Octavia sat on the porch of Bellamy and Clarke's house looking out into the darkness beyond. She'd gotten a little bit of sleep, but at the moment she was wide-awake. She both loved and hated the nights for the same reason. It was quiet a great time to think, but at the same time a terrible time to think; It was during these hours that she thought most about Lincoln and how the child she was carrying should be his. Or how she should have listened to Bellamy when he told her to be careful when having 'fun', not that he would ever hear that from her.
She heard his question over an over in her head about if the thing with Harlo was love or her just trying to deal with it? She felt pretty certain it wasn't love, because if she loved him like Bellamy and Clarke loved each other, she'd be as big a mess as Bellamy had been when Clarke took off for Mount Weather. But could she love him, or maybe they just needed to figure out how to make the world right for the child they'd created together; A world that included both of them, even if they weren't together.
Octavia sensed rather than saw someone moving around the camp. "Who's there?" she asked. "I have a gun" she warned. "It's just me" Kane stepped into the moonlight. Octavia let out the breath she'd been holding 'you shouldn't be walking around here at night" she told him "heaven knows what is out in the forest." Kane chuckled "You're probably right" he replied "but I tend to be a little less cautious than I ought to be." Octavia knew a few people like that, Bellamy and Clarke among them. "May I?" he nodded at the empty seat on the step beside her. She shrugged. Taking that for a yes, Kane sat down beside her. "Bellamy mentioned that you were pregnant "Kane broke the silence. "he's not very happy about it" she sighed "and I guess I don't blame him, but whats done is done" she shrugged.
"So the father is not around anymore?" Kane guessed. "Not at the moment" she answered "Bellamy and Roan had a little talk with him a few days ago, so we'll see if he come around or stays gone." Kane half-grinned, he could imagine what kind of 'talk' Bellamy had with the guy that had knocked his sister up and then left her. "Did they leave him in one piece?" he asked. She chuckled "Bell said he didn't have any marks on him, so I'm guessing so, but I haven't heard or seen from him since he snuck out in the middle of the night like a common coward" she replied.
Kane turned his head to look at her, "he left, without a word, in the middle of the night? And your brother didn't take him out?" Kane asked. Octavia grinned "I told Bell if he killed the father of his niece or nephew he'd have to be the one to tell them why they don't have a father" she chuckled. "Between that and the fact the Clarke had Roan go with Bellamy, Harlo lived, though I imagine he was very afraid." Kane imagined he was very afraid too. He'd seen what Bellamy Blake would do to protect the women he loves many times. Kane was just impressed that the guy wasn't maimed or worse.
Octavia turned and looked at Kane, she wasn't sure why she was even telling him these things. She had always felt more like a grounder than a member of skaikru. Of course, as Bellamy had pointed out on more than one occasion, they were all grounders now. "Why are you up and walking around at the crack of dawn?" she asked. Kane shrugged "The babies are awake" he answered "And I just wanted to get some air" he replied. "Bellamy and I sit out here a lot a night" she said "there is just something about the quietness of the night." Kane had to agree with her. Kane watched her face as she spoke. She may have been born on the ark, but she wore the marks of an earthborn. Octavia had really come alive on the earth. She wasn't the girl who lived under the floor anymore. She had come into being as her own person, though she lost a part of who she was when Pike killed Lincoln, her earthborn lover.
"How is Bellamy handling your pregnancy?" he asked. Octavia snorted "he pretends like he is okay with it, but I know he would rather I was more careful. He thinks I'm too young and that I, like he did, should have found my true love, then had babies" she said. "He's actually very old fashioned some times, not to mention madly in love with Clarke. And he wants me to have that." Kane could see that "and do want that?" he asked. She shrugged "I suppose. I mean in my heart I know that Harlo is not THE one, and may never be, but this baby changes everything. I just don't know if I want to settle for whats in front of me, or find the kind of love Clarke and Bellamy have and learn to co-parent with Harlo." Kane thought about her statement "You shouldn't settle for less than you deserve" he told her. Octavia smiled at him "I was thinking the same thing" she said "But Bell will not be happy if Harlo doesn't step up" she snorted. Kane could see that, but he also knew Bellamy would never forsake his sister. Neither it appeared would Raven, Roan or Clarke.
The five of them had formed quite the family, ten counting all the babies that had or would be born. They'd worked hard to establish a settlement comprised largely of what remained of the 100 and the earthborn people that had been accepted into their ranks. "So you have a cabin down there?" he asked. She nodded. "Will you go back to it?" he asked. "Eventually" she sighed "Right now I'm going to stay here with Bellamy and Clarke. He's adding on to the house just in case Roan is right and Clarke is going to have twins. I think he is secretly hoping she does" she shook her head, laughing. "Does he want a big family?" Kane asked. Octavia shook her head "I think he and Roan are having a competition to see who can have the most kids. I can't wait to see if Raven or Clarke put their foot down first?" she chortled.
They lapsed into a comfortable silence "It really is quiet here, isn't it?" he remarked. Octavia nodded "We like it" she said. "Abby would like it here" Kane sighed. Octavia grunted. "You don't think so?" he asked. "Yeah, I'm sure she would" Octavia sighed "but Clarke would hate it, so would Bellamy." Kane cocked his head "It's not that they don't like you guys, but it would be like moving back in with your parents after you've been on your own for a while." Kane supposed she had a point. "Besides, aren't you two needed at Mount Weather?" she asked. Kane held up his hands "I get the point, we are persona non grata as residents, but maybe we can come visit once in a while?" he asked. Octavia nodded "That would probably be okay" she grinned.
"Abby does have a lot of grandchildren right and more on the way…" she shrugged.
Octavia yawned "I'm going to get some sleep now, can you get back to Raven's okay?" she asked. He nodded. "Thanks for talking to me" Kane stood up. Octavia nodded "Anytime" she said "see you in the morning." With that she turned and entered the house. Kane stood at the bottom of the stairs, looking up at the doorway she disappeared into. "There you are" Abby spoke from behind him. "I just went for a walk" he said wrapping an arm around her waist "So moving here would be a bad idea" he laughed. Abby grinned "I could've told you that" she replied "I love Clarke, and I know she loves me, but the two of us get along much better when we are separated by a few hours." Kane took her hand in his, the diamond ring shone in the moonlight. "Are you going to tell them?" he asked looking up at the house. "I will, as soon as you tell them" she countered.