SHADY PART: III
BY BLOODRAVEN13
Truly, I must apologize, first and foremost. I do understand it has been roughly, give or take, 2 years. I can't really give a good explaination on this, but I will apologize for it. I do have intentions on continuing this because I've really really been wanting too, and I know that I do have fans out there that do want to see this thing through. So if I'm not doing this for you, I'm doing it for them.
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TEEN TITANS. I ONLY OWN THIS PLOT.
She laid there, with her legs in the water, and her back on the ground, gasping for breath. He had given her an orgasm. And it felt wonderful.
Raven wandered out of the room without Robin and up to her room, she had to meditate.
Raven ended up in all actuallity in the shower washing away the filth she created. She was impure, Robin made her impure. She didn't even hear the door close as she washed herself. She didn't even hear the curtain fall back. She did feel the hands wrap around her waist. And she felt the hot breath around her neck, and then the words, "I love you Raven."
She turned around and quickly shoved the masked wonder into the tiles on the wall and proceeded to move her fingers and wrap them around his throat. "I never, ever, EVER, want to see or hear your voice again!" and she shoved him to the ground. He reached up to grab her, but only succeeded in grabbing air. "Raven, it's not what you think." It's not what I think? Raven thought to herself. "ITS NOT WHAT I THINK?!" She screamed at Robin as she turned around. She could feel the black aura encircling her, and she could feel the fear on him as she stepped towards him. "Do you want to know what I think exactly?" Robin gulped his breath and nodded his head; now what not the time to tell her what she thought.
"I think, wonderboy, that you did this shit intentionally. I think you intentionally wanted to get me all hot and bothered with you. I think you wanted to take what was precious of mine, and litterally, quite litterally, throw it back in my face like it wasn't any good to you." Raven stopped to take a breath, and this is when Robin came into play, "Now Rae, I didn't do it like that. I wasn't trying to hurt you," "BULLSHIT! Like I said, you were in it for you. You wanted to take my virginity and shove it back in my face like, Oh no, I can't 'cause I love Star and you love B." Now Robin was getting frustrated. He just wanted to say his piece so she would understand what happened. "No, Raven, it wasn't like that. It was just I had second doubts." "Oh, so suddenly I'm no fucking good right? What is it? Hmmm? What? Am I tainted meat?" "No! It's nothing like that! It just seemed to feel bad." Raven took a breath and eyed him evilly. "So it is that? I'm fucking tainted, used, or whatever, and it's all fucked up for you. Well so fucking bad!" Robin stood up defensively, "Now I have said three God Damn times already that it is not," "Yeah, I'm no fucking good to you! It was touched once, take it back! Right?" Now Robin was getting real pissed. "You know what, you know what?! Yeah, it is that! I asked for grade A steak and what did I get, ground fuckin beef! Hell yeah you're tainted!"
Raven's aura disappeared, and she fell to the ground infront of him. "What?" She said as she chocked back tears. "No! No! Rae, Raven! I didn't mean it, I..." She just pointed to the door. "Please, you've already said how you feel. Just go." And with this she did start to cry. Even though she knew he didn't mean it, she felt like he did. He started to speak, but was just so upset with what happened he just picked up his clothes and left. If she wanted to be alone, she could be.
She fumbled with her clothes as she waited for Beastboy to return. Robin hadn't called her to help with the city, and she probably wouldn't have bothered to help if he had asked. She didn't know what to do.
Raven got up and fell onto her bed, exasperated. "God, what have I done?"
True, she did have feelings for both Robin and Beastboy when all this started a few months ago, and yeah, she did like Beastboy, it's just her and Robin had so much in common and so much already used time together that it only felt right when she would talk to him over the most intimate details of herself. It seemed like it started so long ago when Robin was asking her about Beastboy and how she felt about him after they decided to start officially dating. He started by asking her what she liked and what he liked and how much she liked him, so its only natural that they moved onto the more intimate details. He was trying to be tactful when he asked her, but he just sorta asked. "Do you shave?" and when he got the response "Shave what?" he knew he had her.
It had continued for weeks and weeks and had built up. This relentless secret chatting over her and how she liked people and how she liked things escalated and escalated until on night one week ago Robin hit her up on her cell phone with a text message.
"Do u luv BB"-Robin
She knew then that no she didn't. He was great as a friend, but slowly, and because of Robin, she didn't want him.
"No. U luv Star"-Raven
"No. But we got sumthin."-Robin
Raven's heart sank a little. "give me n bb sum time n we'll b good"-Raven
She lied through her teeth. She, at this point in time, didn't want to love him at all, and honestly had no intentions of ever loving him more than she did now.
"Y u ask"-Raven
"Do u thnk we got sumthin"-Robin
Ravens heart weirdly skipped a beat at this question "I would thnk so after we've been thru so much"-Raven
"Do u luv me" -Robin
"Yes"-Raven
"Would u want 2 make luv 2 me"-Robin
Raven stopped. She wasn't sure exactly what to say. If she says no, her heart sinks, and yes, she's left unsure. "I thnk so. Do u luv me"-Raven
"Yes. After so long, of course i do. do u want to?" - Robin
"Do what?"-Raven
"Make luv"-Robin
"yes"-Raven
"meet me in my room, wed 7:30am"-Robin
And honestly, thats how it went down. Simple text messages escalating to the point of no return.
Raven laid there, recounting the steps to this level of defeat and agony, and just mulled over it. How would she explain herself? How could she ever face Beastboy again or even Robin? How could she do anything? Eventually all these thoughts bubbled inside Raven until all she could do was cry, and eventually this led her to a deep sleep that exploded nightmares in her head and a sorrow in her sould that she could not lift.
She slept for hours, long after Beastboy came in to wake her, and long after the Titans dispersed to their own neck of the Tower, and long after the man that truly loved her slept outside her door, waiting for an answer.
Dun dun dun... yeah, sorry for the theatrics but i need to end here, only just so its an appropriate place. Let me know what u think. I am going to finish this with or without reviews, but reviews are still nice. See ya'll in a couple days when I update.
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