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Chapter 5 Reagan's POV

The way she avoided the question didn't go unnoticed by me. Today was great, and then I had to make it all awkward again. I was really hoping for an answer, so that I could give an answer. I mean, maybe I don't know either though. I am happy with my career, my family life could be better, but not complaining, having someone to love is a dream that I can't wait to make come true. But happiness isn't defined by what we don't have right? Well anyway, no noise, but the radio seeing how the little munchkin is knocked. Suddenly one of my favorite songs come on, a song that I couldn't listen to for awhile after the break up. It was our song, and I notice her face brighten a little bit. I reach over and turn up the radio. We look at each other before smiling and bursting out in song. The fun we used to have is now painting sweet memories for me and I'm sure for Amy as well. This is what I was missing, having fun, being loved, loving someone, and having a family. At the zoo one or maybe three people complimented me on my beautiful family, and I couldn't help but blush and say thank you. How I wish this was my family, a future with Amy is all I've dreamed up since we met. But life has a way of throwing so much crap at you that it just makes you have to step back and ask if it's worth it. Amy will always and forever be worth it. We weren't ready then, but maybe we're ready now.

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When we finally reach Shrimps house again, we sit quietly for awhile just being. Minds racing, hearts beating out of control, and just thinking. Soon we gather our things, and the sleeping toddler in the back seat.

"Do you have to leave?" she asks once she places Katie in her crib to finish her nap.

"Not really. What did you have in mind?" She takes a deep breath.

"I know I've been making things awkward, so I want a do-over. Why don't we pop in a movie, eat popcorn, there's wine and beer, and just talk. I really did miss you Rea, and I think we are long overdue for a real conversation," she says bitting her lower lip in the most sexy way. It has been awkward, but not so much on Amy's part as my own. I think my re-occuring feelings are keeping me from being myself. Myself that is confident, cool, collected, and brutally honest about every damn thing.

"Okay, sure." Her beautiful face breaks out into the biggest grin I've ever seen on her and she races off to get everything set up. I sit down on the sofa, ah the memories, and wait for Amy's return.

"So pick whatever you want, you know where everything is so have at it," she says plopping down right next to me. I pick a movie at random, something I know we've both seen before, which gives us room to actually talk.

"So you didn't answer my question," I start off the conversation.

"And what question is that?" she quirks an eyebrow.

"Are you happy Ames?"

I can tell she is pondering the thought as she bites her bottom lip and avoid eye contact.

"I'm not miserable," she starts off. "I have a great job that I'm starting soon. My family is great and closer than ever, my friendship with Karma is back on the right track, I'm tolerating Liam, Shane and Lauren are the best friends I never knew I needed. That beautiful little girl in there means the world to me. I haven't found love, though I may have a long time ago and blew it," she whispers the last part. "I mean I'm happy to an extent, but I can't really complain about my life." I nod my head in understanding because I do understand. Everything is totally fine and wonderful except for the love lives.

"What about you? Are you happy?"

"I'm getting there. Great career, great home, just looking for someone to share it all with," I smile at her.

"I see. Whatever happened to the girlfriend you had that I met? She seemed nice, whatever happened to her?" Ah I remember that girlfriend very well. She was right after Amy, not a rebound, but nothing as serious as I originally thought. We just grew apart, but remained good friends. She is actually dating one of my old roommates, and they are very happy.

"That, uhm, didn't work out so well. We just realized that we were better off as friends, and now that's what we are," I inform the love of my life.

"Sorry to hear that. Were there others after her?" Look who's finally talking to me.

"A few, but nothing serious really. The longest was about a year, and that was before I caught her in our bed with some girl that was making eyes at her when we went out one night. Apparently it started on that night and lasted for a good month or so. Kicked her out and that was kind of the end for me with relationships. I started really focusing on my career and it's been the best distraction to not get my heart broke again," I explain.

"Oh yeah, I know the feeling all to well," she smiles sadly at me. "I thought everything was great, and it was until it wasn't. Lauren was visiting and we went out, when we came back we found her and some girl I didn't know. She wasn't even sorry, she's been doing it for awhile with several people, 'just having fun,' so I kicked them both out. We didn't live together thank god, but she had a key seeing how she still lived in the dorms, but stayed with me on the weekends. You should have seen Laur go after her, I mean it was crazy and hilarious that someone so small can pack a mean punch," she chuckles. "Before her it was this guy named Felix," I suck in a breath at that. "He was sweet and awesome, but he left so we remained friends. And we're better off as friends too. He's actually engaged to a great girl, she's awesome," she says with a smile that I can't help but return. "Yeah, but after her, I just stopped and focused on school and my internship, and I don't regret it for a second. But sooner or later, you get tired of being the fifth wheel, hell even Shane is in a committed on again off again relationship." We both laugh at that. I still wrap my head around an monogamous Shane. We talk ideally about school and our careers, me leaving out that I'm based in New York. I don't want to get either of our hopes up for being in the same city when we don't know what this summer will bring. But I am really hoping it brings us back to each other.

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Amy's POV

Reagan and I have been spending almost every day together. On the days we aren't together, we are in constant communication. It is safe to say I'm falling more and more in love with her and I don't know how to handle it. I never wanted my feelings to get in the way of our new friendship and they haven't so far. However, it's getting harder and harder to suppress the urge to kiss her, caress her, make love to her. We've had a few close encounters where we always kiss, but we manage to snap out of it, out of fear of either rejection or messing up what they have. We've gone out together alone, with Shane and Duke, with Lauren and Theo, and with Kaitlynn. We've had one dinner with Karma and Liam, and vowed to never ever again. As much as I love Karma, her and Liam, either too cutsy or arguing, are not the greatest dinner guest. We hang out with them separately or together, more Karma then Liam, but never together. This summer as been one of the absolute greatest. Today we are bike riding to the park, and having a picnic. I know what you're thinking, but friends do stuff like this so eyeroll at you. Anyway, we go up the trail and I cannot be more grateful at the fact that I'm more fit thanks to regular, not obsessive, exercise and eating more than just donuts, though they are still an important food group. Finally we make it to the perfect location and spread the blanket, unpacking the basket, and digging in.

"You know this summer has been really fun, all thanks to you so thanks Rea," I say when I swallow the contents in my mouth.

"Yeah it has, so thank you as well Ames." We laugh at out silliness.

"So summer's almost over, what are your plans after besides back to work?" I ask taking a sip of water.

"Well mainly work, I have a few business trips in the making so basically in and out."

"That's great. Maybe when you find the time, you can visit me in New York. I know it's not as nice as other big cities, but it's home. And we could have a great time," I say now listing all the amazing things there is to do.

"We'll see, hopefully I can find the time," she says biting her bottom lip. Now usually I find it sexy, but she looks a little nervous.

"Reagan? Are you okay? You seem a little distracted." She takes a deep breath and look me in the eyes.

"Amy, what are we?"

"What do you mean? We're fri-"

"No what are we Amy? Friends don't plan stuff like this, hanging around 24/7 and have an amazing time. Friends don't look at each other the way I look at you, or feel the way I feel about you. So again, Ames, what are we?"

"I-i-i I don't know w-what you mean. W-we are friends, great friends, and I don't want to lose you," I say avoided eye contact.

"Amy look at me," she says in a whisper. I slowly bring my eyes up to look into her's. "Amy." Is all she says before her lips crashes on my own. I freeze into pure shock and as she begins to pull away I kiss back putting more passion, more love, and more fire then in any other kiss I've had in my life. After a few moments air became necessary. Damn oxygen. We pull apart and just stare into each others eyes. I can see the honestly, the lust, and most importantly the love and I am beyond scared. I'm sure she can see all the same things including fear. I can't do this, I won't do this. Loving her is my greatest joy and greatest pain and I just... "Can't. I can't Reagan, I am so sorry," I say getting up, tears coming down my face. I grab my bike and race back down the trail. I peddle as fast as I could until I reached my house which wasn't too far. I race up to my room, throw myself on my bed, and cry my heart out. As much as I love Reagan, loving me doesn't do anyone any good.