CHAPTER NINETEEN: SEASON TWO: EPISODE (I'll look it up later I'm lazy right meow).

You were red and you liked me because I was blue

You touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky

And you decided purple just wasn't for you

Halsey

I'm outside of the old train station where Derek is currently living. The scowl on my face doesn't need words to express my distaste. I decided it would be best to give him a surprise visit to check out the place. Definitely not sold on leaving my baby here overnight.

Derek said I can stop by whenever I want, now that I know where he lives. Just to make sure I'm not being followed by the police… That is always promising.

Sighing, I open the bulky door to view a cobwebby stone stairwell. My nose scrunches up at the big spiders I pass as I venture down them. I try to stay as quiet as possible when I begin to hear noises. It mostly sounds like grunts, feet, and stuff being thrown around. I swear to god if I walk in on Erica and him… my hormones might cause me to snap a neck. Would Derek heal from that? Hmm…

It takes me a moment to realize there is a large mass at the bottom of the stairs. Another moment passes before I acknowledge it as a teenage boy. He glances back at me with a frown as I come up behind him, but doesn't say anything. He just turns back to whatever he is watching without much concern. I don't know… if it were someone walking into my secret lair I'd be a little more worried about who they were.

Everything is covered in a layer of dust. The old trains leaning nimbly on the old tracks. Nope. He's not raising my child in this dump.

I follow the teenagers gaze to see Derek standing in the center of the room. He's wearing a sleeveless white shirt that is covered in dirt, breathing heavily as he glares down at a teenager lying limp on the floor. Maybe at a different time I'd let my mind wander about the sweat coating his body. There's something on top of one of the trains. I recognize the blonde hair and red painted lips from my distance, Erica.

Derek's nostrils flare as he glowers at the curly haired teen on the ground he just tossed over his head. "Does anyone wanna try not being completely predictable?"

Erica flips off the top and hooks herself around Derek's waist like a monkey. She presses her painted lips on his. I raise a brow, pursing my lips to prevent myself from making any snide comments. He is allowed to be in a relationship with whoever he wants. We are not together, we were never really together. I don't have the right to be angry. Even if I am. Oh boy, I'm ready to tear him to freaking shreds piece by piece.

Derek quickly throws her off and wipes the back of his hand over his lips. I hate that him discarding her like trash makes me feel better.

"That is the last time you do that," he warns her with pointed look.

"Why? Because I'm a beta?"

"No, because I already have someone," Derek tells her. He tilts his head in my direction, but does not divert his gaze from the teenage girl. She pouts at him and he rolls his shoulders. "I also have someone in mind for you."

The boy on the floor stares skeptically up at Derek. "Are we done?I got about a hundred bones that need a few hours to heal."

"Come here." I'm momentarily proud of Derek at the soft tone he uses. However, that immediately changes as he grabs the kids arm and twists it until there's a loud snap ringing throughout the room. "A hundred and one. You think I'm teaching you how to fight? Huh? Look at me! I'm teaching you how to survive!"

"If they wanted us dead why aren't they coming for us now? What are they waiting for?" the kid questions through gritted teeth.

Derek starts out aggressively, "I don't know. But they're planning something. And you, especially, know that's not our only problem. Whatever that thing is that killed Isaac's father, I think it killed someone else last night. Until I find out what it is, you all need to learn everything that I know. As fast as I can teach you…" and ends with a hopeless tone.

"Derek," I finally speak. He snaps towards me with alarmed eyes at the hostile tone I'm using. But excuse me, he just broke that kids ARM. I scowl at him.

He nods. "Halden."

"We need to talk…" my eyes linger on the teen clenching his arm against his chest like that will make it better. "About a few things."

Derek runs a hand through his hair. "Yeah, okay. This way." He motions towards the rail cart. Great. Exactly where I want to have this conversation about our future child.

Erica and the other two- Isaac and Boyd! That's their names, I remember Scott telling me in passing and looking up Isaac's photo in the school yearbook. Erica, Isaac, and Boyd watch curiously as their alpha leads me away for privacy.

"Here, sit-" Derek urges as he motions to one of the uncomfortable plastic seats. I remind myself to keep calm as I sit down a bit begrudgingly. He sits across from me. "What did you want to talk about?"

"First thing, what in the hell was that out there?"

Derek runs a hand over his face. "It's not what it looks like. We were just training and she was trying to catch me off-"

"-I'm not talking about the kiss. I'm talking about how you just broke that kids arm like it was nothing," I cut him off fiercely. Even if maybe a part of me might be talking about the kiss… can he tell half lies?

"It'll heal," Derek says with a frown.

"Sure. Bruises heal. But do you know what doesn't heal? The trust you lose when someone that's supposed to protect you physically harms you."

"I'm trying to protect them! They need to learn to fight," he defensively argues with sharp green eyes narrowed at me. "If the Argent's get to us…"

"Do you know what those three kids in there are?" I ask.

Derek looks puzzled. "Werewolves?"

"Yes. No. Yes. But not the point I'm making." Pinching my nose I try to calm myself down. I can feel that nasty boil in my gut that always makes me crave the pill. "They are teenagers. Remember being sixteen? How would you have reacted if someone started barking orders at you?"

He looks away with a scowl.

"That's what I thought. You probably would have rebelled or something stupid because that's the kind of thing you would do."

His gaze is clearly insulted as he catches me eyes, "I would not-"

"-shut up, you know it's true." His response is an eye roll. "Is this how you plan on teaching the baby? Because if this is how you intend to teach it to-"

"NO. Of course I wouldn't," he interrupts with wide eyes.

"One day this baby is going to be sixteen. Imagine that. Would you treat this baby the way you are treating them?"

He shakes his head. "No."

"Then don't do that to them."

Derek's stare is now on his feet. He's got that kicked puppy look on his face. Ugh. It's not fair that he's that adorable while I'm scolding him.

"Another thing." My nose is turned up as I gaze around the train cart. "If any part of you thought I was going to allow a baby to be staying here half of the time, you've lost your damn mind."

"I was hoping to look into a more permanent place for the pack. This is only temporary," he explains immediately. A hopeful stare comes over his face. "You should come with me to look at places. Make sure that we pick one that you and the baby both like."

"Sounds reasonable," I tell him with a shrug.

Derek grins. "Great."

"I better be going. Scott doesn't know I'm here…"

"Yeah, of course."

Derek leads me out of the rail car and I catch Erica helping Isaac wrap his arm up in a cloth. I hesitate a moment before I go over to them.

"Let me," I tell her gently. "I know how to wrap a broken bone properly. My mom is a nurse."

Erica smiles light as I bend down to start helping out Isaac. The boy's pale blue eyes are watching my face curiously as Boyd, Erica, and Derek hover nearby.

"Who are you?" Isaac questions with a glance behind me at Derek.

"I'm Halden. Scott McCall's older sister."

Isaac cocks his head to the side. "You are way hotter than Scott."

"Ugh, thanks?"

"Isaac," Derek scolds through a growl. I roll my eyes. Men.

"Why are you here?" Isaac pries.

I glance at Derek who is watching me intently. "Do they know?"

Erica's eyes widen, "Know what?"

Derek exhales long. "No."

"Why not?"

"Yeah Derek, why not?" Isaac adds to my question.

"It hasn't come up."

"Well, it's up," I say.

Isaac snickers, "That's what she said."

I sigh. Half of me is tempted to just squeeze his arm a bit for the comment, but I realize that's kinda evil and make sure my movements are more gentle.

"Halden and I are having a baby," Derek finally gets out after a moment.

"What?" Erica shrieks causing me to wince.

Derek lifts an unimpressed brow and repeats slowly, "Halden and I are having a baby."

"Oh," Isaac mutters. "Like… when?"

"Roughly five to seven months."

"Five to seven?"

"Apparently werewolf babies have a tendency to come a bit earlier than human ones." This is said with a pointed stare in Derek's direction. "Which is why we need to start preparing."

The quiet werewolf, Boyd, steps forward. His eyes are pulled down to my stomach as he takes a few cautious steps forward. "I think I can hear their heartbeat."

"It's low, but that is the heartbeat you are hearing," Derek confirms. "The older it gets the louder the heartbeat will sound. You'll also be able to hear it moving around."

"That's crazy," Isaac says as his eyes fall to my stomach. I finish wrapping his arm and push myself to my feet. "But you're not fat or anything."

"Well, thanks, but most women usually don't start showing until about three months, which is quickly approaching." My hand falls to my abdomen. "I'm going to have to go shopping for maternity clothes…"

"I'll give you money when you need to do that," Derek tells me.

"That's not necessary…"

Derek nods fiercely. "Yes, it is."

"Are you guys together?" Erica asks cautiously.

"No." and "Yes." are said at the same time.

Derek gives me a pleading stare while I just glare at him. Guess which one of us said what?

"Derek, we are not together," I firmly state.

He purses his lips.

"I thought we made that clear last night."

He just shrugs and decides not to comment.

Whatever. Not dealing with this right now. Neither the baby or I need this stress.

"Okay. I'm leaving. It was nice to meet you all. I am sure I'll be seeing a lot of you in the near future."

The three say goodbye while Derek follows me up the stairs. He hovers closely like he thinks I'm going to topple over. I'm not even wobbling yet. Damn. I can already see how this is going to be once I start showing…

Derek helps me into my car - even though I'm completely functional and can manage on my own. He sneaks a quick kiss to my forehead, which earns him a piercing glare as he heads back inside his lair.

Scott's lacrosse game is tonight. I'm sad that it's the first one I'm going to miss since I've started living with Mom and him. But tonight something important, monumental, life changing is going to be happening. It is the first Narcotics Anonymous meeting I will be attending.

"Here! This one is nice," Mom says as she hands me a light purple pullover sweater. I slide it on over the white tank I'm wearing. She maneuvers around my closet poking through the few items I have hanging up. "We are really going to have to do some pregnancy shopping when you start to show. All your shirts are so tiny."

I don't want to tell her the only reason I'm as skinny as I am is because I never ate due to all the drugs I took. I wonder how much weight I'm going to gain…

"Derek says he will give me money."

Mom turns from the closet to look at me carefully. "Am I going to be meeting Derek anytime soon?"

Dammit.

"No," I deadpan. "Not anytime soon."

The frustration is clear on her face. "And why not? You've been pregnant for a few months, Haldey, I think Scott and I deserve to meet the father. Especially since you told me he wants to be apart of the child's life."

Because your son accused him of murder twice doesn't exactly sound like a good excuse.

"He's out of town," I lie. "I told you before… he works a lot of odd hours and has to drive a lot for work. It's going to be difficult for him to find time."

Mom keeps quiet, but I can hear all the snide comments she's thinking in her head by her pinched expression. But Mom has been very good at not stressing me out. She is aware that any amount of stress, big or small, can set me off into a downward spiral. I'm proud of myself for not going down that route already. I just have to keep thinking of my baby.

Because if I fuck up one time. If I take one wrong pill… I don't even want to think of that. I already feel like this baby is my world. I guess it's the only thing I've ever had that's mine that is important.

Mom changes the subject with a sad look, "I can't believe we are both going to be missing their game. The first one after they made it to state."

"I'm sure we will win. Especially with Scott on the team," I praise with a grin. "Have you seen him flip over someones head? I swear, he should join the olympics."

I wonder how many werewolves were in the olympics? I totally would do that if I were one. Maybe I should bring this up to Scott.

"Hey!" Scott pops into the bedroom. He nervously glances at the bed were I have all the paperwork displayed for NA. "How are you feeling?"

"Pretty good. A little queasy." I pat my stomach. "But that's normal these days. I'm just glad I'm not you know… puking."

"Oh no!" Mom cries out. "You jinxed it."

"Momm! Don't say that!"

Scott laughs. I move over to him and wrap him in a hug. "Good luck at your game tonight. I'm positive you guys will win."

He hugs me back. "Thanks Haldey. I'll make sure to score a goal for you."

"Score two. One for me and one for the baby!"

"And one for your mother," Mom adds with a chuckle. She checks her watch. "Alright. We are all cutting it close. Scott, I'll drop you off at the school and sweetie-" she kisses my cheek. "-I will see you when I get home tonight. I hope everything goes well for you."

"I'm sure it will."

It does not go well. Apparently NA is literally everyone looking to a higher power to help them through substance abuse. Which is great if you're into that sort of thing, but I'm not. If there is a god or gods out there they've done a shit poor job at my life right about now. Focusing on all those rich assholes that slide by without a care in the world. Sorry. I'm not beginning someone for forgiveness that hasn't bothered to show me mercy.

The leader of the meeting spoke to me specifically after the class. He is a tall middle aged man with a messy of light blonde hair. He wears a striped polo and kaki slacks. He looks like a dad. His name is Frank.

"So what did you think?" he asks me.

I purse my lips. I've never been one to lie (except to the police/Mom/Scott/everyone? Okay. So I LIE, I've just always been kinda blunt, so…). "Honestly? It's not for me. I don't think I'm going to be coming back."

He nods slowly. "I see. I understand that this program is not for everyone. But after talking to you on the phone the other day I strongly consider that you find something to give yourself an outlet." Frank digs around in his pocket and pulls out his wallet. He holds out a business card to Fred & Lisa's. "I usually suggest for those to return to a few sessions to make sure this isn't something for them… but considering your situation, maybe this will offer better results."

"A restaurant?" I question skeptically as I read over the small card.

"Fred and Lisa both attended NA, which is where they met. Neither of them benefited from the program and chose to leave after a few sessions," Frank explains with a grin. "They decided to try to help one another out to get back on track. This lead to them opening up a restaurant. Ever since they've been on a clean path. They came back to me a few months later and told me their story. Said they were only interested in hiring people that needed help just as they had. Said if there is anyone that ever doesn't benefit here that maybe they can help them there."

"Thank you. I really need a job because of the baby…" I smile.

"Don't worry about it doll. I just hope everything turns out well for you and your child. You deserve it," he says. "Especially after everything we discussed today in our session. Good luck, and don't ever feel like you can't even just call. It's always good to have someone to talk to."

"I appreciate everything."

Frank leaves me with a friendly hand shake and a pat on the back. So… the meeting was a bust, but I might have a new job. A job that provides clothes, food, dippers, and all the other nonsense that involves babies.

On my way home from NA I get a call from an unknown number. I debate about ignoring it, but no one ever calls me so I figure I should answer. It's either an old "friend" (this term shall be used loosely) or something important (maybe).

"Hello?"

"HALDEY! Thank god! We need you, like, right now!" A panicked voice screams through the phone.

"What? Who is this?"

"Stiles! It's Stiles!"

I immediately begin to freak out now that I know it's my brothers best friend. What the hell did they get into this time? "Stiles, what's wrong?"

"Derek and I are stuck in the pool at the high school! There's that thing here!"

What.

The foot I have on the gas presses down harder. "Okay, okay. I'm coming. I'll call Scott."

"We-we already called Scott and he hung up."

"Trust me he is going to talk to me," I tell him. "Just hold on!"

Shitshitshit.

OKAY guys. Next update I'll try and get out quick, but currently am trying to finish a book I'm reading & write something that is NOT fan fiction lol. next chapter has smut!

megladon1616: AHHHH! Derek will not find out the overdose for some time. He isn't specifically told about it by anyone until it's kinda like "too late" (you know when a white lie goes on for too long and it's like damn, probably shoulda mentioned that). Not that anyone lies to Derek about it, but it's a touchy subject between Halden, Scott, and Melissa.

WickedlyMinx: GIRLS piss me off too! It's the hormones…

Guest: Derek does NOT know about the overdose! And when he does find out it's gonna be a bit of an issue… because he's gonna be pissed af!

Amelia Mikaelhey: it would be so cute! Derek being all adorable. Dressing her up, playing with her hair, and all the stuff dad's are supposed to do lol

untilmynextstory: GOOD! I like a little bit of angst because why would anyone want to read a perfect story? gosh. so boring! there needs to be a bit of drama lol.

Guest: THANKS! YOU're amazing. Hah, and I didn't think Derek would take the pregnancy terribly like he does in some ff's because I think that's what Derek secretly (or not so secretly) wants. He loves having a big family and a big pack - that's how he grew up. I honestly think one of the reasons Derek hangs out with scott & stiles and all these teenagers is because he psychologically is stuck in this age where he isn't really mature enough to handle adult relationships because he's never been given the chance to have them - and on a social level he's used to hanging out with teens because those are the people he had to deal with every day when he was in high school, and then he goes into hiding with only laura to help him out. IDK. that's what i think lol

Guest: TWINS. Hmmm. I'll think about it ;)

Mia: I agree! That's why I like Derek's POV so much. because you see halden's side and it's always like, why isn't derek here? why did derek do that? why would derek do anything? and then you get inside his head and you're like OH, well that's still kinda stupid, but i understand your thought process der-bear. lol

Catarina Persephone: THANKS! And yeah, Halden & Derek had such an odd start & now they have this baby that is going to bind them together through life - even if it's not marriage or anything, but it means they can't get rid of each other! it's a huge step when you're trying to get over being lied to.

High Guardian: THANK YOU! :DDDDD *kisses pecks* because this chapter was strong, and my hands helped me write it. Derek is going to do a few things differently that i already have written! it'll be coming up soon & i'm not sure if people are going to like it, but it took some thinking and character manipulation for things to go as planned. so, derek might seem a little ooc, but the same events from the show aren't all going to happen so it's gonna make him a little different.

karemn238: the next chapter is going to be in Halden's! idk when the next derek pov is, but derek doesn't no about the overdose so he doesn't have an opinion on it quite yet! i promise when he does find out i'll try and get in his head for that bit :)

Yvette D: I LOVE YOU! I'm so glad you found the story & enjoy it. I hope I continue to write in a way that makes you find the story worth reading hehe. Halden is my favorite person I've ever written since she is so flawed. It's one of my favorite things about her. Having a perfect character sucks, but I also love how we can kinda see how strong Halden can become. She's just never let herself be that way because she never had a reason to. Now she does! And she's gonna get stronger & stronger :D Derek & Halden will be approaching mutual ground quite soon! THANKFULLY haha. OMG & I can totally see Derek with a little boy wearing the jacket & toy car AHHH that's the cutest! and it might be foreshadowing IT might not be! honestly, i kinda decided what i want the gender to be, but wanted everyones thoughts on it hehe!

Cassie-D1: sad derek ruins me for everyone! because how can i love someone when derek has unshed tears in his eyeballs (even if he really doesn't have tears…).

Gr Is Law: YAYYYY! Halden is gonna struggle with the drugs, but not as much as I feel like would happen with TRUE drug abusers in real life. I don't want that to be the focus of the story, and unfortunately the time it would take to put in that detail isn't really what I want to do. BUT it definitely is going to be a HUGE struggle for her (just not as extreme). i'm so upset that derek & haldey aren't together right now too, trust me. it's so hard to write it. like… i just want to write them hugging and kissing and being cute lol and derek is gonna be so cute with the baby! i can picture him being so protective of a girl, but i can see him being a little harder on a boy - because of his past mistakes!

Guest: i know! SAD DErEK makes everyone sad - especially derek! lol derek is definitely gonna fight for halden!

Lexxxi: THANKS so much! I really like to give a lot of detail to my characters to make them feel real, i like to write in a way that can hopefully make others understand why the characters are doing what they are doing even if you haven't been in that situation or agree with it. :)

THANKS Lola Tudor, peace486 meangirl8, Nathalie94!

There are 5 many people that think #HAREK's baby is gonna be a boy and 4 that think it's going to be a girl! We shall see :D