Emma Nelson was in her room playing with her hair. She landed on her bed with a huff and looked around. As she laid on her stomach she got lost in thought.

Jay's voice was stuck in her head with what he said the other week.. 'Maybe you're just coming to terms that there is a different girl in you, and you've been waiting to come out'

She suddenly jumped when her phone rang and sat up on her bed.

She took the phone on the night table and answered it "Hello?" she says.

"Em, it's Manny" greeted the person on the other side, "What are you doing?" Manny asked snapping Emma out of thought.

"nothing" Emma tiredly said back laying back down on her bed into the pillows.

"Did you want to do something?" Manny questions

"Not tonight" insists Emma playing with her hair again, she's been avoiding a lot of people lately, espashally Jay Hogart, Alex too. It helped they both skipped a lot.

"But you said you were doing nothing" Manny reminded Emma who huffed

"I'm not up to it Manny. Sorry" she confirms

"Are you okay?" Manny asked

"Why wouldn't I be?" Emma says standing up and walking around her room

"Well it's only been 3 weeks after the whole..." Manny drifts, not being able to say it

"shooting?" Emma filled in

Silence.

"yeah" answered Manny. How can Emma be so comfortable to say it?

Silence again

Emma heard the door bell rang and swallowed hard.

"Manny I have to go" Emma said walking up the stairs

"Call me tomorrow?" Manny almost begged

"I'll try" Emma said going to the door

"Alright. Bye" Manny sadly says as Emma hung up and opened the door.

Emma dropped the phone to her side and glared. Jay stood infront of her looking too casual on her front door step. Black hat backwards with his blue jeans and blue t-shirt.

He crossed his arms and pierced his lips together as she kept that glare.

"What are you doing here?" Emma bitters for him to snicker shaking his head. Emma was always the most stubborn girl he's ever known.

"Wanting to know why your avoiding me" Jay admits

"You know exactly why." Emma snapped. She then thought about it, all he did was point out everything she was trying to hide underneath..but she was just so stubborn to admit it was true, had to stay offended.

Jay snickered, "Me and you both know theres something between us" he smugly said

"disgust?" Emma taunted and he chuckled leaning on her door frame, "Don't get comfortable." she taunted again, "How about you leave or I'll go tell your girl friend?"

"Greenpeace, I haven't heard you tattle tale in years." he playfully recalled and Emma shut her mouth.

Its true, she was only bluffing. Her luck? Alex would punch her and just go back to Jay.. for as many girls who stuck onto Jay like glue, you were stupid to assume he was faithful.

"Get out Jay, I mean it" she confirms, putting her hands on her hips and chin up.

"Only if you come with me" Jay insists, and he was serious. He couldn't stop thinking about Miss Nelson. He didn't want to last another day without the girl, she was avoiding him like fucking crazy

"...where are you going?" Emma curiously asked, biting her lower lip. She didn't really want him to go..maybe he learned his lesson from her avoiding him?

"Just a party.. I won't even try anything on you. Hows that?" he asked, a grin on his face and his eyes sparkled humorously, "We're just friends."

"Barely friends." muttered Emma, still glaring.

Jay rolled his eyes, "Alright GP, I'm into Alex, and your still the school prude. I get it." Jay's voice held much sarcasm it made Emma almost shiver, "You comin' or what?"

Emma watched him turn and walk back to his orange civic, but went to his passanger side. She glanced back into her house and at him just in time for him to look at her too when he opened the passanger door and raised an eyebrow at her.

Emma looked around outside before she huffed and felt the pull towards him, grabbing her coat and going.

The party was huge, no one from school either, but that also felt good to Emma, no one harressing you how that 'school shooting' was or if she was 'okay'.

"Sup Hogart."

"How u doin Jay."

Tons of intimadating looking guys greeted Jay as he led Emma around, usually she'd slap his hand away but this time, in this kind of place, she let him grab her hand and lead her to the back of the party.

They entered the basement where there was still much people, but less music blasting, and people just getting high off weed.

Emma coughed a little bit and Jay looked over his shoulder, smirking a bit at her reaction.

"Hey Jay." smiled another blonde girl, but was definatly born brunette, she had bushy black eyebrows and dressed sort of trash like.

The redhead next to her was much cuter, and smirked as he passed them to sit on the couch across from them, just simply nodding in greetment at they sat.

He connected eyes with Emma, seeing her eyeing the two and then the guy who sat with them. Jay nodded to that guy, "Got any booze Aaron?"

Aaron looked up from toking and coughed on his joint, "Dude you\re here!" his blood shot eyes scanned next to him, his mouth falling a bit as he looked Emma over.

Jay saw Aaron look a bit shocked yet amused, eyeing the new girl in the room, and Jay moved himelf a little closer to Emma knowing Aaron was shocked an attractive, stable looking girl was in the room with them. Miss Perfection.. it was like she was begging for her innocence to be broken.

Aaron saw that gesture and took Emma as Jay's new fling behind Alex's back so tried to move on, and handed them a big whiskey bottle.

"You have dranken alcohal before right?" Jay whispered tauntingly in Emma's ear who glared at him but smiled a bit, damn she tried so hard to hide it.

"Give me a cup." she taunted back, and Jay raised his eyebrows impressed and did so.

Emma took shot after shot as Jay, in entertainment, watched her. The guy named Aaron went over to Jay and hit his arm as the girls were talking to Emma about God knows what.

"What's the blondes name?" Aaron asked with a smirk, eyeing the blonde.

Jay eyed him, then glanced at Emma too with him, watching the girl nod to the redhead about whatever she was saying and Emma tossed her long blonde hair to one side of her shoulders, showing off her bare virgin skin.. no tattoos, no piercings, natural hair..

She was a beauty.

"Ask her yourself, if you dare." taunted Jay, taking a sip of his beer .

The crowd cheered as Emma and Jay even started to have a shot contest. It was on the 5th one and Emma was almost seeing stars

"Just give it up Greenpeace," Jay teased, taking his 6th shot as she was still trying to get the motivation to, "You can't beat me."

Emma took that too personally, glaring at him and went to take that challange and take another shot. As if he thinks she was just too prude, or too immature..What DID he think about her?!

Aaron swiftly went behind Emma and grabbed her wrist before she took the next shot, she panted a bit but narrowed her eyes to him.

"Wow there cutie, why don't you try some beers instead?" Aaron teased, taking her shot and putting his beer in her hand. Emma blew some hair out of her face that fell in front of her and smiled mischievously and took it, giving Jay a 'haha' look. Jay eyed the scene back just as closely though, an unreadable look on his face.

She turned while she sipped his bottle and Aaron wrapped an arm around her wait, "Think you had too much?" he asked almost hopefully, like he wanted her drunk.

Once again, maybe Emma shouldn't of been here..

Just when Emma went to shove his arm off her and walk back to Jay, the redhead and trashy blonde from earlier were pointing at her and gasping

"I know now where we know you from!" the red head said.

Even Jay turned back when he heard that.

"Your that girl." the blonde friend said, nodding at Emma, "Who almost got shot in the head? By that Degrassi freak." she started to giggle madly, pointing at Jay, "Isn't that your school?"

Emma looked in shock, memories flooding into her drunk mind. She couldn't handle it and even Aaron found himself balancing her a bit more in his arms.

"Silly." The redhead said to the blonde, putting her hand on Jay's arm flirtingly, "Jay barely has the time for something like school."

Emma snapped out of it and eyed the scene of this dumb big mouthed slut with her hands on Jay, and even more bullshit coming out from her mouth.

'You're on my list.' Ricks voice suddenly shot through her head.

As the two girls now cornered Jay with their hands all over Jay, Emma took this time to leave, she couldn't take any of this anymore. Aaron followed her, and for some reason she didn't mind him grabbing her back into another room but this time it was empty, and with a blur, she kissed him back as he crashed his lips to hers and started to shed off her clothes after locking the door.

Emma groaned waking up. She looked around to not notice the room. Last thing she remembered... flashes of the girls pointing at her, thinking about Rick, drinking with Jay... girls hands all over Jay..and then..

Emma sat up on the bed and looked beside her at a naked guy. Oh right, Aaron. That made more flashes come to her. She felt the little pain between her legs...oh god, she gave her virginity up to some stranger. Least he was cute... but so not what she wanted.

Emma stared at the table beside them on his night stand, there sat cocaine on a piece of glass, a used straw beside of it.

Oh god, she didn't... did she?

"Morning beautiful." She heard a groan and looked down to Aaron. He went to wrap an arm around her waist until she shot up and put her clothes back on.

Aaron gave a look and then whipped his tired eyes, sitting up.

"I'll see you later." Emma mumbled and grabbed her purse.

Before she left Aaron grabbed her wrist, hard. "No thankyou, no 'oh last night was great', and no 'oh your the best I've ever had'." Aaron mocked in a joke voice, "Fine. But I can't help but wana give you a little present for your kindness."

"My kindness?" Emma repeated with a bit of bitterness. She couldn't REMEMBER even sleeping with him, so he must of not left much of an impression nor was that great..she didn't need no 'gift'.

Soon enough his hand wasn't around her wrist but now in her hand, as he slid something in.

Emma yanked her hand back and stormed out. When she got outside she stopped to breath in the air. It wasn't nice out, actually it was raining... but it was something.

She then looked down and opened her hand slowly. A cocain bottle... with ofcourse, cocain in it. Emma gasped a bit and looked around wildly as she shoved it in her purse and walked off.

So she did do it? Oh god. She ran home as fast as she could, and she felt dirty, so dirty it almost burned.

And where was Jay? Why didn't Jay help her or stop her from this? Probably too busy with his sluts. Emma wasn't like this, this wasn't her lifestyle and she was a good girl.