I know I'm super late with uploading, but life has been kicking my butt. I am still mapping out the story, but I like where it is going. I seriously love you guys, and I know it's short, but expect more soon. Enjoy xoxoxo

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Chapter 6 Reagan's POV

I didn't know what emotion I should feel at the moment I watched Amy ride away, but I was feeling each and every emotion possible. I was feeling sad, confused, angry, heartbroken, and so many other emotions that left me frozen in place. When I finally snapped back into reality, I gathered everything from the picnic and rode straight to Amy's house for an explanation. I know I was reading all the signs right and I know I'm not crazy thinking that we could be us again. When we broke up, I was sadder then I ever remember being. Then I met someone, and we were happy for the most part, but the connection just wasn't as strong as I originally thought. So we went our separate ways, and we're friends. There were a few girls after her, but nothing pass a third date, and then one lated two months. Finding Amy again has been the best thing to ever happen to me and I can't lose that without understanding why. I finally make it to the house and seeing no one else was here, which I expected, I walked right in and jogged up to Amy's room. I took a deep breath before just walking in, forgoing knocking, and I find Amy sitting on her bed with her back against the headboard, knees to her chest with her head buried in her lap, and I can hear her crying. My heart instantly breaks for like the third time in under a hour because I never wanted to be the reason she cries. I close the door as quietly as I could before approaching the bed and sitting right beside her. I knew she knew it was me, and all should could do it seemed was place her head on my shoulder and curl into my side, still crying.

"Baby, talk to me please," I whispered against her hair.

"I'm scared," she gave the softest reply that I barely heard, but was able to detect.

"Of me? Of us? What are you afraid of Shrimps?" She sits up and turns to me, legs crossed, holding my hands in hers.

"I'm not good enough," she whispers. "I've spent so many years trying to find love, to find myself and I've come up empty, every time. I ruined every relationship I've ever had by just being apart of it. I ruined the best thing that ever happened to me because I wasn't ready and I couldn't give you what-"

"Wait, hold up. Me? What are you talking about Amy? You didn't ruin our relationship," I exclaim completely shocked at what I was hearing.

"But I did. That's why we broke up and you found someone new. I couldn't give you what you wanted then and I really don't know if I can now," she says fresh tears streaming down. I let go of her hand and pulled her closer to hug her to my body. She continued crying, holding on tight while I did the same. When she was finally reduced to sobs, I leaned back and look her in the eyes.

"I was scared, back then I was so scared. I felt insecure because I felt like you were choosing Karma, I felt that you would always choose Karma. And then when I heard that you were into guys too, I just freaked out. I had more competition then I ever wanted when it came to you. I didn't want to be humiliated like I did with my ex because I didn't think I could take that kind of pain again, especially from someone I cared about 100 times more than I ever cared about her. I loved her and she hurt me and I didn't know what to do with myself. Then, I met you and I don't know how but you became the most important person in my life and I didn't want to loose you. When I met Karma, I just couldn't help but think I would never fully have you. I ran the first chance I got because I just couldn't handle it at the time. When you showed up at my door step, my heart immediately started pounding. You looked so beautiful, but she was there and I felt so guilty. But when I heard you say you wanted to get back together, you don't know how badly I wanted to say yes. However, I knew you were running from Karma again. She continued to have this hold on you and you needed to get her out of your system before you could be with anyone else. You were running to all these people, including me to get her out of your head, out of you heart. I am honored that I was able to help you forget and love, but I couldn't be your rebound because I loved you too much to put either of us through that," I explained while she remained quiet thinking about what I was saying. "Amy, you have to know that I never stopped loving you. We were kids then, still trying to find our way in the world. I honestly think now we could be ready to move forward to the rest of our lives. We owe it to ourselves to give us another shot because you were never far from my thoughts over the years. I love you Amy and I want to be with you more than anything," I'm borderline begging at this point. I can't walk away from her without giving it all I had. She just stares at me for a few agonizing heart beats before moving a little closer. She cups my face in her soft manicured hands, caressing my face lovingly. My eyes close at the touch, raveling in the caress. I reopen them to find her smile at me, a few stray tears kissing her red puffy cheeks. She never looked more beautiful to me. Suddenly, she is kissing me with everything she has, showing me what she couldn't bare to say before now. I kiss back just as fiercely and when we finally pulled away, I felt like I could breathe again.

"I love you too Reagan."