, Kev's calling. He's taking me to the Grey's for the weekend."
"Okay. Tell Caity I love her. Bye." Nate said.
"Bye." I waited until Nate hung up and the call switched to Kevin's call.
"I'll be there soon, go wait outside." Kevin's voice slide across the phone.
"Sure." I replied, hanging up quickly.
We'd already been in classes for 3 weeks. Caitlyn and I would have been drifting if it hadn't been for Faith. She was constantly dragging us out together. Kevin was picking me up for the weekend though. I wanted to see Jacob. I was missing Shane terribly. His diary was getting a bit depressing to read.
As I stood outside waiting for Kevin, one of the other members of my dorm approached me. He was tall, blonde, and arrogant. It was clear he was an athlete. He was also complete scum.
"You're Mitchie, right?' He said attempting to be suave.
"And you are?" I asked.
"Gavin." He smiled. "You're the one with that pop star, right?" he asked feigning innocence.
"Maybe. What of it?" I asked politely.
His smiled turned lecherous as he leaned closer to me. "You shoulda waited 'til you got to college to pop your cherry, baby. Then maybe a real man coulda done it and not that fag." He smirked at me.
"A real man, huh?" I said with a fake smile. I bit my lip flirtatiously. "Like you?"
His smirk grew. "Yeah. I can still show you what you're missing if you want…" He offered.
I looked down, checking my urge to puke. I looked up at him from beneath my eyelashes. "Well… if you're a real man…" My smile dropped into a snarl. "Then I'll take my husband any day. At least he doesn't hit on married women because he can't get it anywhere else."
"Fucking bi-" The ass started to reply.
"Mitchie!" I heard Kevin's voice call. He jogged over to me. Man had he grown. I hadn't paid much attention to him over the summer because of the wedding, but that boy was working out. He'd grown a few inches, too. He wrapped an arm around my shoulder. "Hi, I'm Mitchie's brother-in-law, Kevin." He wasn't usually this friendly.
"I'm Mitchie's… friend… Gavin. I live in her dorm." Gavin spoke with fake enthusiasm.
"Where's Cait?" Kevin asked, ignoring Gavin mostly.
I shrugged. "You know Cait…" I said laughing slightly. "Probably forgot or something."
"Well, call her." I moved away to call Caitlyn's phone. I couldn't hear what Kevin said to Gavin, but I could read his lips pretty good. Something along the lines of 'I see you near her or hear about you bothering her, I will hurt you.' I smiled. Kevin… my hero.
"All good?" He asked coming back toward me.
"Yeah, she forgot," I said, hanging up my phone. Not even a minute later, Caitlyn came running out of the dorm and stopped short in front of us, bag over her shoulder.
"Let's go. I need real food." She sprinted toward the car.
Kevin laughed following Caitlyn toward the care. "Kevin." I called after him.
He stopped and looked back at me curiously. "What's up?"
"I need you to do me a favor." I said quietly.
He gave me a look to say 'continue' but I didn't. "What is it?" He asked.
"I'll tell you later." I whispered as we got closer to the car.
"Mitchie are you going to go to a doctor while we're away for the weekend?" Caitlyn asked as she leaned against the Jeep.
"No." I said quickly.
"What's wrong with you?" Kevin asked.
"She's been throwing up like crazy. I think she might have the flu. Or Shane withdrawal" Caitlyn answered, teasingly lightly.
"Ah. You'll be all better by the end of this weekend if Mom has anything to say about it." Kevin assured me.
I smiled tightly. They had no idea what I thought was wrong with me.
When we got to the house, Caitlyn went up to the guest room and crashed for a while. I followed Kevin up to his room.
"Spill. What's wrong?" Kevin demanded.
"I need you to drive about half an hour from here, find a small town, and go to the pharmacy there." He looked at me oddly. "I need you, to pick up something." I said quietly.
"What?" He asked curiously.
He waited patiently as I grew the courage to say it. "A pregnancy test." I said barely audible.
His jaw dropped. "I'm sorry, what?" He replied.
I glared. "You know damn well you heard me."
"Can't… Nicky do that for you? Or Caitlyn? Wait, Cait thinks you just have the flu." Kevin looked at me puzzled. "You didn't tell her that you think you're… pregnant?" He whispered the word, quite aware that I wanted it to be a secret.
"No." I hissed. "I don't want her freaking out and telling Nate who might tell Shane." I sighed. "I don't think so, but I need to know for a fact, ya know?"
"You should tell Shane." Kevin advised.
"I don't want to tell him until I know yes or no." I replied. "I don't want to freak him out for no reason while he's across the ocean from me."
"Fine. As long as you tell him."
"Thank you!" I hugged him suddenly, surprising him. I pulled back laughing softly. "One of these days, we so need to have a normal conversation."
"Tomorrow. We'll talk about the weather. Okay?" Kevin teased.
"Sounds good. I hear it's supposed to rain." I replied.
"So, when do I have to go?" He asked returning to the original subject.
"As soon as possible." I replied. "I'd like to know by the end of the weekend, but I know you have a life, so…" I trailed off as Kevin grabbed his keys and his wallet.
"I'll be back later." He promised.
"You're the best, Kevin. Seriously." I replied.
"What are brothers for?" He asked shrugging. I smiled as he smiled back. "I'll come find you when I get back, okay?"
I nodded and he left the room. I headed to Shane's room and took a nap. Jacob was hyper at first, but laid down next to me after a while.
Thoughts of being pregnant and what that would mean filled my head as I awaited Kevin's return. I silently prayed God didn't think it was time for me to have a family yet.
My laptop is totally named Jason. I was going to name it Joe… but my exboyfriend's name is Joe, so that was a no. And then I thought Shane, but again I know a real person named Shane and he's a dick. But I don't know any Jasons, so Jason was a perfect name. And yes, I name inanimate objects of the electronic kind. I even scared inanimate objects. Right, El Stupido? Haha.