Thanx for your indepth reviews Starsinger22 and to answer your question I currently have 41 chapters written and it should end at 43. And welcome Larydreamer and thanks for giving it a chance! Ths song is Hold On by the Goo Goo Dolls.

Chapter 15

After Midnight

Jude wandered around the room trailing her fingers along the counter as Tommy played fragmented tunes on the piano. The hotel bar had closed an hour ago and Tommy had sweet talked his way in, saying he needed to use the piano. She sat down beside him and watched as his fingers danced across the keys.

"So are you gonna play a whole song or don't you know any?" He grinned at her and his fingers caressed the ivories playing a melody she had never heard. She closed her eyes and listened, hearing something special coming from his hands. She opened her eyes and stared at him as the notes faded away.

"Do you have lyrics?" He started again and added his voice to the melody.

I wandered through fiction to look for the truth

Buried beneath all the lies

And I stood at a distance to feel who you are

Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late

We'll run 'til we leave this behind

Don't fall, just be who you are

It's all that we need in our lives

And that risk that might break you

Is the one that would save you

A life you don't live is still lost

So stand on the edge with me

Hold back your fear and see

Nothing is real 'til it's gone

And hold on before it's too late

We'll run 'til we leave this behind

Don't fall, just be who you are

It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it

Love 'til you feel it

It's all that we need in our lives

So stand on the edge with me

Hold back your fear and see

Nothing is real 'til it's gone

Hold on before it's too late

We'll run 'til we leave this behind

Don't fall, just be who you are

It's all that we need in our lives

She leaned in and kissed him lingeringly. Jude was impressed that he had done this on his own.

"Nice..." She said.

"What the kiss or the song?" He asked in amusement.

"Both." He tickled her, making her laugh.

"It's really good Tommy. But what are you going to do with it? It deserves to be heard."

"Jude you know I can't." She touched his forehead with her own.

"Not yet, but you will." Jude said with no doubt in her voice.

Paris Calls

Jude and Tommy were snuggled up on the couch in his hotel room, after their concert, watching a movie. He reached out and plucked a strawberry from the tray and popped it into her mouth. She nipped at his fingers playfully as she bit into the ripe fruit. He realized with a start that this was the first time he had ever just hung out and watched a movie with a girl. He was never bored around her, because something about her changed his environment in ways he still did not understand. It reminded him of that conversation they had had about the sunset. She took a glass of champagne from the side table and sipped at it, the bubbles going to her nose. Tommy watched her as she laughed so engrossed in the movie, she didn't notice him staring at her. As he was about to kiss her the phone rang. He unwrapped himself from her and stood up to answer it.

"Oh...Hey baby. Yeah I miss you too." Jude stiffened for an instant before she got up, turned the television off and walked out onto the balcony. He wanted to go after her, but Portia was still speaking. This was the first time Jude had been in his room when the Portia had called. Half the time he was in her room or they were out doing something, so he hadn't actually spoken to his wife in 3 weeks. "No I didn't get any messages. You know how it is. We're gone before they even get a chance to see us."

"Yeah I've been busy." He listened halfheartedly.

"How's Paris?" He saw Jude leaning against the railing looking out at the city lights. "Good. Look I need to go. I'm meeting the guys for drinks." He didn't want Jude to start doubting them again. "Yeah I know it's late..." He said a little annoyed. "Alright I'll talk to you soon."

He walked over to her and stood beside her at the railing. The panoramic view stretched out before them, but neither of them really noticed.

"What are you thinking about big eyes?" She looked up at him and shrugged.

"Why did you marry Portia?" Her voice only held curiosity and not the sadness he feared.

"Does it matter?" Of course it mattered. He knew that. It was just that he didn't want to discuss something that could effect their relationship. He started to mumble out a slightly convoluted story about Darius and taco commercials.

"What?! Did you just say you slept with Portia because Darius made you do a taco commercial?" He ducked his head in embarrassment.

"No I slept with Portia because I liked her and she was there and willing. It was an added bonus that D. didn't want me seeing her." She waited for him to elaborate. " I married her because I was piss drunk and really pissed at Darius for making me do a taco commercial." She gave him a disbelieving look. He had to be joking! Right? That was not the Tommy she thought she knew. She felt herself feeling bad for the other woman when she would rather not be thinking about her at all. " It's not like I planned it Jude. You have to believe that much." He didn't want her to turn away in disgust at his actions because her opinion mattered too much. "I was angry and Portia got drunk with me one night. We were in Vegas and I don't even really remember what happened." Jude's eyes grew incredulous. Tommy sighed and looked over at Jude.

"You don't remember getting married..." Jude uttered in shock. He shook his head.

"Little pieces here and there, but I didn't even know about it until we saw the marriage certificate the next morning."

"Then why stay married to her?" This was the question he had been dreading and she had wanted to ask since he had admitted he had never loved Portia.

"Jude you know Darius. If I hurt his baby sister, he'll ruin my career and yours too, if he finds out about us." He pulled her into his arms then and she went willingly, knowing it was where she had to be.

Same Old Song and Dance

Just another fight, countless in the scheme of Boyz Attack history. Tommy shook his head angrily, knowing Chaz would never listen, would never change. Their music could be so much better, but over synthesized beats and mediocre lyrics were all they wanted to offer. Jude watched him pace the room angrily and she stayed silent. She couldn't force him to see that he would never grow as an artist if he stayed with the band. He had to figure it out on his own.

"Tommy..." He looked up as if surprised she was there. He walked over to her and she pulled him down onto the bed. Her lips met his hard unyielding ones, but she knew exactly how to press down to make his respond.

His hands tangled in her long hair and his anger was directed towards more pleasurable pursuits. He took off their clothes quickly, his hands urgent on her tender flesh. She moaned into his mouth, as he pulled away to put on a condom. His hands grasped her hips, as he sat legs outstretched on the bed, and he lifted her onto his arousal, her legs spread out on either side of him. As he lowered her down, the press of him against her swollen flesh made her gasp as he thrust up quickly, pushing her down. She held onto his shoulders as he moved against her, her breasts pressed against his hard chest, nipples rubbing against his skin. Their eyes locked as their connected bodies rubbed and ground against each other. Their mouths met in a hungry kiss, as sensations intensified, with his every upward thrust. She pushed her hips forward, rubbing her clit against him, the friction bringing her closer to the edge. He grasped her ass with both hands and lifted her, then pushed her down harder against him. She cried out and bit down on his shoulder, as she felt her muscles start to tighten.

"Look at me." Her wild eyes met his, as he pushed his lower body against hers, sliding against her sensitive flesh, making her lose her breath. She was so close to the edge and then she was free falling. He slipped out of her and pushed her onto her back, entering her wet heat again in one swift motion. He took her mouth as his lower body mimicked his thrusting tongue. She was all sensation as he pounded into her and he finally surrendered to release on a moan against her neck. He rolled off of her and his hand found her wet heat, knowing she had been close to going over again. He circled with his thumb as his fingers entered her, causing her hips to jerk off the bed. His fingers thrust against her G-spot, while his thumb worked her clit and her hands grasped the sheets, as she felt the pleasure building. It hit her all at once as her inner muscles convulsed around his fingers hard, and his thumb became to much against her most sensitive spot. She twisted away from his hand and collapsed onto his chest.

"Do you feel better now?" She grinned up at him. He gave a short laugh.

Later on as their bodies cooled they started talking about Tommy's problem.

"You heard that song Jude. Boyz Attack could be so much better then just another boy band."

"You've been with them for years Tommy, maybe you're just growing in different directions."

"That's the problem Chaz doesn't want to grow. He just wants things to stay the same. I don't want to be still be shaking my ass at 20." Jude giggled earning a frown from him.

"Not even for me?" She asked sweetly. He just shook his head unable to stay angry in her arms. She put her chin on his chest and looked up at him.

"Have you thought any more about going solo?"

"I did...But Darius still has me under contract for another year."

"So why can't you work on a solo album?"

"Because Boyz Attack is a platinum guarantee. He probably wouldn't give anything I worked on a chance."

"So work on something he'll bury."

"What?!" He said lifting his head to look at her.

"Work on your own stuff on your own time."

"And give Darius a crap album he'd never release. It's a nice idea anyway. But I don't know..."

"I'd help you any way I could. I got your back." He looked into her eyes and for the first time in his life really believed someone did.