Chapter 3

It was only three months after Lily was forced to keep Emma a secret. Now married to James Potter, she still had trouble keeping Emma out of her mind. She tossed and turned every night in her bed as she still could hear the cries of her daughter as she kept on having flashbacks of the orphanage she sent her off to.

"Lily, are you alright?" James said as he turned to Lily who was lying in her bed tiredly.

"No. I can't stop thinking about her," Lily replied as tears welled her eyes again.

"I'm really sorry about her Lily. I'm sorry about everything that happened with your perfect life," James replied.

"I do love you James, but not as much as the man I truly loved from my old reality," Lily replied.

"I know. We have so much planned for our future too," James said as he rubbed Lily's stomach. Here she was, pregnant once again only this time with James's child. She didn't know why she had to have another child, but it really did cover her true identity and relationship with Severus.

"I'm hoping the same thing doesn't happen with this one," Lily said as worry filled her mind.

"Me too," James replied stroking her hair.

"It just doesn't feel right. If our future baby is born is this one's able to be kept, then it wouldn't be fair for my daughter," Lily said as she frowned upon James' gaze.

"I know you feel sorry about this Lily, but you did what's best for her," James replied.

"But what will she think of me when we finally meet?" Lily said anxiously.

"What are you afraid of Lily?" James questioned as Lily breathed anxiously.

"I had a nightmare. I believe it was just me and my daughter," Lily said as she started to describe the nightmare. She was careful not to say her name as she described the vision.

Lily was walking around on a beautiful day in a bright and sunny forest full of spring flowers. It felt warm and beautiful as she gazed at the distance ahead of her. A young girl appeared with pale skin, silky black hair, emerald eyes, and she seemed to be fourteen years old. She approached right before Lily with a straight expression.

"Oh sweetheart. You look so much like your father. You're so beautiful," Lily smiled as a vision of her future daughter stood right before. Selena only frowned back and point her wand at Lily aiming a curse as she fell to the ground in pain.

"Selena?! Why…..are….you doing…...this?!" Lily bellowed as pain surged through her body.

"Because I can," Selena replied coldly.

"I'm…..your…..mother!" Lily cried.

"You and father abandoned me! You're going to keep your next baby aren't you?!" Selena hissed shooting the curse once more.

"I…..didn't…..mean too!" Lily cried with tears streaming down on her face.

"I'll show you the pain I'm going to go through! I show you what it's like to be abandoned!" Selena hissed as a curved appeared on her mouth. "I'm going to have my vengeance Potter!"

A flash of green light burst in her mind.

"What if she'll hate me James?" Lily asked as James stared at Lily speechless. What will become of her daughter? Lily just witnessed her as a monster revealing her daughter's deepest, darkest feelings.

"That was only a nightmare Lily. She could be different. She'll probably be more relieved to see you then angered. She could be waiting to find you someday depending on the home she's raised in," James replied.

"I don't want to see her as a monster James. What if she'll become evil, or selfish, or…." James put his finger on Lily's lips as she calmed down.

"She won't. I'm supposed to be her godfather. When I find her, she'll be loved," James replied. Lily only looked away in disbelief. James is never going to find her thanks to Dumbledore obliviating the name of the place.

"No. That place. I just can't remember where it was or what it was called. It was dark that night and I couldn't tell where I was. I could try apparating, but I doubt it would work," Lily said.

"It doesn't mean I can still search. She's my goddaughter. I'm proud to be her godfather," James replied.

"You sound like a father James. Severus and I were ready for this until that night came to us," Lily shuddered.

"Yes. I'm truly sorry about that. I just have this weird feeling about my relationship with him once I find your daughter. I know I'll have to keep it a secret that you're her birth mother and Severus is her birth father. You know the relationship we used to have. I just have a feeling he'll be jealous about this if my goddaughter and I grow a relationship," James remarked as Lily nodded.

"I know you two didn't get along as children. We asked you to raise our daughter for her protection. It's the only way you're going to repay Severus. You did after all, save his life. It's a father's love James. He'd rather die or give her up instead of her dying," Lily replied.

"Yes. It's just that, you and I will be new to this parenting stuff," James replied as the topic immediately changed.

"I know. Our baby. I wish I knew how to be a mother after giving my daughter up," Lily quivered.

"I know. You were ready for her Lily. You'll be ready for ours," James assured as Lily nodded feeling a little better about raising her second child.

"You gave your daughter away for protection. It was a very motherly thing to do," James replied.

"And you know what I like about you James? You always try to find a brighter way through darkest times," Lily smiled.

"I still have hope that we'll find her someday."