It had started the a few nights before, when he felt a burning itch on his ring finger and had tried all kinds of creams, lotions and even running it underneath a cold tap for a while, nothing worked. He became very irritable as he stared at the angry red skin around the name.
It was sore to the touch, and it felt like the entire skin on his finger was itching and moving. He tried to forget about it but it only made him think about it more.
He hadn't told Sebastian. He didn't want to worry him. But the longer it went on the more jumpy and panicky Kurt became.
Sebastian had noticed he was a little nervous and aggravated lately, but he didn't comment on it, trusting Kurt to come to him when he was ready.
Kurt had been trying to figure out what was happening. It couldn't be changing his soulmate now. He was finally happy, and with Sebastian, they were due to get engaged and will be getting married soon after that. His life was how he wanted it, and now some higher power decided to change it.
No, Kurt wouldn't accept whoever 'BL' turned out to be. He didn't even want to think about it.
He and Sebastian had a fight the next night, after Sebastian had asked him what was bothering him.
And Kurt knew he was being a 'bitch' about it, as Sebastian had kindly pointed out, but it unnerved him and now he had fallen out with Sebastian before date night.
He was staring down at his finger again, mulling over the fading 'ba' now as the other name creeped itself over, and sighed as he tried to rub the soreness away.
Sebastian appeared next to him, as he looked down at his finger, he figured it wouldn't change anything if Sebastian was to find out, maybe he would be able to ease Kurt's mind about it.
He heard a sharp intake of breath from beside him and then a small humorless chuckle left his boyfriend and Kurt turned his face to look at him.
"So that's why you've been a major bitch these last two days." Sebastian said as he sat next to Kurt, and Kurt couldn't tell what Sebastian was feeling at that moment, his face was falsely blank.
"Yeah, I don't want anything to change...in fact this doesn't change anything at all." Kurt said with a determined icy tone and Sebastian looked to his face and raised an eyebrow.
"What do you mean?" He asked and Kurt placed a hand against his cheek and smiled at him.
"I mean that I don't believe in this crap, ok?" Kurt said as he gestured to his finger and Sebastian looked confused again, "I don't want another soulmate, I'm perfectly happy with the one I have right here, why would I want to change anything now?"
"Maybe he would be better suited to you than me?"
"Don't, please don't do that, ok," Kurt said as he glared at Sebastian, before sighing sadly, "I don't know what on earth is happening, how I'm supposed to feel about this higher power taking away my happiness when I finally have everything I want...but I refuse it, I refuse to accept it."
"Kurt-"
"You want me right? You love me?" Kurt asked quickly interrupting Sebastian's comment and he nodded his head quickly.
"Of course I do, yes."
"Then I don't care about some other stupid name, ok, I love you Bas, nothing is changing that." Kurt said with conviction and placed his lips over Sebastian's, swallowing the moan his boyfriend let out as he deepened it for a few minutes.
"Kurt, I-"
"Please, don't say anything," Kurt interrupted desperately, "Please don't tell me all of the generic wisdoms that would somehow make me think about it logically, I don't want to ok, I don't...Please just be with me."
"Ok, ok." Sebastian answered quickly and wrapped his arms around Kurt, who he could tell was just one more sentence away form breaking down completely, and pulled him close, "I'm here, Kurt, I'm here."
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Sebastian sighed loudly as he got up from underneath Kurt slowly, he had fallen asleep after sex, which was itself so intense and emotional that it literally knocked him out afterwards.
Kurt had been so hurt and emotional, that Sebastian had tried to refuse to make love with him, but seeing the disappointment and the sadness threaten to spill out over Kurt's cheeks, he had agreed.
Kurt had kissed him ferociously, trying to cover up the hurt by immersing himself in Sebastian, but Sebastian never minded intense love when it came to Kurt, it was amazing.
He carefully moved Kurt's head back onto the pillows and sat beside him. He felt bad for Kurt, he did. He had known a few people before that had gone through a whole soulmate change before, but never did he think that would be him and Kurt. Why now?
He didn't understand, in a couple of weeks he was going to propose to his boyfriend of 6 years, it had been long enough. They were sort of perfect together. Kurt could hold his own against Sebastian's explosive humour and sarcasm, he could be a right bitch in an argument, just like himself, they had fun together, they shared everything. Burt accepted him without question, and he admired the man for it. They actually got along. Their parents knew each other and they had all had dinner together on countless occasions, so why did it all seem so trivial now to the universe.
Was it punishment for something? He had no idea.
But Kurt deserved the world, and if he wanted to settle for somebody like Sebastian, then he wouldn't complain. Kurt was amazing, independent, kind, smart, funny, and a demon in bed.
Sebastian had been surprised when the sexual awakening of one Kurt Hummel had happened, after their first time together everything just kicked off. Kurt was very attentive and forward. He was cocky and sure of himself, confident, and sometimes like a man possessed by a sex demon.
Sebastian's spine shivered just thinking about it.
He had never met someone on such equal ground as himself before, it was crazy and wonderful. His mother and father absolutely love Kurt, maybe more so than they loved Sebastian.
He smiled as he though back to all those times he caught Kurt dancing with his mother in the kitchen as they cooked together, or the times he discussed real important topics with his father for hours, earning giggles and smiles out of Sebastian's dad that even Sebastian himself only sees very rarely.
Kurt had a knack for bringing out the best in people.
There was one thing they could never agree on. Kids.
Kurt had only resigned himself to no children, when he had found out at 17 that Sebastian never wanted any. But Sebastian knew Kurt did, he had always known. Maybe that's why this guys name was appearing now, to be able to give Kurt what Sebastian could never.
He shook his head to clear the thought. He smiled down as Kurt snuggled into the pillow, and his eyes travelled down Kurt's arm to his finger, and he leaned in to look at the name again.
It had 'Bla' and then what looked like it could be an 'i' there now, Sebastian's own name fading, and he sighed, maybe this guy could be better, but he wouldn't be able to convince Kurt, he knew that. Kurt was stubborn, Burt had told him once before that when his son sets his mind on something, he is very hard to convince not to.
Like his choice to be with Sebastian after the name changed, Kurt just never knew what to do for his own good. Sure, they loved each other, and in some ways they would always love each other, but Sebastian would not hold him back, and if he changed his mind about this other guy, then he would be happy for him.
He hissed as his own ring finger started burning, the skin around Kurt's name becoming red and sore looking. He shrugged as he went to make a coffee.
He guessed because of the change that somebody else was going through, that now he and Kurt would both be receiving different names. Sebastian had always wondered about being paired with Kurt. Yes, he loved Kurt with all his heart, he did. There wasn't any doubt or regret or any question about that.
But Sebastian and Kurt had very different views on the world, relationships, family.
Kurt had always wanted children, Sebastian didn't. Kurt had never said he did or didn't, but Sebastian wasn't a fool, just because he had told Kurt once that he didn't want any, Kurt had been adamant that he accepted that.
But Sebastian had never wanted Kurt to settle, but no matter how often they fought in their teenage years about things like that, in the end it was Kurt's decision. Even though Sebastian knows, just knows, there is more out there for Kurt than him.
But it was ultimately Kurt's decision, Sebastian could push him away and try to convince him to go in another direction but with Kurt being so stubborn and hating being told what to do, especially things he had no control over, made Kurt fight more and more for what he thought he wanted or needed.
He sighed a little as he ran his burning finger under the cold tap, while he sipped his coffee.